Chapter 123： coward

After a meal was finished, there were a total of seven people on the table. Except for the Lianjun, they were all drunk.

The first to get drunk is Li Jiuyi. He poured too much white wine in one go and directly confuse himself. The second drunk was Rong Zhouzhong. He and Li Jiuyi did not drink too much when they were having a drink. After Li Jiuyi fell down, he fell asleep on the table.

Later, when Wei Chonghe Fei Yujing, they ate and chatted, and unwittingly drank a lot. The remaining two seem to be entering and admiring when they are eating seriously. They are chatting too much about food, and when they are interested, they have to drink wine from Ao Ting. They drink this wine, the wine. Take a sip, the wine is slowly going up, and when the Lianjun finds something wrong, they are already confused on the chair.

Lian Jun put the shackles in his chair and said that when he talked nonsense, he leaned into his arms and gently touched his face and called a scream.

As soon as he got in from outside the restaurant, he waited.

"Take them to the room, let Long Shu give them a look, don't let them drink the problem, remember to give them a hangover." Lian Jun told me, then when I was squatting, I got up and took me to death. The past time went in the direction of the room.

As soon as I answered it, I took out my mobile phone and called someone to help me.

When he went out with Lianjun, when he walked out of the restaurant, his eyes briefly cleared for a moment, and he looked back at the time-to-day brothers who were in the middle of the table.

"They are deliberately drunk." He whispered, and he didn't know who to say to him. "This will wake up tomorrow and find that everything is empty. They can also fool themselves into saying that they have had a dream..." And timid guys."

Lian Jun also followed the eyes of the brothers, and I agree with the words of the time--the timing of these people drunk is too unified, certainly deliberate.

"They are all cowards." Shijin turned back and leaned on Lianjun. "I am... but I still have you, Lianjun, don't leave me, I will die."

Lian Jun also took back his gaze, clutching his hand tightly, kissing his forehead sideways, taking him on and saying: "No, I will stay with you."

"It's good." Shijin put all his weight on him, rubbed his shoulders, quieted for a while, and suddenly said, "Leng Jun, I call time to enter."

Lian Jun looked at him sideways.

"My father called Shi Lei, my mother is Xiao Xiao. They live in a town called Xiaoyang. They run a small supermarket. I was adopted by them when I was born... My father is a good old man, soft and sensitive, I My mother is strong, but it is actually a knife and a tofu... They are very good and will definitely like you."

Lian Jun’s footsteps suddenly stopped and looked at him.

"I actually have a special name for the earth, called Da Zhuang, my mother started. She said that the children of the land name can grow well. Until I went to elementary school, I thought my name was strong and then I In order to make me get used to my name, Dad actually changed the name of the supermarket in the house and changed it into the supermarket. They are very cute, right, this is my parents... It’s totally different from Shishang.”

Lian Jun’s fingers trembled and he held him tightly in his arms.

When he leaned in his arms, he kissed him intimately and said: "Reassured, I am not schizophrenic or have a fantasy. I am telling all the truth. Those are the things I have experienced... Believe me. Ok, I am really not crazy."

"...I believe in you." Lian Jun said hard, and calmly followed his back. "I know you are not crazy, you are good, I know."

When I came back and hugged him, I seemed to be drunk: "I know you will say that you are always so good... In fact, it doesn't matter if you don't believe it. I am a drunk now. It is not unusual to say anything. You listen. Just forget about it..."

Lian Jun tightened his arms.

The two quietly hugged for a while, then continued to walk in the direction of the room.

Probably the wine was on the head, and the words of the time began to be scattered and incoherent.

"I am actually as big as you... I am really a policeman, I don't lie to you, I have been working for many years... I have carefully calculated whether I have already died two times... The memory is blurred, the time latitude What is Chong, what is Li Jiuqiu, and there are times when I am not, I don’t remember all of them. They are all strangers. They are the names written in ink in the book. It doesn’t make any sense. It’s strange, my parents didn’t actually I want to be a policeman too, saying that it is too hard, but why do I still insist on taking the police school..."

The two finally arrived at the room. Lian Jun took the time to go to the bathroom, peeled off his clothes, settled him into the bathtub, and took the shower to wash him with the smell of wine.

When he looked at the water column that was drenched, his eyes seemed to be clear again. He said, "I think of it, I am asking for help, I am asking for help, I am suffering, I am resentful, and I am personally saving me. Come personally pull me out, these things are terrible, how can I suffer from this kind of person who grew up in a honey jar... No, is that me? No, it shouldn’t be me... I was the time to go, It’s not this time, it’s not the time...”

