Chapter 168

In the past, she was very particular about perfection. Because she loved to play the piano, she cared even more about one pair of hands. However, ever since those events five years ago …

His mother continuously scolded him day and night, with a belly full of grievances and humiliation that he had no place to complain about. Occasionally, she would get a good night's sleep, and even though there was a thin wall between them, she wanted to cry, but she didn't dare to cry. She covered herself with a blanket and bit her ten fingers until they were dripping with blood. Above him, a pair of widened eyes saw endless darkness.

She had never known how easy it was to destroy all the good manners that had accompanied her for more than twenty years, the perfect demeanor, the elegant smile, the proper manners, all the beauty that seemed to be born in her.

Perhaps, to put it harshly, it was her life that was' despicable '.

While she was enjoying her life of wealth and prosperity, she was still able to quickly adapt to her current situation.

When she was a young miss, she was perfect to the point that no one could find fault with her. When she was the lowest, most cowardly, and most struggling common woman, she could still bear it with gritted teeth.

It was just like how, at this moment, he had clearly been by this person's side all day. Day after day was like torture. Despite her heart clearly feeling bitter as if it had swallowed Huang Lian, she was still able to continue to live with a smile on her face.

Now, sitting in such a beautiful garden, thinking about the cheapest place to live, the jobs that couldn't be finished, the clothes that couldn't be washed, the smell of oil smoke, being scolded at home, going out to look at the whites of one's eyes, walking down the street, sweating all over after hearing the sound of a horn, holding one's breath in fear at the sound of a knock on the door, biting one's finger uncontrollably until it bled from nervousness, lowering their head uncontrollably when they saw someone, cowering like a frightened little bird, all those days were like a dream.

Jingzhi gently removed her fingers from his palms one by one. She examined them for a moment before raising her head and offering her hand to him. She looked at him quietly and asked, "Is it that ugly?"

There seemed to be a slight bitterness in Meng Shaoting's eyes, "No."

I just feel a little sad to see you like this.

Jingzhi slightly smiled. "I'm used to it, so I don't think it's ugly. It's just that... I won't be able to play the piano in the future. "

"Do whatever you want. No one will ever say anything about you." His tone was urgent.

"No, I saw myself feeling sad, so I might as well just put it aside."

She lowered her head, as if she was recalling a memory alone, or as if she were saying to him, "This is a bad habit I've developed since my father died. Every time I can't sleep at night, I think of my father, think of that poor child …"

She held her temples and looked down at the hem of her dress. After a long time, she slowly said, "When they think about it, when they feel bad, when they are insulted by their mother and they don't dare to cry, when they walk outside to meet the cold faces of those people and their fingers, there is no way to pay the rent, when they are forced to move, when they are bullied by thugs, when they are forced by their mother to play tricks on all kinds of people. It was a disgusting guy dating, but it ended up with those girls … "Scram!" he said. "Scram." The girls all nodded in agreement. "… …" "When the hooligan knocked on the window and heard his mother and those people swearing, walking on the road and hearing them say, look, it's that woman, pretty and delicate, yet he's messing around with a man. When he's pregnant and doesn't even know who his father is, Meng Shaoting, do you know how unbearable that kind of pain is?

"At the beginning, there was still Jingyuan to support me, which was the only thing Dad left me and Mom. Although it was sold, at least it was still intact, and when I went to look at it, I had the courage to continue living, but later, when I got the news, Jingyuan was torn down, and even when I ran over there in one breath, all I could see was a bulldozer and a large amount of ruins, and that was the first time I had the thought of dying. But after I cried for the first time, what was there in my heart to see Dad again? I can't even keep the last thing he gave me... "

Her voice began to tremble, so much so that it was almost impossible to continue.

Meng Shaoting's face was completely pale. He stood there like a puppet, unable to say a single word.

If she hadn't personally told him, he really wouldn't have been able to imagine that she would have to bear so much apart from the things that had shocked him.

Each word was like a chisel that forcefully carved bloody holes in his heart.

He didn't even dare speak, didn't dare interrupt her, although listening to her calm smile as she spoke of her past was like a moment of time to him, but he couldn't move, couldn't speak, only his mind rang with a rumble, and he could hear her small voice like a clear spring through the fog, cold and clear, sliding across his heart.

