Chapter 70:

Chapter 70:

Chapter 70

Where does it end?

“I’m honestly a useless member.”

“No, you’re not!”

Jung Sejun jumped up at Kim Younghyun’s words.

“Why would you think that... Who said that? No!”

“That’s right, hyung. Calling yourself useless is too much.”

“You’re not really useless. You don’t need to listen to the haters.”

The members of Awi also chimed in with their support. Kim Younghyun smiled weakly. He seemed to be half-drunk already.

“Anyway, our group was doing well when we debuted. Sejun made a really good song.”

“Ah... ‘Long Time No See’? Wow, that was a hit song.”

Jo Taewoong hummed Black Rush’s debut song ‘Long Time No See’. The other members joined him in singing. The atmosphere became lively in an instant.

“Right, that song. Our debut song was so successful and our group suddenly rose to fame. Naturally, people’s attention was drawn to us.”

Kim Younghyun took a sip of wine and continued his story. The noisy Awi members quieted down.

“The company naturally wanted to make the most of it. Of course, Sejun and Wookjin, who were talented and had good sense, were the first priority for casting.”

“Our company wasn’t that big back then, so they couldn’t give us all the opportunities we wanted.”Checkk new novel chapters at novelbin(.)com

Jung Sejun added. Kim Younghyun nodded.

“I was honestly worse than the other members in singing and dancing, so I was always in the back for choreography and I had no special skills for variety shows either.”

“No, hyung, that’s not...”

Jung Sejun sighed with pity. He tried to say something, but he couldn’t find the words.

“Listen, Black Rush became famous, but there weren’t many people who knew all the members... And then people started to say things.”

It started with his close family and friends.

“Don’t you appear on TV?”

“People don’t believe me when I say you’re in Black Rush.”

“Black Rush? What’s that? Jung Sejun? Oh! I know him. He’s in your group?”

“Black Rush? Jung Sejun and the kids?”

“That really hurt my self-esteem.”

-What kind of member is Younghyun?

└Just the oldest brother...?

└Acting? Well, that’s vague.

-Oh Kim Younghyun only has tons of photocards ᅳᅳ

-Kim Younghyun is so useless he’s always in the back for choreographyᄏᄏ

He was psychologically dominated by the hateful comments on the internet. And by the words of his closest people, wrapped as concern but cutting like knives.

Do I really have nothing I’m good at? The other members are working so hard, why am I like this? Did I really do something wrong?

“I became obsessed with doing better and developed OCD... I’m still the oldest member of this group. Instead of leaving everything to the other members, I wanted to do something too. I wanted to stand out and be noticed.”

No one could easily say anything at Kim Younghyun’s words mixed with sighs.

“To be honest, I told Ian earlier that it would be okay once I got used to it, but it wasn’t okay. I tried hard, but my skills improved slowly. I tried not to look at people’s reactions, but I ended up seeing them anyway. I wanted to see if I had improved.”

Kim Younghyun said in a joking tone.

“But what is this? They don’t care about me? The only attention I got was hate?”

“No, hyung, maybe you felt that way because you were depressed.”

“That’s right.”

“Hyung, you had a lot of fans. And they reacted well too...”

Jung Sejun tried to console him. His expression was gloomy. He felt like he had done something wrong by reacting like that. Kim Younghyun waved his hand.

“It’s not your fault...”

“That’s right! It’s just those people who have a problem.”

Park Seodam said a word.

“Anyway, as the situation continued like that. Before I knew it, I felt suffocated doing group activities. I felt like I wouldn’t be able to live a normal idol life like this.”

“...”

“So... I wanted to step away from Black Rush for a while and start fresh on my own... Without being swayed by others.”

“No, hyung, if you had told us earlier...”

Jung Sejun couldn’t finish his sentence and sighed. He thought he was just looking for a new dream. He thought he wanted to be free and not tied to the group.

But it turned out he was running away. He never dreamed that he had such a story. Ian asked.

“You could have done solo activities... even if you renewed your contract.”

“Wookjin said he wouldn’t renew his contract first, so the team’s future was already uncertain. And the company had more kids to take care of, right? Oh, I’m not blaming you guys?”

Kim Younghyun winked at Lee Jooheuk.

“...Then we’ll go! Thank you for the meal, hyungs!”

“We’ll treat you next time!”

The juniors ran towards the company. Kim Younghyun shouted at them.

“Hey!”

“Yes?”

“Go on for a long time!”

Kim Younghyun yelled and the members looked at each other and smiled brightly.

“Yes!”

They answered well. Kim Younghyun chuckled.

“Sejun, I’ll go too.”

“What? Already? Let’s go for round two.”

“I have to pack my stuff at home.”

“...Oh.”

Kim Younghyun’s home was no longer Black Rush’s dormitory. Jung Sejun called out to Kim Younghyun, who was walking across the alley.

“Younghyun hyung!”

“Huh?”

Jung Sejun opened his mouth to say something, but closed it again.

“...Keep in touch!”

Jung Sejun said with difficulty and Kim Younghyun laughed and answered.

“Okay!”

“Hello.”

“Oh, Ian, hello. Your face is killing me today.”

That was what the staff always said when they saw Ian. It became a greeting that everyone followed.

Ian stretched as if he was used to it. He came early than the other members for personal practice. Awi’s comeback was not far away.

“What’s going on?”

Ian asked the staff. The company was noisy. Ian looked at the desk and chairs that were being moved into the company.

“Oh, this is because the company reorganized and created a new department. They hired a lot of new staff too... Jumin, who brought you here, became a team leader.”

“Oh, Jumin hyung made it.”

The staff who was checking the goods said. Ian whistled.

“What department is it?”

“It’s a rookie development team.”

“Oh...”

The staff said excitedly.

“They’re going to hold a big audition and recruit trainees too.”

“I see.”

“You didn’t know? You guys are on the audition recruitment video as the main attraction.”

Ian felt a bitter taste in his mouth.

‘Well, the company is a profit group...’

They couldn’t rely on Black Rush forever. Popularity changes.

“I’m going to practice.”

“Okay.”

Black Rush’s contract renewal failed not long ago and the company already finished reorganizing and brought in new people and new departments. Ian was seized by an indescribable emotion.

‘How did Black Rush hyungs feel?’

What did they think when they saw the trainees who pushed them back as their group’s growth slowed down?

How did they feel when the company reduced Black Rush’s activities and pushed Awi hard?

“Should I leave soon...?”

Ian looked at the empty practice room and muttered.

‘The other members should come soon too.’

It wasn’t time to laze around in the dorm. Ian opened the phone message app and entered the group chat room that was pinned at the top.

Guys, our company has a new teamᄋᄋ Let’s practice hard

He moved his finger to press the send button, but paused for a moment.

When did he set it as an announcement? ‘Let’s go till the end’ by Jo Taewoong was pinned at the top of the group chat.

‘Where is the end?’

Contract expiration? Renewal? At least 10 years? Will the company support us until then?

‘...I don’t know.’