Lian Jun’s hand holding the shower slowly tightened, and the bones were white.

"But why no one came to save me... No, the fourth brother saved me once, he is very powerful... If I became him, then I can save myself... I am working hard, right, for Save yourself so hard..."

Lian Jun took a deep breath and reached out to wipe the tears from his eyes, throwing flowers and swaying and holding him tight.

When he leaned on him, he leaned his head and looked at the rising mist in the bathroom. His eyes were chaotic and he whispered: "Dad is gone, my brothers have changed. I don’t really have money." I care too much, I want to take it all, but how can people change and change. I used to laugh at them, they will laugh at me, then I laugh at them, they will only look at me with cold eyes, hate watching I, satirically look at me, look at me with a sigh of relief, look at me with a killing look... crying is even worse, it will be annoying... I am still me, but how everyone is different to me What is wrong, is it what I am doing wrong?"

"No." Lian Jun finally spoke, his voice was low, depressed and tight. "You have done a good job. So far, you have done a good job."

"Then I saved myself?" He raised his hand and grabbed his clothes.

"Save, not only yourself, you saved me, you are very powerful."

Time went by and released his hand, his face showed a little relief smile, said: "That's good... In fact, I am also a coward, not drunk, I can't talk about some things..."

Lian Jun touched his back and said: "You are not a coward, you are brave and brave than anyone."

"Yeah... It's good." The eyes of Shijin had already closed, and the corner of his eyes was reddish by the wine, his lips moved, and he whispered before he fell asleep completely: "Small death, don't cry." ,very noisy……"

Lian Jun’s hand on his back stopped, and then slowly continued. For a long time, he whispered: “Good night, time to enter.”

......

When I entered, I slept until noon the next day. After I woke up, I was told by Lianjun that when weaving, they had already got up early and left the first plane. He squatted for a while, and finally raised his hand and licked his head with a headache after the hangover. He said, "I understand that at the end of the year, everyone is busy."

"They left a gift for you, do you want to see it?" Lian Jun asked.

When I shook my head, I was so stupid that I finally woke up and looked at Lianjun. "Are we going to go to the island? You have been suffocating in the house for so long, you need to go to a warm place." Breathable."

Lian Jun touched his sleepy hair and asked: "When do you want to go? You have already sorted out the side, we can go at any time."

Time has come to give a wayward answer: "Today, I want to go today." After the reunion, of course, they are separate, everyone is gone, and he does not want to stay alone.

"Good." Lian Jun leaned over and kissed him and said, "I will arrange."

......

Even if it is an honest lord, it is only possible to arrange a special plane at 11 o'clock in the evening when it decides to leave at noon, and reluctantly reached the wish to leave on the day.

"You have to go to the plane to rest." Lian Jun helped to collect and collect luggage, and half of the boxes in the box were textbooks.

When I was pretending not to see it, I licked the chest with a snack and said, "You must sleep a little longer today."

"You accompany me?" Lian Jun put down his textbook to see him.

Shi Jin and his eyes, said: "Of course I am with you."

......

After the nap, Lian Jun found that after receiving a text message, he became a little restless, and turned his head and looked out the window from time to time. He slipped over the wheelchair and asked, "Would you like to go out and make a snowman? When you come back next time, the snow should have disappeared."

When I frowned, I thought about it and said, "Hey, let's make a small pile this year."

The two came to the lounge where they had been snowing last year. When they entered the house, they wrapped up the stern sternly, and they were wrapped up in a tight manner. Then they took the prince out and went to the thickest one in the snow. In the corner, pull the sorrow and kneel down, let him pinch the snowball with himself.

"You pinch a small point, I pinch a big point, and then put together, it is a snowman." Shi Jin said his plan.

Lian Jun asked: "Do you want to pile up a pattern?"

"Wait for next year." When he answered, he smiled at him. "This year, we still follow the tradition."

Lian Jun knows that he cares about his physical condition, smiles and says: "Okay."

The last two people piled up a mini-snowman with a calf in the outside, which took less than 20 minutes. Time is very satisfied, took Lianjun and took a photo with the snowman, then returned to the house with a gentleman, and hurriedly took him to wash his hands and wash his face.

Lian Jun looked at the time to work hard to take care of his own appearance, I feel a little pain.

