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This time, she did not want to hide this part of her love. This time, she wanted to completely bury this part without revealing even a bit of it.

Bai Qian looked at the wound on Su Nuo's hand with a pained expression and gently bandaged it. "Are you really not injured?"

Su Nuo suddenly threw herself at Bai Qian and hugged her tightly. "Big sister, I can't bear to part with you."

She really couldn't bear to part with him, but since she had decided to bury her love for him, from that day on, she would follow him to a place furthest away from her master. When he returned, she would leave forever.

Then, it was real. There would be no more damage and no more harm.

"Idiot, big sister hasn't left yet." The remaining anger in Bai Qian also vanished.

Su Nuo didn't reply, but held on tightly to her. "Elder sister, you will definitely be happy. You definitely will."

Upon hearing these words, Bai Qian nodded. "Big Sis will, and so will Nou'er."

Some people were destined to be doted upon by others and live a happy life. As for some people, even Qiong Qi's life was filled with pain. The former was her elder sister, while the latter was herself.

However, Su Nuo just nodded her head, "We will all be happy."

Actually, it wouldn't include her. The end was already decided before it had even begun.

Su Nuo took a long time to calm down, but at this moment, she found the best reason. Even if her eyes were sad, even if she wanted to cry, she could still openly say it because she didn't want to.

She only felt that, in the end, her sister was still an eighteen year old child, not to mention a child lacking in love. However, in her heart, she clearly knew that, regardless of marriage or not, Xiao'er was still her most beloved younger sister.

"Nore." As she thought about it, Su Nuo sniffed and put the remaining food in the bowl into her mouth. She raised her head to look at Bai Qian. After a pause, she said, "Xiao'er, big sister is going back tonight."

Su Nuo froze for a second, then understood that her sister was going back to the Su palace. No matter how different her sister was from her master, if she were to be married, she would have to leave from her own home.

Bai Qian looked at Su Nuo's face and carefully said, "Big sis wants you to stay with me until tomorrow, but if you don't want to go back, then I won't force you."

"Of course I'm going to accompany my sister." Su Nuo cut him off.

Bai Qian looked at Su Nuo, wanting to see something on her face. "Nuo, if you don't want to, then big sister is fine. I'll see you tomorrow night."

Su Nuo smiled. "I wanted to go back with elder sister to begin with. Since elder sister is going to marry me, I naturally have to stay by her side."

"But …" Gentle White hesitated.

Su Nuo's smile became even wider. "Still saying that big sister is shy."

Bai Qian stared at her in amusement. She thought for a while before replying, "Xiao'er, if you don't want to, you can tell big sister anytime. Do you understand?"

Su Nuo nodded.

Will you? Of course she didn't want to. If she could, she hoped that she would never go back. That was a nightmare that she would never wake up from. As long as she went back, that nightmare would continue and become real.

However, since her elder sister was willing to say it, then she would know how much her elder sister hoped that she could accompany her. If that was the case, then she would definitely go back.

Bai Qian still wanted to say something to Su Nuo, but Housekeeper Zhou came to tell her that someone from the Bai Clan had arrived and was waiting for her in the main hall. Bai Qian told Su Nuo to eat the rice properly, and also warned the servant not to overcook the medicinal food.

"Miss Su, you're really blessed." The servant girl at the side could not help but speak.

Su Nuo smiled, "That's right, I have such a great sister." There was also the Duke of Beichen who loved her a lot.

But...

Su Nuo did not go to the main hall. Su Nuo did not have any resistance towards the Bai family's Su Nuo. On the contrary, she was actually grateful to them for taking her sister in and letting her sister live a good life until now.

However, a person like her no longer knew how to interact with others. No, perhaps it should be said that she no longer had the energy to interact with people that she cared about.

She was afraid, she was overdrawn, she was overdrawn, she was overdrawn, she was overdrawn even by the pretense of her face, and then everything was — broken, broken.

Su Nuo had been in Whitey's room the entire time. The servant girl had brought the medicinal food for her to drink, so she obediently drank it all. The servant girl was astonished. "Miss Su, today you really —" The servant didn't know how to describe it.

Su Nuo continued to smile at her. "Big Sis specifically prepared that for me. Of course I want to drink it."

The maidservant took the bowl and joked, "I, Miss Su, don't know. In the past, every time I watched you drink from our underlings, it would make me feel pain. My face would scrunch up, and it would be as pitiful as it could be.

From start to finish, Su Nuo listened with a smile on her face.

"However, we all like you, Miss Su."

Su Nuo was rather surprised to hear this. It seemed that no servant had ever told her this before.

The servant girl seemed to have seen through her doubt, and said: "Because Miss Su, you are clearly the future Crown Prince's consort, but you have never gotten angry at us, and have done everything by yourself, so you wouldn't even bother us, if it were any other young mistresses, they would just point at us and scold us. This is light, and if we get serious, they'll beat us up."

