Volume 7, Chapter 4 – Amano and Aguri and Deadly Party
Translator: your_pingas
I have a girlfriend, a handsome friend, and sometimes I’ll talk about relationships with my friend’s girlfriend. I was even confessed by another girl recently.
All of you know…the name of this refined man who stood above all normies already, right!
Hello, I’m the popular normie guy that’s about to go viral, Keita Amano.
Hiya, what a pain. Why am I in pain? …Of course, it’s the activities that all normies look forward to. The schedule of the school trip is so packed that I’ve been busy!
HAHAHAHA!
Even though this is just the end of the first day. Eh? You’re asking me what did I do on the first day? Hoho, I went to Osaka. An Osaka trip.
Eh? You want me to say what did I do precisely?
…Uh, hmm, sigh, …why does it matter, let’s forget about that. Yep.
A-Alright, it’s time for me to go. It’s because I’m swamped.
Eh? You’re asking me isn’t this narration ending too quickly?
No, no, no, it’s hard to blame the guy.
After, if we’re talking about reality, it’s the first night of the school trip right now. We’re in the 6-person room allocated for the groups-
“But we didn’t have fun in Osaka today because of someone.”
“He can’t even figure out how should we transfer to the next train, really?”
“Gamers (laugh) are super useless.”
“Sigh, I’m really envious of those 5-person groups, the room is more spacious.”
“Hey, hey, hey, he’ll hear it if we’re talking too loudly. The guy is hiding at the corner and trying his best to stay on his phone.”
-I can’t even escape to my imagination, what a hostile environment.
*
“AHAHAHAHA!”
I left the unbearable room. Once the door closes, I can hear Kaburagi-san and his friends’ laughter.
“…They’re actually happy.”
I mumbled with a sigh. Then, I plopped my head down as I walked across the corridor. …The yukata provided to the guests to wear in the rooms is way too large. A tiny guy like me can’t move properly with it.
“Ay, even though it’s actually my fault for getting onto the wrong train…”
Well, if I want to look for a tiny excuse, they did walk slowly on purpose, which ruined my transfer plans. Then, they made fun of me because I was freaking out. The same thing repeated again and again, …at last, I made a mistake at transferring to the next train. This is the full background.
Even so, I’m undoubtedly the guy that made a mistake in the end. I think I’ve said this before, as long as “someone is dragged down with me,” I feel really upset. Especially for a person like me, …unless I absolutely believe that I’m right, otherwise I don’t want to confront others.
…I get it, nothing can be solved if I don’t clear everything up. However, I can also predict an end where no one benefits.
“…Sigh, how embarrassing…”
I sincerely hate how “powerless” I am. It’s like I’m being possessed by an evil spirit, I feel so heavy.
The first day of the school trip. Honestly, it’s…way tougher than I’ve imagined, to the point where I don’t want to think about what happened today. It’s so depressing that I still feel tired despite just took a bath and went back to my room for a break.
I waited for the elevator at the end of the corridor deflatedly. During this time, there’s seems to be a group of 7 girls loudly talking as they walked here.
They lined up behind me and started whispering.
“Eh, I remember the elevator here is pretty narrow, right?”
“Ah, …it’s only for 6 people at a time, right?”
“That’s not good.”
“We can squeeze in, even though Nozomi’s weight is quite…”
“Shut up. However, even if we’re squeezing in, look…”
When they finished that sentence, I can feel someone’s staring at me fiercely from behind. To be precise, it’s 7 servings of girls’ looking at a lusty woof. Although I’ve never been one before.
My forehead began to sweat. Then, I mumbled as I secretly left the scene while walking stiffly.
“…Ah, …c-crap, I left something in the room. …Yeah, yeah, yeah, …jeez.”
I brought up a useless excuse as I quickly walked away. Then, the elevator came, and I can hear the girls stepping into it as they talked.
…Alright.
“… Where're the stairs?”
Right now, I think I finally realized why I’m not getting fat despite being an otaku. However, I guess I’m just overthinking this. After all, I’m a normie king. …This is the 8th floor, but the lobby is on the 1st floor. Yep, I just need to walk down. It’s okay, there’s no problem, I’m absolutely okay. I feel like the lights on the stairs keep blinking. Of course, there’s no one around. Honestly, this is super scary, but it’s fine.
“I got a bunch of time, anyway…”
I mumbled pathetically to myself as I slowly walked down the stairs. Just as I’m unlocking the screen of my phone to lighten up the mood, the group chat window that I used appeared.
<Me: Is anyone free right now? I’m having a hard time staying inside my room…>
<Tasuku Uehara: Sorry, Amano. I’m playing poker in the room, can’t go with you now.>
<Karen Tendou: I’m sorry, Amano-kun. The girl in the same room as me is discussing some serious relationship issues right now…>
<Chiaki Hoshinomori: I’m going to the bath now…>
<Aguri: Ha, the lonely and discussing otaku is rejected by everyone. How poor of you!>
“…………”
I’m even more depressed. Since I don’t really invite people on my own that often, my heart turns cold when I mustered my courage to talk to someone, and all of them rejected me. I really want to cry. I really want to die. I really want to drag Aguri-san into hell with me.
I put my phone into the pocket as I walked down the stairs quietly.
…Although I guess everyone knew it at this point already, this is how I went through my first day of the school trip.
The seats in the buses are arranged in groups as well. So, I didn’t even get to talk to Uehara-kun, not to mention Tendou-san. As for the 5 people in Kaburagi’s group (excluding me), I think they switched to “treating me as entertainment” mode. Their mischievous waves of laughter lasted for hours.
Recently, I entirely believed that I’m a normie. However, once I took a step out of the Game Hobby Club, I immediately became a loner again. Uehara-kun and Tendou-san, who can basically strike up a conversation with anyone, is way out of my league.
“However, …I put a lot of effort in my own ways too…”
Actually, around a week before the trip, I tried to look for opportunities and muster up my remaining courage to try to talk to Kaburagi’s group. …It ended badly.
Perhaps it’s because I’m acting like a servant, right now, they utterly despised my dignity as a man. They gave me an even more explicit attitude. I’m falling deeper and deeper into this abyss.
I deeply sighed as I passed through the stairs between the 3rd and 4th floor.
“…Sigh, …I really…”
Should I say I didn’t improve, how should I put it? In the end, I still don’t understand what did I do wrong, nor how I should self-improve. This is the lethal part.
For example, right now, …should I just try my best and get closer to Kaburagi-san’s group in my room? Should I just wait and take the elevator calmly? …I don’t get it. What would Uehara-kun or Tendou-san do…
“…For some reason, even though I can’t think of a real solution. I remembered the two conquering these obstacles with ease…”
Crap, I’m getting even more depressed. Although I, a guy that can’t befriend anyone in high school, have started worrying over the school trip since year 1, this is way closer to hell than I’ve imagined. I wouldn’t have come if I knew it-
“…No.”
-Just as I’m about to regret my decision, I slapped myself on the face.
“What am I talking about? I’m enjoying the last day with Tendou-san, and then I’ll give her the present that I worked my butt off to buy it. For this goal, everything so far is nothing.”
Moreover, it’s not like someone violently beat me up. Really, I can’t be that weak.
“…Right!”
I cheered myself up and walked towards the lobby calmly, so-
“Look, that guy came to the lobby as well. Yeah, I won.”
“Seriously, Kaburagi won again, damn.”
-My groupmates, who seem to have taken the elevator first, laughed as soon as they saw me. At this moment, …I’m finally breaking down.
“…!”
I don’t know whether it’s anger or frustration, even I knew that my face is flaring up right now. However, that’s why I’m all the more unwilling to admit defeat. I want to stop my face from blushing but to no avail.
I stopped embarrassingly and started trembling. By all means, I don’t even know what I should do anymore. I feel like there’s nowhere in the world that I can go to.
(This is…too ridiculous…)
Come to think of it, my brain knows it’s not that ridiculous. However, …my heart can’t cheer up right away. My heart is unwilling to cheer up.
I really don’t want them to see my “depressed” side. As a gamer, and as a casual player, I’m not going to provide that sort of terrible entertainment even if it meant my life. I’m really determined. But…
Currently, I can’t even find something I can rely on to get up once again.
I…I can’t help it, …just as I’m about to give up and plop my head down directly to them-
“K-Keita?”
-At this moment, suddenly, someone called me.
I was alerted and quickly raised my face. Then, right there…
“…Chiaki?”
“Y-Yes, …phew.”
It’s Chiaki, she seems to be still catching her breath for some reason. I fell speechless. Then, Chiaki smiled embarrassingly and quickly explained.
“Uh, well, it’s because I’m hastily changing my clothes to come out. …Ah, no, it’s not like that, well, I was at the bath! But I saw your message just as I’m taking off my clothes. …Wait, forget about that, pretending you didn’t hear anything about me undressing!”
Chiaki seems to be explaining to herself, and she seems to be freaking out too. …This girl is still just as bad as talking to people as I do.
Looking at her, I immediately felt...all my helplessness disappeared in a flash.
I think…there’s somewhere for me to go in this world. It’s cramped, but it’s very warm.
Once I snapped out of it, Kaburagi-san’s group seems to be looking at us with a jealous look. …To Chiaki, …I don’t feel right about this atmosphere. I can’t take it anymore if Chiaki got targeted as well.
Finally, my brain is working again. So, I urged Chiaki to walk to the stairs.
“Well, let’s go upstairs, Chiaki.”
“Eh, we’re going up?”
“I remembered it now, there’s a rest area with some vending machines on the 3rd floor. There are no tourists around, perhaps it’s a good idea.”
“Ah, really. I got it, please go there.”
“Okay, …drinks on me, as thanks.”
“Hmm? Even though I don’t know why you’re thanking me, but I’ll gladly take it this time. Yeah!”
Chiaki followed me on the stairs with a cheerful look.
As for me, …I looked away from her and turned forward. Then, I quietly, …really quietly so that she can’t hear it, and mumbled.
“…Thank you so much.”
“Ah, it’s nothing, no sweat.”
“H-How did you hear it!”
“Ehhhhh! Why are you mad at me!”
Chiaki was suddenly scolded by me, so she freaked out and nearly cried. …Jeez.
*
“Yeah, yeah! That’s it! The 4-star game ratings are really the most reliable and should be referenced!”
“Exactly! Uh, although 5-star and 1-star ratings are just exaggerations. Especially when I’m hesitating whether I should buy It or not, sometimes I really have to thank 5 stars and 1 star for that final push!”
“Yes, yes!”
“However, from what I’ve remembered, I think only 2-star to 4-star ratings can balance out between the pros and cons of the game!”
5 minutes after we met up, a boy and a girl are chatting with each other energetically in the vending machine area of the 3rd floor.
