Chapter 121

For several days, I was at home alone. I felt that my mind was full of a lot of things. The whole person was about to explode. I had insomnia all night. I could vaguely dream about what happened when I was five years old, but I couldn't remember clearly when I woke up. Maybe there were only a few fragments.

In this way, I feel like I'm going crazy. I have to find someone to talk to, or I'll suffocate myself.

Looking through the mobile phone address book, I finally found a person who can come out and talk.

"Hello, Urana, are you free tonight? Come out and have a drink with me!"

Yes, it's drinking. I need to find a way to vent. Maybe I won't be so sad after drinking.

Gu ran heard that my tone was very wrong. He knew that I was in a bad mood recently and quickly agreed.

The two of us made an appointment and hung up.

When I go out, I look at myself in the mirror, and I know how decadent I am recently. I cleaned myself up before I went out.

We're dating a clean bar. It's very petty bourgeois and has a good atmosphere. It's not as messy as a bar. And each space is separated separately, which is also more suitable for chatting.

When I arrived, Gu ran hadn't come yet. Finally, he found a hidden place to sit down and ordered several bottles of wine.

When Gu ran arrived, I almost finished half a bottle.

She frowned and grabbed the glass in my hand. "Drink less. What's the matter? You look so bad!"

I just looked at her and didn't speak.

Gu ran looked at me with worry on his face, reached out and touched my forehead, "are you okay?! if there's anything you want to say, let's find a way together!"

I was like pouring bitter water and told all the recent things, including Xu Yao's exchange of identity with me, in fact, I was from the Xu family, and Xu Yao and Zhang Mei actually knew each other early in the morning; Xu Yao colluded with Zhang Mei to give me medicine, but I finally gave it back to him; The Xu family also knew about it, but I was still complaining about them in my heart; And what old man Jiang told me, the reason why Jiang Zhihan is obsessed with Xu Yao

I said a lot. Gu ran sat quietly opposite me. He was also shocked by the earthquake. He didn't expect that there were so many twists and turns in the middle. She listened to me crying and kept wiping my tears with the paper towel.

At last, my voice choked and I didn't understand why I had encountered all this.

I firmly grasped Gu Ran's hand as if it were the last straw, "Ran Ran Ran, what do you think I should do?"

Gu ran simply sat next to me and held me in his arms, patting me on the back and comforting me.

I thought I was strong enough to experience so many things, but when all the truth came up, my heart still didn't seem to be able to bear it.

Gu ran looked at me and pursed his lips. "Qin ran, I think you may not have seen what you really think. Put aside other factors, think for yourself. Are you willing to forgive the Xu family?"

I looked up, a little confused, and finally shook my head, "I don't know!"

Gu ran sighed, "Qin ran, I think you must still yearn for family affection. When you were young, your mother was bad to you. Every time you came to me, you looked very sad and disappointed. You asked me why your mother didn't love you! But Zhao Li is different. She is your biological mother and will love you. And I still don't think I should blame her completely!"

I listened silently without speaking.

What I really think? If I really put aside everything, I really want to have a happy family. I have always admired children living in happy families. Since childhood, they know what good things look like, and it is easy to find the right direction. But if you always see bad things, you may hit your head and blood to find happiness.

But I don't know if everything is as simple as I thought if I really forgive the Xu family.

Finally, I sighed, "after all, I have long lost contact with the Xu family. We have only been together for a short five years, and I still don't remember. Although we are related by blood, I don't know whether we can resist the strangeness and estrangement for so many years in the end!"

Gu ran also understood my concerns and patted me on the shoulder. "It's not that you want to forgive them now. First of all, you have to think clearly. Do you want to recognize them? If you think about it, contact the Xu family to see if they are good to you, and then consider whether you really want to forgive them."

I nodded and looked at her. "Do you think they can forgive me?"

Gu ran also has a tangled face, "If it were me, I might forgive you! I know what you're tangled with. You blame your mother for not recognizing you and holding the wrong person, and you haven't suspected it for so many years. I don't think it's entirely your mother's fault. Xu Yao was too clever. Besides, you were only five years old at that time and didn't open it. You can recognize people by looking at your clothes Solution.

Moreover, Zhang Mei and her family are so bad that they can't imagine doing such a thing.

Maybe after returning to Xu's house, I will feel the family affection I haven't seen for a long time. After all, blood is thicker than water! "

I nodded and drank another glass of wine.

Gu Yan sighed and patted me on the shoulder. "I haven't really experienced it, so it may be easy to say, but it's not so simple for you. Just follow your heart. No matter what you choose, I will support you!"

I nodded heavily, proudly took the wine glass, picked up the wine bottle and poured wine into the glass, "come on, don't think about these unhappy things. Have a drink with me!"

Gu ran looked at me and knew that I felt uncomfortable and couldn't vent, so he didn't stop it.

"You drink. I'll stay here with you and take you back then!"

Even if I don't drink it, I drink it alone. At the end, I'm confused. I don't know when I'm completely drunk.

I don't know more. Later, Gu ran called Li Yixuan.

Li Yixuan looked at me drunk on the table and frowned tightly, "what's the matter?"

Gu ran looked at him and was a little afraid. "Qin Ran is in a bad mood. Find me to drink!"

Li Yixuan sighed, picked up my princess and walked out.

Gu ran stood at the same place, looked at us leaving, bit his lips, sighed and followed up.