"Later on, when I met Shaoxuan, it was he who saved me from that humiliating life I led. At first, I didn't know that he was Meng Shaoxuan, so I thought that this kind of person being treated like this was worth entrusting my entire life to. In the end, when his identity was revealed, I did not want to see him again, and rejected his goodwill. It's only because he's a member of the Meng Family, and the person I don't want to see the most in my life, is the person from the Meng Family that you hate the most. "

Meng Shaoting clenched his fists so tightly that the pain in his palms was almost numbed. He could only stare blankly at his as he listened to her tell him so much for the first time in five years, talk to him in such a gentle voice for the first time in five years. What he talked about was actually a different man.

"Later on, he did so much for me, so much, he gave up everything just to be with me, I was really moved by him. If at first I was with him because it was really too touching, then in the end, I agreed to marry him. I gave myself to him, but it was because I really, really had his place in my heart …"

"Stop talking." Meng Shaoting suddenly opened his mouth and spoke. He did not dare to continue listening, nor did he dare to hear her speak even more cruel words.

He once harbored a fantasy in his heart that she was only grateful to Shao Xuan. If that was the case, then his chances of winning were extremely high.

But now, she had personally said that she had a place in her heart for Shaoxuan. Although he had only known her for a few months, he understood her very well, understood how stubborn she was, and understood how helpless and stubborn she was. When she fell in love with someone, she would wholeheartedly treat that person as her own world.

Just like five years ago, she was obsessed with him, so she foolishly waited for him. She foolishly forgave him for repeatedly coming out cold and detached. F * ck, silly, making a promise that could never be fulfilled and wanting to live with him forever.

In the end, she had still resolutely driven him out of her guard, and in the end, she had still accepted someone else. Meng Shaoting knew that he could almost certainly know that he could not make her fall in love with him again.

But now I want to tell you, I just want to let you know clearly, Meng Shaoting, I no longer love you, yes, five years ago, the moment I signed my name, the moment I no longer love you, no matter what you do, say, or have my heart, it is as if a mountain rock won't shift. So, I ask you to think carefully whether you should let me go or leave this woman, who will never have any heart, by your side …

Quiet And Steadfast took in a deep breath. Feeling the slight disturbance in his breathing, she laughed self-deprecatingly. Why was she still holding on to such a hope?

"Of course, if you insist on keeping me here, I will do as stated in the agreement. "Other than, will not like you, will not fall in love with you, I think, I will do my best to make myself perfect …"

"Shut up!" He really wanted to be angry at her for being so petty last night. He didn't want to see the bitterness and hatred on her face. He didn't want to see the way she looked like the whole world owed her and how much trouble she had created if he didn't let her go …

Yes, so what if their Meng Family owes her? He said he'd come to pay me back, he said he'd come to make it up, what else could she do?

She turned slowly to look at him in the warm sunlight.

His eyes fell on her tears and he felt their glare. He looked away again and saw the fingers that were twisted together and trembling slightly. The thumb of his left hand was bleeding from her own digging, but she continued that action as if she didn't know it …

He felt a stabbing pain in his heart, and with a single step, he hugged her.

"It's all over now. Don't think about it anymore, okay?" His hand closed around hers, stopping her from continuing to hurt him.

"You say it's easy, but what if I can't forget it?"

"I will make you forget, forget all that pain …"

"Nails will leave eternal scars on the wood, so how can I forget the pain that was etched into the bones?"

"Yes, believe me, I will make you forget."

As Meng Shaoting said this, a thought slowly rose up in his heart. He wanted to tell her, but he held it in.

"Why bother?" Quiet And Steadfast's muffled voice rang out.

A few years later, Jingzhi also asked himself, "Why do you have to suffer? Why do you have to force the three of them into such a sorry state? Why do you have to suffer and block everyone's escape routes?"

If she had not been so stubborn like before, or if she had been a little more unyielding back then, would everything have been a different situation?

Perhaps, this was not the case anymore.

But who in this world had ever seen such a thing? Who gets what?

In the afternoon, Jingzhi was in the garden reading a book when she fell asleep. When Meng Shaoting drove back, she did not even hear the sound of the car driving.

