Phew, the king was done.
I wanted to smoke a cigarette to savor this sad taste before remembering that I had given up smoking for a long time.
I rubbed my hands, sorted out my thoughts, and slowly started typing.
Yes, the King was the longest book I had ever written. If I had followed the mysterious fantasy upgrade routine, the number of words would have doubled. Six million words wouldn’t be a problem. I could just break through a world and get another one.., after destroying the demonic insects and Aragami, I could come back with other high-level species. In the vast universe, it would be a piece of cake to just randomly pick a few interstellar races.
But that was not the king.
From the first chapter of the book, it had already thought of the Big Ending. The female protagonist was hugging the protagonist who had gone through hardships to become a god. She used a sharp sword to pierce through their bodies and hugged each other to sleep. However, the one who died was only the female protagonist, the male protagonist still existed.
Yes, the sad ending was doomed from the beginning.
At the beginning of every book, I had habitually sketched out the scene of the Big Ending. Therefore, this book was doomed to be a tragedy from the beginning.
Dudian was not a positive protagonist. He was not even a protagonist. He was just a tragedy born in human beings and in this environment. However, what I wanted to express was not his sorrow but the sorrow of the environment, it was also the sadness of human beings.
I saw some people say that the protagonist’s cruel and dark means were unbearable to abandon the book. I saw it and silently wrote my own.
Some people abandoned the book for fear of affecting their worldview. I understand.
But I can not agree with people who say that this book is purely about the darkness and exaggerates the dark psychology.
In the works of the most intense light, the darkness is clearly visible. In the novels of darkness, the kind light of human nature will be particularly moving. This is a common literary contrast. Kings also belong to the darkness, but I didn’t describe too much of the light of human nature because I didn’t want to. Because I wanted to write about a dark and sad world.
This world may seem far away from us, but in fact it may be around us.
This is a world without a glimmer of light.
In the past novels, the main character was everyone’s role model. He represented justice. Even if it wasn’t righteousness, but a gangster, it should be in line with the moral bottom line. It seemed that the main character was a role model for everyone to learn from.
But Dudian was not.
He was lonely. He was the crystallization of human nature that I understood when I was writing. His ending could not be changed. Moreover, there was only one ending. It was definitely not a happy life.
In the process of writing this book, I was slowly learning. I was learning to see the world. I saw a lot of things. From the previous naive and hot-blooded, to now, I was silent. I saw someone say that this book was too depressing, in fact, the person who was most affected was me.
So I wanted to write a happy and relaxed book.
But as I wrote the outline, I couldn’t help but dig deeper, and once I dug deeper, I found a lot of invisible things.
Things that light can not shine on.
Maybe it will be difficult for future works to escape this influence, maybe this is the seed of the beginning of the style? But I don’t feel constrained by a particular genre, just like I don’t want to be a sci-fi writer who only writes about the end of the world.
I’m naturally playful and quirky, but now I feel like I’ve lost interest in a lot of things. My desires are dwindling, and I can’t seem to get excited about anything, as if everything is boring.
I feel happy when I let my brain stop thinking and stop thinking, just like I Do When I’m talking to my wife and family. I don’t need to use my brain to think and I feel happy.
Happy living was the most comfortable way to live.
The sadness of bitter hatred would only make me look bitter and a little pretentious.
But when I wrote about the king, I had to calm my heart down, think, analyze, and see many things from the perspective of the king.
Then my mood became gloomy.
At first, I only wanted to write about a slightly realistic and cruel world, adding a little depth. For example, the giant wall, which implied the human heart. People were imprisoned by the giant wall and didn’t dare to step out. It was as if they were imprisoned by the fear in their hearts and didn’t dare to step out, that was why I never knew if the world outside was beautiful or ugly.
That was why I told them what the world outside was like. It was cruel, it was ugly, and it was a monster.
That was the dark tone of the book.
But as I slowly wrote, I continued to dig deeper and deeper. I kept thinking about it and slowly wrote it out.
Perhaps it wasn’t well expressed, but the things that the book wanted to express had basically been written. In the later stages, there was actually nothing left to write about. This was because the book was mainly about the journey of the heart.
There was no limit to the increase in power. One could break through worlds, but the mind had its limits.
When the mind completely degenerated into a king, who could save it?
This journey of the mind was also my own realization. From the beginning, I planned to write business novels to make money, but after dozens of chapters, I built a world environment. I found that I could write many ideas, these ideas would conflict with leveling up and fighting monsters. It was the opposite of business. But I was reluctant to give up.
So early on the shelf, Dudian was wrongfully imprisoned. His subscription plummeted. This was a great trauma to a book. But I didn’t regret it.
After the prison period, I didn’t often read the book reviews. I thought that since my subscription had dropped, it would be useless to turn back. If there was no one to read it in the end, I wouldn’t be able to earn enough money to eat, at most, I would become a eunuch.
Fortunately, the number of people reading the book at the back gradually stabilized and gradually increased.
At that time, I was even more lazy to read the book reviews. Since I could write according to what I wanted, I could also earn a living. Since that was the case, why should I listen to others?
Therefore, although I was feeling depressed, in general, I felt very happy and could ignore it.
Towards the end, I had been paying attention to the book reviews for the past few days. Seeing that many people were hoping for a happy ending, I could only say that I was sorry. I had persevered for so long in the beginning, but wouldn’t I be slapping myself in the face if I dropped the ball in the end, i had wasted so many days and nights of working hard to write.
HMM, I suddenly thought of the last book restarting the Apocalypse. That book could be considered a tragic ending, falling into a cycle that couldn’t be escaped. Repeated experiences and repeated losses. I had to repeatedly search, but I would never be able to grasp the most precious thing.
However, restarting was better than this. At least, People’s hearts would not change.
Darkness could not.
There was no meaning in reincarnating.
HMM, that was probably what I thought of at the moment,
this time, the repression was a little fierce. It was about to become a heavy depression. The new book was more lively. Its worldview was very interesting and there were many levels. It could be considered a light-to-medium reality fantasy novel
Well, the collection has not been collected quickly to collect, recommendation tickets to start!
Open Your Eyes Tomorrow, I will see the collection broke four figures... horizontal!
Oh, I almost forgot. It’s called the coming of terror
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