Chapter 39：

Gu Nanzhi had never met Feng Hai'an before, so naturally he couldn't recognize her, but Lin Zheng was her daughter whom she had raised for more than ten years, how could she admit her mistake?

If I'm not mistaken, how does Lin Zheng accept that his mother is flirting with other men on the street?

"Lin Zheng, there may be some misunderstanding." For the first time, Gu Nanzhi felt that she had no confidence in her words. She carefully held Lin Zheng's cold face and forced her to look away from the two people who made her sad. Own.

Lin Zheng was indifferent and looked at them stubbornly.

"Mr. Gu, do you think I should continue to pretend that I don't know anything?" Lin Zheng's confused eyes were out of focus, and her voice was so hoarse that Gu Nanzhi couldn't bear to listen, but besides himself, who else is there right now? Can support her crumbling small world.

Gu Nanzhi sighed softly, and then spoke in a soft and firm voice that Lin Zheng had never heard before, "Lin Zheng, do whatever you want, Teacher Gu is here."

Lin Zheng raised her head very slowly, and looked at Gu Nanzhi motionlessly. When she saw her clearly, Lin Zheng suddenly laughed, "Mr. Gu, don't worry, as long as their explanation makes sense, I will accept it. Very reasonable."

The rational Lin Zheng made Gu Nanzhi feel distressed, she struggled to move the corners of her lips, and said to Lin Zheng with a smile: "Zheng'er, you don't have to wrong yourself like this, let alone ignore Teacher Gu all the time, it will make me very sad. "

Lin Zheng's eyes widened suddenly in a daze, and there was only one Gu Nanzhi in her sight, she called her, Zheng'er...

It only took a moment for some collapses, Lin Zheng quickly hugged Gu Nanzhi, stood on tiptoe and whispered something in her ear, then let go immediately, and ran towards Feng Haian and Qin Youheng without looking back.

Gu Nanzhi knew that she should go after Lin Zheng, look at her, and be with her when needed. She told Lin Zheng a long time ago, "Lean back when you are afraid, I am here", right? Adults should never break their word to children.

But at this moment, her feet seemed to be nailed to the ground, and no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't lift them a bit, and Lin Zheng's words before leaving were the ropes that bound her, mercilessly binding her heart that was hard to calm down , making her unable to break free, what strength is there to 'save' her?

She could only watch the child walk into the 'battlefield' by herself, and see how she lost that war that had no chance of winning.

"I told you, don't come to me again!" Feng Hai'an struggled to break free from Qin Youheng's hand, growling restrainedly and angrily.

Qin Youheng's attitude was tolerant and modest, and Feng Haian's aggressiveness was two extremes, "If I don't look for you, do you not plan to see me again?"

Feng Haian sneered, his scarlet eyes were full of anger, "What's the use of seeing you? Can we go back to the beginning, or solve the present?!"

"Haian, we are not young and energetic anymore, don't always say such angry words."

"Haha, do you still know that we are not young anymore?" Feng Hai'an, who always pays attention to the image, laughed like a lunatic, and asked him sadly, "Since you already know, why are you still disturbing my life?!"

Qin Youheng approached Feng Haian, trying to appease her agitated emotions, but Feng Haian swung his hand away forcefully as soon as he raised it, "Don't touch me!" The key in her hand slipped fiercely from the back of Qin Youheng's hand, and brought out a bunch of keys. blood beads.

Feng Hai'an didn't expect things to turn out like this, she turned her head away from Qin Youheng's silent expression.

Qin Youheng didn't care about the injury on his hand at all, and he didn't care about Feng Haian's indifference towards him. He lowered his eyelids and said in a hoarse voice, "If possible, I would rather not bother you for the rest of my life."

A flash of pain flashed across Feng Haian's face, which was quickly wiped away by her, and said coldly: "Then please do what you say, and don't let me see you again, otherwise, you will never see us again in your life. "

Lin Zheng looked at Feng Hai'an motionlessly, and kept replaying her last words in her mind, 'Don't even think about seeing us again'.

Us, is she and who?

"What are you doing?" Lin Zheng's soft and imperceptible voice fell into Feng Hai'an's ears and turned into thunder. She pushed Qin Youheng away in panic and said to Lin Zheng, "Zhenger, listen to mother's explanation, mother and Qin, with him..."

Feng Hai'an's sense is only enough for her to say these meaningless words, far-fetched reasons, or the absolute truth, and she can't say a word.

Lin Zheng was not in a hurry, she called her mother with a smile, and then asked her, "What's the matter with you and him?"

