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"You really are too similar to your mother back then …"

The old man slowly sat in front of Zhuang Li. His voice was practically trembling, as if he had already used a lot of his courage to speak these words.

"That's why you recognized me, right?"

The old man in front of him was Zhao Ci's biological father, but unfortunately, he was not Zhuang Li's. Even though he had felt that it was a little hateful for him to be so heartless towards a child, after all, he was Zhuang Li, from the modern society, and was someone who had seen countless battles in the palace before. Furthermore, it had nothing to do with the old man in front of him being his useless father.

Thus, even if she had abandoned her old man and stood before him, she would not have any hatred towards him …

She really did not want to hide anything from Wang Su anymore. As long as Wang Su wanted to know, she would tell him everything. Whether it was Hanqin, the Queen, or the old man in front of her. When they were all involved in the matter of the Imperial Noble Lady Ya being Zhao Ci and had all kinds of reactions to this matter. There was still one thing that everyone did not know.

That was, Zhao Ci was not the original Zhao Ci …

She is Zhuang Li …

But no matter what, she could not explain this matter to Wang Su clearly. Who would believe that a soul possessed a body?

"Yeah, I thought you wouldn't grow up to look more and more like your mother... You weren't like her at all when you were a kid... And not like me... And you're not close to me either... So after your mother left, I just didn't think anyone would ever remind me of her again. "

Zhuang Li only looked at him, waiting for him to finish slowly. Most of the time, it seemed like he was hesitating whether he should say it or not …

"You did not expect me to live to this day? Right? "

The old man laughed in an almost unbearable manner. It was extremely difficult for him to do so …

"I never thought I would see you again. Originally, I … Just live as if you were somewhere in the world away from me... Have a good life... "I didn't think about it …"

If one were to look at it from Zhao Ci's perspective, Zhuang Li did not know why this old man would think this way. As the biological father of a child, he had always been rumoured to like her mother very much. But why was she so cold?

"Then have you ever dreamed of my mother? Did she ever ask about your children in your dreams? How are you? Warm? "

The old man paused for a long time, as if seriously considering the question. And then he slowly answered,

"Have you ever dreamed of her? Did she ask about me? I don't think she has ever loved me, so I always look for her in my dreams, but she won't come … "

Zhuang Li didn't know what to say. After all, she wasn't Zhao Ci, so she naturally didn't know what that flowery Du Yueyao would think.

And no matter what kind of story they had, it would be wrong for them to give up on taking care of their own flesh and blood …

"I didn't expect you to be this big now. For a long time, I thought I didn't have a daughter like you … You might think I'm a very, very bad person. Maybe I am. Not a good officer, and not a good father. "

"What else do you want to say?"

Prime Minister Zhao let out a long sigh. He was already old and would soon return to his hometown. Even if he did not return to his hometown, he would start living in peace in his mansion in the capital and not meddle in matters of the imperial court.

"There are a lot of things. It's true that I've let you down, but I do like your mother."

"She also dotes on you a lot …" I've never seen a woman spoil a child so willfully... But that's how she pampered you... I don't understand why she dotes on you like that. My indifference towards you is because many times, I feel that you are the reason why I can't enter into your mother's heart … "

"No matter how much I like your mother, I have never been able to truly read her heart. It wasn't until later that I understood that she probably didn't want me to understand her on purpose …

"However, I do love her a lot …"

Zhuang Li could not understand the relationship they had over this period of time. Prime Minister Zhao liked Du Yueyao, but not his daughter? After Du Yueyao died, he felt that his daughter's life and death were of no concern to him.

How could there be such a thing in the world? How could there be such a person?

He seemed to have seen Zhuang Li's puzzled expression.

"At that time, you were still too young to understand that your mother was the most difficult woman in the world to have … But you'll see... Because right now, you are exactly the same as her … "

"Is that what you came here to say?"

