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Chu Xinxia was truly stunned. What did Lu Xunqian mean? She was his first woman?!

In that case, wouldn't he be …

Thinking of this, she looked at Lu Xunqian with wide eyes as if she had seen something unbelievable.

Lu Xunqian was embarrassed by her, but still insisted on what he said, "Really."

"Why …" A trace of panic rose in Chu Xinxia's heart.

If he was her first woman, would he want her to be his first man?

Thinking of this, and thinking of the incident at the bar, she became more and more afraid.

"I feel dirty."

A "dirty" word let Chu Xin Xia's heart drop slowly, bottomless.

Noticing that Chu Xinxia's expression didn't seem quite right, Lu Xu Qian hurriedly held her hand, "What's the matter?"

Chu Xinxia raised her head and looked at Lu Xu Qian. Her eyes gradually filled with tears, "Am, am I dirty?"

"Why do you ask?" Lu Xu Qian frowned, his tone sounding a little angry this time.

"I, I …" Chu Xinxia's lips quivered as she spoke, as if she remembered how unbearable she had once been. "I was once, I was pregnant with a child. I didn't even know who the father of the child was …"

Lu Xu Qian's heart suddenly ached. He had not expected that the blow from that incident would be so severe!

Thinking that it was his own negligence, he quickly grabbed Chu Xinxia's hand.

However, Chu Xinxia quickly pulled it out, and said evasively, "You, you rest." Then he stood up as if he wanted to run out.

Lu Xu Qian hurriedly opened his mouth to call for her, but she did not stop even though he had shouted a few times.

In a moment of desperation, he couldn't care less about his wounds. Before he could get up, he had already lifted the blanket and walked over. Every step he took felt like his back was being ripped apart. The pain made his face turn pale. However, he acted as if he didn't feel it at all as he walked step by step toward Chuxin Xia barefooted.

Chu Xinxia heard footsteps behind her and turned around in fright. Seeing Lu Xunqian walk over, he was so scared that he forgot why he had to leave. He hurried over and pulled him over to the bedside, "What are you doing!? The wound has not healed yet, so you can't! "

Before he could finish, Lu Xu Qian's kiss was everywhere.

An apologetic, warm taste slowly spread in Chu Xinxia's mouth, causing her entire body to feel warm.

By the time Lu Xunqian let go of her, Chu Xinxia already felt that her legs had gone soft. She lay in his embrace, unable to move.

"There is one thing I have never told you, because I do not know if you will forgive me. What if you think I'm a beast in disguise? "

Chu Xinxia couldn't help but laugh, "Why do you say that?"

"The events of that year … Do you regret it? "

"Hearing Lu Xunqian's words, Chu Xin Xia's first reaction was the matter of the bar." "You mean, follow the director to the bar?"

Lu Xudong shook his head, "I'm talking about you being pregnant."

"No," Chu Xinxia shook her head, "What happened to me could only mean that I didn't protect myself well. Having a child may be a little sad for me, but it is still a life after all. "

"What would you do if I told you I knew that man?"

Xia Xin sat up abruptly, "What?!"

"What would happen to you if I could help you find that man?" Lu Xu Qian looked at Chu Xinxia seriously, wanting to see through her eyes the answer he wanted to get.

"The person I like is you. Regardless of whether that person shows up or not, they will not change this fact." Chu Xinxia said, "I just don't think I deserve you because of what happened that year." Chu Xinxia's tears slowly flowed out, "Are you willing to forgive me? "I …"

"The person from back then was me."

Chu Xinxia looked at Lu Xu Qian in confusion.

"The person who passed the night with you in my drunken sleep was me." Lu Xu Qian stretched out his hand and rubbed it, "What happened that year was an accident."

Chu Xinxia was completely shocked, and couldn't say what she felt in her heart.

Anger? No.

Shame? No.

Sad? No.

Joy? Not really.

She felt a sweet and sour feeling in her heart. She was shocked and scared. She looked at Lu Xunqian as if she had just met him.