Seeing that she was sleeping soundly, he didn't wake her up. His husband had just taken a bath, but at that moment, the phone in the living room rang. "Miss, here's your number." Although the servants didn't dare to disturb her, they also couldn't afford to offend the people on the other side of the phone. Besides, the servants didn't dare to disturb her, but they couldn't afford to offend the people on the other side of the phone either.

Quiet And Steadfast opened his eyes, saw the servant holding the phone, and casually took it. She was pregnant, so she didn't use her phone. Even the phone was rarely touched.

"Hello?" In his half asleep state, his voice was still slightly lazy. When it reached the other end of the receiver, it became even more ear-piercing.

Mrs. Meng clenched his teeth, forcing himself to change to a more courteous tone: "Miss Fu, can you give me some face to come out and have a meal?"

"I am truly sorry, Mrs. Meng. I have been feeling uncomfortable these past few days and have been walking lazily." When Jingjing heard the Mrs. Meng's voice, she could not help but become spirited and spoke slowly.

"It's because I'm uncomfortable that I need to exercise more. I also have some things I want to talk to you about. How about this, I've booked a good table at the Lakeheart Pavilion. How about you eat some tea to relax yourself?"

Mrs. Meng had a good temper and kept on being courteous, but he did not know how to reject. His good cultivation was still deep in his bones, and she had never been good at harsh words to reject people, especially when they kept on retreating.

Hearing the hesitation on the side, Mrs. Meng hurriedly said, "Jingzhi, no matter what, you still called me mother back then. "Yeah, although I did something wrong, considering my age, I'm still thinking about my son …"

"Mrs. Meng, I don't want to hear this." Quiet And Steadfast immediately interrupted stiffly. She wasn't in the mood to listen to her recoil, so she said something that didn't hurt at all.

Seeing that she was ignoring him, Mrs. Meng directly opened his mouth: "The reason I'm looking for you this time, is because I want to have a good chat with you about you and Shao Ting. At three in the afternoon, I'll be waiting for you in a private room on the second floor of the teahouse …"

"Whose number?" When Meng Shaoting came out from his shower, he saw that she was talking on the phone, so he did not interrupt her. Instead, he walked closer and whispered softly into her ear.

From that day on, he made it clear that he didn't want to give up, and she did as the agreement stated, no longer giving him any cold face. Ye Zichen looked over. These two really did have the look of a couple that was in deep love.

Meng Shaoting's words were caught by the Mrs. Meng and she could not help but become angry, "Miss Fu, I will wait at the teahouse until you arrive!"

With a "pa" sound, the sound of the phone being hung up was extremely loud. Meng Shaoting immediately took her phone and placed his on the side: "My mom. "A phone call?"

"Don't bother with her. I'll tell the servants to not ask you to answer any calls from Meng Family." Seeing her expression, Meng Shaoting frowned, bent down and hugged her, placing her on his lap, at the side of her cheeks, he kissed her lightly as he said that.

"She asked me to meet her at three o'clock in the afternoon at the Lakewood teahouse."

"Don't bother with her, just don't go." Meng Shaoting said as he reached out with one hand. Playing with her cool hair, he wrapped a hand around her waist, small as her. He gently caressed his belly, "How have you been these past few days? Is there anything wrong with it? "

Jingzhi shook her head. She suddenly turned around and almost bumped into his nose. With a crafty smile in her eyes, she said, "I would like to go meet her this afternoon to see what she wants to do."

"What can we do? "I'm just trying to coerce you into leaving me." Meng Shaoting answered vaguely as he concentrated on kissing the exposed part of her snow-white neck. I just want to meet her and give her a bit of a piss. " Jingzhi gritted his teeth and pushed him. His eyes darted around as he looked at him, "I was scheming against you. Mom, you can't be heartbroken, right? "

Meng Shaoting smiled lazily, as he narrowed his eyes and looked at her: "Then let's see … What did you give me in return? "

Jingwen glared at him and pushed him away. "I'll go to sleep for a while, I'm so sleepy."

"I'll go with you …" He got up at once and led her toward the room.

Quiet And Steadfast's heart suddenly trembled. He thought of the incident a few days ago where he almost erased his gun and went off fire. He couldn't help but frown. "Don't, I'm tired. Don't mess with me. Let me have a good night's sleep."