Feng Haian was afraid of Lin Zheng like this, she was too calm, "Zheng'er, why don't you go back first, wait for mom, and go home and explain to you after mom has dealt with it, okay?"

Lin Zheng shook her head, and it was the first time she refuted Feng Haian so firmly, "No, I want to hear it right now, in front of him."

Lin Zheng looked at Qin Youheng, he was still as kind as when he first met, but this kindness was tainted with her hatred, and he became hideous and ugly.

Lin Zheng couldn't control his emotions, and he was embarrassing and sharp when they met him, "Why did you drag my mother? My father is still there, why did you touch her? Do you want our wife to be separated, or the family to be destroyed? "

Lin Zheng's words are a double-edged sword, hurting himself and hurting others, Qin Youheng's calmness was cracked, he bent down, lightly pressed Lin Zheng's shoulders with both hands, trying to explain to her, "Your mother and I Relationships are not what you think they are."

"What's that like?" Lin Zheng blocked Qin Youheng's arm with both hands, and slowly broke free from his restraint. She was still smiling like that, but her eyes were filled with tears, "What do you mean, my lord Why do you always like to keep things in your heart? Isn’t it good to say it outright? I don’t want anyone to be with someone, and I don’t have to be with anyone. Don’t do this, I just want a reason, okay, I won't have to worry about it all the time, bad, bad..."

Lin Zheng squatted down unbearably, hugging her cold body tightly with both hands, "It's bad, I don't have to daydream anymore."

Her words were like a bullet out of the chamber, and it hit Feng Hai'an quickly and violently, causing her to back away in pain. If it wasn't for Qin Youheng's support, it would be a luxury for her to even stand.

Feng Hai'an pushed Qin Youheng away, staggered to Lin Zheng and knelt down, not daring to touch her eyes with trembling hands, "Zheng'er, I'm sorry, it's all mother's fault, blame it if you want..."

"Blame me." This was said by Qin Youheng. Just after finishing speaking, Feng Haian suddenly broke out, stood up and pushed him vigorously, "Get out! Get out immediately! This is our family matter, you are not qualified to speak as an outsider !"

The cold and ruthless winter wind swept across Qin Youheng's calm eyes, "I am her biological father, so this status is not enough for me?"

When Qin Youheng's words came out, Lin Zheng's whole world became silent, as silent as death. Even though she had prepared for the exposure of her life experience for many years, when it was really said, when that person really appeared, she Only then did I realize that I couldn't accept it at all. From the bottom of my heart, she was a person who liked to escape. She always liked to imagine that the life that had been messed up for a long time was still possible to recover. She was really stupid and hopelessly stupid.

Lin Zheng stood up and looked at Qin Youheng coldly, but before he spoke, suddenly the world spun and the whole world went dark.

Before she lost consciousness, she seemed to hear someone calling her 'Zhenger' in horror. The voice was far away, much like Gu Nanzhi.

—

On the row of chairs outside the inpatient department, Qin Youheng and Gu Nanzhi were relatively silent. Gu Nanzhi didn't know how to speak. She was afraid that if she spoke out, she would question them, asking why they let a child bear the mistakes made by adults, and then Ask them, what do you want to do with Lin Zheng? But she is the real outsider, where does she come from?

"Mr. Gu, I'm sorry to involve you in this." Qin Youheng spoke first.

"No, Lin Zheng is my student. I can ignore it when I'm not there, but it's impossible to turn a blind eye when I'm present." Gu Nanzhi clenched his hands on his lap indiscriminately, and it seemed that Lin Zheng's hot tears still remained in his palms.

Just now, the scene outside the KTV seemed to be frightening for a moment. From the moment she picked up the fainted Lin Zheng to getting into the car, she seemed to have exhausted her whole life's strength within a hundred meters. I was afraid that if it was any later, this child would completely kill herself. Closed up, never wanting to wake up again.

How much stimulation did she have to become like this?

"I know that the next words may be presumptuous, but I still want to ask you to tell the truth." Gu Nanzhi finally couldn't hold back, and said with a trill in his throat, "What's going on between you and Lin Zheng's mother?"

Qin Youheng looked ahead, his eyes were far away, "That is a ridiculous story about young and frivolous boys thinking girls will wait and girls thinking boys will chase after them."

…

Qin Youheng and Feng Haian are college classmates. They fell in love at first sight, and soon became the most enviable couple on campus because of their talent and beauty. They competed with each other academically, and devoted their sincerity in love. Everyone thought this was the beginning , is also the end, their life is destined to be happy.

