Chapter 1957

He had such a plan. He had such a plan.

She has always thought that her son has grown up and become sensible, and finally knows how to take the responsibility and think for them. But she didn't expect that all these are her self righteous, and the reality runs counter to her original intention.

Her son never figured it out, so he stayed at home for more than half a year and fell in love obediently. But when his heart died, he thought it didn't matter.

If she wants him to do anything, he will do it. If she wants him to fall in love, he will do it. If she wants him to get engaged, he will get engaged. Even if she wants him to get married and have children, he can do it. There is no reason, it just doesn't matter.

He even made up his mind to die. As long as she left the world, he would catch up with her. For him, death was not the end of pain, but the relief he had been seeking for for a long time. He had already asked for euthanasia in despair, but it was also his wish.

As a mother, she didn't know anything. Maybe she didn't know. She should have seen the clue. However, she chose to deceive herself and didn't dare to face it. Now she had to face it. It was her fault. It turned out that it was all her fault in the end.

It's her cowardice and incompetence, it's her harm to her children, it's her destruction of caring for her family. If she could be more firm in those years, if she could fight against her husband regardless of everything when Niannian was still there, Niannian would not die.

Over the years, she has always been afraid to recall the past. When she thinks about the past, she feels suffocated, painful and unable to forgive her cowardice. She tries to dust the past in various ways. She even dares not to look at the pictures she read, so she is afraid to recall them.

As a result, she has escaped for so many years, in exchange for repeating the same mistakes. In the end, what she wants to protect, she can't keep anything. Her family is fragmented, leaving their mother and son to survive.

Think of my son just that I have nothing, a total failure, care for the family left me to live alone is also meaningless, an indescribable pain eroding her, can't, how can it be such an outcome?

In this way, she is not at ease when she dies. How can she explain to your ancestors on the way to huangquan?

Yebai can't die, she has only such a son, only him.

"Night white!" She grabbed her son's sleeve, tears fell madly, and her voice was almost hoarse. "You, you can't think that way."

"How can you be so confused? My mother is very old. It doesn't matter if she dies, but you are still young."

"You are only in your thirties, and your future is so long, how can you want to die?"

Gu Yebai just looked at her and looked at her without saying a word. There was no expression on his face. He was clearly a good living person, but he was so empty and lifeless, as if he had really died long ago.

There is no light in his world, and his soul has been taken away, leaving only a broken shell. Every day he lives is just a walking corpse.

That kind of desperation, desperation to all the pain can be understated, as if to say nothing to him, let her as if she was choked by the throat can not breathe, "night white, even if the mother asked you, you good alive."

"I'm sorry, it used to be my mother's fault. It was my mother who didn't protect my sister and didn't protect you. You can blame my mother. You can blame me for hating me, but you're still young. You can't just die with your mother."

"By the way, don't you like Guo'er? My mother didn't force you. I blame my mother for being dazed by your father's death at that time. In fact, what's wrong with you? What's wrong with Guo'er? It's our feudalism and our stubbornness that make you have to separate."

"Mom has figured it out now, son. If you like Guo'er, you can go after her. If she doesn't pay attention to you, mom will go to apologize to you. Mom will ask her to forgive you and let mom kneel down for her. Just live well and don't scare mom."

She was afraid. Up to now, she was really afraid, because her son's expression and state were telling her that his previous words were not just to say, nor to block her. What he said was the truth, he really thought that way, he really wanted to die.

"I really figured it out." She nearly 60 people, at the moment cried out, "it doesn't matter whether you care about your family or not, how your grandfather or your father is, it doesn't matter, it's all dead, and I'm going to die, right?"

"It's all my fault. I ignored your feelings. It's my stubbornness that drove you to the end. Until now, I understand that it's important for the dead to live. Yebai, you and Guo'er can do whatever they want. We don't need to care about the dead."

"But mom, it's late." His faint smile, through the unspeakable grief, "no matter what you think now, what you want to do, it's too late, mom, Guo'er, she married."

She couldn't believe it. "What? How can it be? You've only been divorced for more than a year. Guo Er, she loves you. I know she can't get married so soon. "

"That's what happens in the world. The impossible often happens." The corners of the mouth pursed a smile, but it was the most bitter radian, "she married, married his childhood sweetheart, I want to get her back, but it's a step too late.""Mom, do you know why I've been missing for more than half a month? Because I saw them walk out of the Civil Affairs Bureau and see their happy faces on their marriage certificates. I'm afraid that I can't hold on for another second, so I ran away, ha ha."

"In fact, it's very good. It's really good for Guo'er to marry Zuo Yichen. He has a pair of enlightened parents. They don't care whether Guo'er has married anyone or whether she can have children. They treat her as their daughter wholeheartedly."

"They won't let Guo'er be wronged, they won't dislike her, they won't let her into the family. Contrary to your attitude towards Guo'er, it's probably the best choice for her to marry into the left family. To tell you the truth, I'm happy for her, but I won't be happy any more. I won't be happy in my life."

"By the way, there's another good news. I'm afraid you can't stand it. I haven't told you all the time. Now I want to come, and there's nothing I can't say." He calmly and her eyes, thin lips slightly lift, "Mom, in fact, there is a home after."

"Guo'er was pregnant before she divorced me. Although the doctor said that she could not have a child, sometimes there would be miracles. Such a slim chance happened to her, and there was no way to explain it. That's the fact."