C57 I'm Sorry I Love You

After a series of knocks on the door, Lei Yunhan quickly wrapped the bandage around her hand.

"Yun Han." Shi Qing stuck out half of her body, "Let me see your wound."

"No, it's fine." Lei Yunhan arranged the gauze with one hand and ignored Shi Qing's request.

"Let me take a look. That way, I can feel at ease." Shi Qing insisted on undoing his gauze, so Lei Yunhan quickly retracted her hand.

"I'm a doctor. I'm well aware that there are medicines that are inconvenient to open. Rest!" He got up and went to the bathroom.

"Do you need my help?" Shi Qing was unwilling to accept this.

"I'll brush my teeth, wash my face, and have one hand. You should hurry up and go to sleep. Staying up late at night is not good for your health. " With that, he closed the bathroom door.

Shi Qing was a bit depressed. Even after so many years, Lei Yunhan was still avoiding her sometimes. She opened the drawer and took out the contract agreement that she had prepared.

He hadn't thought that he would really have to come this far.

"Why haven't you rested yet?" Lei Yunhan stayed in the washroom for a long time before coming out. She was surprised to see Shi Qing sitting on the bed.

"Yun Han, let's get a divorce!" Shi Qing lowered her head and spoke in an exceptionally serious manner. She did not see the fear in Lei Yunhan's expression.

"Stop messing around, hurry up and sleep." Lei Yunhan looked away, not looking at her. As she did, she saw the divorce agreement on the table, and knew that Shi Qing wasn't just joking.

A wave of fear swept over him.

"I'm not messing around, I'm serious!" Shi Qing raised her head and looked at him with eyes full of grievance.

"What nonsense! What do you think about every day? " Lei Yunhan rarely spoke with such a loud voice. When Shi Qing heard him, she instinctively dodged to the side.

"Lei Yunhan, how long do you want me to hold you back!" When Shi Qing raised her head again, her eyes were filled with tears.

"What nonsense are you spouting!"

"After all these years, even though you say that you hate children, don't you actually like them more than anyone else? Otherwise, you wouldn't have risked your life to save Nian Bing. You wouldn't have stood by the kindergarten and watched the teasing children with a smile. I know all about it … "But …" He just didn't dare to admit it.

Her voice trailed off, her shoulders shaking, tears streaming down her face. She could not speak the rest of the sentence.

"No, I don't like children. I saved Nian Bing because he is my niece. Shi Qing, can you please stop thinking about these things!" Lei Yunhan's tone grew heavier and firmly denied it. Shi Qing's crying gradually grew louder.

"Yun Han, I can't tell you to go find another woman. I can't say it, but I know as long as you're with me, we'll never have children. Because of my body, you gave up on becoming a father. Yun Han, you shouldn't have endured all of this. " Lei Yunhan sighed and walked over to Shi Qing. She lifted her hand and pulled her into his embrace.

"Qing, don't say that. I'm satisfied. It doesn't matter whether I have children or not."

"Let's end it this way. I don't want to live anymore. Every day, I live in self-blame. I'm afraid of looking at others' eyes. I'm afraid of seeing my child. I'm really scared …" She cried very fiercely in Lei Yunhan's arms. Lei Yunhan's pajamas were soaked with her tears. He lightly sighed, and kept stroking her back.

"Don't cry, it's okay. "Rest early. You can't stay up late."

Shi Qing slowly left his embrace. She wiped her tears away and looked at Lei Yunhan with her red and swollen eyes.

"Yun Han, I beg of you, please divorce me." I don't want to live in self-reproach and pain. " Shi Qing knew that she was too selfish and dared to make such a request to Lei Yunhan. However, if she continued to waste more time, ten years, fifteen years, the longer it dragged on, the more she regretted it.

She had been in love with him for too long.

Lei Yunhan looked at Shi Qing who was like this. He could understand her pain. He had blamed all of his mistakes on himself, but he could deceive everyone, not her.

"Qing, it will be fine. Don't be afraid." He squatted down and looked her straight in the eye. His eyes were like gentle waves, causing her to sink into the abyss, unable to extricate herself.

"I can't wait any longer. I can't leave you to grow lonely. Yun Han, even if you're divorced, you'll always be my only love. It's just that we let each other go." Actually, the reason I'm returning to my hometown this time is to get a divorce. I've wasted six years of your time, and my best life is not to be wasted by a person like me. " She lifted her hand and ran her fingers along his high nose, the face, the figure she loved, the thousands of days and nights they had spent together.

Shi Qing had once believed Lei Yunhan's words about hating her child, but today, he saved her life without any hesitation. When he spoke to her with such a gentle gaze, she couldn't be his regret.

"I'm begging you, let's get a divorce!" she begged.

"Shi Qing!" Lei Yunhan struggled in pain, but it was as if she was shackled as someone choked her throat, making it hard for her to say a single word.

"I'm sorry, I love you." Shi Qing flipped to the last page of the divorce agreement, picked up a pen and wrote down her name before handing it to Lei Yunhan.

"I know."

Lei Yunhan picked up the pen. It was extremely strenuous for him to write the injured name. His words were crooked, he couldn't even write a few simple strokes.

"Shi Qing, will you really be happy like this?"

That day, Lei Yunhan slept in a guest room at the side.

In the dark room, Shi Qing was lying on the double bed. There was no warmth that she was most familiar with. Shi Qing's eyes were empty as she stared blankly into space.

Perhaps, it wouldn't be long before she would regret it, just like how her heart was about to tear apart.

She was tired, very sleepy, very tired, but she could not sleep.

The moment she closed her eyes, the sight of Lei Yunhan's face appeared before her. It was what he had said just now, and the look in his eyes when he was sad and hesitant.

It was better to let each other go than to torture each other.

A wry smile appeared on her face.

Her heart was beating so fast, it was as if it had jumped out of her chest. She held her chest, the waves of pain making her dizzy, her breathing became more and more urgent, she kept touching the medicine on the bedside table, knocking the water off the table and onto the ground.

When the sleepless Lei Yunhan heard the commotion, she quickly entered the room. Seeing Shi Qing who was panting heavily on the bed with her body curled up, he quickly opened the drawer and took out some medicine and placed it in her mouth.

"Are you sick again?" Shi Qing swallowed the medicine and leaned against the bed. Her breathing gradually calmed down.

"I didn't sleep well tonight." Shi Qing didn't say much.

The expression on Lei Yunhan's face changed slightly. He didn't say anything else as he turned around and walked out of the room.

Shi Qing slightly closed her eyes. Her heart felt much better after taking the pill. She had a congenital heart disease. Even now, she was affected by it because of poor treatment. Although she could be operated on, the risk was too great.