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"Bang ~ ~ ~"

Qiao Chenfei was silent for a long time before he slowly opened his eyes.

"That was my second year in America." He looked at an unknown spot in the distance and said in a calm voice, "It's your birthday, I miss you so much, so I went to a bar to drink. On the way home in the middle of the night, I met a black guy who robbed me, because I was a little drunk and I was in a bad mood, so I fought him head-on. During the fight, I took his gun, but I don't know why I hit him so hard."

"I was panicking. I felt like the whole world had collapsed. Just as I was panicking and didn't know what to do, Yvonne drove by and saw me sitting there like a fool. She came over and asked me what had happened. I knew her from before, and she had always been pursuing me, but I rejected her. At that time, when I saw her in that situation, I couldn't care less and just treated her as a lifesaver and told her what happened. She said she could help me find someone to take the blame for what happened, but the condition was that I marry her. "

"I was shocked that she would ask such a thing, but I didn't want to go to jail, so I agreed without thinking further. It wasn't long after I married her that I learned that the robbery had been a plot by her to get me to marry her. I was furious when I found out and asked her to divorce me. She refused and threatened to put me in jail again if I divorced her. I had to compromise and continue to be married to her, but in the past two years, she and I have never been a real couple. "

"I had a painful day, so I blamed it all on you. I thought it was all your doing, so I came back to get revenge on you. In fact, I've always loved you from the bottom of my heart, I've always loved you, I've never changed. "

When he finished, he let out a long sigh, but it did not dissipate the deep grief that filled him.

I stared at him in a daze, unable to believe what was going on.

My whole body crumbled.

"Chen Fei, I'm sorry, I've harmed you! I'm the one who killed you! "I'm sorry!" I clung to him, weeping and wrenching.

Before this, I have never regretted breaking up with him and marrying Lou Shaotang. He had always believed that his decision was right, that he could fly higher and live better without me as a burden. But now, after hearing what he had to say, I regretted it. I regretted it so much that I hated myself even more!

If it hadn't been for my selfishness and self-righteousness, he wouldn't have gone away to America in frustration, he wouldn't have met Yvonne, he wouldn't have met that terrible thing.

He was right, I was the cause of all his suffering!

It's me, I've ruined his life, ruined his happiness!

"Chen Fei, Chen Fei."

I'm in so much pain and so much hate!

Why, why am I always hurting him!

I don't know if he had ever been through anything else in his American years, or if there was anything more painful or more terrible than that, but I didn't care about him at all when he came back.

What a bastard I am!

Even if I told him I was sorry, and that I couldn't change anything by repenting, I just couldn't forgive myself.

He raised his hand and slapped his own face. He slapped his own face, fiercely and mercilessly.

"Xiao Ying, what are you doing?" Seeing that I was hitting her fiercely, Qiao Chenfei nervously grabbed my hand to stop me.

"It's not your fault." he said, with a wry smile, and reassured me. "You said it was fate, all of it."

"No!" I sobbed. I didn't want to admit my fucked-up fate anymore, so I blamed it all on myself.

In the past, Qiao Chenfei was the one who couldn't bear for me to cry the most, but now, seeing my face full of tears, he felt even more heartbroken than I was, "Don't cry, Xiao Ying." As he wept, he dotingly wiped away my tears.

His tenderness for me was too much for my life, and my debt to him was a debt I would never be able to pay in my life.

At this moment, besides hating myself, I hate the heavens even more. He hated why it allowed Little Yu to get sick.

Because that illness completely changed me, Qiao Chenfei, and also changed Lou Shaotang's fate for the three of us.

But right now, Lou Shaotang and I are about to be blissful, while Qiao Chenfei is trapped in an abyss of dark pain. It's unknown when we will be able to see the light of day again.

Probably because he saw that I was unable to stop crying and wanted to ease my loss of control, Qiao Chenfei changed the topic and said: "Xiao Ying, actually, there is something I did not tell you."

I wiped my tears away and asked in a choked voice, "What?" I was particularly afraid that he would say something that would hurt my feelings.

Qiao Chenfei bit his lower lip and said: "Originally, I was going to marry you."

I was slightly taken aback and looked at him quizzically.

