Volume 1, Act 03: Second Older Brother, Ismas Monologue
For the longest time since I was born I was the youngest child, but eight years ago, my younger sister, named Cordelia, was born and I became an older brother. I was 12 at that time But to be honest, I pitied Cordelia.
Id never imagined that my sister could be conceived, what with my parents relationship being heavily strained, but I could easily figure out the reason behind it.
The child was to become the companion of the Prince, who was born half a year earlier than her.
If the child had been born a male, he could possibly become the Princes friend, but if the child was female, then she had the possibility of becoming the Queen. I thought that there were no other possible reasons for her being born.
Although I was only 12 at that time, I was educated enough to understand that.
I sympathised with my sister, who was born into that, and thought, it would have been better if she was at least born a male. If she had been born a male, then she could somewhat decide her own future, but her fate was already chosen for her the moment she was born female.
Aim to become Queen in the future. Its impossible for you not to be Queen.
She was probably raised with only those words. I pitied her just when I thought about what would happen if things didnt work out. Well, the me who thought that, had severe feelings of inferiority at that time, so I wonder if my circumstances were still luckier than Cordelias.
That also was nothing but trifling.
I was the second son but my elder brother, who was cut from the same cloth as father, was clearly treated differently.
On the surface, we received the same education, but I instinctively realised that I was a sparefrom the environment we were in. I was never expected to achieve results above a certain level, and even though I did well in rare cases, I was never praised.
Also if I were complimented, I would be compared to my brother; But it doesnt seem like you can beat your eldest brother. If not, then I would be compared with father; Elvis-sama was even more amazing when he was younger.
I have been called a prodigy, but it was always followed by those same words. So, Im not a prodigy after all. The feelings I had when I thought that were a little depressing, and there were times when I resented my brother.
When I was younger, I was enthusiastic about winning against my brother someday. Well, but that was only when I was younger. I gradually became jealous of him, then acted stupidly, and finally gave up. Now, Ive already settled with as expected of elder brother.
But even so, when Cordelia, who strongly inherited the blood of the Pameradia House, was born, on the one hand, I felt sorry for her; and on the other, I was glad that she was born as my sister.
If Cordelia had been born male, then my inferiority complex would have definitely solidified. My feelings had sublimated now, but if I were to be caught up between older and younger brothers, then I probably wouldnt have been able to hold it in.
I was really impatient, and I might have become an atrocious brother.
Well, thats enough about me.
Father hired a live-in tutor for Cordelia to educate her as a future consort of the royal family almost as soon as she was born. Thus, my sister received education as a lady before she could even speak. Arent you too hasty, father?
Because of those circumstances, Cordelia had more restrictions than me; they were perhaps on the same level as elder brothers. Although, that was the only thing she knew, so I didnt feel like shed suffered from those restrictions.
My sister was a fast-learner, and the maids and tutor always raved about her as if shed overwhelm everything in the world.
When I saw that, I honestly thought that it couldnt possibly be good.
I could understand if someone praised a child for being cute or smart, but they shouldnt compliment them more than necessary since the child could grow up to be spoiled, you know? Cordelia also looked somewhat smug whenever she was praised, so I was concerned that she would grow up to be spoiled.
However, my parents, who were supposed to have stopped that, ignored her and left her be, so no one cautioned her. So no matter what happened to her in the future, my parents were to blame.
I wondered if it would be okay for her to aim for the Queens seat with how she acted, but that didnt bother me as long as I stayed away from her. I thought it would be fine as long as I didnt spark the flame.
After two years of being a trainee and a year on duty in the north, when I enlisted in the Imperial Guards and came home I never imagined that father would dote on Cordelia.
Father seemed to be trying to hide the fact that he doted on her, but unfortunately, Cordelia messed it all up. No offence to Cordelia, father probably wouldnt say this strongly because he favoured her 100 per cent, so I want to say it on his behalf.
Cordelia, father isnt the type of person who buys gifts for his children. So dont go thanking him with a big grin in front of me. Father replied with a curt, Yeah, but Ive never received something like that from him, you know? No, its not like I want something like that now.
For the time being, I understood that something had happened, so I immediately asked the butler about it. It seemed that the start of all this was that Cordelia had made a very cute remark to father just after Id left home.
I was worried.
Isnt she going to be a little devil in the future?
If she did that unconsciously, then she would definitely be one, but if she did it intentionally, then she had an evil disposition. I wanted to question whether she was really a child.
But despite my worries, the butler told me about Cordelia, Shes brimming with curiosity. She really likes books and would often confine herself to the library. He also said to me about how flustered the tutor would get because Cordelia would ask him questions outside of the tutors expertise.
Incidentally, the tutor she had now was different from the tutor she had before. The previous tutor couldnt respond to the knowledge that Cordelia sought.
Cordelia, who I hadnt met in a long time, acquired the etiquettes of a young lady. Although her childish way of speaking was still there, she was raised into an intelligent child that spoke almost as eloquently as me.