"I know, you might not want to see me … But no matter what, you are still my daughter … "It's too late for me to understand …"

After he had said this, no one spoke for a long time. As Zhuang Li looked at him, she suddenly felt that even though the old man was still cold and detached, it was as if something had collapsed in his heart. Perhaps it was because he was old enough to realize that he had missed out on some sort of kinship? For a moment. Zhuang Li felt that he was indeed just an ordinary father …

Zhuang Li actually didn't have a father, even from her very small memories. Her mother had brought her up with great difficulty, saving time and money to send her to school, and when she was about to have to pay the tuition, her life suddenly became extremely tight. At that time, she had already thought that if she could have a father that doted on her, wouldn't life be so arduous? Mother, you don't have to overwork yourself …

She didn't know if she had ever asked who her mother's father was. In short, she hadn't asked this question since she was old enough to know. She realized that this question was a scar on her mother's face.

However, no matter what, she grew up healthy and even went to college due to her mother's extreme care. He also found a job.

With or without a father, what difference did it make?

Who is he and what does it have to do with me?

She had learned how to hold her mother's care, gentleness and kindness. In order to protect her bitter and gentle mother, she had learned the strength and tenacity that her father should have. Frankly speaking, she had never felt that there was anything missing in her life …

She seemed to think that maybe the child called Zhao Ci was in some way similar to her. She had grown up with her mother's great care and doting, and she had never even taken her father seriously … That was why she had always received such a sick and disregarded kinship.

She was innocent. She was also especially sad. That was why he called his body over to a stranger named Zhuang Li. Maybe she wanted her to live for herself.

"I don't hate you …" Maybe it's because I've always felt that I had nothing to do with you … " Zhuang Li paused, the words in her head continued to spiral around her head, thinking about how to combine them. No matter what, she wanted what she said to be the truth as much as possible …

"Or maybe it was too young at that time … There are a lot of things I can't remember right now... "But what you said now, I've already recorded it down …"

She could only say it for Zhao Ci to the extent where she could face this body's father. She tried to be honest with himself and tell him how she felt. Though he may not be worth understanding...

But she still wanted to say such words on Zhao Ci's behalf, so that there might be a complete explanation for the relationship between them, whether it was good or bad …

The night scenery of the palace wasn't as brightly lit as that of the palace, but there were also some stars that were particularly bright.

Zhuang Li still could not sleep, so sshe could only pull Qing You along to the pavilion to look at the stars. They had been working too hard these past few days. When it finally subsided, young eunuch would passionately send them strange tonics. Originally, most of Zhuang Li's injuries were superficial, but with her youth, he ate and slept well. Getting better was something that would happen sooner or later, but those imperial physicians didn't see it that way.

It was as if she was doing everything she could to this woman, who held a strange position in the Emperor's heart … As she continuously delivered different prescriptions, at the beginning, Zhuang Li even asked what this medicine was used for. In the end, she didn't ask about the potions anymore …

In any case, he couldn't possibly die from the poison …

Even if you want to make up for it, you should at least make up for it … He reckoned that when he left the palace, he would be able to gain a huge amount of weight …

She took a sip and frowned.

Qing You stood to the side like an adult, coaxing a child …

"A kind and bitter medicine …"

Zhuang Li could only shake her head and try her best to suppress the unhappiness in her heart, as she nearly drank it all up. While thinking, she also didn't know what this strange bowl of soup was about …

When she had drank it all, she started to wonder what Wang Su was doing now.

Although the rumors in the palace had been suppressed for the time being, if she were to return to the palace now, it would be like handing a handful of firewood over to the dying flames. Therefore, he didn't know how long it would be before she could return to the palace.

And in what capacity should she return to the palace? Imperial Noble Lady Ya? Or the tea lady? It might even be inappropriate.

However, Zhuang Li had never felt this anxiety before. Currently, there was no lie between her and the Emperor that could separate them. She no longer feared anyone who knew that the Emperor was worried about her.

There was no gap between the two hearts. Even if there was a great gap between the walls of the Thousand Water Thousand Mountains Palace, there was still a way for her to feel sad or lonely.

But she still wanted to know what that person was doing. Busy approving papers at the Imperial Study? Or had he already rested? or perhaps, like her, when she was feeling sleepy, she would suddenly raise her head and glance at the sky outside the Imperial Study window, and all of a sudden, the entire world became bright.

Did he think about himself, and how much?

What did that child go through when he was young? What does he like to eat? What kind of books do you like to read? She wants to know everything... He wanted to become the person who understood him the best in this world. He wanted to take him back into his own pocket.

And then she began to realize how stupid she was... As expected, a woman in love has a negative IQ...