This talent is the most carefully taken care of by everyone. He does not consciously reach out and hold the time into his arms.

When I was confused, I looked at him sideways and asked, "What happened?"

"If you want to do it, you can do it." He said, when he kissed the kiss, he entered the ear that was frozen and reddened. "Don't worry about me, I just want to make you happy."

When he entered the bow and hugged him, he remembered that Rong Zhouzhong and Ao Ting had sent him one after another, saying that Li Jiu’s face was not quite right when he left in the morning, and he did not speak.

......

The sky slowly darkened and the time of departure was getting closer. Shi Jin always turned his head and looked out the window. Finally, when the clock went to seven o'clock, he couldn't help but stand up and looked at Lian Jun. "I went out and I will definitely come back before 9:30."

"Not too late, at 11 o'clock, we will leave at the airport at nine o'clock at the latest." Lian Jun shook his head.

When I entered, I raised my hand and took a forehead and said, "I have forgotten how terrible the traffic in City B was... Nothing, then we..."

"But if we leave now, I might be able to let you go somewhere and stop for a short while." Lian Jun added, sliding the wheelchair out, holding his hand and asking, "Would you like to leave now?" They have already moved all their luggage to the car, and the team has been integrated."

When he entered the stupid look at him, he took his hand back and said: "Go, I want to turn a college town... can I?"

"Of course." Lian Jun replied, picked up his hand and kissed him.

......

The car galloped on the street, and the outside of the car was a familiar university town. When the hand reached into the pocket, it grasped the key inside. It was the key to the apartment of Li Jiuyi. He is now on the way there.

And why should I go there... He took out his mobile phone, pressed the SMS page, skipped the text message of Rong Zhouzhong and Ao Ting, and looked at the last message sent by Li Jiuyi this morning: Thank you, I understand, please continue to hate I, I will continue to love you, you are a gift from God, I will cherish you, see [love] after the year.

It is still a mess of adolescent melancholy and men's pain is a short message style, but some of them are familiar with the words that seem to be engraved in the soul, but it really makes him unable to ignore it as before.

The word gift is really...

"Your five brothers should have returned to Rongcheng." The second officer sitting in the passenger seat suddenly opened his mouth and looked at the university town that had become very deserted outside. He exaggeratedly rubbed his arm. "The students are on holiday." It turned into an empty city, and the night looked strange and terrible."

"I didn't return to Rongcheng." When I went back to God, I looked at the direction of Li Jiuyi's residence. "The place where his mother and grandparents were buried. On the day of the Chinese New Year, he will not go back." This time last year Li Jiuyi also stayed in the B city. After receiving his call for help, he immediately rushed over to save him.

Yes, save, no matter what Li Jiuzhen did later, at the time, Li Jiuyi saved him. In the last life, Li Jiuzhen actually saved the original owner, and opened up the messy spirits. At least in the body, Li Jiuyi did his job as a doctor, not only saved the original owner from the serious car accident, but also returned the original owner. Take it to your own hospital and take care of yourself.

And those spirits are devastated... When I think of the words that Li Jiuyi said at his mother’s grave last year, he tightened his lips.

Suddenly he understood some of Li Jiuyi’s thoughts and actions. The person is really like a child. Pure goodness is pure evil, and he does not express his emotions and feelings at all.

Maybe...just maybe, maybe the horrible words that Li Jiuyong said in the last time to stand at the original bed, and the act of holding a knife and saying that he wants to help the original owner, the starting point is actually not so malicious, or even with goodwill. He was ill, like Shiwei Chong, and was pressured by the pressure and emotions exerted by his parents.

The doctor does not have self-medication, there may be no real mask at all, and all the splitting emotions that Li Jiu-Yi showed are only a symptom exhibited by a patient.

When you are in pain, you can't wait for everyone to go to **** together. When you return to God, you want to try to grasp the warmth that hasn't slipped away... The same is true. And the same family environment, the original owner has the false happiness and fatherly **** for the past ten years, and Li Jiuyi has nothing, mother, father or brother, all of whom give him only cruel reality. And a lot of negative emotions that cannot be digested.

What kind of juvenile genius, the aura that is tried to wear on the head is just a child who is forced to desperate, the only self-help method that can be imagined. Children's ideas are sometimes very simple. They always think that they know a little more and grow faster. The current dilemma can be made simple, and everyone's problems can find a solution.

