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What if I don't have a child?

"Speaking of fate, you and I are not comparable." I smiled as I looked at Xu Manli. With jealousy and envy, I said, "mama, you gave birth to a son, and not only did you adopt a daughter-in-law, you even adopted a son-in-law."

Puff — -

The scalding tea was poured all over Xu Manli. She jumped up with a scream and quickly brushed the tea leaves and tea off of her clothes.

I heard that the clothes she was wearing were limited edition and had only been worn a few times.

Xia Peiyun can't care about tearing it up with me, she was the one who caused this trouble, she also took out a tissue and hurriedly helped Xu Manli to wipe her clothes.

Looking at the two ladies before me who had been replaced by a flustered and haughty look, I gloat as my lips curl up. Turning my eyes, I accidentally look towards the other side.

Zheng Keer was looking at me and when she saw me looking at her, she gave me a gentle and grateful smile.

I was stunned. Was I wrong? Why did she look at me so strangely?

I stared at her suspiciously, and she looked straight at me, her smile devoid of guilt or pretence, pure and open.

It seems that my eyesight is playing tricks on me.

Relieved, I looked towards Shen Yiru. From beginning to end, it was as if she had never been in this living room. She did not say a word as she continued drinking her tea. However, now that she saw the faint smile on the corner of her mouth, it turned out that she wasn't pretending as if she didn't see it at all.

Heh, I laughed in disdain in my heart. Ignoring those scheming clowns and clowns, I stood up and went upstairs.

The moment I went back to my room, I laid on my bed. I was quite tired from fighting with them, and the most important thing was the huge boulder that was pressing down on my heart. It caused me to be unable to catch my breath.

At this thought, I was unable to sleep again, so I immediately got up and took out the report that was hidden under the wardrobe.

Just as he was about to go around the coil, he caught a glimpse of the lower right corner and his hand stopped.

No wonder I felt weird last time, it turned out to be a smudge that looked like oil.

Strange, where did it come from? I don't think he took this report at dinner.

I can't remember.

Sigh, I don't want to think about it anymore.

Rubbing my temples, I opened the bag, pulled out the report, and read it again.

Thinking of the doctor that Jian Su gave me, I took out my phone and was about to call when I heard someone knocking on the door twice, "Eldest Young Lady."

It was Liu Sao.

I put away the phone, didn't have time to put the report back into the Filing bag, directly stuffed it under my pillow, and went to open the door. "What is it?" As she looked at the tray in her hand, she saw that there was a bowl on top of it.

Liu Sao passed the tray to me, and then said with a friendly smile: "Before I left just now, First Young Master instructed me to cook a bowl of bird's nest for you."

How can I have the appetite to eat now?

He wanted to say that he wouldn't eat it, but after some thought, he decided to just leave it at that.

Looking at the bowl, I said, "Bring it in." He went back into the room and sat on the sofa.

Liu Sao placed the bird's nest on the tea table.

Seeing that I had no intention to eat it, she sighed, "Eldest Young Lady, there are some things that I don't know whether I should say or not."

I looked up at her, and she looked worried. She was very worried about me.

In this family, other than Lou Shaotang, she is the one who cares about me the most.

Liu Sao sighed again and said, "Eldest Young Lady, I know you're feeling terrible right now, but putting this on any woman is not going to be easy.

She was like a loving mother, her words were sincere and sincere, "How much Eldest Young Master loves you, all of us saw it in our eyes, this is something he doesn't want, it's all fate that makes a fool out of him. If you want to be separated from the young master for this, then both of you will suffer. "

"Eldest Young Lady, that child is nothing to Eldest Young Master. "When you have children in the future, with the love that the eldest young master has for you, he will definitely love your child."

"Yeah." Thinking that I had only repeated her words in a low voice and hadn't heard the faint sadness in my tone, Liu Sao continued to advise: "Your child is the fruit of the love between you and the Eldest Young Master."

Hearing her words, I immediately laughed bitterly, "Isn't Heng Heng the fruit of their love back then?"

She remembered Lou Anqi saying that Lou Shaotang and Zheng Keer were in love back then, and they were close to getting married.

"Liu Sao choked, perhaps thinking that I was involved with Zheng Keer and Lou Shaotang's past, she tried to advise me," Miss Zheng and Eldest Young Master are already matters of the past, now that Eldest Young Master has only paid her back and has no feelings for her, you don't have to worry about it, the one Eldest Young Master loves is you.

She opened the lid of the bowl and used a spoon to help me cool the bird's nest, "Eldest Young Lady, what you have to do now is not to be sad, but to recuperate your body and give birth to a child as soon as possible. "In this way, no one will be able to change your position in the future."

A woman of Liu Sao's age had a very traditional way of thinking, she believed that only children could help women stabilize their family's position. Of course, that was true of most families.

However, I don't want a child for the sake of status. I really want one that belongs to Lou Shaotang and me, with the blood of the two of us flowing through it.

However, such a wish would be difficult to realize.

"What if I don't have children?"

