CH 15

When Xu Juan wanted to sleep with someone, he had never once failed to get what he wanted. 

There was only one particularly embarrassing incident: He once had a female companion, she was quite pretty and her personality was decent too, she was just slightly problematic. Back then, Xu Juan had been together with her for over two months. It wasn’t clear whose nonsensical advice she had taken; Perhaps she felt she should play hard-to-get with men, that the more reserved a girl was, the more value she possessed. As such, she kept stringing Xu Juan along, and even when they were both in bed she wouldn’t let him touch, bashfully saying: “I’m still a virgin, you know.”

Xu Juan had felt like his head was about to explode. What century was it already? She was still pulling such a trick.

He indeed liked inexperienced beauties, but it wasn’t the “chastity” that he cared about, he merely found inexperienced people more adorable. Also, their reactions when he flirted with them were more entertaining.

In the end, that girl had suddenly blurted “I’m a virgin” in bed and scared Xu Juan to death, fearing that he would have to take on a heavy responsibility if he slept with her. That night, they didn’t do anything at all, and he ended things with her the next day. 

This incident once became a standing joke in their circle. Xu Juan didn’t know why, but when he faced Pei Yu today, he suddenly remembered it again.

He furtively asked Pei Yu: “Pei laoshi, are you still a virgin?”

“……”

Pei Yu was already madly nervous when he was pressed against the kitchen counter, but after hearing those words, his face felt like it was burning to the point of melting. A trace of shame arose from his anger, but he put on a serious face and ordered: “Get out, I want to clean the kitchen.”

“Why won’t you answer me?” Xu Juan was a master of taking advantage. Pei Yu’s attitude towards him today was too good and he no longer knew what limits were, “I’m just a little curious, that’s all.”

Pei Yu ignored him, pushing him towards the exit.

Thus, Xu Juan had no option but to temporarily surrender. He suppressed his restless thoughts and obediently sat in the living room, waiting for Pei Yu to finish cleaning up so they could head downstairs for their walk.

The evening breeze in late August was still sultry, warm as it fell upon their faces. 

The aura surrounding Pei Yu was even more scorching. He seemed to be provoked into anger by Xu Juan constantly going overboard with his words. He maintained a look of displeasure, refusing to chat.

Xu Juan had no choice but to talk to himself: “You’re angry? Are you really angry? Pei Yu?”

Pei Yu stayed silent and Xu Juan thought to himself: What’s with him? Is it worth going to this extent? All I did was accidentally expose him as a virgin. It’s not even a big deal.

“Hey.” Xu Juan prodded at Pei Yu’s arm, “I really didn’t mean anything by that. I won’t make fun of you, either. What are you being mad about?” 

Pei Yu didn’t answer.

Xu Juan said: “Are you feeling ashamed of it? It’s true that men enjoy bragging about the number of beautiful ladies they’ve hooked up with, how experienced they are, how charismatic they are, but what do these all prove? A man’s charm and value aren’t dependent on how many people they’ve slept with, don’t you agree? That’s how a loser thinks, I’ve never thought of it that way, so of course, I would never judge you based on this. Even if you’ve slept with many people, so what? The most important thing is enjoying the process, not using it as a way to show off. Am I right?” 

Xu Juan spouted word after word, but he didn’t expect Pei Yu’s focus to not be on this.

“Oh, so did you enjoy yourself?” Pei Yu suddenly said, “Such spectacular understanding… It seems your experience is plentiful.”

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“……”

With just a few more words, he had become frivolous again.

They walked a couple of rounds outside, then Xu Juan retrieved a box of condoms from his car and dragged Pei Yu, who was feigning calm, back upstairs. 

At this time, it was already past ten. Xu Juan undressed in front of Pei Yu, and since he wore less in the summer, it didn’t take more than a moment.

Standing fully naked at the bathroom door, he called out to Pei Yu: “Pei Yu, let’s shower together.”

“No, you first.”

He wasn’t sure if it was a misconception, but Pei Yu’s voice seemed unnatural, it sounded like he was so nervous it was trembling. 

The slight tremor in that voice drifted over to his ear, teasing Xu Juan’s heart until it became unbearable. At that moment, his infatuation with Pei Yu peaked –– How could such an adorable person exist? Good looking, innocent and serious, and most importantly, such an amazing Pei Yu would belong to him tonight.

