19 19. Nigel's feelings

[Side Nigel]

When did I stop loving people? [M]

I-- Nigel's been thinking about that since I spoke to Elianne earlier.

As a First Prince, I've been asked to be engaged by a variety of women.

But it didn't work. No matter what kind of woman you look at, you can't like it.

Still, I tried to "like" somehow, and patiently talked to women several times.

But... I can't.

When I saw the face that a woman seemed to enjoy, for some reason my heart was empty and never filled.

Of course I am a prince. [M]

Just saying "I like you" doesn't mean I can marry you... and yet, "I'm marrying this guy! I didn't get the image.

That's when I met Elianne. [M]

When I first saw her, I felt the shock running through my body.

What a beautiful person.

After that, I was strange. [M]

When I see her, I lose sight of my usual self.

Just talking to her revealed that I had a chest blow.

It's only been a short time since I met Eliane, but I've always thought of it this way.

I want to be with her more...

"What the hell is going on? Not like me."

I remember talking to her earlier on the roof balcony.

As I expected, she was a saint from a neighbouring country. [M]

The first thing I thought was strange was when I saw the extraordinary healing magic.

And... the doubt came closer to certainty when she was talking to Fenrir Ralph.

The Fenrir race won't even let me touch them unless they admit it.

Besides, Ralph was even more special among those Fenrils, and he didn't miss anything but me and my father.

That makes it difficult for servants to feed themselves.

But... what about Elaine?

Ralph doesn't touch his body easily, even for healing purposes.

My father and I were there, and finally...

But she walked up to Ralph alone.

"Honestly, what a dangerous thing!" I was in a hurry.

However, contrary to expectations, Elianne easily stroked Ralph's body.

And that's not all.

I took a walk across Ralph's garden!

This surprised me and my father. [M] I was so surprised that I lost my words for a moment.

Because she was a good healer?

Because she was a saint?

No, no, that's why Fenrir doesn't miss anyone.

This is what Fenrir says.

"Fenrir has a noble soul, so he will never open his mind unless he has a clear mind."

I'm sure Ralph and I figured out in one shot that she had a clearer heart than ever before.

I honestly thought so.

And then I looked into her in more detail.

Of course, it is the role of the state to find out whether it is the savior of life or not. Because it is too late for something to happen.

But I may have had to confuse the public and private. [M]

I want to know more about her.

Such personal feelings drove me. [M]

The more I looked into her, the deeper the mystery deepened.

Because I didn't have any personality at all.

Unstandard healing magic.

He has a heart that can be broken up with Fenrir in one shot.

There was only one such person I knew.

"You must be the Virgin."

I asked Elaine that with an idea close to certainty.

She was trying to deceive me at first... but they found out she was lying. As soon as she pursued it, she confessed that she was a 'Virgin'.

She looked like she was crying when Elianne said, "I'm leaving because this country could be a nuisance."

That made me feel more and more in love with Elaine. [M]

I want to protect it.

I want to stay with this person forever.

When my father first asked me to "prepare a place for Eliane", I felt painful for some reason.

You'll be inside Lynch Giham, but will you stay away from her?

I am a prince.

Once she has left the royal palace, she will not be able to easily meet Eliane.

I don't like that!

"Would you like to stay here for a while?

That's what I said when I realized. [M]

Got it.

And Elianne was fortunate enough to nod to my proposal. [M]

I'm glad...

I don't think it's on my face, but how relieved was I then? [M]

"I want to talk to her more."

She broke up with Elianne, lay down in her bedroom and looked back.

Yes, there was a voice coming out of my mouth.

"Haha, I wonder what really happened to me. I've never felt this way before."

I can't love people.

That's why I never understood the feeling of "like".

I wonder... is this what you mean by "like"?

I couldn't sleep well that night because I didn't know how I felt.