Chapter 203 - Goodbye Kiss

"What is it that you want to talk about then if you don't want to talk about your wound?"

The moment he asked, Ying Sheng took a deep breath. She then looked at Han Xi, slightly surprising him with how serious her eyes looked when she locked gazes with him. 

Ying Sheng's eyes were fiery with passion and resolve. At the same moment, Han Xi's body stiffened to have seen an unusual expression on her face, finding her beautiful right before his eyes. 

"Han Xi, I have been in love you for a couple of years now."

Han Xi's eyes widened in surprise when he heard this, his mouth slightly agape. He was at a loss for words, and when he was about to speak, Ying Sheng held her hand up to stop him, expressing her feelings out now that she finally had the chance to.

"What?"

One word... one word, and it was all he could say after hearing Ying Sheng's sudden outburst of confession. Her eyes had not left his as she took a step closer, making Han Xi take a few steps back, not expecting her sudden change of attitude. 

Ying Sheng recalled how Han Xi was always there for her. of course that was before he got a girlfriend. It had made the pace of her heart quicken as she instinctively held on to her chest as if asking for her heart to calm down.

"I'm grateful that you were always there for me when I was at my weakest. Because of that, you became my great friend, but unknowingly, I found myself falling for you."

Han Xi's heart skipped a beat as he heard Ying Sheng`s words. He had not expected receiving a confession from a woman whom he considered as a friend. Despite being in a relationship with a woman that he doesn't love, he had to admit that Ying Sheng's words effectively tugged his heart. 

"Ying Sheng, I--"

"I'm not done." 

Han Xi fell silent as he continued listening to Ying Sheng, expressing her feelings for him. She looked at him for a few seconds before she continued, a scornful expression appearing on her face.

"I was hurt every time you stood me up, but I have to put up with it as I forced myself to be okay with it because I thought that I'd rather you be there with someone else if that would make you happy."

Han Xi's lips turned into a tight line as Ying Sheng's gaze continued to pierce through his body like a blade, her words heavy as she expressed the pain she had dealt with because of him.

"I was about to tell you that I love you, but with you suddenly introducing your girlfriend to me, it fell like a bomb, you know? It hurt me pretty much, so I did not dare tell you. It broke my heart, knowing that the guy that I love so much was in love with someone else."

Ying Sheng stood as she made her sudden declaration of love. It was a grand speech that she had been thinking for who knows how long because she said her feelings aloud, the sudden silence that came over for a visit lay on her skin like poison.

'Speak, Han Xi,' the girl internally pleaded, 'Speak now or my heart is going to burst! Break the silence, I beg you!'

And so he did. It was as if he had heard Ying Sheng's thoughts out loud, making him speak. 

"Wow, I..." Han Xi ran his hand through his hair, obviously at a loss for words. He did not expect Ying Sheng's confession at all! "To be honest, I am surprised and completely at a loss for words. Ying Sheng, I..."

He did not know what to say. He did not expect that a woman like Ying Sheng would love him. Even with the beautiful girl standing right before him, he felt nothing but surprise as he looked at her, unsure of what to say so that she could not hurt her feelings.

He wondered what if Ying Sheng had told him about her feelings earlier. Would the circ.u.mstances between them have changed? Would he rather have her than his current girlfriend now? 

With Han Xi shaking himself from his thoughts, his eyebrows furrowed as a question escaped from his lips, "Why? Why did you decide to tell me this now?"

A sad smile appeared on her face as her eyes turned glassy, tears forming in her eyes as she spoke, but she tried her best to keep her tears at bay. 

"Because I wouldn't want to live with regret without telling you how I feel, Han Xi."

The way she said his name, Han Xi had to admit with himself that there was love when she said it. A lot of women had said his name, but with Ying Sheng saying it, even though she said his name countless times, too, it had a nice ring to it. 

It was like music--a symphony to his ears. 

"Ying Sheng, I--"

"Hush..."

Ying Sheng had put her index finger on his mouth, silencing him. "They say if the person you love is happy with someone else, one should learn how to let go. And I'm doing that now." 

She forced herself to laugh as she felt a lump on her throat, wanting to cry, her heart in shambles like a wrecking ball had bulldozed it, pulverizing it into powder.

"I've spent my whole life hoping for others to love me, but now I'm letting go. I know it won't be easy, but I know that I have to love myself first."

"Ying Sheng... I--"

She interrupted him once more. She then held his left cheek with her right hand as she slowly inched in, closing her eyes as she softly planted a kiss on his lips, indicating her goodbye.

Han Xi was surprised, but he reciprocated the kiss. He had pulled Ying Sheng towards him by the waist, without him knowing that the kiss was meant for Ying Sheng to let him go. 

It was their first kiss together, but Han Xi had felt different compared to when he had moments with his girlfriend. Because of this, he started questioning himself why he had never thought of being in a relationship with Ying Sheng. 

Written by MysticAmy