Chapter 469 Story
Nan Hua looked at Old Madam Long and felt a bit loss.
Relationship has always been something she was bad about.
In her previous life, she was an agent or assassin, or whatever the name was. She learned how to act and to blend in the crowd, playing any of the role that was given to her perfectly. It was to the point that she herself was confused just who she truly was.
There was no one whom she could fully trust.
The one and only person whom Nan Hua ever trusted with her entire heart ended up plunging a knife to her chest, nearly killing her.
She had only treated those close to her better because she wanted to become their family members. But if any of them asked whether she trusted them with her entire life and heart, her answer would be no.
She couldn't do that.
The moment she allowed someone to enter her heart was the moment when she would show her weakness. She would allow them to affect her emotions. By placing her heart in other people's hand, she was allowing them to become her source of pain or happiness.
Giving one's heart to the wrong person would only cause endless despair.
Her grandfather, Nan Luo, and some others could affect her emotions to a certain extent as she had allowed them to. However, putting her life in their hand was something that she couldn't do fully.
She knew it very well.
During the previous incident, she had tried her best to stay awake even though she was around her twin brother and her cousin. She knew that they wouldn't harm her, but she still maintained her guard nevertheless.
Old Madam Long chuckled. "Someday, I'm sure you'll be able to find someone whom you could fully open your heart to. I do hope that it can be me, but I can't possibly be there all the time."
My time was limited.
It was what Old Madam Long wanted to say. She was no longer young and knew that her physical body was slowly approaching its limit. There might be a few more months left for her or a few more years.
She didn't know.
But she wished that she would still be alive at the time when her granddaughter in law married her grandson.
"Mhm."
"Don't worry too much about what people said about you, Hua'er. People might not want to accept someone who's very different from them, but rather than fulfilling what others want for you, isn't it better to just be who you are? Who you want to be and do whatever you want to do," Old Madam Long added.
Just be who you are?
Nan Hua was stunned.
'I know you've been restraining yourself a lot...' Old Madam Long wanted to say that but she chose not to. Even though Nan Hua looked cold on the outside and seemed to be unaffected from everything, she felt that she was still a fragile girl inside.
No matter how strong the exterior was built up, it was all to cover up what was inside.
She hoped that Nan Hua would be able to be free and just be herself.
Nan Hua stayed silent as she allowed Old Madam Long to mess with her hair. Her mind was churning, thinking of the words that Old Madam Long said to her.
Just be who you want to be.
It was an advice that she could never do in her previous life.