I woke up, who knows how long later. I was still drugged up but not as badly. I could feel it making everything seem sort of muffled or fluffy, but I wasn't having conversations with my wrist anymore.
Probably for the best. I could feel my cheeks heating up a bit as I remembered that fact.
Then it died when I remembered what had happened.
The medical bay I was in was pretty small, a back room ripper office like I expected. The many many pieces of Tyger Claw stuff strewn around told me a lot.
I guess Jun had taken me to his Ripper.
I was still strapped down, I noticed as I looked around the little room. I slowly raised my arm, which wasn't easy.
Yep. Still there. Still chrome. I felt a shiver down my spine.
It wasn't right. The feeling it gave as I slowly managed to form a fist and then spread 'my' fingers.
So that was it. I had been planning on some chrome arms. It had been my plan. Probably a set of Mantis blades, or a cool Monowire, or gorilla arms for the utility there had been so many options I hadn't decided.
I guess the decision had come and gone.
"Oh finally up are we?" The woman from before the Ripper asked as she entered. She was an older woman. Not quite graying, but probably close to that. Her face lined in a few wrinkles, but the shining chrome lines up and down her cheeks showed just how much chrome she had.
"Yeah... Jun?" I asked, looking around and not seeing him.
"I managed to convince him to sit in a chair outside about an hour ago. He passed out nearly instantly. Your brother doesn't sleep much even when his little sister isn't in my clinic.
I nodded at that. Jun being too stubborn to actually sleep when he needs to didn't surprise me at all. "And me? How... How bad is it?" I asked as I raised my arm... I shivered as it didn't feel 'right' It felt like I had four arms. Or more, the feeling of phantom limb meant even as I tried to move my arm it moved slower than my expectations leaving me with a feeling of my limb being in the wrong spot.
"Better than you would expect." She answered simply as she sat down in a chair beside me. "Considering what they did to you, I expected you to be brain dead. But you managed to keep from having an aneurysm. I pulled the connections as fast as I could, which is why your arms feel off. I wasn't exactly gentle. Speed was more important. But that will heal. Give it a few days and your kinesthesia should feel normal."
"Yeah. It's a little off."
"Nerve damage or sorts. Those... Things they put on you were overloading your nervous system. It will be tender." She shrugged at that. "You are alive and not brain dead. It's more than most could hope for."
"Yeah." I muttered as I looked up at the unfamiliar ceiling.
That had been some shit. It was probably the drugs I was on leaving me feeling sort of fluffy, but I could feel it. The anxiety and nervousness bubbling up under it.
I would probably be a little frantic for a while. I really hadn't been expecting a kidnapping attempt in the middle of the day right in front of my home.
"Fuckin' Night City."
"A phrase I hear often." The Ripper chuckled, as she reached out and without a word started poking her tools into my shoulder I would have flinched if I wasn't feeling so mellow from the drugs.
"What are you doing?"
"Checking on the connections. The Condor is a solid piece of chrome, but your circumstances make it complicated."
"Militech Condor. That's what it's called right?" I asked as I scanned the other arm she wasn't working on. I had no idea what a Militech Condor was. Or what it could do. Unfortunately my scan didn't tell me the things I really wanted to know.
Was it a good arm? Was it garbage? Would I have to worry about it failing on me? Or breaking?
"Never heard of them before? Not much of a Chrome head are you?"
"No. I know some things, but not a lot about specific cyberware."
"Alright, I'll give you the rundown. The Condor is a few gens old. It was popular before the Unification War, but Militech came out with the Orion at the beginning of the war as a surprise for Arasaka. The Condor wasn't able to compete so they got sold off as work pieces. Lot of factories in Watson bought up the stock after the war and started chippin' them in." The woman spoke in a quiet voice which I realized she was probably doing to distract me.
But I kinda wanted to know this anyway.
"They do just fine there, but as you would expect a lot of factories sell off stock, or lose people over the years. They may be a decade old, but there isn't anything wrong with them. They just don't quite compete with the later advancements. Don't worry. You won't have any issues with them. They are better than your old fleshware." The woman offered and I blinked.
"Fleshware?"
