C1038 1037 must kill me

She knew that since this kind of thing had already happened, worrying about it was useless. It would be better to take a step forward and count it as a step. Since she had already arrived, it would be better to take it as it was.

As a result, the initial panic he felt after realizing the inadequacy of his body had subsided, replaced by calmness.

She could not panic, she was in a mess, Yan Yuan would also be in a mess, the situation in Yizhou was unclear, she could not distract Yan Yuan just because of her.

Yan Yuan went to the Ministry of Justice, but Liu Ruo Qing wanted to look for young son next door. Recalling the sadness and fear on his son's face, Liu Ruo Qing's heart ached.

She walked towards the nurse's yard. The little guy had calmed down by now, and was having fun with the two daughters of the nurse.

She wanted to walk in, but she suddenly remembered that if she got sick and Yan Yuan wasn't by her side, if she hurt Heng Er, she would be feeling guilty for the rest of her life.

She quietly retracted her steps as she stepped inside. With a bit of sadness in her eyes, she turned around and quietly left the courtyard of her wet nurse.

Even though Yan Yuan ordered for the servants to not spread the news that she had seen, the servants who usually smiled at her, when they saw her, it was as if they had seen a demon and escaped.

She looked at them and smiled, not wanting to frighten them, not wanting to embarrass herself, and turned back to the East Courtyard.

Yan Yuan returned from the Ministry of Justice less than four hours ago, but on his face, there was not the slightest bit of happiness. Even though he was already mentally prepared, Liu Ruo Qing's heart still sunk slightly.

She walked up to Yan Yuan and held his arm, pretending to be indifferent and asked: "What did Ye Man say?"

Yan Yuan looked at her quietly with eyes full of pity and pity. After a while, he shook his head and said, "He doesn't know anything, no matter how much I try to coerce him, he won't be able to explain himself."

Liu Ruo Qing's eyes darkened, and in the end, only let out a light "Oh", before she forced out a smile and said: "It doesn't matter, there will be a way."

"Mm. Don't worry, I'll definitely think of a way."

He caressed Liu Ruo Qing's hair and kissed her forehead, comforting her silently.

Liu Ruo Qing leaned into his embrace, with her eyes still wet. However, she did not let Yan Yuan see it, but the wet water droplets still seeped into the front of Yan Yuan's clothes. The icy cold water had also seeped into Yan Yuan's heart.

He remained calm, still stroking her hair, frowning in pain.

A few days later, Qi Feng who was going to the Long Island with an imperial edict suddenly came back with a letter from Xia Tao Hua.

The reply on the letter was based on the pulse Lu Yuan He mentioned, it only said that the symptoms and signs of the disease did not exist, as for the condition of the pulse, she was not too clear on either.

After putting down the letter, the husband and wife pair's faces were filled with dejection and disappointment once again.

"Your Royal Highness, Peach Blossom … Peach Blossom Princess also said that there might be a way to find her master Shen Gu Zi. "

Shen Gu Zi...

Yan Yuan laughed sarcastically. He had heard this name a hundred times, to the point that he nearly carved this name into his bones.

This person was like a big cake that was clearly in front of him. Even though he was clearly hungry, he just couldn't eat it.

"Understood, you can go and rest first."

"Yes."

A few days later, Liu Ruo Qing received news that Yan Yuan had bid his farewells to the Kaiser again, wanting to leave the imperial court and bring her out.

Kaiser repeatedly asked for the reason, but he didn't say anything. He only replied that he was tired and wanted to rest.

When Liu Ruo Qing heard this news, she was also shocked. Previously, she already hoped that Yan Yuan wouldn't ignore the great matters of the nation because of her, yet why did he still make such a decision?

"Did you leave the Emperor because of my illness?"

Liu Ruo Qing looked at Yan Yuan's cheeks, which had only been somewhat thin for a few short days. His heart ached, but he felt a little guilty at the same time.

Yan Yuan smiled at her as both of his hands wrapped around her hands. He said: "Didn't I promise you before that I would accompany you to sightsee? It's time. "

Liu Ruo Qing frowned, she wanted to pull her hand out from his grasp, but he held her tightly and she was unable to struggle free even after struggling for a few times. She gave up, and only looked at him indifferently, and said: "Are you the one who wants to personally take me to see Shen Gu Zi?"

Yan Yuan's smile stiffened, and unnaturally avoided Liu Ruo Qing's dodgy gaze.

Looking at him, Liu Ruo Qing knew that he guessed right.

She sighed and said, "But the world is so big, where are we going to find him? We've been fine for quite a while, but we don't have any clues."

She also wanted to find Shen Gu Zi, but she didn't want him to let go of so many important matters in the court just because of this tiny bit of hope.

"It's not like there aren't any clues. Qi Feng said that he has been looking for a cure for Xia Tao Hua's heart disease. As long as we search in this direction, we will definitely find it."

Even in ten years and twenty years, he would have to find him. He did not want his Qing Er to become a monster that everyone hated and feared, and everyone wished to be able to enjoy life once and for all.

Looking at the resolution and perseverance in Yan Yuan's eyes at the beginning and his expression in the end dim, Liu Ruo Qing could feel the helplessness and hesitation in his heart, and his eyes grew slightly hot.

She held Yan Yuan's hand, and said with a stern look: "Yan Yuan, can you promise me one thing?"

"Mm? Tell me, what's the matter?"

Liu Ruo Qing retracted her gaze, slightly pursed her lips, and said: "If there comes a day when I become such a monster, you must kill me, you must kill me."

She repeated her last words heavily, but Yan Yuan stood up when she heard it, his eyes instantly turning red. "What nonsense are you spouting?"

This was something that he was most afraid of and would not dare to face. He never thought that Liu Ruo Qing would bring it up so openly like this.

However, Liu Ruo Qing continued to stare at his face with firm eyes, not giving him a chance to escape. She said, "We won't say anything, but we both know that there will be a day when I become like that. Yan Yuan, do you really wish for me to be like a monster? When the time comes, even if I don't recognize any of my relatives, I will treat human life as nothing, and even … Even if it's you or Heng Er, I will kill them all.

Before he finished, he was hugged tightly by Yan Yuan. His voice was hoarse, and slightly trembled, "No, there won't be a day like that."

Liu Ruo Qing, who was in his embrace, did not move, but only smiled lightly, "Un, I know you will definitely cure me. I was just taking precautions, you promised me, okay?"

"Not good, not good …"

He gently buried his face into her shoulder. The originally aloof and lofty appearance, yet now filled with dust, made her heart ache.