"I'm not as good as you say." Of course she knew about those days, because the her from before had a life that was ten times more cruel than theirs. Then now, what right did she have to treat others this way?

The maidservant disapproved, "Miss Su, then you are being modest."

Su Nuo smiled. She didn't know if she was being modest or not. Perhaps, in her life, there had never been a chance for such words to appear. To be modest, one had to first have to have the ability to be modest.

After the maid left, Su Nuo still sat in the shallow room. Her heart was a little empty, but she seemed to have already filled it up. After a while, she got up and went to the west room.

When it was almost night, Bai Qian came over and said, "Xiao Er, let's go."

Su Nuo had her back facing Whitesnow. At that moment, the empty expression on her face was completely withdrawn. She pretended to stretch her back, turned around, and said in a slightly spoiled manner, "I'm leaving, I almost fell asleep."

"You sleepyhead, you only know how to sleep." Xiao Bai smiled, but then asked, "Do you feel any more pain from the wound on your hand?"

Su Nuo shook her head. "Elder sister, let's go." He then took the initiative to pull Whitey's hand and walk outside.

Outside the door were two palanquins. Su Nuo and Bai Qian each sat in a palanquin. Su Nuo was in a trance and became even more excited. She was actually returning to the Su palace. It was an indescribable feeling.

Su Nuo wondered what kind of insult she would receive when she returned to the Su Clan this time. However, to her surprise, there was none.

The sedan chair stopped at the Su Palace. When Su Nuo got off, he saw Su Qinghai standing there, waiting for Bai Qian. He completely ignored Su Nuo.

She walked over, held Su Nuo's hand, and then walked in front of Su Qinghai, "Father."

Su Nuo was not unfamiliar with this kind of smile. In the past, whenever she hid somewhere, she would see Su Qinghai's expression. Sometimes Su Qinghai would eat with Bai Qian, watch her draw, and would also teach her how to write.

"Your mother's mood has been a bit unstable these past two days, so I didn't ask her to come." Su Qinghai explained, still not looking at Su Nuo.

Su Nuo's face could not help but droop. This was a habit that had accumulated over the years. Seeing Su Qinghai stir up those years of helplessness and youth was a form of inferiority and also self-loathing.

Bai Qian replied, "Mother's body isn't well, so it's natural for her to have a good rest." After saying that, he paused for a moment, then pulled Su Nuo forward, saying, "Father, I've brought Xiao'er with me." There was something about him that made Su Qinghai want to see Su Nuo.

Sure enough, Su Qinghai barely managed to sweep a glance at Su Nuo before he replied. He simply didn't hear Su Nuo call him father in a low voice. No matter what this person had experienced, or what kind of vicissitudes of life had left a mark on his face, in the end, this was still Su Qinghai.

Bai Qian was worried that Su Nuo would sleep alone, so she pulled her to sleep in her room.

Su Hong's house had an old-fashioned smell to it, and the passing of time made it seem like she was dancing on the tips of her fingers.

In this room, there were actually too many hidden things, so much that Su Nuo was unable to recall them. However, in this room, Bai Qian was holding them with the bearing of an elder or guardian, and even Su Nuo herself could not clearly recall what that meant.

The only thing she could say and the only thing she wanted to say was to tell her mother. Her elder sister finally approved of her. Although her father and eldest wife did not approve of her, her elder sister finally recognized that she was a member of the Su family and her sister.

However, this feeling had long since blurred the boundary. There was no longer any distinction between sadness and happiness.

Su Nuo woke up very early. Perhaps, it could be said that she didn't sleep very well. Bai Qian also woke up very early. In fact, not only the two of them, whether it was the Su Clan, Wang Clan, or even the entire capital, were all excited by this grand marriage.

"Xiao Er, help your big sister comb her hair." Bai Qian said to Su Nuo.

Su Nuo agreed with a smile. Then, she picked up the comb and carefully combed her hair.

Su Nuo combed her long black hair to the end. It was as if her heart was blank from head to toe.

Because, if it wasn't for the emptiness, maybe Su Nuo wouldn't be able to stand all these complicated feelings added together.

The light in the bronze mirror was quiet and beautiful, many times more beautiful than usual. Su Nuo was very serious, helping Whitesnow comb her hair into a bun.

"Elder sister, let me help you."

Bai Qian nodded with a smile.

Yang Liu's eyebrows, lacquered eyes, and soft red lips were truly beauties that could topple cities and topple nations. Su Nuo took the big red wedding dress she had prepared. It was just that Su Nuo did not know that the wedding dress was actually so heavy.

After putting on the wedding dress, Su Nuo smiled at Bai Qian, "Elder sister, you are so beautiful."

It was rare for Bai Qian to be so shy as she glared at her.