CH 77

Duke, Please Repent! chapter 77

18. The Duke and the Arena (5)

As you said before, as always, I thought it was one of your peculiar esoteric actions.

I thought I'd have a little bit of doubt, but I guess I'll just pass on it without thinking.

Maybe I still have the strange misconception that I enjoy pain?

'a~. It wouldn't be that though. At that time, Serpence was deliberately trying to turn away... Oh?'

Right?

If it's not the same situation now, I want to grab him by the neck and ask him why he said that.

Given the situation, I'm also concerned about the guys who are squashed in the corner of the room... .

'Well, if there are any signs of waking up, Serpens will take care of stopping me, right?'

It was this guy who got lucky in the first place.

...Zion?

It's nothing! So, ji

Are you saying you have changed your mind?"

Yes. Right now, it feels like there is some meaning to that action. But no matter how much I think about it, I can't find the answer within me...

If it was only me, I don't know, because Eugenes had a similar reaction.

I don't know what exactly is wrong, but it seems that I vaguely guessed that the strange thing was me, not me.

I know it's an inappropriate time to talk like this, but I can't...

It's fine. No, it's a good idea. There's no time for learning,

Isn't it a bigger problem not to know than to ask?

Is there no word here? Serpence's expression changed slightly subtly.

Ahhh! If it's an irresistible shock, relying on divine power may be one way. However, overdosing is poison, so it should be left as a last resort.

I couldn't just say it was bad.

To put it bluntly, with a dry feeling and an unstable mental state. that he has been able to maintain his reason so far

is thanks to that

'But now it's time to break free from that dependence.

The reason Serpens had no choice but to run away in that way was that everyone turned away from him.

For that reason he also himself. Because he only knew how to turn away from the pain.

Whatever emotions are, aren't they part of you? Just because you're sick or in pain, you shouldn't ignore them and cover them up.

why?

Serpens. Your current state is not

If it were you, I would have noticed too late.

What do you mean?

It's an expression I don't understand at all.

In the name of saving the world, forcing him to learn many things.

Why did no one really teach him to live a human life? Did it make me lose even my innate feelings?

I let it go and buried it like that. In the end, I lost it, and I even forgot how to express it.

Again... Is it about revealing yourself?''

You can think of it as an extension of that.

It was a problem I had been conscious of for a long time, so I think I can summarize it well enough.

Instead of pushing him as impulsively and passionately as before, let him explain it calmly and slowly so that he can understand it.

Even if it is painful, it is also one's own emotions. When we accept and overcome them, we can only become mature.

Even negative emotions are a part of you, so take care of them and nurture them. Take care of yourself, have compassion, and love yourself. I hope that will be so.

" I, that is."

The first words of the words, unable to continue the proper sentence, squeezed his throat and flowed out intermittently.

Please don't kill yourself anymore.

When he said that he was going to kill him, he looked startled.

It wasn't the extremeness of his words, but his own

actions to protect themselves. Did he feel that strangling his own neck was not enough?

Serpence slapped her neck, which would have tightened her cravat to such an extent that it would have been cramped if it wasn't for her disguise.

Aren't you saying that you've been wrong in the past? 匸] . Thanks to you, you have been able to hold on until now? If you affirm him, you affirm it, there is no reason to deny it. It's about taking care of yourself as well.

However.

It deserves praise. It must have been very difficult on your own, but you persevered.

NS. It's amazing. You did really well. My compliment score is 95. With a little effort, you'll get a perfect score.

That, what

But it's okay now. You don't have to cut out a part of yourself anymore. He will too, you won't have to stand alone from now on, will you?

Even if there is no such artificial restraint now. If you reach out your hand, there is someone who will hold you back.

His green eyes widened widely. It started with a rhyme and ended with a tune.

Serpens carefully raises her hand and slowly stretches it toward me.

'why. How many people ignored this hand and threw it away... .'

The movement, which is insignificant to most people, is so heavy for him that he must be so nervous and fearful.

He grabbed his trembling hand.

'Is this the second time since I first met this guy?'

no. The act, which was nothing more than a lie and hypocrisy, had no meaning.

So, 'This is the first time I've held the hand of a real Serpence.

With calmness, the first hand we held together. It turned white from nervousness and was cold.

If you shake, I will support you, and if you fall, I will lift you up. You don't have to run away anymore, you'll be fine.

" ."

Tears were dripping down his cheeks, drenched in his eyes. The eyelids gently fall over them, and then they fade and finally flow down.

Now you're crying.

He raised his other hand and grabbed it with both hands. patted the back of his hand.

