She was standing in front of him before the window, watering the new plants. The sun stained her hair, and her fingers looked almost transparent in the light. She looked back when she heard the door being pushed open and smiled at Jay. Her eyes were full of love for him.
Jay was just back from a mission, in his police uniform, wearing a police cap, and looking tall and powerful. His appearance made Lilith's face blush. Jay quickly reacted, frowning, "How come you're here again?"
"To bring new plants." Lilith did not care about his fierce expression and said with a sweet smile, "I told you, if your plant died, I would buy a new one."
"That's enough, Lilith!" Jay was irritable and frowned even more. "I told you that kiss didn't mean anything, it is impossible for us to be together."
The expression on Lilith's face turned dark. She looked down at the long leaves, played with the watering can, and bit her lip forcefully. Jay looked into her eyes and felt a sudden sharp contraction in his heart as if it was being crushed by a big hand. He cleared his throat and then said with a light voice, "Please, do not come here to see me again."
Lilith raised her eyes to stare at him. Gradually, the bottoms of her eyes became wet. Seeing her tears, Jay felt guilty but still did not come forward. He clearly knew that if he walked forward, he would hold her in his arms to comfort her.
"If you really don't feel anything towards me." Lilith's voice choked up. "Why did you ask my mother not to let me marry someone like Ben Winston?"
Jay was surprised.
"I know my mother came to you, and I can imagine what she said to you." Lilith forced back her tears. Her mother did not hide it from her, and regretted that if Jay had not been a policeman, she would have agreed to their relationship.
"She's right, I really can't give you anything." He said reluctantly. "I'm not right for you. You should marry a man with a steady career, not a man like me. I don't know whether tomorrow I'll be alive or not."
Jay said his crisp and ruthless words and made Lilith's eyes turn red. But this time, her anger was more than grievance, and she felt more than sadness.
She shouted at Jay, "You don't know me well, why are you so sure that I should marry a man with a stable job?"
Jay was choked up for a long time and then said, "In short, we'd better not talk to each other anymore."
Lilith was angry at his attitude, and she bit her lips to stop herself from crying. Her red eyes were looking at Jay, "Okay, so you don't think I'm fit to marry a cop, do you? I'll let you see if I suit you!" After putting the spray pot heavily on the balcony, she grabbed her bag from the desk and passed Jay to open the door.
As soon as her finger touched the doorknob, her arm was pulled by Jay, and her whole body almost flew into his arms. She looked up at him, he was frowning, and his tone was displeased. "What are you going to do?"
"If you don't love me, someone else will. There are many male officers outside the door, and most of them are single. I just want you to see if I can fall in love with and marry a police officer. Let me go!" Lilith was furious, staring at the man's eyes under the brim of his hat. At the end of her speech, she suddenly shook off his hand and rushed out the door.
Jay reached for her but saw her figure had rushed out the door and left without saying anything. The noise on this side of the office had attracted the attention of his colleagues. When Lilith ran out of the room, everyone looked at each other. She stopped angrily and looked around. As soon as she started to speak, Jay came out, reaching out and pulling her to his side. He lowered his voice and shouted, "Will you please stop?"
"Who's acting up?" Lilith lost her temper and looked at him coldly.
Jay had lost his patience, and his eyes were as cold as ice. He asked her slowly, "What can you do other than get angry? If you want to find a boyfriend, you can find whoever you like!"
After speaking, Jay turned around coldly.
Lilith's face was so red that she clenched her fists. A second before he opened the door to his office, she took a deep breath and shouted at his back, "I still like you!"
Jay stopped suddenly.
The colleagues around them froze. Lilith's voice hung in the area. She stared at him and continued, "Jay, I like you! Only you!"
Everyone was motionless. They were all surprised and then they looked at them. Jay suddenly turned back, looking at Lilith's eyes, naturally astonished. He said nothing to Lilith but walked over to pull her back into the office.
The door of the office was closed, and it was not difficult to see the unhappiness in Jay's heart. He turned around just as he shut the door and was preparing to denounce Lilith for her nonsense, but Lilith took the initiative to fly into his arms. Her hands clasped around his neck, and her cheeks pressed against his hard, majestic uniform, and her tears flew down. "Don't push me away, Jay, I didn't act up. What I said was all true. Can't we be together? I can't believe you don't feel anything for me."
Jay lowered his head. Her eyes were dim, and her long curly eyelashes were wet.
His chest also became wet, and for a while, his hands were unable to push her away, and he let her cry in his arms. After a long time, when she started sobbing, he gently pulled her away, staring at her, and his tone was helpless, "What exactly do you like about me?" He was not a college student who had just left school. He had passed the age of ignorance towards love and society. He had seen the worst of human nature. The countless tragedies caused by human greed. He knew how much helplessness and sadness there was in the world and how much he could only watch the dark reality surrounding them. He had ex-girlfriends. There was a time when a girl said she would stay with him forever, but then she broke up with him for his work.
He knew what he should fight for and what he had to give up.
Like love.
Lilith, the woman who had no intention of breaking into his life, was a young woman. He really couldn't understand what she liked about him.
Lilith stared at his eyes and murmured, "I don't know why I like you, but I really want to be with you."
Jay looked at her, and his heart felt pain. He sighed and reached out to hold her in his arms.