Chiaki leaned forward excitedly after hearing what I said as if she’s like, “I agree too.”
“Yeah, yeah! Ay, on the other hand, I’m deeply resonating when there are 5-star ratings for a famous game. Also, I feel good when I give a 1-star rating to a trash game too!”
At the same time, I nodded vigorously at what she said.
“Yes, yes! Sometimes, when I’m playing a truly crappy game, although I’ll feel it’s way too harsh for a 1-star, I feel saved at the same time. For example, …ah, luckily, I wasn’t the only person that feels that kind of annoyance and anxiety!”
“Agreed! Also, I like those ratings that list out the bad points while saying, “5-star, because I’m super impressed!” It’s really reassuring to read them!”
“I get it! Even though some ratings lack fairness, I still feel like there’s no problem with that! However, by all means, it’s just based on personal preferences.”
“Yeah.”
At this moment, the two otakus are finally willing to pause the exciting conversation.
I’m drinking the soda that I didn’t see at home (which tastes just the same) as I looked around.
The quiet rest area on the 3rd floor. A simple space with 4 vending machines, a trash can, and two sets of double seats.
However, it seems that no tourists are renting the rooms on this floor today. It’s tranquil. Aside from that, there’s a bit of distance between the rest area and the stairs, so Otobuki students wouldn’t come. I guess this is an excellent place to kill time. But…
“…………”
Even so, due to the incident just then, I fear that Kaburagi-san’s group with come and look for us. So, I’m a bit worried.
I guess Chiaki wanted to draw my attention, so she tried to speak sarcastically to irritate me.
“You’re poor, unlike me, who got in the same group as Tendou-san.”
“Ughhh, …you detestable seaweed!”
The bean sprout that can’t be in the sunlight, how miserable.”
Chiaki chuckled before taking a sip of her soda. …Although she’s usually my irritable rival, for today, I feel like I’m saved by her from the bottom of my heart.
I can’t but smile, Chiaki replied excitedly.
“That’s great, Keita. You’re still yourself.”
“What are you talking about?”
“What am I talking about.”
After Chiaki smiled bitterly, she carefully put the soda can on the table with both of her hands. …She looks way different in a yukata compared to me. It looks adorable on her. Perhaps it’s because of her figures. Even though I don’t want to admit this, …in reality, this girl is beautiful.
…I still feel like I couldn’t calm down, so I can’t help but look away from her.
“However, …why can’t we find a chance to talk to Tendou-san recently? There’s a lot of chance for the two of us to talk like this.”
“Yeah.”
Chiaki agreed and continued helplessly.
“…Like right now, I’m the same group as Tendou-san, so I really want to clear it up as soon as possible. I feel like I’m doing something bad with you, …even though we’re completely friends currently.”
Chiaki smiled after finishing that. …It looks like she’s not forcing her smile, and it made me press my chest in relief.
(O-Of course. There’s no way for her to still love a guy that brutally rejected her just then. Really, I’m being way too self-conscious now…)
Perhaps I’m the guy that’s viewing Chiaki as a girl somehow. I’m way too girly. I need to reflect on myself.
This time, I looked at Chiaki directly and started chatting with her.
“By the way, Chiaki, do you play Pokemon?”
Chiaki’s eyes brightened at my question as she leaned forward to me again.
“Yeah! Of course! Keita, Keita, you play Pokemon too!”
“Of course! Eh, how’s your progress right now?”
“Well, …ah, …since I’ve been creating games recently, so I didn’t progress a lot. …All of my team members are at around Lv.30…”
“Eh, really! Me too, me too. Just the same as you!”
Usually, I would’ve played a lot more, but because I was working. So, my progress coincidentally matched with Chiaki’s.
Chiaki suggested to me in excitement.
“Well, well, now’s a good time for a battle, let’s battle!”
“I was thinking just the same thing! I was looking for a suitable opponent!”
“Me too, me too! Hiya, it’s best when there’s a friend, indeed!”
When I’m looking at Chiaki’s hazeless smile as she’s talking lovingly, surprisingly, I will also feel blessed and satisfied too.
Chiaki seems to can’t hold it anymore and stood up. Then, she smiled and suggested it to me.
“Well, I’m grabbing my console now. Let’s play-“
-Just as she’s about to finish that sentence.
“G-Good evening, Amano-kun…and Chiaki-san.”
A blonde beauty that’s a bit nervous…my girlfriend, who’s wearing a yukata, came and talked to us.
We immediately stopped chatting. At the same time, we answered Tendou-san nervously in unison. “G-Good evening.” …For some reason, even though we didn’t do anything wrong, we feel like we’re being interrogated.
An awkward silence fell between us three. …During this time, I suddenly realized.
(Eh, isn’t this the best time for us to explain the confession?)
We’re the only three here, there’s no one around. This situation allows us to talk in peace.
I think Tendou-san and Chiaki realized this as well. That’s why we’re all nervous for some reason.
“…………”
Everyone is still unwilling to speak up. …I have to be determined here.
After making up my mind, I’m finally going to mention “that thing.” I took a deep breath.
“…W-Well, Tendou-san! There’s something that Chiaki and I-“
For a moment, Tendou-san’s face is filled with anxiety. But, even so, we have to talk about this sooner or later, so I mustered up my courage-
“Ah, …w-well, it’s time for me to take a bath!”
“Eh?”
-Just as Tendou-san and I mentally prepared ourselves, Chiaki was the one that avoided it.
I fell speechless. Then, Chiaki got near me and whispered.
(Keita, this is a rare chance for you to talk to Tendou-san alone on the trip! Please take the chance while it lasts!)
(Eh? But Chiaki, if we don’t explain it now, I don’t feel comfortable during the trip…)
(That’s just something trivial! Yes, I will never destroy the chance for my friend and his girlfriend to create good memories just to talk about those things!)
Chiaki suggested this to me with a warm smile, …this girl is really…
As for me, …although I was perplexed for a second, I still decided to accept her favor.
“Uh, well, Chiaki, I’ll battle you next time.”
I waved at her. Tendou-san is still hesitating. “Eh, well…” Chiaki waved at me before quickly leaving.
“Yes, please! Well, well, Karen-san, take your time chatting!”
Chiaki quickly left the corridor. I looked at her back before urging Tendou-san to sit down.
“Ah, take a seat, Tendou-san.”
“Eh? Ah, okay, well…”
Tendou-san nervously took a seat at where Chiaki was. She’s still a bit confused, so I tried my best to be cheerful.
“Uh, thank you, Tendou-san. You came here because you’re worried about me, right?”
“Eh? Ah, y-yes. However, well, I can’t leave the room for a while, sorry…”
Tendou-san plopped her head down deflatedly. …Ah, Tendou-san showing a melancholic look in a yukata, she’s stunning. It’s like a movie. Phew…
Wait, this is wrong. I have to smooth things over! I quickly shook my head and waved.
“No, no, no, that’s not true! I’m the one that shouldn’t say all those depressing things!”
“That’s obviously not…”
“Moreover, it’s like what you just saw, Chiaki was there for me!”
“Really. …Chiaki-san…is faster than anyone…”
“Tendou-san?”
F-For some reason, the more I tried to comfort her, the more depressed Tendou-san is. What should I even do…
I scratched the back of my head, …and then I squeezed one of my few topics for chatting left.
“T-Tendou-san, you play Pokemon?”
I sincerely hate that I can still only talk about gaming in this situation. However, that’s who I am, so I can’t help it.
As for Tendou-san, …she shook her head.
“No, I’ve never played it.”
“R-Really.”
“Yep.”
“…………”
“…………”
What’s wrong with me? I ended the topic just because the person didn’t play the same game as me. Am I an idiot? That’s why I can’t get a friend. That’s what I deserved.
During this time, Tendou-san seems to have realized that I’m having a hard time, so she started talking about Pokemon.
“Uh, is the latest title in the series fun?”
“Eh? Ah, yes! It’s enjoyable! I’m having fun even if I’m playing alone!”
“Really? But Amano-kun, won’t you battle the others?”
“Yep, I can’t find a good opponent…and I don’t have any friends at all…”
Crap, this is embarrassing. Tendou-san is worrying over me once again.
Just as I’m sweating while trying to think of something, …Tendou-san suddenly clapped her hands and gave me a bright smile.
“W-Well, then I’ll give Pokemon a try-“
However, at this moment, I finally remembered the promise I made with Chiaki. To prevent Tendou-san from worrying over me, I smiled and continued.
“Ah, but! Chiaki seems to be willing to battle me! The most miraculous part is that she has the same progress as me! Hiya, that’s precious! This is really precious!”
At this moment, …Tendou-san’s eyes lost all energy.
“Really, …Chiaki-san will play with you, …I see…”
“Y-Yes! Tendou-san, so you don’t need to worry about me! I’m okay!”
“Haha, …r-really…”
Eh? T-This is weird. Tendou-san’s looking away from me. Why? Is she getting dumbfoundedly at how incapable her boyfriend is? Or is it I didn’t comfort her enough…
“…………”
The conversation paused again. Only the sounds from the operating vending machines are echoing throughout the place.
…Strange. Staying alone with my beautiful girl at night on the school trip, …isn’t this literally the normiest scene possible?
However, what is this dense atmosphere that feels like the intro of a horror game?
Tendou-san suddenly laughed on her own.
“…I saw it from afar. …You and Chiaki-san seemed to be having a good time just then…”
“Ugh!”
What? I feel way worse than when I’m in the same room as Kaburagi-san and his friends.
I managed to keep a smile on my face and told her.
“T-Tendou-san, I’m a million times happier when I’m alone with you right now!”
“Really?”
“Yeah.”
“…………”
“………...”
“…Haha.”
Tendou-san suddenly gave me a mischievous smile. Honestly, it feels super creepy and freaked me out.
During this time, Tendou-san quickly tried to smooth things over.
“N-No, everything’s fine. I get it. From the conversation, you’re just saying that to compliment me. I understand that I should have a more depressed reaction. However, …I don’t want to.”
She clenched her fist tightly at this point.
“I, Karen Tendou, …even if I deeply understand that it’s just compliment, there’s no way for me to not feel happy when you praised meeeee! Uwahhhhh!”
“Uwah…? T-Tendou-san, what’s wrong! Why are you crying!”
“Even if my brain rejected it, my body still feels excited! Amano-kun…”
“Eh, why are you saying this in public! Are you okay!”
I’m insanely worried right now. However, Tendou-san tried her best and told me this with tears forming in her eyes.
“I still really love you…”
“M-Me too! Wait, no, no, no, no, what is this! What do you mean by ‘still’! I strongly feel that I’m disappointing you!”
