Chapter 63 [Bonus chapter] If Only!

“My lady! What happened to you!” the eyes of the maid widened when she noticed the marks on the neck of Hazel.

“It is fine! It did not hurt much. But still bring some ointment so that marks could be healed!” The maid bowed her head and ran out of the room instantly with worried eyes.

Hazel walked towards the mirror and stretched her neck to see the marks better. There were red and blue marks with some blood clot and dried blood when her nails dug deeper into her skin!

“I have to be stronger to face them!” if only she had the strength too! She would not have given her the chance to kill her in front of everyone!

If only.. Though she did not react to Damien, it was a bitter truth that if he would not have been there, she could have died!

What was I even doing here? Though she had not let her be weak in front of everyone. Now that she was alone, the memories of the pain she had felt when Scarlet was strangling her filled her mind and body and her body started feeling heavy!

She felt exhausted after fighting all day and still getting nowhere. No matter how much she tried, the difference in strength was too much for her to handle!

“If only I were married to a human!” then even if her in-laws were not nice, she would have been able to retaliate in front of them.

Tears started to form in her eyes, death was just a step away from her! Yet there was no one who would rub her back and tell her everything would be better tomorrow!

“My lady, I have brought the ointment!” Hazel wiped her eyes hurriedly when she heard the knock on the door!

She had already suffered enough! She did not want the maids to know her sufferings so that she would be mocked further.

Clearing her throat, she called the maid in as she moved her fingers away from her neck and picked up a jewel from the table and started staring at her as if she was busy enjoying their beauty!

The maid stared at her red and puffy eyes but bowed her head instantly as it was not her place to interfere.

“Shall I apply the ointment, my lady!” she offered but Hazel shook her head!

“No! Place it here on the table and then leave! I did not want to be disturbed for the rest of the day!” The maid looked hesitant as she continued to stand there for a while as if she wanted to say something but meeting the cold eyes of Hazel, she nodded her head and left from there.

Hazel waited till she heard the sound of getting the door closed again. Her grip on the gem losen and it fell on the ground with a clink.

Yet she continued to sit there for a long time without taking the initiative to apply the ointment or moving to take rest on the bed.

As if her body was only there and her soul had left the room long ago! If the sound of breathing wouldn’t have been there, anyone would have thought she was nothing but a statue.

How long had passed when her trembling fingers turned cold and finally she moved to pick up the small vessel of ointment and applied it on her skin!

The cold ointment was in contrast with her burning skin that the burning sensation started to engulf her and a few more tears started to come out of her skin!

“I wonder if anyone would have cared if i would have died today!” her family would have only distributed sweets since they wanted to see her die to find a reason to start the war again!

Rafael would have felt that finally the thorn in his way was taken away. The maids would have taken the breath of relief as she was the reason for a few of their colleagues’ deaths.

Who else was there to worry about her? No matter how much she thought, she did not find a single name who would have felt even a tinge of pain when she left the world!

The thought only made her cold! Her heart froze as the feeling of being abandoned filled her beart further!

Applying the medicine, lost in her thoughts, she finally let go of the vessel and walked towards her bed!

Lying on it, she stared at the intricate designs of cobwebs on the ceiling and found herself as an insect trapped inside a cobweb who had no one to take her out!

“If only, I would not have been the daughter of an emperor!” If only she would have been a commoner, her life would have been completely different.

Though she would not have expensive clothes or luxurious places to live, she would have friends, family, a loving husband and cute children who would be called her mother and then she would have her own happiness ever after!

“What absurd thoughts, am I even thinking!” a laugh full of self mockery formed on her face as she shook her head and closed her eyes! If only she could close it like this forever!

“My lady, are you there?”

“My lady, open the door!”

“My lady!” her brows furrowed as she turned into her bed and covered her face with another pillow! She was tired of this my lady!

Even if god would come tonight to take her soul, she was not going to open the door and heat their my lady song tonight! She muttered as she covered herself from the blanket and wrapped her arms around her knees and slept in the position of a small fetus!

Suddenly she shivered as she felt that the cold had suddenly increased in the room and a very strange feeling started to engulf her as if someone was there in her room!

But the thought of someone behind her was so terrifying that she froze at her place when she heard the knock on the door!