190 188 Stories Sobbing Evening

After the study group, we left Yuki's house behind.

Quiet red shoots, dark shadows stretch. The blue of the sky disappeared completely, and the evening shadows reigned, and walked silently with me on such a journey home.

……

My opening of Dominator of Dolls in Clan Clan definitely triggered the sale of Domestic Nursing Dolls...

Neither of my two best friends put it directly in my mouth, but it's definitely me at the heart of this commotion. No, isn't this the only time? Make it a fairy appearance, make it a martial arts elf, and I'm responsible for all the changes you've made?

What caused this, and why me?

The doubts are endless, and my mind is anointed with anxiety.

"Hey, Shintaro... are you okay?

It was bad for the night (or so) when he offered to give me a ride home, but now I felt like I wanted to be alone.

There is a heavy vague impatience about what to do now.

Looking up at the evening sky, at some point the clouds had turned into flickering lead (nagging) sky.

Oh, cloudy clouds grow as if to herald my future. Where am I headed since my sexual transformation? I don't see the future I want.

"Hey, Shintaro."

Because you didn't respond, or the shaking night put your hand gently on my shoulder. I look back and see my best friend. Large, bumpy hands, wide shoulders, and healthy growing tall.

Everything is an element that I don't have. You're supposed to have walked with me from middle school, but you see a splendid body that's not like me, and you don't want to see it any more and you're out of your sight.

Yeah, I don't have anything right now. Evening Fai tells doctors or lawyers that even though I have the goal of becoming a gaming programmer at night, I just get swept up by the immediate problem... No, I don't do my homework, and I live a sweet, self-depraved life for both of them. It may be natural for me not to make any progress. Besides, I can't believe I'm the culprit for something strange about reality.

What the hell am I doing?

"Now, leave me alone"

Try to deceive the inner surface of the rough, pay the hand placed on your shoulder, and keep walking.

"Wait. Shintaro, are you feeling a little weird?

Yuki is kind to me. He worries about me at night.

Naturally, you guys and I are different.

"Hey, man."

I find myself a little irritated at the shaky night when I persevere in my bidding.

You're not being a girl, so you can afford to think of me. No matter how much I wish to be reciprocal, aren't you guys looking down on me somewhere in your mind like an asylum (straw) subject?

Don't worry about it.

"What? What are you so angry about?"

"I don't know what to do at night."

I don't like myself feeling this inferior to my best friends.

But I still regret it.

"Suddenly what? Say it."

"... I don't think I should play clan clan anymore"

"Huh...?

I sighed slightly at the shaking night in response to the response I gave after I was seriously troubled.

At the same time, it pours and rains, wetting us.

That cold grain of water got into my eyes and I'll just stain it a little bit.

"Shintaro... you're an idiot, right?

What an idiot... shaking night stares at me with a cool face. How can you stay so calm? How can you afford that?

I saw the calm attitude of my best friend... the black smudges that the rain grains put on my clothes spread inside me as well.

"Don't talk to me like I know. What do you know about me at night..."

My feminization might have something to do with the game.

It's unclear how changes in the game can make a difference in reality.

Tomorrow, again, my body could be changing. That makes me irresistibly scared. Besides, even Evening Fair and Shaking Night can be a strange body when you're involved with me. But I'm not in a position to worry about you two without a goal.

"You two shouldn't worry too much."

Why, I'm the only one who can't walk with you guys.

How come I'm the only one who can see this?

"I'm flattered by the night and the evening glow."

Even though I know it's not the two of us' fault, the more I twisted it, the more dirty I get from the faucet.

"Look at my body!

We have to stop.

Don't expose any more extra emotions. No matter how much I suppress it, I can't control the anxiety of my explosion.

"What if my body changes again because of the game? Suddenly you grow up and get bigger? What if it gets extra small? What are you gonna do!

Anxiety and tears abound like cutting a weir.

Even though I knew I was pitiful...... from my eyes and mouth, I couldn't stop the things that came out.

"And heh... you're too scared that reality is gonna change because of me! I didn't know what kind of misfortune to sprinkle or what kind of harm to do to someone else or the world to get caught up in!

……

Hit me for real all at once, not to look spicy at night, not to look upset bareback... just staring at me quietly.

My best friend was even calm to me when I was excited and crying.

How can this be different with me and you...

……

I am jealous of its strength and at the same time want to escape with misery.

Whimpers that have been leaked (also) get wet in the evening, but do not flow and disappear. Then you can just let me disappear. Something ugly about me hitting my best friend with such dirty emotions.

"You guys are good..."

Don't do that.

"You guys just have to be nice to poor me. Look down and immerse yourself in superiority."

You two are my dearest best friends.

But I got mean enough to poke the night away.

It's just that I regret my adult wandering attitude more than I do.

"You're so easy."

I didn't mean to bump into words like this.

But what words overflow?

It didn't stop me with spilling tears.