“You’re wrong. I’ll never be disappointed at you. It’s just that I…”
“You?”
“…………”
After I asked her again, Tendou-san seems to be pondering something for a second. Then, ...she suddenly took out a tissue paper from nowhere and wiped her tears and snivel. Then, she finally returned to normal and answered with a smile.
“No, it’s nothing. Please don’t mind it, Amano-kun.”
“Eh?”
Suddenly, I feel like I’m suddenly distanced away from her. For some reason, this reminds me of the Tendou-san that I just knew. Even though she’s gentle to everyone, …I feel like our hearts aren’t sincerely connected.
Just as I’m being swept by waves of insecurities, Tendou-san returned to normal already and changed the topic.
“Please listen to me, Amano-kun. Today, Chiaki-san, …haha, it’s funny. We went to the playground for a bit when we’re in groups-“
After that, Tendou-san talked about what happened to her today cheerfully. I can only answer with a smile…
So, the first day of the school trip ended with a bunch of insecurities.
Tasuku Uehara
The second day is a class tour around Kyoto, so there’s really nothing worth talking about.
Taking a bus to tour around the temples and pagodas, I barely listened to the guide’s explanation. Then, I saw the major landmarks with my friends, sometimes taking photos and emptying my brain as I walked.
We can chat, after all. So, it’s more interesting than school. However, I’m suspecting whether this is way better than the daily joyful moments I have.
“I didn’t expect this to be quite plain, the school trip.”
Masaya stayed next to me as he said that. This is a really emotionless thought, but he’s right.
For us, we just feel this because our group is just the same friends in school. If the usual members act together like always, it’s just our daily lives, even when the place is different. The worst part is that we’re not interested in temples and pagodas.
However, despite my look, sometimes, I’ll be attracted to Kyoto’s view as well. In moments like that, I can’t help but feel… “Ah, I really want to see this with Aguri.” Of course, I don’t want Masaya to laugh at me, so I didn’t put up such an attitude.
However, in this world, someone is innocent enough to say their thoughts out loud directly, not to mention the emotion or attitude.
“Ah, I really want to see this with Tendou-san.”
A lonely boy is watching a buddha statue’s reflection on the Kyoto-chi Pond near the Kinkaku-ji. He’s mumbling intoxicatedly.
I realized a friend of mine is already left behind his groupmates, so I helplessly sighed as I tried to strike up a conversation.
“Hey, Lonely.”
“What kind of straightforward and pathetic nickname is that. Stop it, Uehara-kun…”
The lonely boy gave me a powerless look. After I confirmed that Kaburagi’s group is still off the distance, I stood next to Amano, and we watched the golden structures together.
“Having a girlfriend and yet you two are in different places, does it feel lonelier than just being alone, Amano?”
“What kind of normie theory is that. …Perhaps the past Amano will say it, but I guess you’re right, maybe.”
Amano looked at the scenery hopelessly and depressingly. His situation is that he doesn’t even have a friend in the class, the level of loneliness is outstanding at this point. Actually, all I need to do is just hang out with him more, but I’m not on good terms with Kaburagi’s group. If I stick close to Amano to counter them, it’ll just make Amano uncomfortable when we’re separated into groups. This is what I want to avoid.
The best I could do is to talk to Amano when we’re in a class activity like this.
Suddenly, Amano took a good look at my face and sighed.
“…Sigh, Uehara-kun is really like Romeo, after all…”
“Huh? What are you talking about?”
“But Romeo always complicated the misunderstandings, and then he died. You’re just the same…”
“Hey, you still got the nerve to insult your only friend right now.”
I pretended to grab Amano’s shirt. He smiled and said, “I’m sorry.”
Then, even though it’s just a simple explanation, he confessed that there’s seem to be a distance and disparity between him and Tendou. He’s pretty upset with it.
I started looking at the golden buildings and gave him a bitter smile.
“Well, when it comes to whether people match her or not, most men in this world can’t do anything about it. You’ll just get upset if you care too much about it.”
“You’re right. From my perspective, …I also feel like it’s fair to disappoint others. However…”
Amano mumbled as he looked up to the slightly clouded sky.
“If I was the one that stained Tendou-san’s smile, I can never forgive myself.”
“…What’s wrong?”
He’s not a confident person, but I feel this situation is more complicated than it sounds.
After I asked, Amano let out a complicated “Ugh…” mumble.
“Instead of saying anything specific happened, it’s more like this accumulated over time. For example, I really can’t get over Tendou-san’s attitude. Also, …Kaburagi-san and his friends are more-“
Just as Amano is about to finish that, he suddenly looked behind me and paused.
I thought whether something’s wrong and turned back, then I realized…
“Kaburagi…”
Unexpectedly, Kaburagi is already coming up to us with a mischievous smile. His 4 groupmates are right behind him.
“B-Bye, Uehara-kun.”
Amano hastily left me and planned to group up with Kaburagi. However, Kaburagi ignored Amano completely. Instead, he came up to me and smiled, pretending that he’s my friend.
‘I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to interrupt while you guys are having fun, Uehara-kun.”
Kaburagi usually calls me “Uehara” directly, yet he’s imitating Amano and add a “-kun.” The 4 groupmates behind him are snickering quietly. …I bet he’s joking with the friendship I have with Amano. It’s okay for Masaya to joke with me, but I don’t know these guys, and they still tried to mock me. It’s really pissing me off.
However, it’ll bring nothing but trouble to Amano if I start a fight here. So, I explicitly…didn’t react and ignored Kaburagi, paying my full attention to the elegant Kinkaku-ji.
“…Hmph!”
Kaburagi’s disappointed at my reaction. Typically, we’ll dismiss and return to our own circles. …Except for today, Kaburagi seems to be braver than usual.
It’s not just Amano. I guess he wanted to piss me off before going back too. So, he added one more insult…that’s wholly unnecessary and cheap.
“Uehara-kun, help me say hi to your brainless and indecent girlfriend as well.”
For a moment, I was so pissed off that he’s about to receive a punch to the face. However, my calm side immediately stopped me.
(The school trip will be in ruins if I did that.)
If I start a fight here, …it’ll be awkward for my groupmates…and my friends. I barely made a decision here and quenched my anger, so I decided to just insult Kaburagi back. Anyway, I turned to him- During this time, I finally realized-
“…Eh?”
Amano is already…the lonely and weak Keita Amano, is already grabbing Kaburagi by his collar.
“Wha-“
Including Kaburagi’s groupmates and me, …they don’t understand what’s happening, not to mention Kaburagi himself. All of us are observing this, speechless.
Then, …the first one to speak up is Kaburagi.
He’s still trying to laugh it off while seeking acknowledgment from his friends, instead of talking to Amano directly.
“Wow, mad teenagers are super scary. Are you getting sick from playing too many video games? What a pain-“
“Shut your damn mouth.”
Amano interrupted him viciously with an unprecedently deep voice. Kaburagi immediately fell silent. His groupmates are holding their breaths.
…Amano’s eyes are entirely locked on him, no one knows what’ll he do next. What an unusual and tense atmosphere.
Luckily, there’s no tourist around at this time. …This may spiral out of control quickly. In reality, another group of people is already approaching us from behind.
Perhaps Kaburagi feels hopeful with that, so he tried to get his hippy smile out again. …However, after he looked at Amano’s eyes again, his face immediately froze. It’s hard to blame him, after all…
“…………”
-That was our first time to see someone going mad this completely.
That was entirely different than when he’s angry at me. He’s going insane at this point.
It’s not about whether he’s good at fighting already. I can feel Amano is so determined that…he’ll bit his opponent viciously even if only his head remains. …It’s incredibly terrifying.
Amano is grabbing Kaburagi’s collar even more tightly.
“…Eek.”
Kaburagi’s completely frightened at this point. This is…not just a small-scale conflict or argument anymore.
At this moment, I finally realized and interrupted them.
“Hey, A-Amano, stop it!”
I loudly dissuaded him, and it made Amano snap out of it. His arms immediately gave up as Kaburagi escaped.
Kaburagi returned to his groupmates as he’s choking and coughing loudly, …his face turned red out of embarrassment and anger. He glared at us fiercely before running away, and his friends quickly followed behind him. I can see that they’re just as frightened as Kaburagi does.
I look at Kaburagi’s group leaving dazedly. Suddenly, Amano looked back and said, “Eh.”
I immediately freaked out, and my whole body turned stiff. However…
“Uh, well, let me ask you this…”
If I had to describe Amano’s expression, -in a sense, it fits his usual style, and it’s actually quite embarrassing. His eyes are full of tears of regret.
He pointed at the direction where his groupmates just left as he tremblingly asked.
“Do you think…I-I can still get my…happy…school trip back?”
“…………”
I shook my head silently. Then, I patted his head slightly.
“Give up. It was already a total game over just then.”
“You’ve got to be kidding me…”
The lonely gamer’s momentum disappeared right away as he sighed deflatedly with his head down.
I gave Amano a dumbfounded look. He then mumbled frustratedly.
“Damn, it’s all Aguri-san’s fault. …That stinky ass gal…”
“Hey, hey, hey, you’re cursing her?”
“It’s okay for me to curse her.”
“Haha, who are you to Aguri. …Alright, it’s time for us to go, Amano.”
I pushed Amano’s back and urged him to step forward as I laughed it off.
However, on the other hand…
“…Seriously, who are you. …No, who am I to Aguri…”
I can’t help but frown as wave after wave of bitter regret swept through my chest.
*
In the end, Amano still can’t merge with his group on the 2nd day. …It’s not just that. The decisive barrier is already here, and the sightseeing seems to be over. However, he doesn’t seem upset to the point that I have to worry about. …I was confused, so I took the chance to sit next to Amano on the bus going back to the hotel. I asked him why he doesn’t mind. Then, he answered with a shocked look.
“It’s because I don’t really regret it. It’s different than why I got on the wrong train yesterday. Even though I feel like ‘I messed up’ today, but I’ll never hope for a ‘restart.’ This is unbelievable. …Ah, but I guess that’s what a psycho thinks, right?”
I can’t bring myself to face Amano, …while he’s saying all that with a bitter smile.
“Sigh! Damn, why can’t I…”
I keep scratching my head to try and vent out the frustration. The girls that came to the guys’ room to play was slightly startled.
“What’s wrong, Tasuku? Feeling lonely for not seeing your girlfriend?”
Masaya said this jokingly. This guy’s casual attitude is really precious in times like this.
I laughed and said, “shut up” before standing up from the cushion.
“Well, I’m taking a bath.”
“Okay, take your time.”