A visitor had said, Your daughter really resembles you, Earl. But did being like that mean that she resembled father? It was ominous.
There probably werent many children who joined in talks about the tax system. Was elder brother like that when he was younger? At least, I was different.
In any case, Cordelia was no longer a regular lady.
Then she grew up, still smart, and before Id noticed, shed turned eight.
However, she was still a child even though she was smart.
Cordelia liked to read books and would also observe the plants in the garden if she received permission to do so, and her appearance while doing so were quite impressive.
If she was this happy about it, then it was worth bringing her here.
In the early mornings, the magic power stored in plants is at its peak. At any rate, youre very knowledgeable with plants, arent you? Do you want to be a scholar?
Cordelias eyes popped out with astonishment at that question.
A scholar? Theyre amazing; scholars are those who are smart.
Yes, Cordelia. Youre smart enough.
I thought that, but I didnt dare say it out loud.
If she was just embarrassed, then I might have been able to say more, but she was waving her hands around as if it was a preposterous thing, so it would be boorish of me to say any more than that Also, my sister looked very cute when she was panicking. Well, she was usually cute anyway.
Then as I continued to gaze at her, she moved further away and told me the name of a new grass, Onii-sama, its amazing! Theres sage here!
Initially, the Pameradia Houses magic was compatible with flowers, so it wasnt surprising for her to be interested in plants.
However, that was for showy flowers For example, it was still normal if she were interested in Casa Blanca, or flowers like orchids; but she was interested in mere weeds, which was a bit strange.
She was interested in plants that looked like grass, such as peppermint and lemon palm. If it were poisonous plants, then I could understand why she was interested in them, but I couldnt understand why she was interested in these types of grass.
I pretended to know what it was, but this was the first time Ive heard of lemon balm.
Incidentally, I was extremely knowledgeable about poisonous plants. Although I couldnt compare to father and elder brother, I could also use the Pameradia Houses manipulation magic. My field of expertise, which made the best use of my magic, was distilling poisons.
Refining unproblematic weeds into powerful medicines were possible. I didnt intend to exploit my power, but it was essential to know how to detoxify similar poisons.
But it was a fact that we couldnt say anything about this magic to people outside of the family ; no, it didnt mean that the patriarch would tell the truth to a family member just because theyd noticed it. He also never told me this orally.
One would typically notice this if they used magic frequently, but it seemed that Cordelia hadnt realised it yet.
However, I had the desire to show Cordelia, who knew so much about plants, my older brother side, and I also wanted to show her my seniority. It wasnt like I only knew about poisonous plants, and I knew this forest way better than Cordelia did.
Come, Cordelia. Ill show you a rare flower in this mountain.
Really?
Yes.
Cordelia came closer to me, and I lifted her up. I walked a little away from our spot to a spring. The water sparkled under the suns rays, and my favourite horse also came to play.
And then around the spring was
Marigold?! Onii-sama, theyre marigold, arent they!?!
Yes, Cordelia very excited about the blooming marigold surrounding the spring.
Marigold, which was called Flower of the Sun in this kingdom, only bloomed during certain seasons when brought into the city, but it bloomed all year round in this mountain.
It was probably related to the magic waves, so it was possible for it to bloom all year round if the Pameradia House tried to cultivate it.
More importantly, I was a little discouraged when I showed her this hidden treasure, and shed guessed the name so quickly. Onii-sama is amazing! Shed said, but if possible, I wanted to teach her the name of this flower.
Well, if she was pleased about it, then there was nothing better.
Onii-sama, youre amazing! Youre like a doctor 1)!
To begin with, it was impossible to be offended because she knew the name when she said something like that. I wasnt blessed with the chance to tell her the name of the flower, but my dignity as an older brother seems to be intact, which meant that the result was alright.
But, Cordelia.
Why are you trying to stack such a large amount of it onto our family carriage which had just arrived? You even put the surrounding soil and roots into there.
Its still not enough, so Ill probably ask them to make a lot of round-trips here. She said.
What the heck are you planning to do with it?
The magic in this mountain would immediately regrow the marigold even if she pulled out enough to fill the carriage multiple times. At any rate, theyre just weeds. They had a lot of willpower.
Therefore, I dont think it would be a problem in the mountain, but I dont think it would flourish on their own if she brought it back to the Royal Capital, which held very little magic.
But when I tried to ask her, she said, Is that Chamomile? Shed found a new grass and was walking towards it, so I didnt get the chance to ask my question.
But well, it was fine. Shed probably do something interesting, and the grass didnt look dangerous. Children had active imaginations so she might come up with something.
Besides, I will definitely give Onii-sama something as thanks for today, so please look forward to it!
She exclaimed something so cute. I smiled and nodded while patting her head because I couldnt think of an adult-like response.
References
1. Shes talking about him being an expert, like someone with a PhD