CH 87

Duke, Please Repent! chapter 87

20. The Duke and the Secret Society (4)

But that doesn't mean it's okay to be like this. You know?

Serpense's fingers twitched slightly.

That's right...

He lowered his eyes, half-closed, and smiled bitterly.

It was covered by long eyelashes, and dark shadows were spread around the eyes.

"But don't be too hard on yourself."

That's right! Persene... No, it's not just the Duke's fault.

He didn't think that Eugenes would support him, so his gaze, who had been staring blankly at the table all the time, turned to her.

"Why is U] Lydia speaking like that?"

It probably means why you can say it's okay even if you are treated as impersonal.

Also, I don't know anything about myself

He also asked if he could say that.

At the same time, it was a question of why not blame himself for having been deceived with hypocrisy and pretense.

I don't know much about you, but I know that you are a person who suffers so much just by realizing it, and that there is no way you can make other people feel insensitive for no reason.

These were the words I couldn't say even when I was dead and awake.

' Because I know everything.'

You are such a good person right now, but there must be a reason why you acted like that.

It's happened in the past, so I understand how you act. Saying you're not bad is obviously different.

'From the listener's point of view and from the speaker's point of view.'

It is easy to understand and sympathize with the situation, but it is difficult to try to understand it without knowing it.

'It's just a vaguely serpent, a person who can deal with comfortably without acting.

I just wished it would increase... .'

She was a being who could shine on her own.

Even if I didn't have to create a place like this, she would have been able to get the same result by herself.

' Because of this, it makes me feel even more sorry for nothing.'

If in the original flow.

If he had revealed his identity when he first rescued Euges.

or. When imprisoned, instead of following the demon worshipers, Humanus, who came after the dark side, came.

If I had waited for

no matter who the opponent is.

If only he had had the opportunity or opportunity to ask for help to be honest about himself... .

'The original Serpence had the potential to be happy enough... .'

I had been neglected for so long that I did not even realize that such a possibility existed.

I closed my wounded heart so that no one could see it, and I even covered my eyes for fear of other people's eyes.

Is that gaze good or evil?

I couldn't see anything, I couldn't feel anything.

I don't understand.

What?

"What do you mean?"

He looked at me and Eugenes alternately.

Why are you two... no, how...

is it kind are you friendly friendly

Unlike other people, do you not turn away? Reach out to someone like me

do you give

Not knowing what to ask first, several words lingered in his mouth, unable to come out.

He licked his lips silently.

"Did I tell you, Serpens. There are people who will turn away from you, but there will be many people who want to help you.

I remember.

"If you dare to find the reason, is it because you showed the truth?"

Yes?

If it had been a different topic, I would have noticed it right away, but in this part, I feel that I am nothing like a child.

Since Serpens revealed himself, he could do that. At least in part, he showed who he was. He seems to know who he is, so he can try to understand him. You can even think about it."

" you weren't different?"

Yes?

All I have to show you is

Well, you've been trying to help me.

No way. I'm not some kind of adult gentleman.

No, even if you are an adult, you cannot help if you do not know if your partner is in need of help.

He clearly revealed himself. He revealed the scars of the past that had been hidden.

'Through the last memories I left behind... .'

If it wasn't for that, I wouldn't have understood him.

I wouldn't have even tried that.

In [Master of the Sacred Sword], he was born with a lack of emotions and was seen as a complete 'evil'.

'Rather than trying to get to know him, he must have tried to find another way... .'

But he was pierced by the holy sword, the last moment.

He recalled the most painful moments of his life.

Just before he drove the world that had made his troubles to ruin, he was too blunt to be bitter about what ended in failure.

In the first place, revenge or resentment, something like that

There was not a single line of description that was filled with a single emotion.

'I was just in endless pain...

When I read that part in [Master of the Holy Sword], I was like, 'Why did you have to tell me this at the end !, was the first thought.

Now it seems vaguely known.

It was a desperate cry.

I like anyone, so I want you to understand me. In the hope that you will save yourself.

I had no choice but to give up, resign, and hide it from myself.

Dunn.

It must have been his last true intention.

'It's good just once, so I want to receive someone's warmth.'

Wasn't that the last regret?

Me too, Serpens. I saw your sincerity, so I wanted to help you.

that's .

"You know what I'm going to say?"

As if he understood, Serpens jig

I blinked my eyes.

choice day. Not much left now.

So, it's going to be difficult for everyone right now... but I hope you at least show yourself to people you can trust.

Yes.

Not for anyone else, but for you.

He nodded with a relaxed expression.

