Book 1: Chapter 112.5: Drunken Gibberish

Book 1: Chapter 112.5: Drunken Gibberish

I drank a lot that night. When I first started drinking, I wanted to make my life better. But by the time I drank the fourth bottle of beer, my emotions came out.

Before, I was concerned about most people. But when I was drinking with Bai Haotian, I was suddenly only concerned about myself. Everything I did in the past became clear and simple. I understood what I wanted for the first time. Before I lost consciousnesswhen it was only me and the alcohol leftI especially understood what I wanted.

I drank heartily that night. When I was alone with my thoughts during the past ten or twenty years, I always felt panicked and weak. But at this moment, I finally understood something.

This was the first time I didn't want to sober up. I really didn't want to. In my illusions, my emotions didnt need to be suppressed and rational. Everything about me was fixed at that first moment. I hoped to be strong and mature enough at that time.

I fell into a deep sleep and realized at the last moment that dreaming was meaningless. I looked at Uncle Threes code and knew what I would think of tomorrow. That was what I had to do.

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They're acting like we might lose power with all this snow and ice so if I go MIA for a few days, I'm not dead in a ditch or anything, just don't have power lol. I think it'll be fine, but who knows. I also went ahead and put "Ten Years Later" into a pdf yesterday since I felt like it didn't really need any work (unlike the previous volumes I'm still slowly working on lol). Link is here. Ya'll stay safe out there~~This chapter is updated by nov(e)(l)biin.com