of episode 305,
Raebin Kim was clearly nervous.
-It’s okay Ravin, you’ve done well so far.
-Of course~ Even if it doesn’t work, we don’t have ears to listen! But can’t it be?
-That’s right, I like Kim Rae-bin’s song!
-... thank you
At least after listening to the encouragement from the others, my complexion improved a little.
But when I opened the lid... .
– Then you go to number 2 4 5 like this? okay. Then our Ravin’s number is... .
-... It was 3 times.
-... !
His arrangement ended up not even in the rankings.
It’s literally a dropout.
It’s funny to explain it complacently like this, but it’s something no one could have guessed.
‘Kim Rae-bin’s arrangement was finally eliminated... ... .’
This is because up until now, this guy’s arrangement has been put into the final draft to the point where it’s okay to call it ‘must have’.
Of course, it has never been fully adopted. However, at least a crucial part of the draft was reflected, and I was fully involved in the final work.
So, the members also talked about the next work like a habit.
-Now, our Rabin will do a great job arranging music for concerts~
But this time, it’s the first failure since debut.
‘That’s also because he couldn’t sleep for several days and hung on.’
“... ... .”
I swiped through the material for the ‘Concert Arrangement Plan Blind Voting Results’, which also arrived via e-mail, and turned off the screen.
Then he folded his arms and leaned back.
‘There must be several reasons.’
The direction was different, the AR team poured in good drafts because it suited their taste, or they had plenty of time to work.
But why is it just now?
‘It’s as if Raebin Kim was pushed on his back by a slump at the most crucial moment.’
However, it is foolish to overturn the results of the vote right away.
Because of his personality, there’s no way he’ll be happy, and he can’t lower the quality just to take care of himself.
‘It’s just aggravating the situation without any benefit.’
But it was foolish to leave it as it is.
“... ... .”
I got up from my seat.
It was to quietly go into the room after the morning concert meeting and find the impaled one.
But I didn’t have to go far. Rabin Kim was sitting on the sofa in the living room.
Next to them were Cha Yu-jin, who was quite resolute, Sun Ah-hyun, who had a worried expression, and Keun Se-jin, who looked puzzled.
Cha Yoo-jin held out something to Kim Rae-bin.
“Kim Raebin, eat this.”
Kim Rae-bin was wearing a coat and socks. It seems to have caught the guy trying to get out.
“I’m not going to eat. I’m in the studio for a while... .”
“Why are you in the studio?”
“... !”
The guys I was talking with turned to me. Kim Rae-bin swallowed and muttered in a low voice.
“If we don’t work on correcting our shortcomings, we won’t be able to produce results that people will be satisfied with in our next attempt... .”
“Do better next time Kim Raebin! It can’t be once. No problem, it’s okay!”
However, Kim Rae-bin was neither annoyed nor sympathetic to Cha Yu-jin’s words.
“I’m not sure if it’ll be okay or not.”
just muttered quietly.
“But since I failed this time, I can say that the probability of things not going well has increased. So, in order for the probability to decrease, you need to prepare more... ... .”
“... ... .”
After a short silence passed.
“Why don’t you get some rest, Rabin?”
“That’s right. We still have a lot of time left until the concert... I need to conserve my stamina... !”
Words poured out in an instant.
He must have thought that something could happen if he sent it to the studio as it is.
‘It seems so to me.’
I don’t know if I’d rather be angry or resentful, but that’s like an obsession. Big Sejin sat down next to him and patted him on the shoulder.
“Don’t monkeys sometimes fall from trees? Let’s take a break while thinking about our stage~ They say rest is important too?”
This... I’ll have to help.
I opened my mouth.
“I’ve been running without resting so far, so let me rest my head. Muscles also attach when you rest, but you didn’t rest too much.”
“Rest.”
In the end, Kim Rae-bin reluctantly nodded. I held back a sigh.
The timing was bad.
* * *
And days passed.
Kim Rae-bin did not go to the studio as promised, but his complexion was still not good. It seemed that the shock of the first failure had not yet gone.