Serpence, who burst into tears that he had to endure and suppress over and over without counting, wept very well.

Sadness and joy were mixed.

There are hands that turn away from you, but there are also hands that hold you like this. Don't forget.

Now you have taken the right step.

But he still lacked a lot and was immature.

someday. There was a time when I thought that he could not face his own feelings, and he quickly recognized the feelings of others.

'Is that possible?'

It must have been that he was analyzing with his head, not with his heart.

Paradoxically, the words he uttered to comfort me with genuine concern for me. This became evidence that he had never truly empathized with others.

'But if you think positively, the fact that he was trying to understand someone is enough... .'

Finally, he turned around and reached the starting line.

face yourself compassionate Only after loving will you be able to afford to give your heart to others.

But let's not ask for too much today.

It's okay to cry out loud today.

As I squeezed the clasped hands tightly, warmth began to circulate in his cold hands.

Even wiping the tears away, wouldn't it be accepted as saying not to cry? All he could do was pat him on the back of his hand.

So 10 minutes, 30 minutes, 1 hour... , 2 hours ?

'What is it, boy? Doesn't it stop?!'

It seems like today is not a proper day to unravel all the cores.

It's been quite a while since Eugez left, so it's time to come back right now.

'Even the three who are stuck in the corner don't know when they'll wake up... .'

In my heart, I wanted to leave Serpens until he stopped crying because he was exhausted, but he doesn't show any signs of exhaustion.

For him to fall asleep from crying, it seems that it will not be enough even if he stays up all day.

Serpence?

whoops... .

I, Lydia-sama, it's time to come soon...

...Suck.

Ugh, this is going to make you dehydrated. What kind of bastard has tears coming out constantly?

let's cry Yes?

Sometimes, black. He cried out loud.

Serpens said sarcastically. It's still the same as the sniffling, but looking at his face, the tears seem to have barely stopped.

Then I pushed him into the bathroom.

There was no tea, so I poured a full glass of cold water and made Serpens drink it after washing.

Looking at her face, her red, bloodshot eyes seemed to have calmed down with divine power.

No one could see the face of a person who had been down for nearly two hours.

'You still look like you're about to cry.'

It seems that the mind has not been touched.

My eyes are teary-eyed, and if I touch it, it looks like tears will fall again.

It seems you still haven't calmed down.

Do you drink a lot of tea?

It's a feeling I've endured for over 20 years. The sorrows of the past must have continued with their tails on their tails, so it was worth it.

There were plenty of reasons to keep crying.

I knew I was going to suppress it by force, but Serpens never tried to push it myself. So, of course, it's out of control.

If he was fine, he had to suspect that he was secretly using his divine power.

- again

As expected, Eugene's arrival was faster than Serpence's emotions.

'Isn't that better than coming when you're still crying?'

In the corner of the room, three strangers are lying around, stunned, tied up, Serpens holding my hand and crying profusely. .

'What is that, I'm scared!'

Now, when I calmly imagined the third person's point of view and drew it, it was chaos and fear itself.

By the way, was it true that these three criminals were still alive? How come there is no movement... .

"Pe, Percent-nim?! Why are you crying? Are you trying to cry?"

While I was lost in thought for a moment, Serpens must have opened the door.

In the past, you were still trying to get me to do something, but I gave up.

It was not long before the day when the hierarchical relationship was wrapped up in dog food and called out to each other.

'But it's a little bit in the present situation'.'

It's my fault for being dumbfounded thinking about something else, but if that guy opens the door while crying, I become a very strange person.

It's like I'm harassing you, don't you?

Hey, those guys did it! I

They are the culprits! They are our kids... I rang the serpents! I've seen it all!

I shouted, pointing at the stunned, gagged, speechless bastards.

Yeah?! What is that?

They are really bad guys!

We had to exchange information anyway, so I organized and delivered what I and Serpens found to Euges.

Hey, such a celestial wrath...!

Did she also remember yesterday's horrific scene? bursting in anger, rain

He was drenched in burns and his eyes were red.

Ah... how painful and how hard it must have been! We can't increase the number of victims like this anymore.

" Yes, that's right. Never."

Serpense, who could not sympathize with them at all, agreed with an expression that seemed to shed tears at any moment.

'No, this scene is a little strange, isn't it?'

Since I had already burst into anger once and calmed down, it seemed that I was the only one with a lack of emotion.

But now, I feel too pretentious to join in and cry.

got stuck

You cannot be immersed in sentiment forever. If you truly care about the victims, now is the time for punishment rather than mourning.

Again, it's a cool and accurate decision.

Let's just say so.