Who would have thought that when he was drafted into the army in his junior year, Qin Youheng gave up his promise to start a business together after graduation without any warning, and chose to enlist in the army.

Feng Haian is the only daughter in the family. She was raised in the palm of her parents' hands and doted on her. She couldn't understand Qin Youheng's so-called "family and country blood" dream. She only thought it was his "betrayal" of their feelings. Feng Haian quarreled with him. , making trouble, and finally watched him leave.

Passionate love is afraid of distance, and even more afraid of estrangement. Qin Youheng's "selfishness" made Feng Hai'an feel like a thorn in his throat. After finally answering his phone call, there was always a quarrel. After a long time, Feng Hai'an felt tired.

She gave Qin Youheng one last chance on the eve of graduation - if you don't appear in front of me tomorrow, let's break up.

At that time, Qin Youheng loved Feng Hai'an deeply. There was no doubt that he was never willing to let that proud girl cry, but she broke down crying that night.

Qin Youheng knew that missing this time might be a lifetime, he was afraid, so he tried his best to appear in front of Feng Haian that day.

The reunion after a long absence and the raging fire, the two had almost no rest that night, and devoted all their enthusiasm to each other in the small hotel outside the school.

The next day, Qin Youheng's grandfather appeared at the hotel.

The strong smell of **** in the air stimulated his authority as the head of the family, and he ordered Qin Youheng to return to the army immediately, otherwise he should not be recognized as a grandfather again.

Qin Youheng was raised by his grandfather with a lot of affection, and he was concerned about his body, so he had no choice but to leave.

Before leaving, he asked Feng Haian to wait for her, and Feng Haian agreed.

Half a month later, Qin Youheng received the news of her marriage.

Ten months later, she gave birth to a daughter named Lin Zheng, and after that, there was a ten-year-long resentment.

Qin Youheng thought that he would never forgive Feng Hai'an in this life, and they would never see each other again in this life, but things are unpredictable.

The year before last, Qin Youheng, who had returned from a job change, had a successful career and was praised by others. His partner arranged a good play for him in a resort hotel. He knew that the play had other meanings, but he went anyway, because that cooperation was a It is a big public welfare project to aid Tibet, and that place has his passion all his life.

In the resort hotel, Qin Youheng once again met a woman whom he could never forget no matter how much he resented—Feng Haian. She had become someone else's wife and gave birth to a child for him. No matter how unwilling Qin Youheng was, he would not be willing to disturb her. life, but fate always likes to play tricks on him.

That night, Lin Zheng, who wanted to prepare a surprise for her parents, was stunned and taken to an uninhabited beach. Qin Youheng, who couldn't sleep, found her in time and rescued her, otherwise the consequences would be dire. It was this accident that made Qin Youheng discover Lin Zheng's deja vu. Appearance - her unopened eyebrows and eyes are six to seven points similar to his late mother when she was young. This discovery confused his reason.

Qin Youheng didn't want to destroy Feng Haian's family, he just took a chance and found a relationship in private to give Lin Zheng and the three of them a paternity test at the same time.

The results that came out that night showed that Lin Zheng was his and Feng Haian's child.

Qin Youheng couldn't describe his mood at that time, he was excited and scared. He was excited and prepared to die alone. He had such a beautiful daughter. At the same time, he was also afraid that the result would harm her, so Qin Youheng didn't intend to tell the result at all. Anyone, he will let this secret rot in his heart, and he can enjoy this joy all by himself.

It's a pity that good fortune tricks people again. Once some things surface, they can't be silent again.

Lin Jie suddenly felt unwell in the middle of the night, Feng Haian was worried and dragged it off until dawn, knocked on Lin Zheng's door but she didn't reply, thinking she was asleep, so he accompanied Lin Jie over for a check-up.

Several people met outside Lin Zheng's ward who was still in a coma, and the results that hadn't been buried in time fell into the eyes of Feng Hai'an and Lin Jie in a grand manner.

Feng Hai'an threatened Qin Youheng not to appear in front of Lin Zheng for the rest of his life. He agreed and did. …

"Why did Lin Zheng's mother marry someone else suddenly? Didn't she agree to wait for you?" Gu Nanzhi was puzzled. If Feng Hai'an didn't do this, nothing would happen afterwards.

Qin Youheng shook his head, Gu Nanzhi saw the blankness on his face, "I don't know, I thought we had made an agreement, so I left with peace of mind, who would never want to return to this place after leaving."

