Translated by Addis of Exiled Rebels Scanlations
Editor: KarateChopMonkey…
Gu Ang jerked his head up, staring firmly at him, “You said you’re…”
An ex-husband who was dumped without a word? Was that what he understood?
“Yes, I admit it.” Ye Fei sighed, “What can I do? I can’t coax you, I can only play the pity game and make you pity me.”
Gu Ang was still in shock, “But how did you know I also… crossed?”
Ye Fei pulled a bitter smile from the corner of his mouth, “You’ve changed so much from your freshman year that you thought I wouldn’t recognize it?”
Gu Ang pursed his lips, and his entire body fell into a slight shiver. Although he had guessed this possibility countless times, he still felt a sour ache in his heart when it really came out of Ye Fei’s mouth. It turned out he didn’t end up here alone, Ye Fei came over with him.
He had been by his side, holding his grievances in silence. That pathetic and resentful remark just now, poked him straight in the heart.
In this relationship, they both suffered but could never let go of each other, tangled and finally circled back together.
Gu Ang thought that after the divorce, he and Ye Fei would never see each other again, and he was ready to live alone for the rest of his life. He even fantasized about his future life, getting a dog and telling it daily about his former love story with Ye Fei. He couldn’t tell people those details, they’d get tired of hearing them. But a pet was different, it could listen unconditionally, to those happy memories and to those unrequited pains.
But now, the man in front of him told him that he was the Ye Fei. The Ye Fei he had loved for many years and had been slow to let go of in the end.
Gu Ang’s eyes slowly turned red, his vision almost haloed into a blur, and he had to hold back very hard to force those tears back bit by bit.
So it all made sense, Ye Fei marking him, Ye Fei taking care of him, Ye Fei sneaking kisses on him late at night. All because this man loved him for six entire years.
Ye Fei panicked as he tilted his head up to look at the man, reaching up to touch the end of his eye, feeling a bit of moisture on his fingertips, “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said anything like that.”
He knew that Gu Ang had a great deal of hardship and a lot of grievances. He was so angry that he was poking people straight in the heart with such a spiteful tone.
Gu Ang shook his head and tried to say something, but all the words got caught in his throat. A million mixed feelings came together, and he didn’t know which sentence to pick first.
Ye Fei glanced around, there were curious eyes falling on them one by one.
The interstellar fierce Alpha looked like he was crying and that was breaking news.
Ye Fei reached out and pulled him, “Let’s go back to the dormitory and talk about it, okay? There are so many people here, if you cry again, you’ll make headlines in the school newspaper tomorrow.”
Gu Ang nodded and stood up, froze and followed Ye Fei. He felt like the blood in his body was frozen, and even his fingertips became numb and senseless. His mind also felt like a jumbled mess, unable to make sense of the thoughts. A lot of niggles floated up in Gu Ang’s mind.
The reason for the divorce? How else could he explain the breakup that was made without reason? What about seeing the file? He differentiated into an Omega, but his reproductive cavity was still not well developed. He had so much on his mind that he kept too much to himself. But he figured that he couldn’t hide the fact that he loved Ye Fei any longer.
Neither of them spoke the entire way, just walked quietly around the campus.
That road to the dormitory they had walked together many times, on many a normal night. But today was different. It was still Gu Ang and Ye Fei who were walking the path, but it wasn’t the same as before. The early spring breeze still had some chill to it, but Gu Ang didn’t feel so cold anymore. The thought that there was someone else here who was with him awakened his entire being with the warmth of that warmth.
Gu Ang just found out there was a big cherry tree under the dorm building. Probably in a little while, the cherry blossoms would be in bloom and it would be beautiful. His mind jumbled with thoughts of what was and wasn’t there, he finally made it to the door of his dorm.
Ye Fei entered the code and pushed the door in, “Come in.”
Gu Ang took a deep breath and followed him inside, then heard the door close.
Ye Fei went ahead and boiled a pot of hot water as usual, and helped him get his loungewear for him to change into. All that was done before patting the couch, “Here, come sit down.”
Gu Ang was wearing comfortable home pajamas, Ye Fei’s clothes, which were stained with some of his scent. He wrapped himself in the sheer fabric of his clothes and felt a little more relaxed. He looked to Ye Fei, “I’m in over my head right now.”
Ye Fei rubbed his head, “I know, my head was pretty messed up even then when I just found out you crossed over.”
Gu Ang murmured, “What were you thinking at that point?”
Ye Fei recalled the state of mind and laughed softly again, “Actually, I recognized you from the first day of the freshman competition when you wore a helmet against me. But we just got divorced and I was quite angry, so I didn’t really want to talk to you.”
The first moment he saw Gu Ang in front of the school, he almost tensed up. Outwardly, he said he didn’t want to care about him, but behind the scenes, he still found someone to put the two men in the same dorm room together.
“Did you know so early?” Gu Ang blinked slowly, “You must have, at the time, hated me?”
Ye Fei confessed, “Yeah, I’m kind of an arrogant person, so how could I not be angry when I get dumped?”
Gu Ang slowly dropped his head back down and whispered the three words he was having a hard time saying, “I’m sorry.”
That apology came too late for him. At the time of the divorce was afraid to talk about it, for fear that Ye Fei would think more and guess the hidden agenda. Crossing over in the back wasn’t something he could tell him, and trying to keep his distance from him should not involve him anymore.
Ye Fei lowered his eyes, “Can you tell me why now?”
The question had troubled him for a long time, and he couldn’t think of any reason that could make Gu Ang so determined.