"Yeah. You've got Cyberware. And Fleshware." She said, chuckling as she pointed first at my arm. Then she poked me in the stomach. "Sorry. It's a Ripper joke." She added afterwards as I just kinda looked at her blankly.
"Right."
"Well you won't have any issues. They are rated for combat, so they won't break the first time you have to punch some Strom lowlife."
"Good to know." I whispered quietly as I looked them over. They looked. Utilitarian. The metal was a sort of polished steel finish. They sort of reminded me of Johnny's arm, at least in color. They were definitely more realistic than his arm though. A smooth contour between the digits on the fingers meant the whole thing looked more like a normal arm just dipped in metal and plastic.
I looked away. What else could I do? I wasn't ready for this. At least not like this. I had wanted my first foray into Cyberware, into transhumanism, to be a momentous moment for me. Something that meant I took a huge plunge into the future. Into a dream I had since I was a kid.
Cyborgs were cool.
"I didn't ask for this." I whispered quietly. Yeah. I feel you Adam. I get it.
"Hmm?"
"Nothing important." I responded quietly as I lowered my arm. I would just have to deal. Roll with the punches.
"Alright. This one looks good. The connections are healing well. Just make sure you take it very slow for at least a week." She orders with a firm look as she spins around the ripper chair I was in, and she starts working on my other shoulder. Seeing her open up my shoulder the metal plates shifting letting her access the insides was... Weird.
I did my best to just ignore the feeling.
It was just another thing I would have to get used to... I guess.
The door suddenly opened, and I looked over expecting Jun.
Only that wasn't Jun. The man and I used that term lightly that stepped inside, was more chrome than flesh. Legs, arms, chest, even his face was chromed out.
"So the kid lived." He said his voice sounded robotic, and... lifeless.
"She did. Tougher than she looks." The Ripper said as she rose up away from my shoulder instantly as he came in. "How can I assist you today Fujimura-Sama?" She asked with a bow after she stood before him.
"Leg is acting up again." He stated simply, and the Ripper nodded gesturing for another chair in her little clinic that he swiftly settled into. As she instantly began opening up his right leg and checking things out.
She could have at least closed up my shoulder first...
The room was quiet for a while as I watched the Ripper work on the Borgs leg.
Suddenly the borg turned his head towards me. "Your brother used up a lot of favors to get you in here. Hope you appreciate that." He suddenly spoke to me, his blazing eyes a swirl of color.
"Yeah. I'll owe Jun a lot."
But I just couldn't help but think it was some serious weeb shit, and coming from me that said a lot. So I just nodded and kept my mouth shut.
Jun sounded proud of his weeb club, so I wasn't going to make fun of it.
Aloud anyways.
"So the Tyger Claws put together a group of people with heavy Cyberware to fight against the Maelstrom Borgs?"
"Exactly. This is our HQ and medical station. Which is why you can't tell anyone where you are. Promise me Imouto."
"Promise." I answered simply, it wasn't really a big deal for me.
"Good. Come. I will show you where you will be staying." He said as he walked me out the Dojo through a side door, into an alley. There were food vendors sizzling things around the edge of the fence, but Jun walked in between two vendors who simply ignored Juns presence as if he didn't exist. Behind the vendors was a small little nook between the large complex next door and the Dojo, mostly filled with trash, and nothing else.
No door.
But Jun didn't slow walking up to the building he knocked on a window and after a few moments it opened. With a little help from Jun I made it through into a small break room for the building. The woman that sat at a desk beside the window was simply tapping away and ignoring our presence as Jun guided me out of the break room and into a hallway. Then he walked into an apartment.
"This is where you will be staying until Maelstrom are gone. I'll go out to gather some clothes and things from the apartment later." Jun informed me as I looked around the small mostly barren apartment that had a few of Juns things laying around. His jacket that he rarely wore was thrown over the coffee table and there was a mess of old food containers littering a small table.
"So this is where you've been staying?"
"Yes. C'mon I'll get you settled in. You can take the bed." He says simply as he guides me into a small bedroom that was equally barren besides a few pieces of Jun's clothing scattered around.
"Home sweet home." I told him as I looked around.