His face lit up with shame and he said, "Because I love you so much that I don't want to give you up. So I think Yvonne is in France all year round, and as long as I do my confidential work well, she won't know. Who would have thought that she would suddenly come to Seahold to find me, and even found out that I wanted to marry you. "

"I was so flustered that I was afraid she would tell you, so I lied and said I was taking revenge on you. But she had already made up her mind that she would take you to live on a small island in Oceania after church service. She wouldn't find you. "

I was so shocked by his words that I forgot my sorrow and stared at him in disbelief. "This, this is ridiculous!" I said, "How can you be sure that I'm willing to abandon everything and go with you?"

"I'm not sure. "But this is the only way I can think of. I can only give it a try." His tone was helpless, and he could tell that this was indeed the only way out.

After saying that, he immediately laughed self-mockingly, "Perhaps it is really the will of heaven, this game is destined to be my loss."

He stopped talking and closed his eyes, as if trying to suppress the pain in his heart.

I didn't say anything, didn't dare to say it, afraid that it would set off another wave in his heart and mine.

After a moment he opened his eyes and spoke again. "Yvonne stopped me on my way to church. She knew all my plans. "I'm going back to her cage."

"After that, you and Lou Shaotang came to the hotel to find me. The words I said to you were actually all because of her. Xiao Ying, when I saw you cry back then, I hurt a thousand times more than you. So when Lou Shaotang hit me, I didn't retaliate at all. I really hoped that he could beat me to death so I wouldn't have to suffer anymore. "

Perhaps it was because after letting out all the pent-up frustration that had accumulated in his heart for so many years, his heart felt comfortable. At this time, Qiao Chenfei looked much more calm and relaxed than before, but his eyes were still very sad.

I also managed to control my excitement, gradually calming down in the cold wind, but the tears still hung on my face.

"Is it cold?" A gust of wind blew past. Qiao Chenfei hooked the hair on my face behind my ears, then took off his coat and draped it over my shoulders.

Looking at his gentle face, my heart was sad, tears unconsciously rolled down my face again.

He shouldn't be unhappy!

"Chen Fei, are you and Yvonne really unable to get married? you'll be restricted by her for the rest of your life? " I was not willing to accept this, and I was not willing to accept it either.

"Very difficult." He shook his head and said in a resigned tone, "As long as she doesn't agree, we can't leave."

I was confused. "What exactly is Yvonne's background and why is she so unreasonable? "He said that he would kill her, and he said that he would take the blame for his actions just like that. How could he be so lawless?"

Seeing that I was extremely disgusted and criticized by Yvonne, Qiao Chenfei frowned and said seriously, "Yvonne's family is really powerful, it's the kind of family that you and I can't imagine."

"Is she a French aristocrat?" Thinking of the powerful aura that she was emitting, I guessed.

"Aristocrat?" Qiao Chenfei laughed in disdain, then pursed his lips, hesitating whether he should tell me or not.

I stared at him, more and more puzzled.

After a few seconds, Qiao Chenfei said: "She is not a noble, she is a gangster."

"The Mafia?" At the same time, the image of the Godfather appeared in his mind.

Seeing that I had such a huge reaction, Qiao Chenfei chuckled, "Back then, like you, I was also very shocked when I found out about this."

"Is, is she really a Mafia?" Too much dog blood! I don't believe it.

Qiao Chenfei curled his lips, "They aren't called 'Black Hand Group', but they do similar things."

"Chen Fei, how exactly did you and Yvonne get to know each other?" I was so scared listening to it that I couldn't understand how Qiao Chenfei could be related to a dangerous person like Yvonne.

"Misfortune." Qiao Chenfei laughed self-deprecatingly and told me that when Yvonne went on a trip to the United States and had dinner at the restaurant where he worked, he lost his wallet and didn't have the money to pay for the meal. At that time, he was moved by Yvonne's kindness and lent her some money, so they got to know each other like this. What he did not expect was that his good intentions would be rewarded in such a way.

"Yeah." He then looked fixedly at me, "So Xiao Ying, are you willing to elope with me?"

"…"

I stared at him blankly, not expecting him to say that. Seeing his dark eyes twinkle with anticipation, my heart ached. I couldn't elope with him, so I was doomed to fail him again.

