Chapter 138 I Lost Everything

Eldora POV

I lay on the ground, gasping for breath, as the pain shot through my body. I could feel the warmth of my blood as it flowed from the wound on my stomach. The attack had been sudden, brutal, and unexpected. I had never felt so helpless in my life.

I tried to move, to crawl away, but the pain was too much. I could barely even lift my head. I knew I was in trouble. I needed help, but there was no one around, except the monster I used a puppet thanks to the curse energy given to me by Apo. I was alone, and I'm going to die here without accomplishing anything.

As I lay there, my mind raced with memories of my life. I thought about my family, my friends, and all the things I had never got to do. I thought about all the things I regretted, and all the things I wish I had done differently. And as I looked at my body, I knew all the people I killed must have also felt the same way.

But then something inside me snapped. I realized that I wasn't going to die here all alone. It's not a sudden thought but, I'm not in a position to give up, I have to keep moving even If I die.

Otherwise, my sins won't be justified.

I wasn't going to let this attacker win. I summoned all the strength I had left and started to crawl trying to search for a safe place.

The pain was excruciating, but I didn't stop. I knew that if I stopped, I would never get up again. I crawled for what felt like hours, but in reality, it was only a few minutes.

"Apo, where are you? Help me," I cried inside as a young maiden, but no tears came out of my eyes as I lost the ability to cry years ago.

I betrayed, I killed both children and women.

I'm the worst dark elf in history to ever exist, but at the same time, I could have been the greatest dark elf, if not for everyone messing up my plans.

I still remember that day, I betrayed Ressha, who treated me kindly like I was one of her children.

I still remember how I gave birth to the most atrocious creation in the world called Number one.

I was perplexed by their blind belief, I hated them believing in a goddess even after she abandoned us.

I wanted to change the world, I didn't want my race to have a pitiful ending.

That's when I found a book in Ressha's personal room when I tried to beg her to do something about our population problem.

It was the forbidden knowledge that only a queen must possess. I was baffled after knowing the true history of the Island we were in. I don't know why Ressha didn't try to teach us all of that but, I was angry after reading it.

I left with all my belongings and tried to find a new land, a new queendom where I could live without feeling disgusted. The journey was long and treacherous, but I kept walking, never looking back. As I crossed mountains and forests, I encountered many different cultures and races, but none of them felt like home.

Eventually, I stumbled upon a small village, tucked away in a valley, hidden from the rest of the world. The people there welcomed me with open arms and treated me like family. They were not like the people of my old queendom, who worshipped their goddess blindly without questioning her ways. Instead, they valued individuality and free thinking.

They kept searching for a way to get impregnated, they knew children are the most valuable thing in the world for any race, they are the future.

As I settled into my new home, I learned that the village was ruled by a demon, who had earned the respect and loyalty of her subjects through her fair and just rule. Under her guidance, the village prospered and its people thrived. I knew that I had finally found the place where I belonged.

But that didn't last long as they were not the people, I thought they were.

Unlike me who was just disgusted with the goddess, they had immense hatred toward her.

Demons in that village did a hidden ritual that shouldn't be done by anyone in the world causing everyone in the village to turn into mindless puppets of a summoned being. Lucky for me, since I was a dark elf I managed to escape but before I could reach the gate, I met him.

"Ohh! You're the only one who's alive," Looking at me with a sceptical look, he questioned.

"Please don't kill me, let me go, I have no connection with these people," I said the first lie I could say, but I had no choice. I did everything to save my life.

I carefully laid my eyes upon the summoned being in front of me, It was a fairy with an appearance nothing short of breathtaking. His hair had a lustrous shade of golden, gleaming as if it were spun from pure sunshine itself even though it was supposed to night time. It cascades down his shoulders in soft waves, framing a face that could only be described as ethereal beauty.

His eyes, a mesmerizing shade of emerald green, seem to twinkle with an inner light that draws you in, making it hard to look away. His features are delicate and refined, with a chiselled jawline and high cheekbones that give him an air of regal elegance.

But perhaps the most striking feature of this male fairy is his wings. They are unlike any you've ever seen before, that is if you were lucky enough to see a fairy, a riot of vibrant colours and exotic shapes that seem to pulse with otherworldly energy.

"Hmm! These demons were foolish, why did they promise the life of their own race instead of another race when summoning me?" He travelled around my body like he was closely investigating me and questioned leaving me surprised by his friendly tone.

"They hate goddess, so they were even ready to sacrifice their own lives to see her downfall," I mumbled feeling angry, I had to stand up for them but hearing his next words, chills ran down my spine.

"I thought you were not supposed to know them," He questioned me with a little giggle showing he didn't take it seriously, but I couldn't even imagine how I became this stupid to stand up for some people, I didn't even know much about.

"Either way, I like them hating their goddess, so I can't let their effort go to waste, so want to be my host and destroy the goddess they hate so much,"

As soon as I heard his words, I felt like my life got a new meaning.

Until now, I was just running away but if I had the power to face against the goddess, my race will triumph and other races who depended on this shitty goddess will also understand, why they shouldn't blindly believe someone.

"I would like to be your host, master," I said looking at the small fairy in front of me with respect.

"Don't call me master, Just call me Apo, Eldora,"

That was the first encounter that changed my whole life.

From that day onward, I started changing my life, I became cruel. I killed, I destroyed and I did all of them because I wanted to open the passage to heaven and kill the shitty goddess and let Apo's main body descend on our world, so he can start spreading our race.

For that purpose, I created the number one, worst and most cruel weapon in the history of this world.

It wasn't a cursed transformation, instead, I call it a cursed chimaera because the base I used for that powerful weapon was the corrupted souls of the all-powerful warriors, I killed in battles.

Humans, Demons, Beastkin and many other minor races, I forced all of their most powerful warriors to come out by killing small fries and I used their souls to enhance this weapon.

If I had the soul of the elven queen, I would have surely fulfilled my task but that wretched wall prevented me from doing that.

Now that I think about it what was that monster? It had the same mythical stick that Apo told me about. If there was such a thing in this world, why did I even bother with other small fries? and that strength to rival all the greatest warriors of the other races, If I had that monster, my dream would have come true.

A world where we get to choose when we want something.

A world where we don't have to beg some shitty goddess every day for offspring.

A world where all races can keep living in peace.

Why am I even remembering all these things? Am I going to die? Apo also abandoned me, I'm going to die all alone.

I wanted to at least experience having a child and a happy life, I guess it's too much to ask after what I did.

Thinking about all these things, I closed my eyes feeling rather sleepy wondering whether this is going to be my last slumber.