After mustering my courage for several days, I have finally made the decision to open them today.
"Fuu~"
Letting out a deep sigh, I carefully place the a journal book on the table before me.
journal had a red leather cover with a clasp and a fingerprint lock embedded within.
The lock is designed in a manner that if anyone besides myself attempts to open it, the journals will self-destruct, going down in flames reducing to ashes.
Without hesitation, I placed my thumb on the fingerprint sensor embedded within the leather clasp of one of the diaries.
Ding—!
With a gentle chime, the clasp unlocked, and I quickly opened the journal, turning its pages to read the contents within.
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`March 23rd, 2025
9:30 PM
Dear Diary,
Today, I met a girl. She was beautiful.
She joined our school for first time.
Everyone were hesitant to talk her but I talked to her so she won't feel lonely. She appears to be cold outside but she really a sweet on inside.
I like this girl.
___
`November 28th, 2025
9:30 PM
Dear Diary,
Today was my birthday party.
I invited Evelyn, Even thought at first she didn't want to come but I somehow managed to make come my birthday party.
We had a lot of fun. I really like spending time with her. She's started talking more compared to when we first met. Now she even laughs sometimes.
Anyway, my sister just turned into 9 months old. I like her her very much.
For my birthday mother gave me some nice presents, but my favorite was the watch my father gave me.
Yes, another is going to be added in my collection hehe~`
___
`January 15th, 2026
7:45 PM
Dear Diary,
It's been a while since I last wrote in you. So much has happened since then.
Evelyn and I have grown closer over the past year. We spend almost every day together, laughing, talking, and making memories. She's become my closest friend, and I cherish her presence in my life.
But lately, I've been feeling something more than just friendship towards her. Whenever I'm with her, my heart races, and my thoughts are consumed by her smile and laughter.
I think... I might be falling in love with her.
But I'm afraid to confess my feelings. What if she doesn't feel the same way? What if I ruin our friendship?
I awakened my mana core today, and I was revealed to have the ‹B› rank.
Father was very happy so was mother but on the other hand I wasn't happy. I just keep my smile on my face soy parents won't concern over me.
On the other hand Evelyn awakened as [SSS-] rank, I was shocked, No, whole district was shocked.
In world only handful people are awakened with [SSS-] rank and Evelyn was one of them.
Compared to her my [B] rank is nothing.
___
July 20th, 2026
12:01 PM
Dear Diary,
Nothing is going fine for me now...It's felt like my world is falling over me. Evelyn also doesn't much time because she started traveling with her father after awlking [SSS-] rank.
What should I do? Is she ignoring me? No that can't be.... After all we are couples aren't we?
____
`Oct 30st, 2026
4:32 PM
I'm sick of it. Absolutely sick of it.
Evelyn was busy like always but she's making time for me.
But nothing going fine for me.
I don't want to talk with her or anyone else.
Evelyn tried to talk to me again today. She's as persistent as ever...
But she won't understand.
No one will!
And those bastards, Asher and his gang, they've been bullying me for quite some time now.
Before they didn't dare to lay finger on me but now they have been bullying after discovering my mana core rank.
I hate it...
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As I read through the entries in my diary, a flood of emotions washes over me. Each entry tells a story of friendship, love, and heartache, weaving a tapestry of memories that I can't help but relive.
March 23rd, 2025 – The day I met Evelyn, the girl who would change my life forever. Her beauty and kindness captivated me from the moment I saw her, and despite her initial hesitance, I was determined to befriend her.
November 28th, 2025 – Our bond grows stronger as we celebrate my birthday together. Evelyn's presence brings me joy, and I cherish every moment we spend together. But amidst the laughter and festivities, a shadow looms over our friendship.
January 15th, 2026 – Conflicted feelings begin to stir within me as I realize that my affection for Evelyn has blossomed into something more. But fear holds me back from confessing my love, and I struggle to navigate the complexities of our relationship.
March 5th, 2026 – A rift forms between Evelyn and me, fueled by misunderstandings and hurtful words. Our once inseparable bond begins to fray, leaving me grappling with feelings of guilt and regret.
May 20th, 2026 – Evelyn's astonishing mana core rank revelation sends shockwaves through our community, highlighting the vast disparity between us. As she embarks on a journey with her father, I'm left feeling inadequate and alone.
July 20th, 2026 – The distance between us grows as Evelyn's travels take her further away. Despite her efforts to reach out, I find myself withdrawing into solitude, consumed by feelings of jealousy and insecurity.
October 30th, 2026 – Despair and frustration consume me as I grapple with bullying from my peers and the painful realization that Evelyn may never truly understand my struggles. Alone and disillusioned, I retreat further into isolation, longing for an escape from the turmoil within me.
As I close the diary, tears prick at the corners of my eyes, mingling with the inked words on the pages. Despite the pain and heartache, I know that I must find the strength to confront my demons and forge a path forward, one step at a time.
"Let's read the next page..."
I bearl managed to say those words as I flipped to the next page.