Gu Ang turned his head sideways to look at him, his eyes getting a little wet again. He hesitated for a long time; this life should be different from the one before. He spoke slowly, “The day after we first got married, my mother saw the marriage license. She was mad with the word double A and hysterically begged me to divorce you.”
Ye Fei, who knew how insane Qin LeHe could be when she launched into a frenzy, took a moment to digest before continuing, “So you agreed?”
Gu Ang shook his head, “I didn’t, I resisted refusing with all my might and then she locked me up and used such tactics to force me.”
Ye Fei finally strung things together. The day after his marriage to Gu Ang, Gu Ang suddenly disappeared. The first day was unannounced and no message was left. He used all his resources and searched almost everywhere he could. He even went from one to another to exclude the rival families that they had feuded with, and one by one, analyzed where Gu Ang might be.
For those seven days, he was hanging on almost by sheer force of will.
He couldn’t sleep, and was afraid to sleep. He was afraid that when he closed his eyes, he would hear the bad news about Gu Ang. It just never occurred to him that Gu Ang turned out to be hidden in a secret room in his own house.
He didn’t dare to alert Qin LeHe at that time, so he hid the disappearance of Gu Ang along with it. He was the one who had missed the boat, who had made a mistake and just missed it.
Ye Fei had heard Gu Ang speak lightly, but he could relate to the desperation he felt at the time. It was such a painful thing to fight bitterly for love and not get results. He forced his emotions down, “It’s been hard on you, I don’t blame you.”
Gu Ang shook his head again, “No, I didn’t compromise. The reason I was released later was because of my mother, she…” He choked back a sob and tried to control his calm to articulate the fact, “She couldn’t take it and killed herself. It was me.”
Gu Ang’s heart felt like it was being firmly squeezed as the suicide note flashed through his mind. Ye Fei was completely subdued, he thought of various reasons, but he didn’t expect the reasoning behind this to be so bloodthirsty. He didn’t dare to ask further, it would undoubtedly tear Gu Ang’s wounds open and put him through the pain of that time all over again. He took a few hard, deep breaths and took a long time to find his voice, “No more, I get it, we won’t reminisce.”
Gu Ang’s mouth flattened for a moment, still unable to hold back a tear that slipped quietly from the end of his left eye. Silently, with restrained great sadness. His lips were trembling even as he did so, and his voice was so hoarse he could barely speak. Gu Ang had a hard time before he could squeeze his voice out of his lips, “Big Brother, I’m sorry, I’m really sorry.”
“I don’t blame you anymore, really.” Ye Fei pressed his brow. How did this child bear such painful things by himself? He felt like his breath was about to freeze just thinking about it. Ye Fei wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes for him, “There, it’s all in the past.”
Gu Ang also let out a long sigh of relief, “Finally told you. You said that after crossing back and making changes, it must not have the same ending, right?”
“No, definitely not this time.” Ye Fei shook his head firmly. He finally understood why Gu Ang was so careful to accept his renewed advances. He was scared to death of repeating the same mistake.
Ye Fei remembered that when they came back yesterday, Gu Ang was in a hurry to go to Qin LeHe about the cheating. It turned out he wasn’t the only one who was anxious, either. Ye Fei didn’t dare to push him, but just carefully handed out the olive branch, “I know what you’re worried about, and we can both move things back, but you can’t ignore me anymore.”
Gu Ang nodded, “Okay.”
Ye Fei went on to demand, “No more angrily moving out of the house.”
Gu Ang replied again, “Okay.”
Ye Fei exhaled, “So, let me confirm one last thing.”
Gu Ang looked up at him, “What?”
Ye Fei’s lips twitched slightly, bringing tension to even a man as confident as he was, “Do you still love me?”
Gu Ang nodded heavily, flustered and eager for proof, “My feelings for you have never changed. Even more than ever, I love you.”
“That’s enough.” Ye Fei finally showed a little smile, “So, when were you going to give me my position back again?”
Embarrassed, Gu Ang went for his hand, then squeezed his fingers into his little by little, interlocking his fingers. He pursed his lips, “When my mom’s okay, okay?”
Ye Fei narrowed his eyes and didn’t speak. He knew Gu Ang’s mind and was afraid that if they were together in a proper way, it would irritate his mother. But it wasn’t like it was in his nature to sneak around and play underground. Gu Ang couldn’t wait to put a loudspeaker on and tell the world when he was with someone. But that was okay, as long as the feelings were clear, he could wait.
Gu Ang got anxious and explained in a panic, “I’m not a scumbag and I’m not trying to play with your feelings, I’m just worried about my mom…”
“Okay, I understand.” Ye Fei reached out and took the man into his arms, smoothing his back soothingly, “So I’ll keep chasing you, so think about it? It’s up to you to decide when to turn, the decision is yours.”
That was spoiling him to no end.
Gu Ang’s heart was warmed to the brim and felt a little like crying again, “Okay.”
Today has been a day of big falls and upsets, like a life and death catastrophe. Sole ending, and it was kind of a happy ending. He felt as if he was stupid and would say nothing else but yes. Gu Ang reached out and wrapped his arms around Ye Fei, feeling the hug with fondness. He demanded in a low voice, “Can you call me Light (Guang Guang) again? I haven’t heard you call me that in a long time.”
Ye Fei’s palm touched his face, rubbing his cheek for a moment, and kissed him very gently on the side. The most cherished one was lost and found, and he didn’t even dare to push hard for fear that if he touched him, it would be a broken dream. He spoke of his love in the most tender of kisses, “Light, I love you.”
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Dog Ye really, this kind of chasing people, everything was done (light a cigarette)