Seeing that I was frowning and not saying a word, Qiao Chenfei's eyes darkened once again, but he quickly laughed, "I was joking with you." His face was relaxed, "I know, you don't love me anymore, you love Lou Shaotang." But his voice was low.

"How do you know?" I was very surprised, it had not even been twenty-four hours since I confessed to Lou Shaotang, and even I myself wasn't sure how I felt towards him, so how could Qiao Chenfei possibly know?

Qiao Chenfei smiled slightly, and laughed very faintly. "I'm not blind, I could tell long ago. It's just that you didn't realize it yourself. "

I was stunned for a moment before I finally understood what he had said that day. So he had already known about it, and knew that my sincerity was no longer with him, so he gave it to Lou Shaotang.

I pursed my lips and wanted to say something, but it didn't seem like the right time to say it. If you stabbed someone and said that you were sorry or that you were going to sew their wound, that would be too much of an act.

Thus, I had no choice but to avert my eyes and look at the city lights that stretched down the mountain. My heart couldn't light up no matter how hard I looked.

Their love for Qiao Chenfei had passed, but their guilt and guilt towards him persisted.

"Have you expressed your feelings to each other?" After a long while, Qiao Chenfei asked again.

I turned my face, his mournful face, and squeezed a faint "Mmm" out of my throat.

"That's good." He immediately laughed, but his laughter sounded extremely bitter, "Xiao Ying, you have to be happy." He said, "Although I hate Lou Shaotang, he loves you and treats you very well. "I can see it."

His words hit me again. I made him unhappy, but he blessed me instead.

Why was he so great? Why did it make me feel even more guilty and guilty about him?

I purposely ignored the bitter smile on his face and endured the pain in my heart. With a tearful smile, I joked in a slightly relaxed tone, "How did you figure it out again?!"

After he had finished speaking, we all fell silent again, and then, very tacitly, we stopped looking at each other and looked at the distant night sky.

The neon lights of the city were so bright that not a single star could be seen in the night sky, except for a few floating clouds.

The small vendors had all packed up and left. The university couples had also disappeared. The vast platform was empty and silent. The bone-piercing wind whistled in his ears, and the entire atmosphere was extremely depressing.

"Xiao Ying." After an unknown period of time, Qiao Chenfei's gloomy voice came into my ears.

I looked at him again. " "What?"

He looked at me. There was no starlight in his eyes, no hope, only the calm of his heart like still water.

"Thank you for loving me." he said lightly, his voice full of helpless sadness.

His heart instantly ached again. But I can't be as sad as he is now, and he'll be even more upset. Thus, she endured her tears and smiled brightly at him, "Chen Fei, I thank you too for giving me the most beautiful youth."

Yes, we have known each other since the first year of college, and in the four years we were in love, he did his best to give me joy and laughter, to prop up a blue sky for me with his gentleness.

He was the warmest companion of my youth, the most beautiful memory I have ever carved into my mind.

Qiao Chenfei let out a wry smile, pursed his lips, took a deep breath, and his eyes became moist again.

"Xiao Ying." Moments later, he said with a trembling voice, "Can you let me kiss you one last time? "In the future, we will be friends."

The sadness on his face made my heart ache, and I clenched my hands into fists in my pockets as I fought back the tears that were starting to well up in my eyes.

He owed him too much, so much that he probably wouldn't be able to repay him for a few more lifetimes. It would be too cold and cruel of me to refuse his last, small request.

"Alright." I smiled and nodded vigorously.

Qiao Chenfei is someone who knows his limits. Although he kissed me on the lips, he didn't touch the inside of the lips and only rolled around on mine.

He kissed me hard, as if to show me how reluctant, unwilling, and reluctant he was to see me.

Yes, I know, I know all about it.

The sad thing about the end of a relationship is not the end itself, but the fact that someone has come out,

The other person was still inside, unwilling to come out.

Chen Fei, please trust me, I will help you walk out of the darkness.

I hugged him and kissed him deeply. It was the last tender thing I could give him.

For a moment I tasted salt, his tears, and mine.

We both knew that after this kiss, we would say our goodbyes once and for all.

For a long time, he didn't release me. When I felt a cold and ruthless ray of light shooting towards us, I couldn't help but shiver and abruptly open my eyes.

When I saw the person standing less than three meters behind Qiao Chenfei, I went completely stiff.

"Lo, Lou Shaotang."