But in fact, the thorn she reached for the promise is two-way. When she stabbed the promise, how could she not hurt herself?
"You really surprised me this time. How could you be ill? And a serious illness? " Promise went to the edge of Chen Yu's bed, did not sit down, but looked down at her.
Chen Yu didn't go to see the promise. When she faced it, her face always seemed to have the look of being beaten.
"So? You just came to make sure when I'm going to die? I'll tell you, it won't be long. Maybe you'll wake up tomorrow and I won't be here Even when Chen Yu talked about himself, his tone was so impolite.
"It's such a time. If you tell me something from your heart, can you die?" Promise originally gentle tone, now suddenly a little more fluctuation, even the tone also will be a lot higher.
Chen Yu's body suddenly froze, and his throat seemed to become a little bitter.
What do you mean by promising to say that?
"Brother told me something he knew about Dad leaving you." Promise eyes fixed looking at Chen Yu.
She knows that Chen Yu's physical condition is not very good now, but she still wants to take advantage of Chen Yu's soberness to ask all the questions she wants to ask.
Chen Yu owes her an answer to many questions.
"Why should I blame dad for leaving you? Why have you been doing this to me for so many years? Since you don't want to see me, you don't want to support me at the beginning! Just throw me away! I can't be sure that if I'm thrown into an orphanage, I can live with more dignity than before! I don't have to look at your face every day to be treated as a star sweeper! "
Some words have been held in her heart for many years. Maybe today, she can have a good chat with Chen Yu.
Every question about the promise has hit Chen Yu's heart. She only feels that every question asked by the promise is like a stone with killing power, which is constantly hitting her.
That part of the past is really something Chen Yu does not want to recall.
Even after so many years, the promise has reached the age of marriage, it is still a scar in her heart.
Probably because she loved that man so much that when she was left behind, she couldn't accept the fact for a moment, and even vented all her negative emotions on her promise.
"When I was pregnant with you, I suffered a lot. I went to every birth examination by myself, because at that time, the man's business became bigger and bigger." Chen Yu's name for the promised father has become the man.
"But what he said was very nice. When he started his business, our family would have a better life. I'll be a full-time wife and help him take care of the family. He will make me the happiest woman in the world and you and Jingnan the happiest children in the world. "
"But at the end of the day, you find that every word and every word that this man says is Farting!"
At that time, how much she took the man's words seriously, and how much she was hurt later, the gap between the reality and the fantasy really broke her world in an instant.
At that time, it was probably the most desperate time in her life.
"When I gave birth to you, I was bleeding so much that I almost lost my life, but your father didn't even show up when I gave birth. He was accompanying his beloved woman at that time."
When Chen Yu talked about it, there was an obvious hatred in his eyes.
Although this hatred has been more than 20 years, it has been continuously fermenting in her heart and has not been consumed by time.
"When I take you home, the news is that your father is going to divorce me. I begged him that day. I wanted him not to leave so cruelly even for the sake of children! But he was so determined. He left behind a divorce agreement and the 100000 yuan he left me
"I still remember how cold his back was when he left that day! My lower body was still in pain at that time, but I went after him, but in the end, I followed the car like a fool, but people ignored me. "
"Then, when I got back to my place, you were crying. For a person who has just experienced such a pain, crying will definitely only make her feel extremely irritable. So I hate you, probably from that time
"I think this is the child I have with him. Why did he leave it to me to take it with me? It was supposed to be the responsibility of two people between me and him, but now, he has left it all to me. My heart is full of resentment and hatred. Slowly, pour this dissatisfaction into you. I even think that if I hadn't been pregnant with you, maybe things wouldn't have come this far. "
"But later, I began to understand that if a man wants to leave you, no matter what state you are in, it will not change his determination to leave you.""When I realize this, it seems that my relationship with you can't be changed. Because between us, in addition to endless quarrels, there are endless quarrels. I can't make myself bow to you, and I can't speak to you gently. "
"Maybe my tenderness will be taken away on the day that the man left. I can't remember what I used to be. "
When Chen Yu spoke of these words, he looked sad and mocking.
Hearing her mother talk about this, I feel very sad.
Perhaps for so many years, mother herself is not too good, even if the mouth is arrogant, but the heart is empty.
When Chen Yu was scolding her, maybe she just wanted to talk to her calmly. But I don't know why, when those words were uttered, they all changed their nature.
After hearing these words, he fell into silence and didn't know what to say.
After speaking these words for many years, Chen Yu felt more comfortable: "I know you are with the man named Xiao Xu before, and I really didn't look up to him before."
"Because I think a man's mouth is a liar. I'd rather you choose a rich man than a man who seems to be very nice to you. "