[But you are dead, what should I do? 】

Suddenly flashed through the words that Li Jiuyi once said, the thoughts of diverging and diverging suddenly collapsed, and the keys in the pockets were firmly gripped. The brain never seemed to be so awake as it is now.

Li Jiuyi, who had been in the previous life, has been crazy, lost his father, lost his mother, and only used his brother’s relationship. The only brother who feels special because of his mother’s brainwashing is about to be taken away by the **** of death. All the people who gave him the pain to give him hope are dead. What should he do? What can he do? What if a person is crazy, a person lives in the world, and has never really grown up?

This is the first time, when I think of one thing - the original Lord died so much, that countless times to kill the original mainstream, but there is no real hands, the action is still trying to grab the original master from the hands of death When I came back to Li Jiu, what happened?

When the car stopped, I went back to God and found that the community where Li Jiuyi lived had arrived. He looked at the floor where Li Jiuyi lived, and there was an impulse in his heart.

- Li Jiuyi of the last life has not seen hope, and in this life, even for those who are called rescue, try again.

For the first time, he sensibly slid all the emotions in his chest, and used the thoughts of the time-forward that he had lived for more than 20 years to analyze and digest the time-honored and incomprehensible 18-year-old sudden death. all.

Don't let emotions control your senses, you can.

He stretched out the door and pulled off the car to the building where Li Jiuyong lived. The speed was getting faster and faster. Finally, he ran slightly and slammed his head into the elevator.

"Jun Shao, really does not matter?" 卦 二 looked at the back of the time, frowning asked.

Lian Jun leaned on the back of the chair, touched the place where he just sat, and replied: "It doesn't matter, he knows what he is doing."

......

When the elevator was opened, it strode to the door of 3602, adjusted the breath, and took out the key to open the door.

The interior was dark and there was no heating. It was not like someone was there. He went straight to the sofa and saw a curled figure on it. He said, "I can only stay here for ten minutes, or I will miss the plane leaving here."

The people on the sofa didn't move, as if they were already asleep.

"To tell the truth, I am afraid of you, you want to kill me, I have been unable to let go, and I can't let it go." When the time came, the voice slowed down a little. "But you are right, a few brothers inside." You and I are the most like."

I don't know if it is an illusion. The figure on the sofa seems to curl up even tighter.

"I want to go to the island of Lianjun for the winter, and by the way there is a New Year's Eve." Shijin said sideways, his fingers in his pockets pressed tightly, forced to white, "If you want to be together, Just hurry up and pack yourself down. I only wait five minutes downstairs... Five brothers, I don't want to continue to hate you, it's too tired, I want to be free."

When he finished speaking, he turned and the person who did not go to the sofa was awake and slept, and left the unpopular apartment without returning.

The opportunity has already been given. This is the rejection and fear that he has overcome from memory. He has exhausted the last hand of reason and the other hand has to hold it out. He has no intention to manage it.

......

Five minutes later, when I looked at the door of the building where no one came out, I retracted my eyes and said, "Go ahead, don't miss the plane."

As soon as he started the car, he suddenly snorted and said, "Wait, someone ran out."

When I looked up, I saw that Li Jiuyi only wore a shirt and rushed out of the building. He held a cell phone certificate and other items in his hands. In the winter, his forehead was sweating. He anxiously swept at the door and saw the car that was leaving here. He hurriedly ran over and stopped in the front of the car. He gasped and said: "Xiao Jin, I, I am with you, I am looking for documents, I am Forgot where I put it, don't leave me, I am with you, let me be with you."

When I entered the car glass and looked at him, I saw that I had tried my best to save myself. I closed my eyes and reached out to open the door.

"Come in, you can't catch the plane."

Li Jiuyi’s eyes burst into a huge surprise. He wandered around and took the car to the car. He sat down closely against him. He didn’t know if it was cold or something, and he was shaking for a while.

When I took out a blanket and wrapped it in him, I found that he actually ran out without wearing shoes. At this time, the socks had been wet by the water left by the snow, and the mat was dirty.

"Sorry, the car is dirty." Li Jiuyi saw him looking at his feet, his expression became a little embarrassed.

"Nothing." Shi Jin took a towel and told him to take off his socks and wipe the water off his feet.

Li Jiuyi quickly did the work, and the action was a little anxious, like a child who was afraid of being thrown by his family because of mistakes.

When I looked at his anxious look and a pale face, there was a feeling of returning to stability in my heart - I felt that this person could cry directly if he said something a little, how can such a person need to fear? ?