Chapter 194 The Truth About Him..

Only at that moment, did Yogev realize the pressure that Heigl was under when he looked deep into his eyes when only a few centimeters were separating them .

He looked at his eyes very devastated at how heavy his emotions were when he was talking about his father.

Yogev never thought that  Heigl would talk about his emotions towards his father that way, that's why he panicked, he didn't know what to do or what to say to him when clearly he was in deep pain .

Heigl wasn't even waiting for words of consolation or even someone to tell him that he didn't mess up .

Only then did Yogev know why Heigl was acting weirdly lately, Yogev was stupid to think that Heigl was terrified by the presence of Isiah Duncan who supposed was dead a few months ago .

Something like that would never scare him unless he was already broken by the new realization .

' His father knew a lot…Yogev thought while not saying anything to him '

Heigl was shaking in front of him, it felt like he was trying to hide this badly but he just couldn't keep up with the act and just chose him randomly to be the person who judge him .

" When I cast the spell in front of the institution door, I was wishing inside of me that the spell won't work, I closed my eyes and mumbled the expression of that spell while thinking that it is just some random words that my father created when he was daydreaming or something, however, the moment that door opened all I thought of was that I messed up, I was a bad kid to my father, I didn't believe a word that he said before, he tried to explain to me time after time, he was very patient with me, but I just closed my ears, no ….I closed my heart"

Heigl started to shake even more while taking a step back, which moved Yogev's hand that was still on his shoulder while he was narrating that story .

He put his palms in front of his face just to hide his face so that he wouldn't see the disgusted look in Yogev's eyes .

However, Yogev was not looking at him that way, Yogev was very stunned by the whole story, and while he was trying to bring more words to life in a desperate attempt to console him, Heigl kept just moving away from him.

" My father didn't force us to listen, he didn't even force us to believe what happened to him, he kept being the kindest and gentle person that I have ever seen, he did his duties  like nothing happened, he protected me till his last breath, and even  in his last moment he didn't choose to impose something to me, he didn't …oh ….he didn't even take advantage of his last breaths to plant his ideas in my head "

Heigl was now resting his back on the wall while he was still choosing not to look at Yogev.

He didn't say something else after that, he just kept on breathing there as if he was suffocating.

Yogev on the other hand didn't approach him, he kept standing there motionless while looking at him, it was the first time that he saw him cracking like that and he was very upset to the point where he was not sure of what he was supposed to do .

In that compressed atmosphere, only the slow steps of Ciel were heard from afar as he was getting closer to both of them.

Yogev thought that he was just curious and that he was going to stand next to him to see what was going on between them, but his face was surprised when he saw him surpass him only to head toward Heigl who was completely devastated.

Heigl was so consumed by his own pain and that is why he didn't even notice him getting closer to him .

Ciel took one of  Heigl's arms that were covering his face  as he was removing it from his face gently while standing on the tip of his toes.

Ciel was not even that tall but he managed to do that because toes. Heigl didn't resist, when he felt his little fingers clenching into his arms he realized that he was offering his help in his way and he didn't mind it .

" Don't cry " Ciel said as he raised his head to look at his face .

Heigl was not crying but Ciel assumed that he was just because he saw him covering his face with his hands in that way after such a breakdown while talking to his friend .

" I am not, I am not crying, kid " Heigl replied with a husky voice as he was looking at Yogev in the eyes for the first time since everything that happened.

Heigl was not ashamed of the act of crying; he just didn't cry and also wanted to make sure not to worry the kid for nothing .

" Show me, " Ciel said while removing his hands fast from his arm because he didn't want to keep that contact with him .

Heigl leaned toward him slowly to show him his face, his face was all red but no tears were in his eye sockets.

" See? I wasn't crying, ``Heigl said .

At that moment Yogev moved away, he couldn't just stay there without doing anything after all that he heard.

Yogev just sat on the chair while Heigl kept talking to Ciel in a good way this time .

' I don't know what to do, when someone like him breaks it feels like the whole place is not normal'

Heigl just stayed away from him after that, he couldn't just ignore what Yogev did the first thing he knew about all that happened to him .

Heigl was in deep pain but he didn't say more words because of how Yogev reacted to him.

"If you are done crying, we are having a huge problem here, " Lexie said when she entered the transportation room .