Xu Juan showered and washed up as quickly as he could, and Pei Yu was next to enter the bathroom.

While Pei Yu was taking a shower, he came into the bedroom and laid down on Pei Yu’s bed, closing his eyes and counting down the time.

It was as if time had slowed down. 

With every sluggish minute and second that elapsed, his emotions surged, and he absentmindedly realized that he had fallen in love with Pei Yu.

But his love wasn’t worth much, so he didn’t take it seriously.

Even so, despite it being a brief flicker of love, it was still something beautiful.

Being brief didn’t mean it wasn’t real; At least, at this moment, Xu Juan was sincerely moved –– If he wasn’t moved even in the slightest, how could there be happiness? 

He counted to the twentieth minute, Pei Yu was finally done washing up.

The door to the bedroom was opened, then closed again.

The gentle “click” of the door lock was like a signal and Xu Juan opened his eyes, catching his first glimpse of Pei Yu without clothes on.

He was somewhat taken aback; Pei Yu was more impressive than he had imagined. It was a typical “thin when dressed, buff when undressed” figure. His physique looked very good, he had all the expected contours and none of the lines were vague: His waist, legs, shoulders. Every part was flawless, if there was a camera, he could directly become the male model of a poster. 

But as for the size of his lower half, it was obstructed from view by the bath towel.

That wasn’t important, though.

Xu Juan was a little excited. He leaned against the headboard and lifted the corner of the quilt, cueing for Pei Yu to get in bed.

To his surprise, Pei Yu turned the lights off with a smack. 

“……”

In the darkness, the bed sank slightly beside him. Xu Juan felt a damp heat like an invisible compass, he moved in that direction and pulled Pei Yu into his embrace, pressing him into the bed.

The body beneath him was tense, reactions inexperienced, like a secret treasure that had yet to be discovered, attracting all of his attention.

Xu Juan was also strung with nerves, he was unable to control himself fully. While he was threading his right hand into Pei Yu’s hair, he used a little too much force when gripping, feeling Pei Yu’s instinctive resistance. He lowered his head and kissed him tenderly. 

Kissing in bed in the middle of the night wasn’t like kissing during the day.

The night was a breeding ground for hormones. When it was pitch dark, a person’s sense of shame would be drastically reduced, and their rationality abandoned. The two of them became creatures dominated by pleasure.

“……I never expected that you would agree.”

In the interval between their intimacy, Xu Juan had his arms around Pei Yu’s neck, his lips pressed to Pei Yu’s as he spoke: “I thought someone as traditional and who got shy as easily as you would never agree to me like this. Now I know, you’re not as conservative as I thought. You’d dare to do it, but you’d be shyer than a little girl while doing it, am I right, Pei laoshi?” 

His voice carried a hint of a laugh, and without giving Pei Yu a chance to retort, he kissed him harder. He shoved all those unspoken words back into Pei Yu’s mouth, personally bit them into pieces and swallowed them. Then, he used his tongue to nurse every distinct sound into gasps, both dominant and intimate, wet and full of sexual intent.

Pei Yu was completely under his control, it took him a long while before he managed to squeeze out a sentence: “How am I shy, I just…”

“Just what?”

“Find it very unreal.” Pei Yu said, “How long have we even known each other? And we’ve actually reached this point. I feel insecure, it’s like… Just yesterday, I was too poor to eat, but today, I’ve suddenly won a hundred million in the lottery. It’s all like a dream, but it’s also very––” 

Xu Juan interrupted him: “Am I a lottery ticket? I just adore you, that’s a guarantee, not something random that depends on luck. Don’t let your imagination run wild.”

“Is that so?” Pei Yu had experience in dating, but the kind of experience he had, there was no difference if he had it or not, he couldn’t use it to gauge.

The more intense the happiness and thrill that Xu Juan gave him, the deeper he fell into the clouds, until he was unable to tell left from right, up from down.

Perhaps this was the feeling of falling in love. He found it difficult to believe that he had fallen for Xu Juan in such a short period of time. But since he himself was moved in this short period of time, it made sense that Xu Juan liked him, there shouldn’t be a need to doubt. 

Pei Yu abandoned the struggle in his heart. He was kissed until he was dizzy, electricity running through his soul.

Xu Juan smoothed his hand downwards from his shoulder until it rested against his waist.