I just wanted to go back to the apartment. I had so much stuff to do. But for now I would go along with Jun's crazy secret apartment hideaway.
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I didn't get a full night's sleep. It seems dumb since I could literally sleep as long as I wanted instantly, but I chose specifically not to do that.
I would need to see a Ripper again probably very soon, and it would be fairly obvious if I walked in with new arms, yet not a single hint of the surgery still existing.
So I would deal with a bit of early rising grumpiness.
The few hours I had allowed myself did help. Washing out more of the pain meds that only made me fuzzy instead of really helping.
Although my arms were still floppy. That would take a few days more to recover from. I carefully put my arms back in their slings as I left the room that Jun had given up for me, only to find Jun resting on the couch staring at the TV whispering a news channel with a particularly blank look on his face.
He didn't even notice as I stepped out. Just sitting there. Quietly. Alone.
"Couldn't sleep either huh?" I asked him despite the fact I could have slept the whole day away if I really wanted.
He didn't startle but seemed to blink a little as if he wasn't sure where he was. It took him a moment of staring before he spoke. "Motoko. You should go back to sleep. You need to rest."
"I think I've slept all I'm gonna get tonight." I offered as I walked over and settled in next to him on the couch. "You should sleep yourself. Staring blankly at a TV isn't going to make you feel better."
"Don't tell me wh-" He cut himself off as his voice rose in that cold way that I was becoming more familiar with.
"You back with me?" I asked after a moment and he really did twitch this time.
"I never left. I'm fine."
"You can lie to me Jun. But you shouldn't lie to yourself. It's unhealthy."
"I'm fine! I'm not going Cyberpsycho!"
"The fact you already know what I'm suspecting is a bad sign Jun-Nii." I tell him, causing him to sort of glare and sort of cringe at the same time.
So instead of saying anything else I just scooted in, much to Jun's discomfort. Ignoring whatever was going through his head I acted like all little sisters and just flopped against him.
Little sisters and cats. Very similar in many mysterious ways.
It took a while but eventually Jun relaxed and the tension I could in him slowly eased.
Eventually he spoke.
"It's just the shakes, and I zone out sometimes. Nothing... Crazy."
"Jun. Please don't add in any more chrome. Not even one thing. Please. For me."
My begging didn't get a response for a long time as we sat there in the dark, lit only by the Newscaster.
"I'll... I'll think about it."
"Good... Good."
"What about you?" He asked suddenly, a little gruffly, but gentle as he reached out and poked gently at my chrome shoulders.
I opened my mouth to deny any issues. To tell him I was fine, and I would be ready to go kill some stroms soon.
But I had just told him, he shouldn't lie to himself.
I couldn't exactly go and instantly make myself a hypocrite.
"I'm alive." I told him which earned me his full interest as something must have come out in my voice. "I didn't... I didn't have time to think about it while I was there. Too much fighting off the pain, or trying to survive. I don't know if I'm really finished processing it... So maybe But I... I really hate that it happened to me... That, that it happened to me again."
"I thought... when you got kidnapped again. I thought... I didn't think I could get lucky enough to save you twice. I'm glad. That you aren't dead. That you aren't crazy... That I don't have to meet you again for the third time."
"I'm sorry I'm not the Motoko you originally knew." I admitted quietly, a part of me well aware I wasn't entirely his sister. That I was just playing pretend with the teenager who was going through so much.
I had felt sad for Jun from the first time I walked into our little apartment and realized that he was alone.
All he had was me, and all I had was him.
"Please." He whispered quietly into the dimly lit room. "Just take care I don't want you doing something... Like me, and losing you. I can't."
I leaned into him heavily for a moment taking in the raw... Fear. That was in his voice. But I didn't respond. Because I knew I would recover soon. That I would be ready to get my own... Revenge. I wouldn't lie to myself.
I wanted revenge, and with the gamer system pushing me forward I was gonna get it.
"Right now, I could just use a hug." I told him instead, which meant a few moments later his arm was wrapped over my shoulder.
"Stupid Jun-Nii. Get some Real Skinn already. Your arms are the worst at hugs." I told him, but I didn't let him pull away.