The hotel on the 2nd day is different than yesterday, which is just a straight public bathhouse with a huge tub. Although the onsen seems to be man-made, it still got a vast open-air bathhouse. I’ve heard that there are towels and showering kits provided. So, after I put on the yukata, I left the room with my phone and wallet only.
I slowly walked on the corridor made of wooden floor that produces noises when you step on it. It seems that our school is the only one renting the hotel today. I can hear my classmate’s shouts everywhere. …Although I’m part of the school trip as well, I don’t like these noises when I’m thinking about stuff.
I picked the shortest route to the bathhouse and just walked casually in a direction with fewer people. During this time, I suddenly realized that I can call Aguri to chat with me here. However, I’m still regretting the incident on the day. So, I don’t feel like meeting her right now.
Even so, …I’ll accept it if she invited me. …I carried this pathetic thought as I wandered around the corridor while holding my smartphone- During this time.
“Ouch.” “Sorry!”
Just as I’m about to make a turn, I accidentally bumped into someone. I didn’t consider this since there’s not a lot of people here.
I apologized and tried to walk on the side. …At this moment, I noticed the person’s signature bright blonde hair that’s impossible to unsee.
“Ah, Uehara-kun, it’s you?”
The blonde girl sighed in relief. I was a bit irritated and complained to her.
“What’s that reaction? I feel like you’re feeling upset for immediately apologizing.”
“Amazing. It looks like you really understand how a girl thinks.”
“Oh, you can rely on me if you want to know about a girl’s heart, …or not.”
The pointless conversation replaced our greetings. I rubbed the back of my neck and said, “Then?” and urged Tendou to speak up.
“Can I ask why is our school idol, who’s being chased all the time, strolling depressingly around a corridor which no one goes through on a school trip?”
“Hey, hey, that’s my line, Uehara-kun, who’s famous for being smooth and slick.”
We glared at each other fiercely for a while. Then-
“…Sigh.”
-Both sighed deeply at the same time.
We leaned on the wall of the corridor directly and started exchanging intelligence.
“So, Ms. Tendou, how’re you doing on the trip?”
“So-so, …negatively. How about you, Mr. Uehara?”
“So-so, …negatively.”
We sighed again. Tendou put her finger on her forehead as if she’s trying to suppress the headache.
“Couples separated in different classes is indeed a big problem.”
“Yeah, there’s virtually no time for us to have time alone. Although there’re ways for us to squeeze some time out…”
After I said that, my groupmates’ faces flashed in my mind. …When I’m having fun with those guys, I don’t think I can excuse myself and leave just because I want to see my girlfriend. I guess Tendou’s more or less the same.
It’s not accurate to say there’s no way for the couples to meet. However, it’s indeed hard for us to see each other directly.
Tendou mumbled.
“…I’m so useless, even Chiaki-san acted immediately…”
“Hoshinomori?”
I don’t understand what’s she saying and tilted my head. But Tendou doesn’t want to explain it.
She looked up to the roof of the corridor and mumbled to herself.
“Love, what even is it…”
“Hey, hey, hey, that line is straight out of a fairy tale.”
I gave her a bitter smile. Then, Tendou cleared her throat embarrassingly with a blush on her face.
“This isn’t funny. Please think about it. Right now, when you consider the way that Amano-kun and I have interacted with each other, …which action sets us apart from friends?”
“Do I even need to say it, you…”
To her question, I can’t help but blush before looking away and answer.
“A-Aren’t you two…going to kiss or do something even more in the future?”
Upon hearing my answer, Tendou’s face flared up even harder than I do. She’s pissed.
“What a shallow way of thinking! That’s what a flirty boy looks like!”
“Eh! Didn’t you say something similar to Amano in the past! Like that time, you said that you want to take the relationship to the next level…”
“T-That’s not related! Moreover, actually, Amano-kun and I…have never done anything like that before!”
“Is that something you should be proud of?”
“I-I’m really envious of you. Your morals are flimsy!”
“Shut up, Tendou! I…I haven’t done anything with my girlfriend either!”
“…………”
“…………”
The argument immediately stopped. We dropped our shoulders deflatedly before speaking up helplessly.
“Tendou, …let’s stop this kind of pointless mutual attacks…”
“You’re right, …I’m sorry…”
I think we ended up in a frustrating situation every time we met. What is this? Why are things also going south whenever I’m talking to Tendou?
Tendou continued. “Actually-“ I guess she wanted to lead the discussion.
“If we eliminate all those kinds of direct actions, …how should a couple prove to everyone that they’re really dating?”
“It’s hard to say. …For example, how long the relationship is, whether you two are on good terms, does the couple match each other, …like those?”
“…If those are real standards, I’m not confident in myself…”
“Hmm…”
I can’t help but feel a tinge of pain in my heart after hearing Tendou. Indeed, …when compared to Hoshinomori and Aguri, the girls that are the closest to Amano, I really don’t think Tendou can stand out in those categories. I-It’s not just Tendou. I’m the same. No matter how you think about it, right now, the closest person to Aguri, …the person that’s the most connected to her, should be…
After I fell silent, Tendou slowly brought out her smartphone. Just as I’m looking at her, she scrolled on the screen and said something unexpected.”
“…Why don’t we ask Konoha-san too?”
“Huh?”
I was surprised at the sudden and mysterious choice. Tendou answered with a smile.
“In a way, isn’t she the most energetic person among us? So, I think she might have an unexpected clear answer for this kind of questions.”
“I get it. I guess it makes sense. …However, are you two that close before?”
“Instead of saying we’re close, …Konoha-san comforted my worries down in the past. I got a unilateral good impression on her from that on. We would text each other sometimes, …sigh, even though she’s replying quite rashly.”
“Replying rashly?”
“Yes. …Look, it’s like this.”
Tendou showed me her phone with a bitter smile after saying that.
The screen showed the message history between them.
<Me: Konoha-san, what do you think love is?>
<Konoha-san: What, did you hit your head on the trip? You’re really annoying.>
It’s really rash. Uh, …honestly, I deeply understand how Konoha-san feels. I feel like Tendou’s way of chatting is indeed annoying, and only a hipster will talk to people like that. That interaction is a good example.
However, I think Tendou liked Konoha-san’s response too. She chuckled happily and typed the same question again.
<Me: Seriously, Konoha-san, how would you define love?>
The tone is very annoying. What does she want? I will never befriend a girl like that.
Honestly, I thought she wouldn’t reply again. …Unexpectedly, the answer came around 10 seconds later. Tendou’s smartphone vibrated.
Tendou unlocked the screen as I peeked. The answer is…
<Konoha Hoshinomori: Sex.>
“Uwah…”
This girl is super straightforward. Tendou and I were shocked. …I-I didn’t know Konoha-san is a girl like this before? Is she showing her real side because Tendou is really annoying?
We fell into a mood that’s hard to describe. …To be frank, this feels really awkward. I wanted to leave, so I added a “well” as I stood up from the wall behind. However, at this moment, Tendou’s phone vibrated again.
I bet Konoha-san randomly thought of something to cover it up. While I’m still dragging my feet, I requested Tendou to let me see her phone again.
In the end, we received a surprising message from her. …It’s something unexpectedly sincere.
<Konoha Hoshinomori: Until recently, I’m quite confident that love is just sex. However, I fell into some complicated troubles a while ago, so perhaps it’s not just that.>
Her words made us look at each other for a second. …After that, Tendou typed her response.
<Me: Konoha-san, then what do you think now?>
Tendou sent her message out, yet the response isn’t coming. Even so, I stayed, and Tendou kept staring at her phone.
So, …around a minute later, Tendou’s phone vibrated.
We confirmed the screen quite nervously. …The screen showed Konoha-san’s honest and straightforward answer that she genuinely believed in.
<Konoha Hoshinomori: I think love doesn’t just surpass rationality. It’s a wave of stupidity and enthusiasm that easily overwhelm even desires.>
“…………”
Her answer made us fell speechless. …I don’t understand how Tendou feels, but, at least for me, …what she said…deeply stabbed into my chest. I can’t help but look away from the screen immediately due to the pain.
(If…if that’s the case, …the person that embodies that kind of stupidity and enthusiasm the most is…)
Crap, my chest is overwhelmed in pain. I just said “bye” to Tendou before leaving quickly, not even bothering to hear her response.
So, just as I’m about to make a turn, I looked back and glanced at Tendou…
“…………”
She’s still staring at the screen of her phone.
Like a ghost standing alone on a desolate corridor.
Karen Tendou
“…Phew…”
I finally got a hold of myself after I sank my shoulders into the bath of the open-air onsen.
Upon bidding farewell to Uehara-kun, I stood on the corridor for a while alone. Although Kyoto is in Kansai, the wooden floor still feels cold. To avoid other people, I came to the corner of the onsen after arriving at the bathhouse.
At the edge of the spacious bath, I hid behind some rocks to enjoy the hot water. Then…
“Wow! This is way bigger than I’ve imagined!”
I can hear girls talking near the entrance of the bath. So, I hid even deeper to avoid being seen by them.
I already gave up on dealing with the attention that my hair and look get. Even so, it’s still embarrassing for someone to stare at my naked body.
Just as I’m trying my best to disappear from everyone and remain silent, I suddenly remembered Amano-kun.
(Right, …he mentioned that he’s not really getting along with the rest of his classmates…)
Honestly, I don’t get what’s he saying since I’ve always lived in the spotlight.
After I’ve experienced such a vulnerable and defenseless state, I think I can slightly understand the helplessness he talked about.
(Really, you really hate being seen when you’re not confident in yourself…)
It’s like people staring at my face when my bangs weren’t behaving. From Amano-kun’s perspective, perhaps that’s everything in school for him.
Amano-kun is a very attractive person in my eyes. However, I can guarantee that he doesn’t think of himself in the same way. That’s why he…
At this point, I can’t help but splash hot water onto my face.
(I’ve never thought about this before…)
Come to think of it, I’ve always cared for myself only. When I wish to know what’s on Amano-kun’s mind, all I wanted to know is how he thinks about me.
I’ve rarely pondered Amano-kun’s troubles or frustrations.
(However, Hoshinomori-san and Aguri-san must have…)
Suddenly, I remembered when his little brother gave me a despising look. Why would a brocon like him give me such a low rating? I think…I can slightly understand now.
“…Sigh.”
I’m getting weaker and weaker. …I’ve always been like this. Once it involves Amano-kun, I’ll totally lose my cool. I can’t maintain my confidence and pride to my own abilities, the Karen Tendou that’s upright and straightforward. Where is he looking, what is he thinking, what does he think about me. I really mind them.
“I…”
I clenched my fist tightly in front of my chest. I feel really guilty. I feel totally different than the love theory that Konoha-san proposed. I…I should…
“?”
At this moment, I noticed someone is approaching here. The person is pushing away the hot water as she walks.
