C135 I'm Afraid You're Going to Leave

She would be out of breath with him like this. Most of all, of course, she didn't want to get too close to him.

"Hm, I also feel bad."

That cold and thin breath of his sprayed onto her neck. His muttering had a hint of indistinct emotion mixed in with it. Desire.

Since she was currently pregnant, she was naturally more sensitive. Immediately, she looked at him warily.

"I... Aren't you going to ignore me? "

"You're the one who doesn't want me to talk to you, aren't you?"

This time, he didn't play along with her. Tang Mufan did not want to repeat what had happened today, even if it was just a pretense, he did not want her to make fun of him.

"I …" Fu Xixi was at a loss for words. Yes, that's right, he was right, he wanted him to get tired of her and not be nice to her, that was her goal.

"I don't have any."

Even though she wished so much in her heart, she always said things that went against her heart. It was as if she was already used to being like this during this period of time.

"Isn't it because I bullied your White Moonlight that you're angry? If you're angry, then so be it. Why are you wasting your time on me?" "It's not like I asked your White Moonlight to come find me today. She wanted to come herself, and I …"

The woman chattered on and on. It was as if he had no patience to listen to her explanation. That forceful kiss sealed her lips without hesitation.

He had been staring at her, and when he spoke his red lips were like a temptation, an invitation.

Tang Mufan chuckled. He had never been able to control his emotions in front of her. He kissed her because he didn't want to hear her words of pretence. It was also because he hadn't felt this warmth in a long time.

"Mm …"

Perhaps his kiss was too overbearing and urgent. She tried to turn her head away, but her jaw was gripped by his fingers and she could not move.

"You don't want me to kiss you, you don't want me to touch you, do you?"

A cold look flashed across Fu Xixi's eyes. Yes, yes, she did not want him to be completely right!

"I'm just sleepy."

I'm tired, Tang Mufan sneered. It's really not a reason.

She squeezed out a stiff smile, as if she was afraid she wouldn't be able to laugh if she continued.

"Hubby, let's talk about it tomorrow if you have anything to say. I'm so sleepy, even babies will be sleepy."

"And then, countless tomorrows?"

Day after day, again and again, without end.

The smile on Fu Xixi's lips finally disappeared. Originally, wasn't it supposed to be like this? Wasn't it better to be respectful like ice?

Why tear apart all the beautiful camouflage?

Oh, because it looks like it isn't real.

"Tell me, how much time do you need?"

"I don't know." This time, she also chose to coldly reply.

Her eyes were filled with coldness.

"Maybe one day, maybe one year, maybe... "A long time."

The woman's appearance was so firm, so firm, as if she was saying that we would be very happy and fragile.

Tang Mufan glanced at her eyes, and next to his ear, he heard what Chi Han had said today — —

What Xiao Xizi wants may not be as complicated as you think, it might just be an explanation, why be stingy?

One explanation, why be stingy?

Really, is that all?

"My identity is something I cannot choose. "But you are the one I can choose from."

She heard the gloomy and hoarse voice mixed with a hint of coldness — —

"I only felt very warm when I first met you, until that child didn't have any …"

It was only when the fated child was gone, when he felt her weakness, her tears, her forced smile, that he seemed to feel that place in his left atrium called the heart.

What does it feel like, pain? I don't think so.

However, he could not say anything else.

For the first time, as a doctor, he could not find the root of his illness.

There was no cure. That was more or less the case.

"Enough, I don't want to hear it!"

Fu Xixi interrupted her with a cold voice, she did not want to hear it, what was said now, was already in the past right?

He could not return to the old him, and she was no longer the old her. They only needed to understand this point. That was enough.

"Tang Mufan, you don't even know what love is. Even marriage, to you, is a product of deceit."

Fu Xixi admitted that there had never been a man who treated her with such kindness.

But to be good to someone, was it love?

In her view of love, concealing and deceiving, she should never have fallen deeper and deeper.

"From the beginning, even at the wedding, you could have told me everything about you, but you didn't!"

If it was just one night at the beginning … Affection. She could understand the mistake of not understanding each other and not trusting each other.

But then what? The wedding, the happiness and promise he had brought her, she had thought at the time that she and he were inextricably linked.

But obviously, that was not the case.

"Because I'm afraid you'll leave."

Afraid? Such laughable words came out of his mouth. It was a novelty, but at the same time, he felt a chill in his heart!

The next month could be considered to have passed by in peace.

It was just that Fu Xixi was even more distracted now, always holding onto the hot water, thinking about other things. It was only when the water in the cup had turned cold that she realised it.

Actually, it was just thinking about what Tang Mufan had said that night.

he said. Afraid.

How could a man like him be afraid?

If he knew his identity from the start, what could he do?

Actually, now that he thought about it, he couldn't say for sure. At that time, all she wanted to do was to live a calm and peaceful life. The fear of being pregnant after love and the betrayal of Jiang Haosheng and Lin Jiao seemed to have many things that she had to avoid.

If she had known back then that her husband had such a complicated identity, she would have run away without any hesitation.

He held her that night and said a lot.