Xu Juan had gotten hard ages ago, but it wasn’t unusual for him to have a reaction. Unexpectedly, Pei Yu was the same. The bath towel that had been covering him was loosened and tossed from the bed, and a hard cock was pressed against him. Because it was pressed too tightly to him, Xu Juan could feel Pei Yu becoming thicker, bumping between his thighs, unwavering, possessing suppressed energy, as if ready to attack.

Indeed, all men were the same. It didn’t matter how pure or shy they were out of bed, once they got in bed, their true nature would be exposed. 

This didn’t surprise Xu Juan at all, but what he didn’t expect was, Pei Yu was more aggressive than he had thought. He hadn’t even gotten handsy yet, but Pei Yu suddenly turned over and reversed their positions, pressing down on him.

Xu Juan was briefly stunned. Pei Yu embraced him clumsily, parting his legs with quite a bit of force, then tried to get in between them.

His movements were unpracticed and the clumsy way he did things made it hurt a little. But Pei Yu’s mannerisms were very tender, he held him very tightly, keeping them cheek to cheek, intimately kissing him.

Xu Juan’s scalp went numb and tingly, faintly getting the impression that he had become Pei Yu’s prey, the kind of prey that was encircled within his arms to be slowly devoured. 

Sure enough, when Pei Yu saw that he was in a daze, he assumed the other disdained him for being too awkward, such that he didn’t even know how to make love. But it was true that Pei Yu didn’t quite understand how it worked between two men –– he vaguely knew the way of things, but when it came to the little details, it was as if his eyes had been covered by a black cloth.

Pei Yu was slightly embarrassed: “Am I doing it wrong?”

“……Yeah. Lie down, let me do it.” The atmosphere was too awkward, Xu Juan’s mood had already halved. But he couldn’t just tell Pei Yu upfront that he had never been fucked, neither did he want to be, he only wanted to be the one doing the fucking.

These words were too uncouth, he feared that his innocent deity wouldn’t be able to take them. 

“Let go of me first.” Xu Juan convinced himself to be more tolerant, Pei Yu was a rookie who didn’t know anything, this shouldn’t be offensive –– Besides, this wasn’t something to be classified as offensive or not, Pei Yu was the partner he was dating, not a little celebrity that he was sponsoring.

Xu Juan inhaled softly: “Did you hear me? Don’t hug me so tightly…”

He gave Pei Yu a little push, but unexpectedly, Pei Yu refused to let go, keeping him trapped under him: “Is my technique too poor?” Pei Yu asked him softly, “You seem upset?”

“……I’m not upset.” 

“You’re upset.” Pei Yu seemed to care about this very much. He wasn’t very confident in bed affairs, to begin with, and after receiving such an unfavourable response, he was now more apprehensive.

He endured it for a while, then gave Xu Juan a sudden kiss, his face flushed. As if throwing all caution to the wind, he said: “What should I do, Xu Juan, will you teach me?”

Xu Juan: “……”

How troublesome. Indeed, messing around with straight men would result in retribution. Oh, wait, retribution had already arrived –– Straight Man Pei was absolutely unaware that he could be the one getting fucked. The moment they got into bed, the other only wanted to fuck him. 

Xu Juan couldn’t help imagining himself being fucked, and the visual had him in a daze for quite a few seconds.

But he had to admit, Pei Yu was very adorable, and his clumsiness was also adorable. However, it was also comical to some degree. It made him feel like he wasn’t acting in an explicit adult film, but instead in a damn romcom.

So much so that his affectionate mood was spoilt. Briefly put: He was no longer horny.

“I… I’m a little tired.” Xu Juan chickened out for the first time in bed. He gave Pei Yu a half-hearted kiss, “Let’s rest earlier, we’ll discuss this next time.” 

Once said, he squirmed out of Pei Yu’s arms and turned around to lay down, leaving Pei Yu with a view of his back.

“……Xu Juan.” He heard Pei Yu call out to him, at a loss, he even sounded a little hurt.

But Xu Juan was also very hurt. He had just fallen in love with Pei Yu, but at this moment, he felt he no longer loved him that much. As expected, his love was worthless, to be completely wiped out when met with the slightest breeze.

When Pei Yu was faced with his fluctuating attitude and saw how he was suddenly ignoring him, he got angry as well. 

Peeved, he abruptly laid down with his back to Xu Juan, reaching out with a sudden tug, pulling the quilt over him completely to his own side, not leaving him even one corner.

Xu Juan: “……”