Chapter 316

Shen Huanzhi didn't expect ah Xi to take the initiative to see him.

After coming to the capital for a few days, Shen Huanzhi only felt that his head was not enough. His road to business had just begun. Everything was being explored and absorbed. At first, he wanted to see her right away. However, in this place of the capital, there were clear levels of etiquette and everywhere prudence and repression, which made him not cautious. In addition, there were many things waiting for him to deal with and there was no leisure.

When a basin of cold water poured down, his head woke up, and then he felt that he was too menglang. The lintel of the Xie family and the girl in the boudoir house were no longer wild girls without constraints in the countryside. How could he rashly see her and what should the Xie family think of him.

Business is helpless. Although he can make some achievements, when he really came to the foot of the emperor and looked at the high doors and deep courts, Shen Huanzhi really felt humble and oppression. He found that he didn't have a suitable identity to see her.

The merchants from the small country town, even if they can have a wealth, are regarded as inferior in the eyes of the dignitaries in the capital. Shen Huanzhi began to reflect on his overestimation and how he could marry the Xie family girl. Even if he studied and became an official step by step, ah Xi had already become a woman when he entered the eyes of Xie Ge.

It's a dead end, isn't it?

Then he didn't want to see her much.

So when ah Xi appeared in front of Shen Huan's eyes, his first reaction was helpless, and then there was unspeakable joy. In fact, he wanted to see her.

I haven't seen her for years. Ah Xi has grown into a big girl. She is the same as he imagined. No, she is better than he imagined. After all, she is in the high gate of the capital. She has no shortage of education, edification and dress up. She has been reborn.

Shen Huanzhi felt this way. She had already stood in two doors with him. Although she was still ah Xi, she was really different.

His embarrassment and embarrassment were all hiding the hopelessness in his heart. He had been hit.

In her eyes, there was the joy of reunion. The joy was separated by thousands of rivers and mountains. It was almost a joy of rebirth after suffering. He thought that the life in the gaomen of the capital must be unhappy. However, in just a few years, she had completely faded her innocence and became cautious, determined and helpless. He didn't want ah Xi to become like that.

But he also did not have the courage to say the words "you go with me". He hated his cautious concerns. When he left, he saw a trace of disappointment in her eyes. This disappointment was not real, but how he knew her, he just knew that ah Xi was disappointed.

It turned out that she also longed for someone to take her out of here. Shen Huanzhi stretched out his hand to the closed door. He didn't have the courage to open the door and catch up. It was too late. He had no chance.

Many years later, Shen Huanzhi repeatedly recalled that day, which was the day he completely missed her. Was it due to fate? In fact, it was not all because he was not firm enough. What ah Xi wanted at that time was firmness.

But the man gave it to her, Gu Yun, ah Xi's husband.

Later, everything was in his expectation. Ah Xi continued to treat him as usual, accompanied him to visit the capital, and then refused him. The reason why he said it was to give himself a ceremonial way to end. She clearly refused, and he might give up his heart completely.

It's to give up on yourself. You can't really do it to her.

It wasn't long before he got the news that ah Xi was going to marry. A trip to the capital became another ups and downs in his life. He lost ah Xi, but established his feet in the capital.

He met the so-called Bole noble man, but he didn't know that there were not so many so-called luck in life. Everything was just the deliberate kindness of others. That person was Gu Yun.

He didn't know what the man thought at that time, which was the true image he knew many years later, but he still couldn't understand Gu Yun's mind. The so-called volt pulse thousands of miles, there was no reason for no reason. Can Gu Yun see any worldly talent in him? It's really ridiculous.

Is it to please ah Xi, but she doesn't know how to please from beginning to end. He is just an insignificant rival in love. Gu Yun can get rid of him without scruples. She really can't find any reason to help him.

The answer to this question took him most of his life to understand that Gu Yun was giving him a chance to take care of ah Xi after he left.

Gu Yun probably existed like a creator and predicted too many indescribable future.

After Shen Huanzhi left Beijing, he embarked on his long road to business. The despair he got from ah Xi made him have an earth shaking understanding of the whole world. People living in the world have never had the so-called best of both worlds. It is almost a fool's dream to want to stand out and stubbornly maintain a childlike heart.