Could it be that he was hiding his identity from the world?

If it was her, with such a complicated background, she probably wouldn't want her husband to know.

But, what was she angry about?

When he received the call from his aunt, Fu Xixi was preparing to give the Xiao Mengxin a snack.

"Xiaoxi, hurry and come to the hospital, your mom …" She's sick! "

"What's going on?"

When Fu Xixi arrived, the lights in the emergency room were still not out. Qifang and his Little Aunt were standing on the side with heavy expressions and did not say a word.

"Say something!"

"Me too... I don't know what happened... I just went out and bought some stuff. When I came back, your mom fainted. It was like she didn't even have a breath left … "When I called for the ambulance, my heartbeat seemed to have stopped …"

Little Aunt's words were trembling, but the last few words that she said without question caused Fu Xixi's eyes to glaze over as he staggered and leaned against the wall, not responding at all.

What do you mean, no heartbeat?

He was perfectly fine, how could he suddenly have an attack? Didn't they say that Tang Mufan had found a very good doctor for his mother? As long as she was treated for a few years, there would still be hope for her to recover?

Until the red light was extinguished, Fu Xixi was still unable to recover his senses. The doctor came out from inside with a heavy expression.

"Sorry."

Sorry, what does sorry mean?

Fu Xixi did not understand. He clenched one of his hands into a fist and the other hand fiercely grabbed onto the doctor's arm.

"Doctor, my mother, she …"

"Is my elder sister …" The aunt covered her mouth. After realizing what the doctor meant, she started to cry bitterly.

Then there was Qifang's sorrowful voice.

"Aunt!"

All of this was so sudden that Fu Xixi's mind seemed to go blank for a moment. In her ears, she could hear the mother and daughter crying, but she was completely dumbstruck.

What were they crying about? Why was she crying? Her mother had clearly called her last night to tell her that she would be coming to see her today.

No, how could that be? She said that she would boil her favorite soup.

She hadn't seen her mother, nor had she seen her beloved grandson born. How could she …

Everything was pitch black. Where was this place, and where was she?

Why couldn't she feel her heart beating?

When she closed her eyes and fell to the ground, someone's voice echoed in her ears …

"Cousin!"

"Xiao Xi!"

She wished that this was just a nightmare. She had a dream, and when she woke up, nothing had changed.

"How could it be like this? It's not perfect, everything is …"

In the hospital, outside the ward.

Chi Han's expression became gloomy, this man, just said he was not there, then he was gone.

Was cancer really that scary? When you thought there would be hope, you fell into despair and pain.

"Actually, Elder Sis has been getting sick more and more recently, but she won't let me tell Xiaoxi. She doesn't want to worry about Xiao Xi anymore due to her recent situation. "

"Aunt has always endured the pain herself …" Qifang and his mother could no longer say anything, and Chi Han let out a long sigh.

Looking at the person who had just woken up, Tang Mufan decided to guard her. It was not good for him to go in and disturb her.

It was a pity that Xiao Xizi had never had a father since young, and now that his mother had passed away as well.

After that, if she really left Tang Mufan's side, she would not have any family left.

After waking up, she seemed to be abnormally quiet.

He, on the other hand, had been waiting beside her bed the entire time. She had not spoken a word, and he had chosen to be silent.

It had been a very long time, and it was already late into the night.

"My mom, she …"

Her throat seemed to have dried up. She could not say a single word, and the bitterness in her nose still made her ask the truth that she had always been unwilling to accept …

"Has she really left?"

Even if the doctor said so, and her aunt cried so loudly, and Qifang was so sad, she still could not accept it.

It was as if she would only be willing to believe the words of the man in front of her.

But she was afraid, afraid of what he would say.

Fu Xixi straightened her body and placed her hand on the man's arm. Her eyes were filled with tears and she choked on her sobs.

"I just had a nightmare, didn't I?"

Tang Mufan looked at the person in front of him whose eyes were misty with tears.

"Say something, tell me, she's fine!"

It was as if his silence had pulled the last bit of self-deception out of her heart. Those tears could not be stopped, nor could they be stopped.

Her warm fingers gently wiped away her tears. The man's beautiful eyebrows revealed a hint of coldness, but more of a heartache.

Her helplessness was even more isolated than a child. The pain of losing her loved ones was unacceptable.

It was the most painful thing, he understood.

But he didn't want her to suffer such pain. However, there were many things that even he was powerless against.

She continued to cry, crying for a long time in his arms.

He even said a lot of things, but Tang Mufan forgot. He only remembered her crying and her sorrow.

In fact, Fu Xixi had thought about it many times. If one day, her mother suddenly left, what would happen?

However, each time, there was no conclusion to it.

When this really happened, she would still be like a normal person. She would be in so much pain that she wouldn't be able to stop crying.

Losing was painful, and as a child, she might not understand how her mother endured the pain of her father's departure.

But now, she had truly experienced it.

When Tang Mufan was still a doctor, he had told her that a person's life was not long, life and death were fated.

Only the dead are free, and the living continue to suffer.

On the day of Li Zhen's funeral, it had rained heavily.