CH 38.1

Confession

Su Shen’s expression changed and stood there in a daze, wondering if she had offended him?

“You… don’t like kissing scenes, right?” She suddenly became a little reserved.

Xie Yan looked up, “Yes, I don’t like filming kiss scenes.”

Su Shen breathed a sigh of relief.

“But, it depends on the person.”

All of a sudden, he stood up and was in front of Su Shen in two steps. The latter was so intimidated that she fell down onto the sofa.  

The latter leaned over and placed one hand on the sofa, “Others are others, you are you.”

When their eyes met, Su Shen was so scared that she leaned against the sofa all tensed, forgetting to even blink.

“Do you think I’m very easy-going?” He said in a low voice and fixed his eyes on her.

He was too close to her, and Su Shen didn’t like this position, so she pushed his shoulders, “Don’t be like this. If you don’t want to go say it, then I’ll go say it myself.”

Seeing that she was still pretending to not know anything, Xie Yan narrowed his eyes and suddenly sealed her pink lips with his; the latter’s eyes immediately widened.

At this time, she hadn’t applied any lipstick yet, but it was still sweet. As if it was an addiction, Xie Yan subconsciously held the back of her head with one hand and seemed to have lost control of himself. 

“Mhm… Xie… Xie Yan…” Su Shen was about to cry, and she kept pushing him.

Noticing the hand that had been beating his shoulder, Xie Yan suppressed himself and released her, but his dark eyes were still fixed on the person in front of him.

Su Shen looked terrified and her bright red lips slightly parted, as if she had been frightened by something.

She didn’t believe how Xie Yan could do this to her.

“Do you understand?” His voice was slightly hoarse.

Being stared at by him, she felt a little flustered. Although Su Shen had been avoiding his sight, her heartbeat was beating so fast that it was hard for her to ignore it.

“I… I… I’m still young…” She seemed to have wanted to say something.

“You’re saying I’m old?” He frowned and his eyes darkened when his glance swept past her bright red lips.

The two of them were so close that Su Shen couldn’t even move her head, but she really didn’t know how to deal with this kind of relationship between a man and a woman.

“I didn’t mean that. It’s just… just that I want to focus on my career first.”

Her soft voice had no confidence, and her pair of round eyes looked everywhere but not at him. Xie Yan felt it was funny. Did she think being with him would hinder her career?

“Your career and us being together has no conflict.” Speaking of this, he leaned in and whispered into her ear, “You didn’t outright reject me, does that mean… you don’t actually dislike me?”

His hot breath puffed onto her ear. Su Shen’s entire body froze, and her hands by her side clenched into fists. Her eyes looked everywhere, but she didn’t dare to look straight at him.

With regard to Xie Yan, Su Shen felt very perplexed. She didn’t know what kind of feeling it was, but she always subconsciously believed in him. Hence, she immediately thought that she should go find him when the kiss scene came up and that he would definitely not refuse her. However, she didn’t expect…

“I… I really don’t want to be in a relationship right now.” Su Shen looked down to hide the perplexity in her eyes.

“Are you worried that I will hinder your career?” Xie Yan held the back of her head and stroked her soft hair from time to time, “I promise you that if I implicate your career, you can dump me at any time.”

Su Shen looked up and seeing how earnest he was, with his eyes full of her reflection, she couldn’t help but frown for a moment, “There’s no such thing as trying or not trying in love.”

A woman did not serve two husbands. Although times have changed, Su Shen still did not want to switch from one boyfriend to another so casually.

After hesitating for a while, she frowned and said rather seriously, “Okay, but you have to promise me three conditions.”

As her words fell, the look in Xie Yan’s eyes changed. Let alone three conditions…

“Go ahead.” His gaze fervent. 

Blinking, she said seriously, “First, you are not allowed to reveal our relationship to anyone, not even Zhao Tong!”

Xie Yan: “……”

“I won’t tell anyone.” His expression remained unchanged.

Seeing this, Su Shen looked at him seriously and said, “You can’t be too close to me in public. Even if we’re acting, you have to be courteous.”

Xie Yan: “……”

“Okay!”

“Thirdly,” Su Shen frowned and her face blushed, “I… I refuse to do that… before marriage.” 

Nowadays, people were so open. Not to mention the entertainment industry, even among ordinary people, it was very common for that kind of thing to happen between boyfriend and girlfriend. But she didn’t want to be like that. Although she might be influenced by her previous life, she still didn’t want to entrust herself so easily to someone.

Hearing this, Xie Yan’s brow twiched. After a while, he just smiled, “I’m not that kind of person.”

Seeing that he had agreed, Su Shen pushed him on the shoulder again and said, “Then, let me go.”

Xie Yan looked down and his eyes darkened. He suddenly leaned in and whispered into her ear, “Should we go over the kiss scene later?”

Su Shen’s expression changed and an outline in front of her suddenly enlarged before she could even react.

“Mhm…” Su Shen blushed and wanted to push him away, but someone grasped her wrist. She closed her eyes and waited for him to finish it quickly.

Sensing that she relaxed, Xie Yan bit her lower lip even more unbridled. He then pried her lips open and finally stopped after getting a taste of her.

Afraid of scaring her, he finally loosened his grip on her. Su Shen was almost out of breath. Facing his sudden behavior, she couldn’t help but denounce him, “You… you can’t…”

“I can’t control myself sometimes.” He buried his head in the pit of her neck and took a deep breath, “But I will try my best to control myself with this kind of behavior.”

Su Shen: “……”

After being held by him for a while, Su Shen finally couldn’t help but push his shoulder, “I’m leaving.”

Xie Yan frowned and buried himself in the pit of her neck unhappily, “We’re going over the script, others won’t think too much of it.”

Su Shen: “……”

Do you really think everyone else were idiots?

“I really need to leave, I still haven’t gotten my makeup done.” She said earnestly.

Hearing this, the man on top of her finally moved, but there was gloom written all over his face.

“Remember to tell the Director to delete that kiss scene.”

With that, Su Shen took her script and left the dressing room, disregarding what the person behind her thought.

In fact, Su Shen felt the difference between being with Xie Yan and Jiang Yin. When they were filming before, Jiang Yin would hug her because of the plot, but Su Shen felt a little uncomfortable with this kind of close contact. However, she did not resist Xie Yan nearing her. She had never been in love, so she did not know what kind of feeling that was, but Xie Yan was really good to her.