Lu Xu Qian looked into her eyes and could not help but feel uncomfortable. He reached out and gently held Chu Xinxia in his arms, deliberately ignoring her slightly resisting posture, "What happened that year was really unexpected. I was just going to drink, but I didn't expect to meet you so drunk. If you don't do anything else, just point at me and let me accompany you. I suppose you took me for a bull then. "

As Chu Xinxia listened, she seemed to be able to remember a few words. Hearing Lu Xu Qian's words, she seemed to recall something.

"I ignored you, so you came to me. Not only did you puke all over me, other men wanted to take you away, but you even tore at my shirt and refused to let go no matter what you said. "

Remembering the scene back then, Lu Xunqian couldn't help but feel a little helpless, "So it turns out that you were that hardworking back then."

Chu Xinxia relaxed a little. It was not because he forcefully dragged her here, but it was good.

However, when she thought that it was actually her who took the initiative, she couldn't help but feel shy.

"It was a special situation, because you suddenly had to be like me, and for a moment I can't say what it felt like. It's just that you made me covered in filth and said that you must be with me. I was afraid that someone would take advantage of the situation to bring you harm, so I brought you upstairs. " At that time, Lu Xunqian did have a little bit of intention, but it was rather weak.

Firstly, he was very self-controlled and would never mess around with random women. Then there was the filth all over Chuxin Xia, and he had no interest in it at all.

"Then why did you …"

"When we got upstairs and I gave you a bath, you would hug me and rub me and scream. Scolded the director, scolded Gu Yiyun, and deliberately kissed me to provoke me. "I've never been reckless or had anything to do with women, but that doesn't mean I'm not responding. I'm not a man, am I?" Thinking of the scene back then, Lu Xunqian found it funny as well, "Therefore, I decided to just directly put you on the spot. Anyway, you were so proactive back then."

Chu Xinxia's face immediately turned red, refusing to come out as she nestled herself in Lu Xu Qian's embrace.

"When I met you later, it was during the company's interview. I thought you wanted to use that to blackmail me and get something out of me, so you deliberately made things difficult for Vincent. "

Chu Xinxia thought of Lu Xunqian's strange attitude when she entered the company and immediately understood. She raised her head from his embrace. "Then why do you believe me again? You don't blame me?"

"You can tell at a glance what sort of person you are. After being with you for so long, how could I still doubt you? " Lu xu Qian could not help but laugh, "Furthermore, Gu Yiyun is like a director, of course I know their methods. "I knew it when I thought about how you cursed those two at the bar."

"Then why aren't you telling me?!" The two of them had been together for such a long time, there were plenty of opportunities to tell him. However, Lu Xunqian chose to remain silent.

"What do you think I should say about that? I'll pull you to my side and tell you that the person who gave birth to you that night was me, and the child you carried in your womb was also mine? "

Chu Xinxia's face darkened. Thinking of this, it was indeed hard to say.

"But you clearly have so many opportunities …"

Lu Xunqian covered Chu Xinxia's mouth with his hand, "I was just afraid that you'd get hurt." If you can forget about it and start over again, why should I uncover your scars? "

Chu Xinxia nodded, cuddling her head in Lu Xu Qian's embrace somewhat dazedly, "So, my years of sadness and inferiority are all just a joke?"

"It's not a joke, it's a misunderstanding. Perhaps this is a question left to us by the heavens to test, and I believe that this matter will not become an obstacle to us. " Lu Xu Qian said seriously.

Chu Xinxia listened to his steady heartbeat through his chest. She couldn't tell what she was thinking.

But that little bit of warmth was deeply rooted in her heart.

"Our first child is gone." Thinking that her child was Lu Xunqian's, Chu Xinxia felt her heart ache even more, tears streaming down her face uncontrollably.

She felt wronged and sad. All the emotions that she hadn't fully released in the past came out now. She hugged Lu Xu Qian and cried non-stop.