CH 31

“Euup-!”

Surprised, Yi-Gyeol exclaimed to dissuade him, but his tongue and lips were blocked by Sethian making him unable to do so. He wants to push him away, but there’s nothing he can do since he can barely move his body.

Sethian’s tongue, which had delved into his mouth, scoured all over Yi-Gyeol’s mouth then wrapped around his small tongue and sucked it up at once.

“Heuup!”

It was terrifying and itchy as it was licked up to the front of his throat at a powerful and fast pace. Yi-Gyeol felt like his mouth was going to be swallowed and chewed just like this.

‘But why….’

Every part that Sethian’s tongue touched was pleasantly tingling and ticklish. The saliva that spread in his mouth was also like sweet honey.

It’s his first time kissing, so he doesn’t know if it’s usually like this or if he’s just weird.

Sethian’s tongue, which was stirring inside his mouth, licked his upper and lower teeth evenly, then raised the tip of his tongue and slid it on the roof of his mouth as if drawing a picture. The sensation was so hair-raisingly good that Yi-Gyeol’s body trembled. If it wasn’t for Sethian’s arms that were wrapped around him, he would already have stumbled heavily.

Yi-Gyeol’s eyes quickly became hazy, and a sweet muffled moan escaped his lips. Sethian was watching Yi-Gyeol’s reactions one by one without even blinking his eyes.

What he felt while kissing was that kissing Yi-Gyeol felt better than he thought. He didn’t really want to do anything sexually, but there was something so stimulating that his thoughts changed as soon as their lips met. Perhaps Yi-Gyeol has little experience in this, so he only pushed his tongue out or ran away, but from some point on, he got drunk with the kiss and his eyes became undone, and the inside of his mouth felt strange.

‘Is it the effect of vitality?’

It is said that when you receive vitality, you will feel good or excited due to the activation of cells in your body, and Yi-Gyeol seemed to be in that state currently. Sethian thought that he would melt completely if they did a little more like this.

Sethian removed his lips, then lightly licked Yi-Gyeol’s lips with his tongue, who was panting violently as if he was out of breath. The slightly rough lips turned soft and lively by the glistening saliva.

“Are you okay?”

Yi-Gyeol raised his eyebrows at Sethian’s question and blinked, then breathed heavily.

“You…, With a…man…. Huu….”

“What are you saying?”

“How, haa…, With…a man… Kiss….”

“Is kissing a guy a problem?”

Looking at Sethian asking back casually, Yi-Gyeol made a look that he couldn’t understand. To hell with vitality, but even though two men, the two of them to be exact, kissed each other, Sethian still looked so nonchalant that Yi-Gyeol was wondering how he could be so calm.

To be honest, he liked the kiss so much that he almost lost his mind, but as Yi-Gyeol was born and raised in Korea, he couldn’t easily accept the current situation.

On the other hand, in Sethian’s world, having a deep relationship between the same sex does not matter at all. The current emperor also had a man among his concubines, and Mendel, the first prince, also had a fiancé of the same sex.

Sethian seated Yi-Gyeol properly, and wiped the saliva off from Yi-Gyeol’s lips with his thumb.

“If you don’t like it, we can go back to drinking blood….”

“No, uh, this…. I’ll take it this way.”

As Yi-Gyeol managed to grasp his still hazy mind and spoke, the corners of Sethian’s lips rose slightly.

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Yi-Gyeol laid down on the bed again after finishing his meal, then he moved his hands under the blanket. Previously, he can only move with a slight twist of the fingers and his body, but he can now clench his fist albeit weakly.

‘Is it really working?’

The thought made Yi-Gyeol embarrassed. It’s such a strange situation, like how he got stronger just because he was given a kiss.[1]

He turned his head and looked towards the table a little further away. There, Sethian was sitting with his legs crossed and looking through the documents. Looking at the expressionless face and sharply drooping eyes, he remembered the kiss from before, and his face got red for no reason.

Sethian’s eyes, who had been paying attention to the documents, suddenly turned to this side and asked briefly.

“Why?”

“…No, nothing.”

Perhaps he was bothered by his gaze, Sethian came over and sat down on the side of the bed.

“You can’t sleep? You used to sleep for a long time before.”

“I don’t have to sleep like that anymore.”

While Sethian’s large, warm hands were tidying his messy hair pleasantly, Yi-Gyeol’s eyes touched the papers he was holding. It is filled with strange characters that make his head dizzy.

‘Come to think of it, how can we communicate?’