Then for a while I stood silently, and when I looked down, I hurt my chest because I was afraid to look at the shaking face at night. I was aware that I had said terrible things... contrary to the spicy silence, the momentum of the evening rise increases, and only the water noise murmurs.

"... Shintaro."

Weirdly, the sound of the night shaking sounded crisp as the rain grains pounded on us.

"If you want to stop clan clan, I won't disagree"

I thought I heard clothes rubbing, and suddenly a shaky face appeared in front of me. Apparently, to gaze at you, you crouched down.

I was burned to the eyelids even if my eyes were closed.

"We share the same fear of changing reality, so I know some feelings... I guess I'm not particularly anxious in Shintaro's case... but I can't even recognize the changed events if I have to play the game..."

If I didn't say anything, 'That's why I called you an idiot,' continued Shaking Night.

"For example, if Japan goes to war with its neighbors tomorrow... what can we do? Can we stop the war?

What are you saying all of a sudden?

While I was wondering, I found it impossible to stop the war.

"It's not a big deal for a high school student."

... I know a hundred of them.

"But there's something we can do. There has to be a part to resist. One resistance at first… if it spreads to one person and another, maybe even war can be deterred."

It turns out that explains the game by analogy. But I'm the one who's responsible for it, so if I quit the game, I can prevent the invasion of the game into reality.

"And it's not necessarily your fault. Remember the content of the news article."

I wonder what you're talking about... and I open my closed eyes.

Shaking night I quickened my glasses full of water droplets so I could see through my insides.

"I thought you said the crime rate in Talent Holder was rising. The fact that" talented (holder) "is out there where we don't know it... it's not just the in-game events about you that make it real. Don't you?"

That's... right.

If "talented (holders)" exist besides us, the reality of the game is progressing even where it has nothing to do with us. I finally understood what it meant for Shaking Night to call me an idiot for not realizing such an easy thing.

"You're holding too much on your own, idiot"

You have us, right? I heard such a sub audio.

I spit insulting words at my best friends, and the gentleness of the shaky night that you say that way makes my eyes burn again.

"And that kind of thing just got to my head, you know?"

My cheeks were twisted with great force.

"Never look down on Shintaro because he's a chick."

Yes, yes, yes, no.

My eyes and cheeks are hot.

"Don't be humble. I won't tolerate anyone looking down on Shintaro. Even you."

"Ugh... I'm sorry... I said terrible things at night..."

The dripping rain was overwhelming, and at night (Koya) I gently muddle my forehead and smile.

"Hey, if I were a girl, wouldn't Shintaro get along?

"... there's no such thing as..."

Shaking night nodded to my satisfaction with my reply, deepening my grin even more.

"You said me and Evening Fai were the same, right? It doesn't change."

No matter how much you change around us, we don't.

So we can bump into each other.

So I can feel safe.

more expensive.

That's what the night's eye staring at me with sincere colors from behind my glasses told me.

"That's what we are, isn't it?

The droplets attached to his face and hair sparkled and his best friend's smile was terribly dazzling.

"Or me and Evening Fai are so unreliable."

"Yeah......"

I wanted to be next to these guys, and I wanted to be as big a vessel as I could be.

"Even we rely on Shintaro."

The hand that was holding my cheek gently puts me on my head. The heat coming from my hands twitching and shaking at night was painfully bitter, sweet and... delightful to me right now.

At night, after a while, he takes his hand away from me and stands up softly, shrugging his shoulders.

"So, the... stop crying"

"Shit. I'll punch you all in the head."

I get embarrassed to expose my crying face any more, nodding my face in my wobbly belly at night and hugging it gasp. Now...... I lean on regret and confusion to my best friend who is no match for the breadth of the metric and the depth of my nostalgia.

"Oh, come on, get away..."

"It's a shaky night, I can do this"

"Oh, my God. You're sure to get your nose all over it."

Shaking night didn't resist me clinging to it, and I lit up a mess and something. I feel softly weighed over my shoulders when I wonder what I'm looking for.

If you look at it with a chill, it's a towel, and I'm sure it was taken from my bag.

"If you catch a cold in the rain, don't get in trouble."

"What the... don't treat me like a child"

I grab it in my right hand and push it against my swinging chest to return the towel.

After this, I get stunned by myself, who can't even thank me. Still, I get embarrassed and behave as if I'm stubborn.

"Clothes, it's raining a little. Let me keep the towel cover."

I don't care about anything like that, I'm going to stop saying it.

The thin fabric hoodie sticks to my skin perfectly, and my clear white shoulders and chest were tinted and clear to my eyes.

"Ugh..."

Indeed, there was something embarrassing about it for some reason when it was pointed out again.

"Beh, I don't care as much as I do... but I'll borrow it"

"Damn, now it's time to take care of each other's (...). Don't be mean."

Fluffy, laugh-looking, night-time glasses gleam.

Quick story, my best friend.

I also shove my face into my tummy at night.

I hid a face that would burn so that my best friend could not find out that way.

And then on the way home...

The rain had stopped and the stars were starting to blink in the evening sky.