Liu Sao still had his head down, and didn't notice my eyes that were red and hot, and said as if it was a matter of course: "How come I didn't see it? When it is born, it will be born. "

"What if I can't?"

Liu Sao's hand stopped, and she looked up, only to see me crying. She immediately took out a tissue to wipe my tears away nervously, "Eldest Young Lady, quickly stop thinking about this nonsense." She thought I was trying to make a fool of myself and tried to persuade me, "You are so young and your body is so good, how can you be born? It's just a matter of time. " He placed the bird's nest in my hand. "Here, quickly eat while it's hot. Right now, your first task is to take care of your body and not think about anything else. "

Realizing that I was losing control of my emotions, I sniffled my sour nose, stopped crying, and took the bowl from her. Just as he was about to drink, Lou Shaotang walked in.

When he saw the tears on my cheeks, his expression tightened. "Wife." He walked quickly toward me.

Liu Sao tactfully left the room.

"Wife." Lou Shaotang sat beside me, thinking that I was still grieving over Heng Heng. With a face filled with pain and guilt, he cupped my face, and gently wiped my tears with his fingers. "Wife, don't cry, I was wrong." His eyes had also turned moist, and he said in a choked voice: "Tell me, what do I need to do for you to forgive me? Why don't you hit me, hit me? " As he spoke, he grabbed my hand and slapped his own face.

He hit me so hard that my hand hurt.

"What are you doing!" I tried to pull my hand back, but he wouldn't let go and kept hitting.

Looking at his red and swollen face, I felt extremely pained. "Stop hitting me, I forgive you."

Lou Shaotang stopped and asked, seemingly not believing: "You really forgive me?"

Actually, there was nothing he couldn't forgive. He didn't make any mistakes in this matter either. Just like what Liu Sao said, fate was messing with people. Maybe the heavens knew that I couldn't give him children, so they sent Heng Heng back to him. I should have been happy that he wasn't dead, but emotionally unable to accept it.

"Father."

Heng Heng's voice suddenly sounded from the door. I reflexively tried to retreat from Lou Shaotang's embrace, but Lou Shaotang didn't let go, he still held me tightly in his embrace. He turned his head and asked: "What's the matter?"

Heng Heng looked at me unhappily: "Great grandfather called you down to eat."

"Understood, you can go down first."

Maybe it's because of my feelings, or maybe it's because I don't have any feelings for Heng Heng, but Lou Shaotang's voice was bland, and her tone of voice was completely different from a father who is as doting on a child.

Heng Heng stood there without moving, and looked at us.

Thinking that he couldn't hear it clearly, Lou Shaotang repeated: "You may leave now, we'll come back later."

"Great Grandfather wants you to go down now." Heng Heng insisted, it seemed that if Lou Shaotang did not leave, he would not leave either.

Seeing Lou Shaotang frown and become slightly unhappy, I said to him, "Let's go, you can go."

Lou Shaotang was surprised, "What about you?"

"I have no appetite, so I won't go." I'm telling the truth. I can't eat anything right now.

He tensed again and took my hand. "You still haven't forgiven me?"

I shook my head and chuckled. "No, I really can't eat."

"If you can't eat, then eat less. If you can't eat, then you can't." Lou Shaotang's tone could not hide his worry.

I pursed my lips.

"Dad, let's go. Everyone's waiting for you." Seeing that we were deadlocked, Heng Heng urged.

"Tell grandpa that daddy isn't feeling well and won't eat anymore." Lou Shaotang said to Heng Heng while looking at me.

I started slightly.

Heng Heng was also stunned, "Great Grandfather said that he has something he wants to discuss with you about, and he definitely wants you to go down."

Hearing that the old man had something to talk to Lou Shaotang about, I pulled his hand away, "You can leave, don't worry about me."

Lou Shaotang held on tight again, "That won't do, if you don't go, I won't go either."

I looked at Heng Heng, but he was still standing there. His gaze towards me was clearly a little hateful.

I sighed helplessly and compromised, "Let's go."

When we arrived at the dining hall, and I held tightly onto each other's fingers. Xu Manli and Xia Peiyun were obviously very surprised, they looked at each other and exchanged a look, then wanted to do something bad to each other. But I didn't care. No matter how bad these two bastards were, they couldn't do anything to me.

Shen Yiru frowned slightly and immediately recovered her composure; she gave me a sweet smile, as if she was very happy to see me make up with Lou Shaotang.

Towards her, I really couldn't smile at all. I could only tease her with my lips.

Lou Shaotang pulled out a chair for me and waited for me to sit down before sitting on his seat beside me.

The moment he finished speaking, everyone looked towards Lou Shaotang.

"Heng Heng." Zheng Keer was shocked, her face slightly flushed, and scolded Heng Heng.

Heng Heng pretended not to see it, and stared at Lou Shaotang.

The corners of Xu Manli's and Xia Peiyun's mouths curled into an evil smile, as if they were waiting to see a good show. Shen Yiru's expression did not change much, but from the way she looked at Lou Shaotang, it could be seen that she was also waiting to see what he would do.