He realized it belatedly. In the soul state, he could understand foreign languages as well as Korean, but when he was inside his body, all he could hear was an unknown foreign language.

“Why are we able to communicate? I don’t even know the letters here.”

When he mumblingly asked, Sethian understood what he meant, and came up with his own assumptions.

“Your body is a body created with your soul as its main axis. Even if you couldn’t write or master the characters, all the languages engraved on your soul must have been applied.”

“I see….”

He thought it’s amazing, but then he realized it again. That he’s in a new body, not the original one.

He wiggled his hands under the blanket one more time. Although the range of movement of this body is smaller than that of the original one, because it was said that it would get better as it absorbed more vitality, he liked it much more than he did at the time when he was so desperate.

Then, the hand that was moving gradually stopped slowly. Shadow overcast Yi-Gyeol’s eyes as he recalled something.

“…My body over there must be dead, right?”

Sethian looked at Yi-Gyeol’s face and was silent. Yi-Gyeol, wasn’t actually expecting an answer, continued.

“Will everyone be sad, or… Were they relieved?”

He doesn’t even know what he wants. If they’re sad and crying while thinking of him, it will definitely break his heart. Wouldn’t he crouch every day surrounded by guilt, saying he made them sad?

If they’re relieved… He wonders if it’s much better? Since he’s the only one who has to go away. His family doesn’t have to suffer anymore.

The thought brought tears to his eyes again. Yi-Gyeol, who belatedly realized, turned his head and tried to raise his hand. He wanted to raise his hand to wipe away the tears in his eyes, but he couldn’t move properly as if he was tied.

“Ah…, I don’t usually cry this much, it’s strange.”

As he let out an awkward laugh, a warm hand touched the corner of his eyes.

“Don’t hold it in.”

Instead of wiping away his tears, Sethian’s one hand gently wrapped Yi-Gyeol’s cheek.

“You’ve already endured enough.”

He was trying to hold back, but tears flowed endlessly as if those words were the trigger.

Regardless of what his family thinks, his choice to commit suicide was because there’s no more way left for him but to suffer. Even though he thinks that he shouldn’t have done that, it was so heartbreaking to think that he would have made the same choice again anyway.

There, he was stricken with an incurable disease that would make him sick for the rest of his life, both physically and mentally. He doesn’t want to hurt anymore.

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Sethian, looking down at Yi-Gyeol, who was weeping quietly with his cheek in his hand, had every part of his face carved into his eyes.

The forehead slightly crumpled with sadness, the eyelashes trembling with tears, the eyes blurred with water, the cheeks heated with heat, and the red lips with sobs and groans.

When Joo Yi-Gyeol cries, his face becomes like this.

It’s a face he couldn’t see when he was in the invisible soul state. A face that he can see because he’s depending on him and is in his hands. It’s a different feeling from when he first cried in this bedroom.

When Yi-Gyeol talked about his body, he deliberately did not mention that his body could also be in the state of coma and may not have died. Because he’s afraid he’ll have some lingering feelings and go back to that world.

‘You just barely got on my hands.’

Out-of-body experience, knowledge of another world.

That sort of thing didn’t really matter to him. He just used the word ‘use’ to make him aware of the situation.

The moment he was able to catch something that he couldn’t catch, he tried to deal with it as he had been doing so far. When he was in the state of soul, they were in a condition where he couldn’t do anything to him at his disposal, but now it was different. Now he can make eye contact with him, stroke his cheeks, and even kiss him. Tie him up if he wants to, cut him off anywhere if he displeases him, and gag his mouth if he’s noisy. After all, it is the body he gave to him, and he cannot live without himself.

He tried to deal with it like that, but the moment he actually met Joo Yi-Gyeol, he discovered he really couldn’t do it. Whether physically or mentally, he felt like even the slightest mishandling will make him shatter into pieces.

Look, wasn’t he still desperately repressing himself right now? In this state, if he touched him even a little deeper, it was obvious that he would cry as if the world had collapsed. He might probably scream that it hurts so much.

His current tiny and powerless appearance was the difference between heaven and earth from when he was flying bright and free in the state of soul. Thinking that he was concealing his appearance, he wanted to know every single detail of him. He wished there was nothing he didn’t know about him.

Strange.

It’s strange, Joo Yi-Gyeol.

The more he knows, the more strange he is, and the more he knows, the more he wants to know about him. The expressions of the human Joo Yi-Gyeol, the words he speaks, his voice, his body temperature, everything about him makes him curious. Each one is new and interesting. Even this strange feeling that he gets through him.

How long will the fascinating thing in front of him be able to give him this kind of interest?