I quickly wiped the tears on the corner of my eyes and calmed myself down. Then, I pretended to be the usual “Karen Tendou” and waited for the person to show up.
Then, a couple seconds passed.
“Uwah!”
Perhaps she didn’t expect someone to be in this corner, so she let out a gasp in surprise.
I smiled politely at her.
“Ah, sorry for scaring you-“
“…Karen-san?”
“Eh?”
The girl spoke up confusingly to me, so I observed her again. A white, charming skin that’s slightly reddish, a good figure that can’t be hidden with a small towel, …and a beautiful face along with her signature hair-
“…Chiaki-san?”
I answered in shock. She quickly nodded, and it’s clear that she’s a bit nervous.
“Ah, yes, it’s me. …Well, …w-what a coincidence. C-Can I sit next to you?”
“Eh? Sure, of course, help yourself.”
I moved a bit aside as I said that. As for Chiaki-san, she folded her towel as she slowly sank into the pool. Then, she squinted and let out a relaxed “phew” noise. …How adorable.
I asked the little animal type girl, who’s chilling relaxedly.
“By the way, why are you coming to a corner like this…”
“…You’re asking this? Are you asking a loner that?”
“…I’m really sorry.”
“Hey, I’m the one that wants to ask why a person like you is here, that freaked me out. It’s like opening the treasure chest at the start of the maze and ending up in a final boss fight.”
“That wouldn’t just freak you out, right. Usually, people will think there’s a bug.”
“Eh, Karen-san, you got a bug in you?”
“That’s really impolite. I’m just here to avoid others.”
“I get it. Beautiful girls attract attention, after all.”
Chiaki-san gave me a reveled look as she expressed her thoughts like it has nothing to do with her. …Didn’t she know a lot of girls are envious of her figure too?
“…………”
Since there’s nothing to talk about now, I can’t help but stare at the night sky. While the stars are sparkling from the hot steam, it’s far from pleasing to the eye.
(In comparison, …when I’m climbing the stairs to Starry Plaza, that night sky I saw from the middle of the hill seems to be even more beautiful…)
Right away, I remembered the things that happened on that night and snapped out of it. I can’t help but look to the side, and I realized Chiaki-san is also staring at the sky dazedly as well.
(…Now would be a good time…to confirm what I’ve seen…)
I wanted to ask her, but my mouth just opens and closes. I can’t muster a word out.
How weak do I have to be? I’m ashamed of myself from the bottom of the heart, so I can’t help but lower my head. Then-
“…Well, something happened on the night when we played GOM.”
-Chiaki-san seems to have seen what I was thinking, and she suddenly brought this up. I raised my face. As for her, she’s still staring at the sky.
“…………”
A couple seconds of silence followed soon as if she’s hesitating. However, …she’s different. She looked at me with determination boiling in her eyes. Then, with an embarrassed smile, she revealed everything to me.
“I confessed to Keita, and then he rejected me.”
“…Eh?”
The truth suddenly revealed itself. It made me speechless.
What she said was really surprising. Moreover, …for some reason, she looks really charming.
Chiaki-san then clapped her hands together like she’s sincerely sorry and apologized to me.
“S-Sorry, Karen-san! E-Even though I know Keita is dating you, I still confessed to her. I’m such a horrible person! Uh, so, please despise and scold me however you want!”
“Eh, …ehhh?”
“Do it, you don’t need to hold back, Karen-san! Please call me a foxy woman until you’re satisfied! Ah, no, I failed to seduce Keita in the end, so it’s not appropriate to call me a foxy woman. Uh, well, …you can just call me a pig! I’m a pig! Bu, bu!”
“What are you going on about! No, please don’t do that! Please stop!”
“B-B-But, there’s this dragon of ‘Atonement’ ravaging in my heart right now…”
“You’re going with that again! Aren’t there too many things that are ravaging your heart! Please get a hold of yourself!”
“I understand. …I…I will bite my tongue to get a hold my self! Hnnng!”
“Stop it!”
“Ow, ow, Karen-san. S-Stop it.”
Chiaki-san is really trying to bite her tongue. So, I pinched her soft cheeks and started pulling to stop her weird and ridiculous way of atonement.
Anyway, when both sides finally calmed down a little, I spoke up first.
“However, if you know that you’ll regret it like this, why are you confessing to him…”
Chiaki-san scratched her cheeks after hearing my question.
“Ahaha, …I-I wonder why. …W-Weird? If I remembered correctly, …uwahh, come to think of it, I didn’t wish for anything during that confession! Even if Keita accepted it, the consequence would be cruel! It’s super scary! What was I doing!”
“You only realized it now? If that’s the case, why are you…”
I’m absolutely dumbfounded. Chiaki answered with an embarrassed smile.
“Ahaha, …but, at that time, I didn’t think of anything after the confession. …Jeez, I’m such an idiot.”
“…Ah…”
Suddenly, I remembered Konoha-san’s definition of love.
<I think love doesn’t just surpass rationality. It’s a wave of stupidity and enthusiasm that easily overwhelm even desires.>
That sentence was repeated in my brain several times.
I fell silent. Chiaki-san continued.
“Anyway, Karen-san, I’ve always wanted to tell you this and apologize to you. …Actually, Keita and I were thinking of the same thing.”
“…Ah, that’s why you two…”
I finally understood everything. The two are indeed not trying to tell me that they’re dating. It’s just like what Uehara-kun had said, I’m just freaking myself out. However…
(Why can’t I…feel sincerely happy even though the misunderstanding is cleared up…)
There’s absolutely nothing between these two. Moreover, they’re extremely sincere to me. Even so, …what is this kind of insecurity and worry that’s still lingering in my heart right now?
Chiaki-san continued nervously.
“Well, Keita is really loyal to you. That’s why he wanted to explain the confession to you! So! Well, it’s okay for you to despise or hate me, but please don’t blame him…”
Chiaki-san begged me worriedly. I replied with a smile.
“It’s okay, Chiaki-san. Who will hate you just because of that? Not to mention Amano-kun…”
“Ughh, …how generous…! …M-My lady! UWAHHHHHH!”
“But could you deal with the emotions that are ravaging in your heart right now as soon as possible?”
“I-I’m sorry…”
Chiaki-san sank her mouth into the water embarrassingly. She’s adorable, and I can’t help but smile at her.
“However, …if you promised Amano-kun that you’re explaining this together, why are you confessing to me alone?”
Just as I’m asking her with a thoroughly unbelievable expression, Chiaki-san slowly stood up from the bath and faced me with a warm smile.
“It’s rare for us to go on a school trip like this. There’s no way for me to just leave a barrier between Keita and you. Instead of that, …instead of letting Keita suffer, I…I can break all the promises I made with Keita.”
She explained to me with a determined look. What a charming girl. As for me, …I finally realized it.
(Ah, this…this is the real…what Konoha-san has talked about…)
If this…if this…is really how a considerate person should be-
Then, …I, …the only thing I can do for Amano-kun is…
“…Phew. By the way, the onsen is super nice and warm, …Karen-san.”
I started pondering. Chiaki-san, who sank her shoulders completely into the bath, spoke up with an intoxicated look.
I sank my shoulders into the hot water with her too.
Then, I slowly closed my eyes and expressed my feelings sincerely.
“Really, …it feels warm. …It’s nice, Chiaki-san.”
Keita Amano
“Hiya, I didn’t expect them to just throw me away…”
The rural student, who can’t even figure out his directions, is standing in the Tokyo station alone.
…Hello, as you can see here, this is me on the 3rd day.
The man that was finally “abandoned” by his groupmates, Keita Amano.
I was impressed that I stood here for so long, …am I really an idiot?
I leaned on the pillar before the ticket gate as I deeply sighed.
“I feel like I’m advancing towards the devil’s abyss steadily…”
If things are progressing this way, I don’t even know what will happen on the 4th day of the trip. …It terrifies me by merely thinking about it.
“Sigh, whatever.”
I mumbled and cheered myself up as I switched my mindset.
In reality, I’m not that upset from being “abandoned” by my groupmates. I’ve always been a loner, so I don’t find the idea of doing stuff on my own repulsive. The worst part is while being with everyone, they still tried to pull some “petty actions” on me. From this perspective, now that I’m entirely alone, I feel this is way better and more relaxing.
“Even so, there’s nothing for a loner to do in Tokyo.”
I tried to search “Tokyo,” “Sightseeing” online, but the results didn’t impress me at all. This whole day is supposed for group activities. We planned to go to the Tokyo Tower, Ueno, and Asakusa. But, …now that things went this way, honestly, I don’t like following them anymore. I should enjoy myself if I was left alone.
After a while, I decided to message the members of the Game Hobby Club.
<Me: I’m now alone.>
During this time, of course, Aguri-san is the first one to give me a response.
<Aguri: Comedy.>
“What comedy.”
What’s wrong with this gal? She’s pissing me off. Is she a devil that treats my misfortunate as snacks? Just as I’m feeling angry, Uehara-kun messaged me next.
<Tasuku Uehara: Kaburagi sucks. He’s clearly afraid of you. However, it’s better this way, right? You go out and have some fun today.>
Seriously, why would a saint like this date a devil? This world is ridiculous. …Well, perhaps the disparate couple should remain silent.
Just as I’m thinking about all that, Chiaki sent me a confusing message.
<Chiaki Hoshinomori: You’re at Tokyo Station now? Please wait, I’ll help you get this done!>
“Get this done?”
What is she talking about? Is Chiaki bringing her group to me? While I’m happy to know that Tendou-san will be here, …but I don’t know the other members of the group.
I endured this overwhelmingly restless feeling and waited for 3 minutes. Suddenly, my phone is vibrating. I remained cautious since I thought something went wrong, but it looks like it’s just a phone call. …My loner history was too long. It’s rare for me to receive a call like this…
“Uh, strange, Tendou-san?”
I looked at the screen, and Tendou-san is calling me. While I’m still confused, Tendou-san’s energetic voice immediately went over the phone.
“Amano-kun, let’s have a date in Tokyo. We’re touring Tokyo together!”
“Eh?”
I’m undoubtedly moved by her suggestion.
Of course, I didn’t bother to ask for details and accepted her invitation right away.
The result is-
*
“We’re here, Akihabara!”
“I figured it would be like this…”
This is a bit of a rip-off of my imagination of a “Tokyo tour.” Anyway, Tendou-san and I came to a place like this.
Tendou-san protested me, who’s feeling a bit disappointed, with her sparkling eyes.
“Amano-kun, what’s wrong with you! This is Akihabara, Akihabara! Isn’t this a holy land for gamers!”