Still, after spending a busy time filming a promotional video for the tour, it was around the time when I relaxed again because of some stages that had yet to be drafted.
‘It’s quiet.’
My body woke up early in the morning, probably because I couldn’t adapt properly to the changed schedule.
‘Should I drink some water?’
I called up Kim Rae-bin’s status window.
I hoped it wasn’t, but there was a word I hadn’t seen there that was added at the very end.
!Status Abnormality: Damn Dodori
Pyo.
[Dodol-Yi-pyo]
: Lost in place,
‘Attribute: Maestro (S)”s reaction. sensory deterioration.
“By the way... By overdone, do you mean that the song has too much structure? So, a little less here... Can you tell me what this sounds like? Are you better than before? Will it get better?”
“... ... .”
This... this won’t work
It was clear that this guy was completely out of his mind.
I get it now The reason Kim Rae-bin seemed solid against criticism was because he was able to come up with an alternative right away.
But now it seemed that the system had completely collapsed. Dependent.
‘X foot... .’
I received the headphones he gave me, but I didn’t wear them. asked instead.
“... How does that sound to you?”
I heard Kim Raebin whimper in a low voice.
“I do not know... . I tried to reflect as much as possible on what people said they liked and produce results that would be expected... I don’t know if I did it right.”
“Do what you want to do.”
“I don’t even know what I want to do... .”
I know what this means.
‘The balance is broken.’
I know that this guy has a humble side that sincerely tries to accept other people’s opinions.
But at the same time, he had faith in his abilities.
An instinctive level of conviction that if you like it, it’s good, and if you don’t like it, it’s not good.
So, even if feedback is given, it is absorbed based on one’s own judgment, whether it is interpreted on its own.
A style that runs all the way as it understands and is inspired.
‘It’s a basic personality.’
Look at T-Holic’s remarks, which were also interpreted as family.
But this time, things were a little different.
When reviews that were better than expected were pouring like crazy from an unspecified number of people, they were overwhelmed by the direct fire.
‘Rather, I lost my confidence.’
The thought that I shouldn’t disappoint, the pressure to produce perfect results destroyed the joy.
There, the personality of my pace is lost, so the song has no personality.
However, when I receive harsh criticism, I am completely embarrassed and care too much about the evaluation. Because it was the first ‘failure of ability’ in this guy’s life.
‘It’s a vicious cycle.’
I endured the swearing.
And after calming the guy who was about to burst into tears, he confiscated the laptop.
“Stop this for now. Even if it’s not this, you have a lot of work to do and you’re a talented guy. Let it go.”
“... ... .”
“I’m not saying this because I don’t think I can do it, but if you do this and get insomnia, bigger troubles will happen.”
“Once you finish one... .”
“no.”
I confiscated my laptop. And in conflict, he said.
“... If you’re doing it for fun, it’s not my business to interfere, but right now it’s ruining your condition. You can’t even sleep.”
“... ... .”
Rabin Kim lowered his head.
I tapped him on the shoulder and realized only that I was filthy incompetent at this sort of thing.
‘X feet.’
A countermeasure was needed.
* * *
Even after that dawn, Kim Rae-bin faithfully participated in the schedule.
But the witty feeling from before was shattered.
And one of the guys who noticed it found the reason in my room.
“Park Moon-dae, is that his laptop?”
Big Sejin said seriously.
“I’d rather just let it happen. That’s where you catch the kid.”
“... ... .”
I shook my head roughly and answered a beat later.
A solution I’ve been grinding and polishing for days.
“Then get a mountain hut.”
“... ? what?”
I wasn’t kidding.
I remembered Kim Rae-bin’s ‘Abnormal Status’.
A counteraction of the Maestro characteristic that increases the production speed of a song that can be considered almost industrial.
Raebin Kim’s exceptional sense of deterioration.
‘In the end, I was obsessed with performance and efficiency, so there was a reaction.’
Then it’s simple.
Let’s do some non-productive creations that have nothing to do with testa performance.
So, I started planning a healing course with garbage-like efficiency that I had never considered in my life.
It is a training camp for self-development.
“just... Let’s go to the mountain at all.”
not a destination.