Whether you are in business or in an official position, you should temporarily put down your self. You must have sophisticated means and excellent mind. No matter shopkeeper Li or song Yanchen, they all have a strong skin bag. If others can easily pierce and see through this skin bag, you are a loser.

Shen Huanzhi began to slowly cast this layer of disguise for himself. He was no longer hypocritical and stubborn to maintain the so-called gentleman's style. Then he found that he was surrounded by more and more people, more and more human feelings, wealth and power.

There are not so many necessities in life. The things he thought he must get in the past are gradually blocked under the silence of time. He forgets those that are not available. He begins to accumulate his own aura and strength.

People's growth is generally so.

But the gear of fate still rotates along the track, and the story between him and her will not end so easily. When he heard the news that she was leaving Beijing, the heavy door in his heart showed signs of opening again. Of course, this is not a luxury, but it is already a favor to communicate with her again.

He was selfish and took the place of song Yanchen to pick her up. When he arrived, he knew the news of her disappearance. What happened later was a pain that he could not forget in his life. It seemed that every encounter with her was a ups and downs of life, and rising higher and higher. He thought everything before had been extreme, but he didn't want the biggest turning point of fate. It would always be the next time.

Ah Xi fell into the water. He jumped down without hesitation. At that time, he actually had the worst plan in his heart. In cold winter, a pregnant woman fell into the water, which was a top disaster, but his mind was also very clear, that is, how to accompany her, whether death or life.

Later, he and ah Xi wandered to a small fishing village, where they met and lost. He accompanied her to give birth and witnessed the birth of Zhian.

Zhian is not only an indispensable existence in his life, but also his only child. Everything has its own way. Some things are so unspeakable. Zhian is not his own life, but is born with his destiny. He has such a strong perception from the first sight of him.

Later, he fled with Zhian, and the feeling of connecting with life became more and more profound. The little thing had a tacit understanding with him and liked to be with him. He didn't cry in his arms and just frowned when he was hungry. This feeling from the depths of life filled him with guilt. He must let the child live well, even at all costs.

Shen Huan's heart hardened again. In order to know ANN, for all the people who followed him, to prevent ah Xi from being sad, and to meet again in the future, he embarked on another journey.

This is a field of life and death. There are too many darkness, cunning, cruelty and chaos in it. Shen Huanzhi sees the dangers of the world again, which is far from the limit he can imagine.

When he learned about the so-called strife behind the forces of the king of Qin, he knew that ah Xi and Gu Yun had already entered the war. The world he saw outside was always outside them and could never communicate with them. Is he going to be glad of the accident? Can he enter their world and do something for them? That's his meaning.

Shen Huanzhi accepted everything. He wanted to become strong enough to stand side by side with them, and then help everyone, even if he lost his life.

He changed his elder brother's name and lived in the name of a dead man. Shen Huanzhi has become the past. He is now Shen Dongting.

Among the several people with him, shopkeeper Li is a close relative of his elders. In addition, there is Ye Ying, a little girl feng'er, who has known each other for a long time. Their fate has made them form a special group, a scarred home that can be held together.

At first, Shen Huanzhi had the support and comfort of shopkeeper Li. Later, when shopkeeper Li died, the help around him became Ye Ying.

Ye Ying is a girl he met in Sifang town. This girl subverts his understanding of the girl. She looks arrogant and tough, but she has loyalty in her bones. He is no stranger to such a person. She must have been baptized by fate, just like him.

A teenage girl has taken up a family business and done it well. Although he doesn't appreciate this type of girl, he admires her very much. Subconsciously, she also has the feeling that the world is reduced. This girl is refreshing, cheerful and can laugh happily in any environment. When everyone is frustrated and confused, she gives a rare strength.

Ye Ying played a great role in the growth of Zhi'an. On the one hand, she took the place of a mother. Although he thought it was inappropriate and couldn't laugh or cry, the fact was the same, just as he had no blood relationship with Zhi'an, but was acting as a father.

Many times, Shen Huanzhi can't stand an objective position towards Zhi'an. He is too cautious and doting for fear that he will be wronged a little. Usually at this time, ye Ying will remind him in her way that there is no need to be so tense. This will put pressure on Zhi'an and make his life more heavy.

Their environment does not allow any weakness. Even if he is unwilling to face it, Zhian can not grow into a weak person who will only seek protection, which is harmful to him.