“Well, I guess it’s true if you put it that way. …However, it’s not like there’re games that can only be bought here nowadays…”
Well, I’m still a part of the otaku tribe, so it’s not right to say that I’m somewhat impressed with the name “Akihabara.” …But if you ask me whether I had a clear goal when I came here, honestly, there isn’t.
However, from Tendou-san’s perspective, this doesn’t seem to be the case. She explained excitedly.
“I feel like there would be a lot of classic games waiting for me here, Amano-kun!”
“Uh, I’m not an old-school player. Moreover, the latest releases already ate all of my time…”
“There’s a lot of souvenirs that you can’t see at home too!”
“Then I’m more or less interested, …but I still love the game itself more…”
“Ah, Amano-kun, look! That’s the flagship store of Gamers, the flagship store of Gamers! It feels really familiar!”
“Indeed, how unbelievable.”
“Please look, Amano-kun! Maids! She’s cute, really cute!”
“No, you’re way cuter than her.”
“Hiya!”
Tendou-san suddenly gasped and paused. Although it’s good that she finally calmed down, she plopped her head down and shivered with a heavy blush. I’m quite bothered by this, but I don’t understand why. What’s wrong with her?
There’s nothing I can do. So, I looked at the streets of Akihabara from the station and said thank you to Tendou-san again.
“By the way, thank you, Tendou-san. You cam all the way here to hang out with a loner like me…”
“Ah, it’s nothing.” She finally snapped out of it and answered.
“I’m the one that asked you to come to Akihabara with me.”
“But Tendou-san, are you sure that you don’t want to stick with your group…”
“Yeah, it’s fine. We weren’t going to the same place, anyway. Also, we already agreed that we’re separating today.”
“Really.”
I pressed my chest in relief and started touring the district with Tendou-san again.
I didn’t know that I’ll get this feeling from walking alone, …the streets of Akihabara really tune you up. The whole road is filled with games and manga, something that I’ll never see back home. Even though we’re doing nothing, I’m happy by just being in this place. This is the most “sightseeing” thing I’ve done so far.
To enjoy this atmosphere, Tendou-san and I toured and appreciated the streets for a while.
Then, we stumbled upon a game store and realized there’s a discount area. Both of our eyes are sparkling as we tried finding what we like. …It’s time for me to admit this. No matter how you put it, I’m the type that doesn’t care romance when games appeared in front of my eyes.
During this time, Tendou-san grabbed a Nintendo game as she mumbled.
“…Actually, Chiaki-san put a lot of effort so that we can be alone today.”
“Chiaki?”
I read the text behind the Dreamcast game cover and questioned her. Tendou-san nodded as she continued
“Yes. Thanks to Chiaki-san trying her best and persuade all the groupmates to disband as soon as possible, that’s why I can come here…”
“Oh, …really.”
I put the game back onto the shelve as I sincerely appreciated Chiaki. …Jeez, that seaweed is really…
During this time, Tendou-san stared at my face for some reason. I stepped back and asked her with a blush.
“I-Is there anything wrong?”
“No, it’s nothing. …Amano-kun, it’s time for us to leave, right.”
“Ah, yes, sure.”
We left the store when Tendou-san urged me. Although we tried finding our games, we ended up buying nothing. While we’re kind of sorry to the store because of the window shopping, we’re already satisfied when there’s a bunch of rare games.
It’s been an hour since we left the store and walked around the streets of Akihabara. It’s time for us to switch places, right? Just as I started to think about that, Tendou-san seems unable to suppress her excitement and suggested to me.
“Amano-kun, Amano-kun! Let’s visit the arcade too!”
“Alright…”
Going to an arcade on the school trip, it sounds like what a shallow delinquent would do. So, a typical obedient student like me would find this idea a bit uncomfortable. However, if my cute girlfriend’s staring at me with her watery eyes, it can’t be helped. Goodbye, the once obedient student.
I wanted to compromise and said, “We’re just going to stay for a while…” Then, we entered the large arcade in the middle of the path that heads toward the station. …Entering an arcade in the middle of the day with uniforms on, I hope I don’t get a detention.
“Eh, weird? There’s a lot of people in this arcade, right?”
“Really?”
My girlfriend doesn’t seem to be mind as she walked further inside. I followed her and observed the situation around. There are more people the further I go. Just as I’m starting to feel that this is indeed unusual, I saw the poster on the wall.
“Ah, indeed. Tendou-san, look, a few famous cosplayers came here to advertise a new game. …Eh, hey? Tendou-san?”
Once I snapped out of it, Tendou-san disappeared. It looks like she went further in. This girl is still just as attracted to gaming. …Well, even though I shouldn’t say anything.
Although I shrugged helplessly, I headed forward to try and find my rampaging girlfriend-
“Eh? Ah, uh, wait, it’s not like that. You’re wrong. I’m not…”
“?”
-I realized something was wrong just as I’m about to move. It seems that Tendou-san’s in trouble, and the people began to cheer.
I got a bad feeling. So, although I feel terrible for the crowd, I forced my way forward. So, when I finally reached the end, I saw-
-The Karen Tendou Photoshoot that’s even more popular than the cosplayers.
Tendou-san freaked out and waved her hands.
“I-I told you it’s not like that. Uh, I’m not participating in the activity!”
…Crap, I didn’t know Tendou-san’s being startled was this adorable. Also, I’m not just the only one thinking that. The entire coward is overwhelmed by her charm.
(…Ah, I guess it can’t be helped. After all, there’s an unrealistic and adorable blonde girl wearing a high school uniform…)
Everyone will misunderstand if she appeared in a cosplayer’s scene. It’s not right to blame those photographers.
Even so, I still can’t stand Tendou-san being caught up in trouble.
Now that I can see everything, a guy is trying to get a low-angle shot-
“Karen!”
-I immediately yelled out and forced my way to her. Then, I grabbed Tendou-san’s hand and pulled her to me.
“What are you doing, jeez! Hey, we’re going!”
“Eh? A-Amano-kun…”
“Uh, sorry for interrupting everyone. She’s just a passerby. I’m sorry about the misunderstanding caused. Well, we’ll be leaving!”
I apologized as I dragged Tendou-san’s hand out of the scene.
So, we left the arcade like this and walked for around 50 meters.
“A-Amano-kun, well, …well…”
“WHAT!”
She spoke timidly to me, and I angrily answered since I’m still not over it.
During this time, although Tendou-san is acting embarrassed, …she still mumbled to me.
“Uh, …if we’re in front of that many people, it seems a bit embarrassing…”
“Eh?”
I don’t understand what she means, so I looked back. Then…
“Ah…”
Somehow, …I didn’t even notice that I’m holding Tendou-san’s hand tightly. We’re walking blatantly on the street with our hands together like a couple.
My face immediately flared up, and steam’s coming out. Then, I quickly let go of her hand and apologized.
“S-Sorry, Tendou-san! Ah, uwah, how could I do something so arrogant…”
“Ah, no, that’s not true. I don’t hate it, uh…”
We plopped our heads down while still blushing. I understand that everyone around is giving us a “what the hell are you two doing” look, but forget that.
I scratched the back of my brain as I apologized to Tendou-san.
“I’m really sorry. …When I saw that you’re in trouble, I…I…”
I deeply reflected on myself and expressed my sincere thought to Tendou-san.
“I just forget everything and acted recklessly.”
“Eh?”
“Eh?”
I replied to her confusing reaction with a question mark on my head. For some reason, …tears formed on Tendou-san’s eyes. …At the same time, she’s staring at me with a very gentle look.
“Really, …you’re just the same.”
“H-Hmm?”
W-What does this mean? Anyway, I don’t think she’s angry…
Just as I’m freaking out, Tendou-san took a deep breath.
Then, she continued with a face full of determination.
“Well, …I need to return your sincere feelings too.”
“O-Okay…”
C-Crap, I don’t know where this is going. Even though I don’t understand, I can hear that this is something very important. So, I’m startled.
My body turned stiff. Then, Tendou-san, …my girlfriend grabbed my hand and just directly lead me forward as she spoke up cheerfully.
“Amano-kun! We’re going to have as much fun as we can on our date! Alright!”
“Eh?”
…I’m not sure of the details. However, …there’s nothing more important than us having fun.
“…Yeah! Of course! Let’s enjoy today, Tendou-san!”
I answered her energetically.
Come to think of it, this was the happiest day of the school trip for her and me.
Aguri
The morning of the 4th day that signaled the end of the school trip.
I woke up earlier than my groupmates. Then, I occupied the washstand and tried my best to tidy up my looks.
After all, today, …is the day where we can do whatever we want in Disneyland. This is the main show for me.
In reality, until today, I can sum up my experience on the school trip in one sentence – “It’s not fun.” There’s nothing for me to say aside from that.
Of course, it’s quite fun to tour around with my classmates.
We toured, ate, stayed up all night, and played together.
However, Tasuku wasn’t there, …the person that I loved the most isn’t there. Once I realized that, all of my happiness faded away.
It will be tastier if I’m with Tasuku. It will be happier if I’m with Tasuku.
This thought kept appearing in my mind, no matter what. Although I feel terrible for my groupmates, I can’t help but think it that way.
People often say that it’s easy to be lovesick. Indeed, this kind of emotion that permeates my body and my mind that’s harmful to daily lives is a kind of sickness. There’s only one way to suppress the symptoms: seeing Tasuku directly and absorb his everything.
…Ah, no, aside from that, there’s one way for me to vent this out right now.
I quickly clicked on my smartphone at the side of the washstand and messaged my comrade in arms.
<Me: Amanocchi, did you shave your nose hair today?>
So, he seems to be awake as well and immediately responded.
<Keita Amano: Why are you saying that like my nose hair always sticks out? Please don’t do that.>
<Me: Ah, sorry. …You do mind it, …right?>
<Keita Amano: Eh, really? Is my nose hair out when I first met you in spring?>
<Me: It’s okay. It’s only 2 meters long.>
<Keita Amano: It’s literally on the floor, right! That’s a narrative trick in novels. What kind of shocking reveal is this! I didn’t know that I’ve always lived with my nose hair in high school!>
<Me: Uh, Amanocchi, I’m still tidying up. It’s time for us to stop talking about nose hair, right?>
<Keita Amano: Like I’m the one that started this! Bye!>
Amanocchi sent a sticker with an angry face and left.
I can’t help but chuckle after seeing that, and then I looked at the mirror again.
“Alright, …I’ll be giving my everything today!”
Perhaps I’m way too excited to see Tasuku. Right now, I can see that I’m full of energy in the mirror.
“Hey, Amanocchi. I’m here.”
I arrived at the plaza immediately after entering the Disneyland entrance. Then, I realized the small guy that’s getting pushed around in the crowd, so I waved and yelled at him.
