134 I can't cry.

Elienne's Perspective

I had an── old dream.

That was when I was little.

Mother!

Having said that, I run to the bed where my mother is sleeping.

Oh dear, it's dangerous to run so fast.

Noooooo! Mother, you look better today, don't you? "

Somehow, I think I'm doing well today. That's why I thought I'd play with Eliane today. "

I did it!

When my mother stroked my head, I was filled with happiness.

My mother was a weak person. It seems to have been a difficult disease.

Mother is always lying in bed and can't even stand up alone.

In order to earn such a mother's medicine, her father went to make money in a distant land.

I was able to make a living because I received regular living expenses, but... instead, I had to do everything at home.

At that time, I learned how to cook.

Nowadays, the culinary repertoire is at a little cock level.

My mother always apologized to me like that.

”I'm sorry, Elaine... but if I hadn't been like this, I would have made it easier for you...”

No, Mom. It's okay.

'Cause I'm just having fun with my mom.

So I got well soon, and smiled── and said, "Let's go on a picnic with my dad."

But that doesn't completely mislead you into feeling fatigued.

I've been on the verge of falling.

But I am never frustrated.

Because if I look painful, your mother will be sad.

At least I lived my life happily, smiling all── the time in front of my mother.

But those days didn't last long.

"Mom! Are you all right!?"

I call out desperately as I shake my mother's hand in bed.

"E-Eliane..."

Yes, the voice of the mother who moves her mouth is very thin.

The lights of life were about to go out.

There is a reason for the sudden change in your mother's condition.

My father, who was on his way to earn money,── died.

Looks like your father worked in a coal mine.

The coal mine where my father worked suddenly collapsed. At that time, my father was crushed by the bedrock, and I couldn't come back... "

Inevitably, the income from my house was interrupted.

And not only that, she lost her dad, and her mother was badly mentally weakened.

As soon as I saw it, my health got worse... I couldn't call a doctor, so I wandered in the abyss of death.

"Don't look so sad."

Mother gently rubbing my cheeks with tears.

"I... was really happy to have you." So... don't cry. Forgive my mother for leaving you...... "

"Mom! Mom!"

Eventually, your mother's eyelids closed.

I fell asleep never to wake again.

The sadness that filled my heart in an instant.

Tears are flowing,── but don't.

I held back my tears and looked up.

Yes,── I shouldn't cry.

Otherwise, your mother will be sad.

Besides, your mother can't go to heaven because she's worried about me when she cries.

That's why I shouldn't cry.

The day I made my── mother's grave, I was greeted by the royal palace.

What a coincidence, it seems that the Queen of this country also── died on the day of her mother's death.

And at the same time, I received the divine trust of the goddess and gained the power of the saintly lady.

When I was young, I didn't know what it was.

It seems that the power of the Holy Maiden is so great that any wound can be healed.

But I couldn't bring my── mother back to life.

I didn't want that kind of power.

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But I have no right of veto.

Now I have to walk up (...).

Soon I was taken to the royal palace, where I was made to work as a saintly lady.

At that time, I made up my mind.

From now on, I will work with my body powder to make people happy... "

Maybe that's why I tried to speak politely to everyone.

Life as a saint was very hard and steep.

Sometimes I feel like crying.

But I am never frustrated.

That's why I decided.

I'm going to go upstairs so── I don't make your mother sad or worry about you.

It was Prince Claude who introduced me as my fiancé.

He had a lazy and lazy personality, even in my eyes.

Claude often skipped studying and showed a flattering desire to date me.

But at that time, I decided,

No, Your Highness. You are the next king. You mustn't let out a soft voice in this place. "

and seduced him.

Claude seems very dissatisfied with what I said.

But I can't help it.

That was the Prince's mission.

Now I think it's a bit harsh, but I must have been mentally weak at── that time.

It soon became clear to me that Claude was not affectionate with me.

But I don't mind that.

From now on, I will not go shopping in the city like an ordinary girl, or waste time with friends for nonsense, or talk about love with people── I like.

I am no longer a normal girl.

But that's fine.

Because if you do your best, your mother in heaven will be happy.

So I kept looking up, no matter what the hard part.

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... one day.

Huh?

I found a man and a woman facing each other on the balcony on their way── to the rooftop of the castle, praying today and trying to maintain the barrier.

Apparently, men are like soldiers in this castle. Is a maid a woman who looks after her clothes?

The man turns to the city and shouts:

"I love you ahhhhhhh!"

…… and….

At first glance, it's a rather hectic sight.

But the woman was very moved and tearful.

“I love you too!”

"Oh, really? If so..."

Yes,── thank you!

And they hugged and wept with excitement.

Could it be that the man was proposing to the woman?

"That's when I happened to stop by..."

"...... That's good."

Hah!

When I noticed, my voice leaked out!

But... why?

I should have given up happiness as a girl.

That's why I── honestly had such an impression even though I shouldn't have thought of anything when I saw such a sight.

The man didn't care about his surrounding eyes and cried out loudly for his love for her.

On the other hand, women also take it and cry with joy.

"... if it were me and Claude, it would be an impossible sight."

When I muttered that, I suddenly felt lonely.

... I can't.

I shouldn't── cry.

Let's not expect it. If you do that, it will only make it harder.

I left the scene quickly.