Fortunately, Zhian is a transparent child. He understands his environment, can straighten out his position, and thinks of everyone as much as possible. Zhian has always moved him. He thinks that the child is the blood of that man, and has the same insight and wisdom that others can't reach.

For example, when ah Xi came to Luzon's meeting, Zhian was keenly aware of her identity and even knew his mind like the back of his hand. Shen Huanzhi didn't know whether he was too simple or wouldn't hide his feelings. In short, Zhian's deliberate matching made him cry and laugh.

Zhian looks like a child who has nothing to do with the world. In fact, everything is in his heart and will surprise people from time to time. Shen Huanzhi suspects that he may have known everything very early and know that they are not his own, but he has been maintaining each of their hearts in his way.

Another example is Ye Ying's thoughts about Shen Huanzhi. Zhian can see clearly that he never makes a deliberate match, or even appropriately refuses for him, because he knows that the two will never get together, so it's better to have a clear attitude.

In this regard, Shen Huanzhi thinks that he has done very badly. He is not good at dealing with feelings and has never been able to learn. Whether it is born or buried, he will only bury it in his heart and solve it by himself. This is a deep-rooted inferiority. He can't overcome his hesitation.

After realizing Ye Ying's feelings for him, he instinctively pretends not to know. He may not refuse, because he knows the taste of being rejected. Ye Ying is their life and death partner. He doesn't want everyone to become embarrassed. He knows that Ann is different. He is very clear about everything, won't deceive himself and others, and will make up for his shortcomings. Shen Huanzhi is very happy and gratified.

What made him more gratified was that Zhian didn't go with ah Xi in the end. He decided to accompany him to deal with the aftermath in Luzon. What was Shen Huanzhi's mood at that time? He couldn't find a suitable description. He was moved and shocked. These words had thought too much, which was not enough to describe his feelings at that time.

Raising a parent-child is nothing more than that. No, there doesn't seem to be such a relationship between him and his father, so he is involved in his life with Zhian, not related to blood.

At this point in life, there seems to be nothing to expect. For Shen Huanzhi, the turbulent life and death in recent 20 years can have such an outcome at present. He has no extravagance. Even if he has to face loneliness in his future life, he is very satisfied.

Until the man died.

At this point, Shen Huanzhi figured out many things. Fate always likes to joke with people. They go around and return to the original problem.

Zhian's attitude made him cry and laugh. For some reason, the child seemed to be very sure of what he would do with ah Xi. If he had nothing to do, he advised him to go back to Dachen. Otherwise, he would tell him how ah Xi was, which had to affect the string in his heart.

Shen Huan had no extravagance for a long time. Gu Yun has engraved a mark on his heart with ah Xi. Ah Xi can't forget him, and Shen Huan Zhi can't cross him and have anything to do with ah Xi. This is a blasphemy to ah Xi and disrespect for himself. Missing is wrong, and there is no reason to start over.

However, as a friend, Shen Huanzhi really should go to mourn his old friend and visit the undead. However, he may have a guilty subconscious and can't be calm. It seems that when he goes to see her at this time, he must have some thoughts that he shouldn't have. Therefore, he failed to summon up the courage to see her several times.

He has left Dachen for more than ten years and returned to his hometown. It is inevitable that he feels like an isolated world. The people he knows are also changing. The Xie family's grandmother died, and the Xie family Jingyu returned to his old house. When Shen Huanzhi saw all this, his childhood memories reappeared one after another.

Shen Huanzhi suddenly has a little selfishness. Ah Xi is alone now. He wants to protect her. He and her have a long way to go for the rest of their lives. Even if there are too many insurmountable past, he can do for her. He doesn't want to suffer for the rest of her life, nor does he want to have regrets.

So Shen Huanzhi intentionally or unintentionally did some business in the northwest. In fact, he didn't have any purpose at the beginning. Later, he found that it was actually from his inner yearning. He still couldn't find a position to see her. He just wandered and busied near her with self satisfaction, as if she was watching him.

This so-called guard is more about self satisfaction and has no substantive significance. In Zhi'an's words, he is always too green and doesn't know how to maintain his feelings. Zhi'an said that his mother is more calm. No matter he is lonely, or in the attitude of guarding Gu Yun, he didn't deliberately or avoid when he even mentioned him. Everything goes with nature.

Ah Xi always understood more than he did. Shen Huan laughed at himself. Since he wanted it, let it be.