So, he- Amanocchi, noticed me and cheered up right away as he dashed here.
“Ah, Aguri-san, good morning!”
Even though I just pranked Amanocchi this morning, he’s still running towards me with a face full of smile. He’s slightly out of breath.
I can’t help but laugh and pat his head.
“Ahhh, Amanocchi, you’re really a loyal dog.”
“Eh? Ah, does my hair looks like I just woke up?”
Amanocchi seems to have misunderstood something, so he tried his best to tidy up his bangs. …Jeez.
I casually scratched his head and walked forward.
“Let’s go. We’re buying the Loverbears before everyone, Amanocchi.”
“Eh, what the hell are you doing, damn!”
I guess Amanocchi spent a long time on his hair in the morning. …His hair is way too tidy, and it’s not adorable at all. He’s furious since I basically trashed it.
As for me, I casually started whistling and walked into the store, not paying attention to the guy behind.
Amanocchi started fiddling his head with tears in his eyes. Then, he let out a sigh in relief after taking a look at the store.
“Ah, no one is lining up at the cashier. That’s great.”
“Yep, it’s not rare but expensive, after all. However, that’s why…”
“Yes. I feel like it’s very suited for Tendou-san as a present!”
The innocent boy immediately grabbed his wallet from the bag tightly with sparkling eyes. I casually snatched the wallet from his head. Amanocchi almost cried out immediately and reacted as if the world is ending.
“G-Give me back my wallet, Jyaian!” [Note: Jyaian is the bully from Doraemon.]
“Who’s Jyaian? Take it. You should keep it safe if you’re holding it.”
After I returned it, Amanocchi carefully defended his wallet and stared at me like he’s throwing a tantrum.
“In this dreamy kingdom, only a barbaric gal will have an evil idea like that…”
“…Hey.”
“Uwah! What the, I’m holding it really tightly just then! What kind of thief skill is that!”
“Alright, Amanocchi. Let’s see how much you got in your wallet…”
“S-Stop it, Jyaian!”
Amano begged me with tears in his eyes. ….Oh.
(What is this? I really want to bully Amanocchi whenever I see him. At the same time, I really wish that he’s going to be blessed.)
To me, Amanocchi is an unbelievable person. Although in terms of the opposite gender, he’s just a pawn compared to Tasuku. However, I don’t think we’re just regular friends.
“…Hmm, servant? Slave? Pet? …Ah, perhaps it’s an animal you would play with…”
“Uwah, Jyaian is mumbling something super scary!”
I played with Amanocchi’s wallet as I pondered.
Regrettably, I don’t have any siblings. But if I have a little brother, I guess the result will be similar. Sigh, strictly speaking, it's not accurate since I don’t have one.
I thought about this as I walked further into the store. Finally, we arrived at the limited Loverbears area. The high-class Loverbears are paired up and separated into different colors.
I gave Amanocchi his wallet back as we started looking for the bears we want.
“Hmm, …blue and pink, …does it look like Tasuku and me…”
“No, you can only choose black and white. It’s because it’s the blackhearted devil and her saint boyfriend-“
I elbowed Amanocchi’s stomach a bit forcefully. He continued agonizingly. “Who allowed this person into Dreamland. …Why isn’t the magical barrier working…” He’s moaning like a disgusting otaku. Then, he barely got a hold of himself and started picking his bears.
“If it’s for Tendou-san and me, I guess I should choose yellow that can match her blonde hair and the classic male blue color…”
“Eh, let’s cut it in half. You only need to get the yellow one, right?”
“There’s a demon. A real demon has invaded Dreamland!”
Amanocchi started shivering. …Crap, I’m enjoying this a lot.
Anyway, I messed with Amanocchi as we rated the bears.
So, at last, I bought the pink and green Loverbears. Amanocchi got the yellow and blue one.
The Loverbears had their price tag removed before being put into the bag. Although there’s an adorable packaging, Loverbears should be directly given to our partners. So, Amanocchi and I refused.
Comparatively, we left the store carefully with the bags in our hands.
Then, Amanocchi asked me this when we’re heading towards the plaza where everyone in the Game Hobby Club will meet.
“Aguri-san, why are you giving the green Loverbear to Uehara-kun? It’s okay to not choose a blue one?”
“It’s fine. Amanocchi, you chose blue to represent yourself, after all.”
“Yes. This is a classic color. Moreover, you would associate the name Amano to blue, right.”
“Yep. Well, if you picked blue, doesn’t blue sound disgusting to me now?”
“This girl suddenly stabbed me with a knife.”
Amanocchi dropped his shoulders deflatedly. I laughed and continued.
“Ay, actually, it’s not good for both sides to receive the same colors. Moreover, instead of the common blue, …I think Tasuku’s impression needs a manlier color. Hoho.”
“Alright, thanks for that. Instead of picking the passerby blue like me, Uehara-kun is really more suited to a green color that reminds people of nature.”
“Exactly.”
I took out the Loverbears from my bag. Looking at the pink and green bear sticking together lovingly, it made me smile as well. The bell on the neck of the bears is ringing adorably.
Amanocchi took out his Loverbears like me. The yellow and blue bears are clinging to each other blissfully too.
We can’t help but stop. Then, we looked at each other Loverbears’ and was immersed in this sense of throbbing.
“That job…was really tough, right, Amanocchi?”
“Yeah, …it’s really tough.”
Since the local customers have terrible attitudes, the cashier job at the supermarket is more challenging than I’ve imagined. Especially for Amanocchi, he’s so stressed that he ended up losing weight every time his shift was over.
Amanocchi is different from me, who’s good at slacking off and were just trying to earn some cash. He’ll provide more-than-necessary assistance when a customer requested it. Also, if someone complained, no matter how unreasonable it is, he’ll feel sincerely depressed. A boy with an attitude like him will have a harsh life.
Even so, if Amanocchi had a small chance to “prove his love to Tendou-san,” he remained determined and continued working. …So, finally, he got the Loverbears that he wished for today.
Come to think of it, although I really treasure my own pair of Loverbears too, I’m still unreasonably touched when I saw Amanocchi got his.
Also, it looks like I’m not the only one that thinks this way. Amanocchi is looking at my Loverbears throbbingly as well as he spoke up embarrassingly.
“Uh, well, Aguri-san, thanks for everything.”
“Ahaha, what was that? Are you going to die?”
Amanocchi’s acting like he’s about to face the final boss in a game. I can’t hold my laughter. However, in reality, I can understand how he feels right now.
…The meeting place isn’t far ahead.
Finally, I want to my last cheers to Amanocchi, …my comrade in arms. So, I carefully grabbed my pink Loverbear.
After that, I put the teddy in front of me as if I’m a ventriloquist. I waved its’ hands as I pretended to speak.
“Well, well! See you in battle, Private Amano!”
“Eh, I didn’t know Loverbear is a character like that?”
Amano gave my act a bitter smile, but he grabbed his blue Loverbear as well. Then, he put it in front of his face and cheered me too.
“Thanks, Sergeant Aguri. I hope you do well in the fight!”
“Okay!”
Then, we showed our faces from the teddy and chuckled at each other.
There’s a sense of warmth and courage flooding in my chest right now. I hope Amanocchi is the same.
We put our Loverbears back into the bags carefully to prevent our partners from noticing that there’s a present.
Then-
“Let’s go, Amanocchi.”
“Alright, Aguri-san.”
-The two of us finally took a step towards the final stage.
Tasuku Uehara
Let’s start with the conclusion. We had so much fun at Disneyland today.
Since everyone in the Game Hobby Club agreed to stick together, the couples didn’t get to enjoy flirting with each other.
However, it’s impossible for us to not feel happy when we can tour around the theme park with our best friends.
Especially the fact that this is different than the double date in the Viva Spiel Kingdom, we didn’t spend a lot of effort on weird ideas and tricks. Thanks to that, we can genuinely enjoy ourselves in the rides.
When we were on the rollercoaster, Tendou calmly said that “it’s literally just for freaking kids out,” and yet her legs are trembling. We all gave her a bitter smile.
When we’re in double-seat rides, Amano and I always ended up together since we randomly decided the seats, which made us all laugh.
When we’re in rides that give you a leisure world settings, it’s really warm for us to Amano and Hoshinomori are so touched that they’re acting like innocent children.
So, the evening hits in a flash, here comes the long-awaited duel between Amano and Hoshinomori…
Well, about this activity, Amano and Hoshinomori scored equally – ranking last among the Game Hobby Club. It’s a terrible outcome.
Those two didn’t just lose to Tendou and me. They’re even falling way behind of Aguri, who’s not a gamer at all. Speaking of how depressed they were, they don’t even care who won the duel anymore. Their disheartened look always made us laugh our butts off.
Also, although there’s not a chance for the couples to be alone, I think we should thank an arrangement like this. The time when I had fun together with Aguri is just like the past. No, we were way more intimate. Aside from that, I’ll acknowledge this once again for every chance.
Indeed, Aguri’s smile is always my favorite.
I bet it’s just the same for Amano and Tendou.
You can only understand how important and blessed your partner is in a group, instead of the two being alone. This was a throbbing day.
Even so, none of us flirted with each other today. So, at least we didn’t distance ourselves from Hoshinomori, …but it’s hard to say. Anyway, from my perspective, Hoshinomori enjoyed this day thoroughly.
No, it’s not just that, when compared to the past, Hoshinomori is opening her heart to Amano and Tendou even more. I didn’t expect this. They can give off a “best friend” mood even when they’re just arguing.
Perhaps it’s just my imagination, but I secretly asked Aguri how does she feel about them. She has the exact same idea as I do. However, in the end, Aguri and I didn’t understand the reason at all. It’s more like, I didn’t know how Tendou stopped suspecting whether the two are dating or not. Sigh, …no matter what, everything’s okay as long as they’re happy. So, Aguri and I decided to not ask for details, especially not in front of Tendou.
So, we had our fun in Disneyland today.
Then, the sun is setting, and we need to find a good spot to watch the parade.
The couples are finally separating from each other.
However…
“Hoshinomori, are you sure you want to be alone?”
I can’t help but say this to Hoshinomori.
The leisurely atmosphere suddenly got a bit tenser. There’re a lot of couples walking around happily in the dark theme park.
Although we decided this in prior, this situation still made us feel guilty to Hoshinomori.
Just as everyone is having a “why don’t we just go together” mood, Hoshinomori quickly rejected such an indecisive suggestion.
“No, it’s too much for me to watch the parade among two pairs of couples. That already counts as bullying to me.”
Perhaps she’s right. Even so, we’re still hesitating. So, Hoshinomori turned around and looked back at us with a smile.
