Chapter 168 - Selfish

Yan Mei stood at the horse pastures and watched Lei Zhao and Ying Sheng race against each other.

They both looked very eye-catching like a rich British aristocrat wearing their equestrian attire with an aura of nobility surrounding them.

Yan Mei couldn't stop staring at Lei Zhao. Even he is her husband and always wakes up beside him, she couldn't get enough of his handsomeness.

He looked like those hot models used for publicity posters for horserace sitting on his horse. Lei Zhao and Ying Sheng both rode happily. Even though they were cousins, Yan Mei could see how much Lei Zhao loved Ying Sheng like his little sister.

"Miss, do you want to ride too?" The horse trainer asked gently. He saw Yan Mei came with Lei Zhao so he didn't dare treat her bad.

Yan Mei shook her head, "No"

The trainer smiled, "What about I take you to see some horses? I'm sure you would fall in love with one."

Yan Mei contemplated for a while before agreeing.

The trainer brought her to a fence where they were about fifteen horses. Yan Mei rested on the fence and as if the horses could sense her, they look up at her. A Friesian horse caught Yan Mei's attention as it stared at her. The wind blew it's hair.

Yan Mei smiled as the Friesian horse started trotting over her.  It stopped in front of Yan Mei towering above her. The horse bowed it's head down. Yan Mei couldn't help but softly stroke his muzzle with a soft smile on her face.

"It likes you." The trainer said with a hint of surprise in his voice.  He knew how much this horse hated strangers and it was very difficult to tame it but for some odd reason it seems docile today and it seems to like this woman.

"Beautiful right?" Lei Zhao's voice sounded behind making her turn around.

"Yes, he is so beautiful!" The horse neighed as if he could hear Yan Mei praising him.

"Do you want to ride him?" Even though Yan Mei wasn't wearing an equestrian attire she was wearing comfortable trousers so there was no problem for her to get on the horse.

She beamed and nodded. "Yes."

Lei Zhao turned to the trainer, "We would ride this one."

Once the trainer brought the horse to them, Lei Zhao quickly mounted before he bent down and wrapped around Yan Mei's waist. He settled her in front of him, her legs hanging loose on each side as she straddled the horse saddle.

Yan Mei blushed when she felt Lei Zhao's body behind her. As if her senses had highlighted she could smell his masculine scent fixed with sweat from his early riding with Ying Sheng.

Lei Zhao smirked and stretched out his hand on both sides of her body pulling the reins.

The horse neighed in excitement. "Hold on tight, Love." Lei Zhao said in a fluent British accent, surprising Yan Mei. Before she could ask him why he has that accent, Lei Zhao gently pricked the horse's side making him trot faster.

Yan Mei broke into a smile as she closed her eyes and the wind blew through her hair.

Lei Zhao chortled when he saw this naive side of his wife. He wish his wife can maintain this smile forever.

"Are you happy?" Lei Zhao asked Yan Mei softly.

"Yes!" Yan Mei beamed and looked at the scenery.

"Do you want me to go more faster?" 

"Yes!" 

Lei Zhao smiled, "Your wish is my command. Hold on tighter."

Lei Zhao spurred the horse  and the horse galloped faster and faster.

After riding for some minutes, Lei Zhao slowed down and brought them to a  secluded place. 

Yan Mei leaned against Lei Zhao's chest as they admired the view. The breeze ruffled Yan Mei's hair and she felt content being in Lei Zhao's arms.

A comfortable silence fell between them as both of them got lost in their thoughts.

Yan Mei swiftly turned around, her chest now touching his ad her legs wrapped around his h.i.p.s.

Lei Zhao raised his brows at their sudden posture and smirked. 

Yan Mei stared into his Lei Zhao's eyes for a few seconds before she planted a soft kiss on his forehead.

"Where did you learn how to ride?" Yan Mei inquired.

Sadness flickered on Lei Zhao's face but it disappeared so quickly that Yan Mei nearly missed it.

"My brother…" Lei Zhao said flatly.

Yan Mei raised her brows and nodded in understanding.

"I have heard about your brother but I have never met him, is he out of the country? When will I meet him? I have met everyone in the family except him."

Yan Mei pouted making Lei Zhao's lips curved into a sad smile.

"You haven't met him because…." Lei Zhao took a deep breath and continued.

"He is dead."

Yan Mei stiffened and widened her eyes. She could see the pain and hurt flickering in Lei Zhao's eyes. It was the first time she has seen such a look in his eyes.

"I-I didn't know. I'm so sorry for your lost, Lei Zhao.." 

Lei Zhao forced out a smile, "It's okay. You didn't know."

Suddenly Yan Mei felt bad. She has been so caught up in her past that she didn't realize that she wasn't the only one suffering.

This man might give her shoulder to cry on at night or might put a smile on her face but he was hurting too. She didn't even realize that she wasn't the only one with scars.

"Hey, what are you thinking about?" Lei Zhao asked worriedly when he noticed the shift in her mood.

"How selfish I have been in this relationship."

Lei Zhao furrowed his brows at her words. 

"What are you talking about? I'm the selfish one in this relationship, Wifey not you."

Yan Mei smiled and decided not to argue about it. In a way both of them were selfish in this relationship and that's how they somehow work together.

Yan Mei laced her fingers with his and looked into his eyes.

"I might be broken, Lei Zhao but you don't have to always put on a strong facade in front of me. It's okay to talk about your scars too whenever you are already, I'm here."