Chapter 644 In The Darkness



There was only darkness in front of me, an eternal nothingness, an abyss like no other, I tried to move my body but I wasn't sure if it actually moved, I wasn't even sure if my eyes were even open. In this dark place, I could not smell anything, I could not feel anything and I could not hear anything, right now I felt like I'm talking but I was unsure if my mouth is moving or if this is just the voice in my head.

I tried to use my spiritual senses but even that didn't work. In such a place, the only reason I know I still exist is because of my own consciousness, talking to myself like this helps me. I wasn't even sure if time was passing by in this weird place, was I here for a few minutes, or has it been more than an hour now? Time did it even exist in such a place?

In this place there was nothing but uncertainty, I wasn't even sure if this is truly part of the so-called test... Wait a minute, test? What test?... Now that I think about it, why am I even here?... What is this, I can't remember anything concrete, no matter how hard I try it's like a fog is blocking my thoughts.

It feels like when I got here I still had that memory but as time passes by my memories seem to be like clouds in the sky. They're there but for some reason, he could not grasp them, it felt like knowing something but not fully knowing it. 

I can't even remember my own name, but I'm sure I had a body once or is that just a fantasy of mine? No that can't be it... I'm sure that I had a body before, and that I was somebody, but then who am I and why am I here? All I can get from my vague memories is this is a test of some sort.

Once again I tried to see aside from my consciousness what else was there. If I'm truly alive shouldn't there be a heartbeat or any other sign? No, in this place except for my own consciousness, there is no sound so how can I know if my heart is still beating? Maybe instead of trying to figure out things about me, I better figure out what kind of place this is. 

Even now as I'm talking I'm not even sure if my words are just in my head or did I speak from my mouth. Alright, it's no use thinking so frantically, first I need to calm my mind and spirit. 

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I guess in this situation all I can do is wait, if this is a test then there must be a proctor. Surely at some point, the person who created this test will appear. 

I then started to wait in this endless darkness with nothing but my own thoughts. The flow of time in this place was unknown but to me, it felt like weeks, then months, then years went by, yet no matter how long I waited no one came. It wouldn't be so bad if I was just experiencing this continuous nothingness, but the more I stay in this place the more my memories seem to fade. 

If before my memories were simply vague but still there, now one by one my memories seem to be disappearing. Even though I'm supposed to not feel anything in this place, for some reason it seems like this darkness suddenly became cold. What is happening to me, what is this feeling I'm having?

Death is cruel but this is worst than death, for some reason that thought suddenly came to my mind. I shook it off and continued to observe this weird feeling I'm having. 

At first, I was simply curious about this growing feeling that I could not comprehend but the more it stayed the more things I felt. Even without my memories, even without knowing if I still have a body or not, something started to bubble up deep within me. What is this, not only is the darkness invading from the outside it is even invading my own consciousness... Is this feeling perhaps, fear? Am I actually afraid?

I might not remember my own name, nor can I remember my own experiences, I'm not even sure if my thoughts are my own, but I'm sure I have never experienced such fear before. It's not like I have never experienced fear, even without my memory I'm sure I had experienced a few instances of fear, any living being would have such emotion, but this kind of fear that threatens my consciousness to such a degree should be a first for me. 

Still, it's not only fear I feel at this moment, it seems like there is another emotion that came at the same time as fear.

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Unlike the fear that was spreading inside of him which was like the darkness surrounding him, something burning like a bright sun was also spreading within him. Different from the unknown feeling of fear this new feeling was something his very soul could never forget. From within his fear, excitement, and joy sprouted. 

As the fear grew for some reason so did his excitement, the two grew proportionally, in fact, the more they grew within him the feeling of excitement slowly grew faster than the fear. 

He no longer cared how long he was in the darkness, he no longer cared to know who he was or whatever memory he had, all he cared about at this moment was if the fear would be able to overwhelm him or if he could overcome the great fear that was threatening his very existence.

When that very thought was born into his mind the fear within him no longer stood a chance of growing beyond his excitement. The cloudy vague memories in his mind started to clear up, it was then he could not help but smile. 

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I remember now!!! I am an incarnation of the Strongest Mortal Soul, the former Demon Lord Kretos, I am Ren!!!

Once he recalled this memory the fiery passion to surpass the darkness surrounding him burst outwards. The darkness was blown away by a light like a burning sun.