"Well then ! Why don't you call us by our first name in that sense?"

As our conversation seemed to be over, he watched silently.

Yoo Jis, who could not be called by name by himself, secretly raised his hand and suggested.

I am welcome! May I call you Master Yuji?

It's okay if you just call me by my first name.

Eugene answered with a soft smile.

Anyway, Wilydia-sama felt too far away, but it worked out well.

I just need Zion!

"Shion, please take good care of me in the future. And "

Me and Euges looked at Serpens.

He received our eyes full of anticipation and opened his mouth with a faint smile.

I don't like it.

The atmosphere that was supposed to be warm and gloomy suddenly became chilly.

Our duke is a little shy... Yes, he hides his face a lot.

Somehow, it sounds like a dreadful word.

It's been a while since I started calling each other by names. It took about 7 months?

When I heard that it took me 7 months, her face shuddered.

I know this shouldn't be the case, but... .

' Somehow proud?'

She also figured out the name problem first.

I haven't been cheating like myself, and I can only use pure observation and prediction to serpent.

figured out

'What should I say about this... ? Do you feel like you have been pushed back from the analysis?'

Anyway, for that reason, it was a car that made me feel resentful.

In the meantime, if Serpens had called her name right away, I would have been really upset.

'No matter how accustomed to me, even if I become a domestic cat! It took me seven months!'

To give an analogy... .

A little dang-nyang who sometimes only showed affection when she was bored, very rarely come to my house to play.

He suddenly cried and ran to his friend Dunn.

And it doesn't end there, and when you see him rubbing his head on his friend's leg and marking the territory as his own, how sad is it?

'No, thinking like this is not disappointing, it's sad!'

Every relationship has stages.

Even if you eat something that is good for your body in a hurry, you will get sick.

Even more so when it comes to interpersonal relationships.

Little by little, we have to get to know each other and get to know each other, and then we can become a truly long-lasting relationship.

"Seeing your decisive refusal like that, it seems that you are starting to open your heart."

The front and back of the words seem to contradict each other...?

It's not that you're hiding your identity, didn't you tell me honestly without acting? It's a very positive response.

Well, is that so?

Eugez's eyes are whether those words are true

looked at Serpens.

Then he turned his head to avoid the gaze.

You're avoiding your eyes...

It's a matter of method. In a calmer and more relaxed atmosphere, carefully make eye contact and blink gently.

That's how you treat people, right...?

Surprisingly it is.

* * *

The three of them in the corner of the room were taken away early in the morning by Winston.

'No, should I say I took it with me?'

When I woke up from a sudden cold wind blowing in from my sleep, I saw Serpens throwing them out the window.

Startled, I kicked out the bed and looked out to see that Winston was catching them.

'I'm not crazy... .'

I rubbed my eyes knowing that I had seen something wrong in my sleep. But nothing changed.

Winston stacked two on one side

It was lifted up on top of the sesame seeds, and the other one was worn on the opposite side.

When our eyes met, he nodded at me and disappeared.

" What was it?"

Taking over.

I stopped thinking.

I just pretended I didn't see anything and decided to get the rest of my sleep.

A few hours later, when I opened my eyes again, the sun was shining.

We each bring our luggage

I booked a train ticket.

For the rest of the time, we went to the famous restaurant mentioned in my travel guidebook to order a meal to hear about last night's work.

Have you been noisy since morning today?

"Hey, haven't you heard the news?"

We quietly pretended to concentrate on our meal, listening to the voices around us.

Concentrating on the voices that were talking here and there, I was really scolded by what happened last night.

'The magic exploded, and the denomination

Priests of the city came and captured the arena-related personnel who had been suppressed .'

And even now, the announcements from the shrine side continued in the square.

"The demon worshipers are already sneaking among us, leading people down the path of corruption! We keep abstaining from evil, guarding against sin ."]

If you combine the stories you hear, they seem to be talking roughly like this.

'It's not an announcement, it's a pseudo-religious group

It sounds like the missionary work of... ?'

However, it was a world where the existence of gods and demons was certain.

Everyone took it seriously, and talked about it in fear of the demon cult.

And Winston seemed to be there too.

Attended as a witness and made known the cowardice of Count Chuck Mallum by revealing his identity.

Talks about him were seldom heard.

'And one more... .'

Illuminati.

The name was also mentioned often.

A secret society that has been secretly pursuing demon worshipers for a long time and praying for the well-being of the continent.

'That's what brought it to the surface because of this... like this.'

In the end, the thing that existed only in Eugene's delusion came to have a distinct reality.