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"Because of Sulay, is it?"

He held her arm and slowly loosened his grip. It was a mistake he had made before, and he could not avoid it, could not defend himself.

She didn't reply, but her tears started to flow even faster.

"Sorry Yan Yan, I won't deny that I loved Sulay deeply. If I tell you now that I didn't love her and I hate her, that would be too hypocritical. I don't want to hide it from you, I truly love her. We had a physical relationship. "

His honest words were like a knife, stabbing her in the heart again.

She raised her hand to knock him away, and suddenly let out a cry. She opened the car door to jump out, but he unexpectedly grabbed her tightly. "Yan Yan Yan, if you continue crying like this, Mom and Dad will worry. There's also warmth. She'll probably fall asleep …"

The struggling of her happy face gradually stopped. She stopped crying and could not help but ask, "You and her, had a couple of times. Until I left before we were divorced …"

"Would you believe me if I told you only once?"

He let out a long breath, hugged her and pressed her against his chest. He helplessly opened his mouth and said, "Yan Yan Yan, I really have no way of dealing with you."

"I don't believe that there's only one time. As soon as she returned, you all stayed together. At that time, you would come back very late …"

She sniffed, feeling wronged.

"Yes, I was there very late, but I didn't touch her until that day …"

He paused, feeling a sharp ache in his chest. "Sulay said you saw me go to her apartment the day you followed us, and that was the first and last time we met."

He thought of the time before the divorce, and every night when he came back, he would see her crying when she fell asleep, the strands of hair that had fallen off her pillow, and how quickly she had grown gaunt and thin, he knew.

But he had deliberately neglected them, because at that time he had thought he still loved Sulay.

Until they finally separated, so many years had passed, but he still sometimes remembered that period of her sad, desperate, and lifeless life.

"Why aren't you lying to me? Don't you know that you're so honest that it makes me sad? "

Joy was disordered, he didn't know whether to rejoice in his sincerity or feel uncomfortable for those ear-piercing truths.

I don't want to lie to you anymore. Although I know that all of this is cruel and cruel to you, I hope you can slowly forget about it, Yan Xiao. It's just like how I would care about you too, but I've already learned to accept it.

"That's different."

She remembered everything Sulay had done, and could not help but shake her head. Sulay sent me your intimate photos before we were even divorced. "

"When did it happen? Why didn't you tell me?"

Surprised, he had never thought that Sulay would actually do so many filthy things.

"At that time, I didn't want to divorce you, and I still wanted to save you, because I was feeling warm. If I showed you that picture, wouldn't I have given you a chance to propose a divorce? But no matter how much I tried to hide it, endure it, you still took the initiative to ask for a divorce …"

She felt a dull pain in her chest. The period of time when she was divorced seemed to have delayed her by a thousand times. She did not dare to think about it.

"Yan Yan …" He could only hug her, hugging her tightly. He would wait until she forgot all the damage.

"Let's not talk about the past anymore. It's already very late, let's go back." She whispered and took his hand.

"I won't hide anything from you about Sulay. I really, really care about it. That betrayal made me want to die, but I love you. Betrayal and love, leave or love, hate you and still love, what can I do? I can only forget slowly and deceive myself that Sulay never existed. "

She pushed open the car door and stood under the swirling snow. "It's snowing heavily, covering everything …"

She turned around and smiled at him, "Shen Canghao, give me a big blizzard to cover the hurt and betrayal in my heart that I can't forget. I'll never be able to remember it again."

He nodded, trying his best not to feel upset. "My face is turning into a poet," he said.

"I finally understand why all the famous poets have had such a rough life. Half their lives have been filled with misery."

Let him hold her hand, the two of them walked towards the villa step by step. Two rows of footprints appeared behind them, one big and one small, they snuggled together.

"You should have hit me when you say that. I won't let you get hurt again." He squeezed her hand, though his voice was not loud, but it was filled with the certainty of a vow.

"I will remember this. If you dare to bully me again, I will leave without a trace. I will make it so that you will never be able to find me. You can end up old and lonely!" She smiled, a smile that was both simple and beautiful.

"You're talking nonsense again." He glared at her, but held her as if he was afraid she would disappear now. "If you dare to disappear alone, I won't forgive you."

"I'm teasing you."

She let out a soft laugh and sealed the flying snow outside the door, leaving behind only a warm and charming warmth.

Seeing that it was almost New Year's Eve, they decided to keep the card. Wen Jing and the other two enjoyed themselves all day long, while Lin Qian had invited them to dinner a few times. Wen Jing had never refused them due to the fact that they were still in the same boat.

On the 28th of the new year, Zeng Yaxi suddenly brought Yu Xin back to A City and came to the Ji family.