“Well! Since I’m not interested in the parade, I’m going to use this opportunity and play the now-empty rides that were full at day! Bye!”
Hoshinomori immediately ran off like she doesn’t tolerate any other options. …Honestly, I’m afraid she’s just forcing herself. However, she’s already doing so much for us. It’s not wise for us to keep her here, right.
We decided to accept her courtesy genuinely.
…Ay, in reality, …there’s something I want to say to Aguri alone. I guess Tendou’s the same.
“Well, it’s time for us to…”
I urged them. Then, Amano and Tendou nodded in agreement.
“Okay. Well, see you later, Uehara-kun.”
“We’ll be leaving, Uehara-kun, Aguri-san.”
The two didn’t forget to bid farewell. Aguri smiled and waved at them.
“Enjoy yourselves.”
Aguri’s lighthearted cheers made Tendou answer with a smile. “Yeah, the same goes for you.”
So, just as they’re leaving, …Amano smiled slightly at Aguri. Aguri replied with the same smile. …It’s nothing big; that’s all of the interaction. It’s far less shocking than the attempted kissing scene before.
However, no, that’s why.
(…I guess so…)
I can feel that a certain thorn in my heart disappeared utterly.
I spoke to Aguri after we saw Amano and Tendou leaving.
“Well, let’s go find a seat.”
“Okay, …maybe we’ll bump into Amanocchi.”
“That would be awkward, …well, even though I think it’s quite likely.”
“Yeah.”
We chatted with each other while strolling around the park. The gloomy main streets are already covered with a lot of picnic mats. All of the families and couples are looking forward to the parade.
Aguri stared at them gently and mumbled.
“I feel like…this is really great. It’s different than the energetic and cheerful happiness we experienced in the morning. I guess…it’s a soothing sense of happiness.”
Aguri slightly blushed as she crossed her arms in front of her chest and mumbled.
“…Ha, what was that. T-This isn’t like you at all…”
I can’t help but laugh out at my gal girlfriend’s emotional speech. Aguri pouted and protested.
“W-What’s wrong! Sometimes I’ll feel like that too…”
“Really…”
“Yes…”
Ay, how long since I’ve flirted with my girlfriend innocently.
We joked around as we slowly toured the park. Honestly, …I don’t care about the parade anymore. Right now, at this moment, I feel incredibly blessed…by just taking a walk with her leisurely.
However, Aguri seems to be looking forward to the parade. Since we still can’t find a good place, she mumbled a bit angrily.
“Ugh, …it looks like we’re totally late…”
“You’re right. …If that’s the case, why don’t we just go further away. Instead of squeezing ourselves in the crowd, it’s better to just watch from afar relaxedly, right.”
“…Sigh, you’re right, Tasuku. It’s enough for me as long as I can see your face.”
“Please don’t say that so calmly. …I don’t know how to react.”
My face is flaring up. Aguri has always presented her love to me casually. However, if you compared the times that I don’t really care and right now, my “damage taken from embarrassment” is two digits more.
“R-Really, …uh…”
I guess Aguri didn’t expect me to react in this way too, so she scratched her face embarrassingly and fell silent.
We continued walking without saying much else. …Actually, I don’t really mind whether we can find a seat or not anymore. In the end, when we snapped out of it, we arrived at the unpopular ride that was empty since noon.
During this time, we can hear cheers from the crowd somewhere. It looks like the parade is starting. We observed the situation dazedly and just stood there, the lights are sparkling from afar.
“Uwah, we can’t even see the parade from here.”
“Yeah.”
Aguri and I talked to each other, yet we’re not regretting it at all. …The two of us just stood together. We’re already happy with just that.
So, we remained silent for a while. Then, Aguri spoke up. “Ah, right.” She turned around and started searching for something in her bag. …Is she taking a picnic mat out?
“Yes, yes, there wouldn’t be a better chance than this. …I’m sure Amanocchi right now is also…”
“…………”
Aguri seems to be excited, and I’m blessed as well.
However, that’s why…
I looked at her quietly. Aguri took the thing she’s looking for, …but she immediately hid it behind her to prevent me from seeing it. Then, she gave me a childish smile.
“Hehe, Tasuku…Tasuku! There’s something I want to say to you.”
That smile…made my heart is tightening up to the point where I feel pain. However, I managed to answer.
“…Really. I want to tell you something, too, Aguri.”
“Eh, really? What is it, what is it? Uh, well, well, …you can go ahead first!”
Aguri urged me with a bright smile.
Looking at her, … I can feel that my love for this girl is about to overwhelm my heart.
“Aguri.”
“Hiya?”
I took a step closer to her. Our bodies can almost touch each other. Even though we’re a couple, … we’ve never been so close before.
“Tasuku, you-“
Aguri is confused. However, I want to calm her down, so I bowed down and-
“Ah…”
I kissed her forehead.
Karen Tendou
“We ended up somewhere far away from the parade.”
“Yeah.”
We kept walking towards a less crowded area, and then we ended up in a deserted place. Also, I think the rides around here seem to be closed way earlier than the actual closing time of the park. We can’t even see any tourist or staff members here, not to mention the people who want to see the parade.
“…………”
It’s hard to believe that the famous Disneyland will be this gloomy and quiet when it’s still open. We looked at each other. …Then, we can’t help but laugh.
“This is really like us in a sense, Amano-kun.”
“Yeah. No one can beat me when it comes to finding a lonely place.”
“Why are you proud of that.”
Amano-kun and I chuckled at each other. …We don’t really care how far the parade is anymore. We just felt that…we’re really happy right now.
We looked at the lights of the parade from afar as we passed this relaxed moment.
During this time, Amano-kun suddenly mumbled. “Right, right, I almost forgot.” Then, he moved his bag to the front and started searching for something.
“…………”
“?”
Amano-kun glanced at me. Then, for some reason, he hid his bag behind his body to prevent me from seeing it. Although I don’t understand what he’s trying to do, …I’m not going to peek at something that he doesn’t want me to see. So, I looked away.
After a couple seconds, he spoke up. “Sorry for the wait.” I looked at Amano-kun again, and then I realized…he seems to be holding something in his hand with a smile.
“Uh, Tendou-san, there’s something important I want to tell you…”
Amano-kun told me this embarrassingly.
Even though his face…made me feel a tinge of pain in my heart.
I still managed to answer with a smile.
“Me too, Amano-kun. There…there’s something important I want to tell you too.”
“Eh, really? W-What is it? Uh, well, …y-you go first.”
Amano-kun urged me anxiously. …Although I don’t know what he is hiding, he really wants to finish this as fast as possible. The evidence is that Amano-kun’s eyes and legs can’t calm down at all. I guess he doesn’t want me to interrupt him in times like this.
However, …he’s still willing to…prioritze me first.
(Amano-kun is always so warm and gentle to me…)
Even though I’ve been terrible for avoiding Hoshinomori and him recently. Even though I can’t do anything right and was a total coward when we’re together.
Even so, he has always put me and my feelings at no.1.
I think that’s definitely not because he’s weak. He must be considerate to me from the bottom of his heart. Sincere and honest. His feelings must be…way tenser than I could’ve ever imagined.
“Hmm? Tendou-san?”
Amano-kun glanced at me worriedly. Right now, I understand. Everything he did or said to me…has always been the truth. He never lied to me. He’s always willing to face me directly. However, the reason that our relationship is so tangled up…is because a weakling like me never trusted him.
“Amano-kun…”
I stepped closer towards Amano-kun. Our bodies can almost touch each other. The distance that…we’ve never experienced before.
“Eh, hey…”
Amano-kun is confused. I’m just looking at his face dizzily.
Finally, …I…said something to him, …no, I said something to someone…
“Sorry, Amano-kun. …Even so, this is the only thing that I don’t want to give away.”
When I apologized.
“Eh, what are you-“
“Let us- take our love further.”
I moved towards Amano-kun’s confused face.
“!”
He’s shocked. Then, I put my lips against his.
Chiaki Hoshinomori
“Eh-“
In front of my eyes, -I can see Tendou-san and Keita kissing each other.
“…………”
I’m just…staring at the scene dazedly from afar.
“…………”
My mind is messed up, and I can’t think of anything.
I escaped to somewhere desolate to just avoid those two pairs of couples. Why are the two of them here?
Why would they do something so important at this moment?
Why would a girl like me stumble on a scene like this?
Also, why…why…
“…W-Why…am…I…”
Even though Keita and I are already “friends” only.
Even so-
Why would…tears keep coming out of my eyes?
“…Ugh…”
I turned around to prevent myself from seeing them kissing again.
Is it because I’m upset? Is it because I’m guilty? Or-
Perhaps, is it because the precious feeling that’s still nurturing in my heart is actually unwilling to- obliterate that small beacon of hope?
I started running away to leave the two alone.
“…Keita…Keita…!”
I kept calling his name for some reason as I ran across the Dreamland that’s filled with hope. All I want to do now is to go to a place that’s as dark as possible.
Amano & Aguri
“…………”
Right now, what did my lover do to me?
I can’t understand immediately and was utterly stunned for the moment.
However, …a couple seconds later, the reality that came with the fact finally arrived.
Happiness, warmth, courage- All of these emotions are exploding in my heart.
(I’m excited, happy, embarrassed, but I’m really happy, really happy, really happy! So, I have to express my feelings right now…! After all, now…now’s the best time-!)
My face is as red as a tomato, and my heart is pumping faster and faster.
The two teddy bears, Loverbears, is in my hand right now. My hands are sweaty.
Right now, this is the only moment.
I love him, I love her. I love. I love. I love! So, please relax!
Now’s the time to express my feelings to him, to her…!
“W-Well! I-I-I-I-I-I-I want to give you something too…!”
The emotions are flooding. I’m stuttering. However, what a blissful excitement that was.
My lover is staring at me with an unprecedently gentle look.
That just made me feel happy. Also, that’s why I want to return my overwhelming emotions to my lover. I want to reveal the present as proof.
I just want to make the person that I love the most to be happy from the bottom of my heart. I don’t want my partner to worry about me.
So, I feel like now’s the time. – At the moment that I’m about to give the Loverbears to my lover.
“Amano-kun.” “Aguri.”
My lover suddenly called my name.
“Eh? Ah, what is it?”
Although my face is as red as a tomato, I still snapped out of it and raised my head. I looked at my lover with eyes filled with excitement and hope.
So, he, and she still facing me with the most gentle…and loving expression I’ve ever seen.
“We-“ “Let’s-“
To me-
He, and she said that decisive sentence.
-They put that brutal and cruel declaration in front of us.
“We’re breaking up.” “Let’s break up.”
“-What?”
…The Loverbears in my hand, their bells are ringing along with the cold breezes that are blowing across the park.
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