Chapter 118 Nihil

In a pitch black darkness, there was once a 'thing' that didn't know what she was…..

She didn't know what she was doing, what this place was, what her purpose was for existing….

Maybe she didn't even know how to think about those things either….

However, as time went on, she started seeing things….

Things that had colors….

It was a place where she did not know anything about….

A place she wanted to see…..

But there was nothing she could do about it….

Because she couldn't move…..

She didn't even know what was moving….

However, one day, suddenly, her world got brighter…..

Because of a certain creature….

A creature that had 'feathers' on top of his body…..

Pitch black feathers coupled with bright red balls just below those black feathers….

Since she didn't know what it was, she just waited…

Waited in order to see, in order to understand…..

And as time went on, she started seeing new things, hearing new things, and learning, although the last part was not that normal….

She still remembers the first thing she heard.

'How beautiful…. Your name is Nihil from now on….'

It was the voice of that creature…

Although she didn't understand what that meant in the beginning, she somehow felt good hearing that….

She was happy….

She was happy because she was able to see a lot of new things as time went on….

She was happy because she was able to learn a lot of new things at the hands of that creature….

That creature whose name she had understood….

'Master Callius….'

It was that creature's name….

Because she would always hear what others were saying….

Because she was somehow able to understand that that creature was her master…..

And she was pretty happy to be able to serve him….

But, everything ended in one day…..

That one day that her master left her all alone…..

Although he was always with her inside a place that never changed, after that cursed day, he had never grabbed her again….

He watched her from time to time but never took her in his hands….

At that time, she thought….

'Why, why are you not using me anymore, master?'

Because at some point she was able to understand what they were saying….

What they were talking about….

Like a baby that had just been born….

And days went on just like that….

It was boring… Depressing…. It was like hell for her….

It was something that she had wanted to end…..

And as she wished, it came true….

Her master, the person she wanted to be with….

He grabbed her again, taking her out of the place she was staying…. She was hanging….

However, she noticed one thing….

Her master was different from before…..

Somehow she instinctually knew….

She knew that her master was someone different…..

Something changed….

But she never questioned…. Thinking that it was insolent of her….

'Master finally looking at me again, I should do my best too….'

That was what she thought….

But, alas, she was still unable to do anything…

Only being able to watch her master was something she had always cursed herself about….

However, that changed when her master brought her to a place filled with things like her….

Filled with her kin….

And there she saw a person that gave her the opportunity to be free….

A man with white feathers over his face that her master called 'Beard.'

A man that set her free from the shackles that were holding her….

At that moment, she was finally able to 'feel'….

She was able to feel the 'hunger'….

The hunger to kill….

The hunger to absorb….

However, even before her hunger, there was one more thing she felt….

Her master's warmth….

She was able to feel the hand that was holding her…..

A hand that always used her….

At that moment, her wishes finally came true….

Being a use for her master….

To explore the unknown….

To kill the enemies of her master….

To protect her master from many other things….

She was finally able to understand what it really meant to be alive…..

From that point on, everything went smoothly….

Like he knew what she wanted to eat, her master always gave her food…..

Always letting her eat her meals…. Not skipping anything….

Although some of them were not to her liking, she never complained and took everything her master gave….

Making herself stronger…. And she was able to feel that too….

However, there was one thing that sprouted inside her….

One more desire bloomed in her heart….

The desire to have a body….

The desire to let her master know she was there….

The desire to talk to him….

The desire to let him know about her existence…..

Alas, she was still unable to do anything about such a thing…..

Until today…..

When she entered this place with her master's hand holding her, she felt something….

Something was going to happen in this place….

She fought… And fought…. And fought….

At the hands of her master, she was something that had a purpose…..

And she knew that as well…. She knew her purpose to exist…. To assist her master…..

When her master faced that hateful magician that had a disgusting aura, she knew he would win….

She never doubted him….

And just as she had thought, he won at the end….

Although her heart felt a bit weird when she saw her master using another one of her kin, she knew it was for his purpose….

She knew she was still the number one….

However, after that, she felt something….

Something different…

Something eminent trying to let her kneel… Trying to make her submit….

However, she refused….

'You are not my master; how dare you try to discard me!'

With that thought, she resisted….

She resisted the invasion of the unknown by doing the thing she had always done….

By absorbing it…

And she succeeded….

Then, someone other came again….

'Insolent!'

As her master would say, she resisted again, absorbing the one coming…..

This time it was a lot easier than before….

However, at that time, she felt something…..

She felt the final missing piece of her was finally filled….

She was finally able to feel the warmth in the air…..

The feeling of being free…..

"MAAAAAASTEEEER!"

With a jump, she hugged her master, finally feeling the warmth as a human for the first time….