Gu Nanzhi understood that there must be other things behind this, but since even Qin Youheng didn't know, she was even more incapable of seeing it through, so Gu Nanzhi hardened his heart and changed the subject to ask him, "Since you have already promised Why did you suddenly appear again when you bothered them? What you did was pushing Lin Zheng to a dead end, and she could no longer lie to herself."

The past between Qin Youheng and Feng Hai'an can't tell who is right and who is wrong, and maybe both are right, but Gu Nanzhi still can't accept that Lin Zheng, who doesn't know anything, will be injured in the end.

Qin Youheng leaned forward with his arms resting on his knees, his fearless eyes, which had gone through countless life and death, fluctuated unsteadily, "Lin Jie called me, he said he couldn't continue to take care of Lin Zheng, Hai'an, she is the last Sad, but also the most heartless. Lin Zheng's existence reminds her of my existence all the time, and my existence is the 'mistake' she made to Lin Jie, Lin Zheng, and that family, and she cannot face it."

"If you can't take care of it, you can ignore it if you can't face it? Do you know how Lin Zheng has lived these two years, alone, such a small child lives alone, how can they bear it?" Gu Nanzhi asked sharply.

Qin Youheng smiled wryly, "I can't bear it, they have never been relieved."

Gu Nanzhi didn't understand, "Is there something else?"

Qin Youheng was silent for a moment, and heaved a sigh of relief, "Lin Jie is ill. He has been hospitalized for chemotherapy for the past two years, and he cannot live without people. If Hai'an doesn't go home, he has to earn money to support his family during the day and stay with him in the hospital to take care of him at night. Afraid of showing her flaws in front of Lin Zheng, she can only drive Lin Zheng away with the coldest attitude. She always said that Lin Zheng is a very warm child, as long as she pays her a little attention, she will repay her twice. Day by day The tormented Hai'an can't bear this kind of reward, she can't help but tell Lin Zheng the truth, Hai'an..."

Qin Youheng paused for a moment, and then spoke with a faint sigh, "She was supported by her parents when she was not out of the court, and loved by her husband when she became a family. She doesn't have much experience in life, and she suddenly met such a big Of course, I don't deny that she owes Zheng and Lin Zheng the past two years."

Gu Nanzhi was silent. She would undoubtedly stand by Lin Zheng in the matter of Lin Zheng. Before that, she always felt that Feng Haian was too cruel to her. Today Qin Youheng said this, although Gu Nanzhi could not fully agree with Feng Haian Gu Nanzhi tried his best to treat the matter fairly, "Lin Jie's illness may turn out differently if we tell her about it, so don't have to keep it a secret from her."

"It will be different, Lin Zheng will always love Lin Jie."

"Isn't that bad? Although Lin Jie is not her biological father, after raising her for so many years, what's wrong with her loving him?"

"Yes, none of them are at fault. The fault is that I am Lin Zheng. No, it is Lin Jie's way out."

Gu Nanzhi's heart beat violently, and a terrible conjecture flashed through his mind, "Lin Jie... is he ill?"

Qin Youheng, "Well, it was too late when I found out. Lin Jie came out of the orphanage and cherished his relatives too much. He wanted to give the best to Lin Zheng and Hai'an, but he didn't have any family background, so he could only spend more money than ordinary people. If you work hard to change it, how can you get it back with money if you get sick from exhaustion?"

Gu Nanzhi's throat was so sore that he couldn't make a sound. No wonder Lin Zheng could still live with a smile after being "pushed away" for two years. It turned out that he had such a good father.

"For Lin Zheng's life experience, Lin Jie knew from the beginning that he never blamed anyone, and even thanked Hai'an for giving him such a lovely daughter, which made him feel complete happiness. He didn't want to keep his regrets to himself. I have been hurting my baby for more than ten years, so I would rather be a bad person, push her to me, and leave this world silently."

"It's not fair to him." Gu Nanzhi said, she could only speak so briefly, any more, and she would lose the clarity of the bystanders.

Qin Youheng smiled, with a weak voice, "We are all first-time parents, no one can get 100 points, Lin Jie may be 'too selfless', Hai'an may be 'too cruel', but we are not all learning. To make love continue? The method may be wrong, but the original intention is beyond doubt."

Gu Nanzhi couldn't refute Qin Youheng's words. She didn't have personal experience and couldn't understand. If one day this kind of accident really happened to her, she might not be better than them. It's just..." Lin Zheng, what are you going to do? manage?"

Qin Youheng looked at the icy inpatient building in front of him, and said in a terribly low voice, "I can't hide it."

—

On the 13th floor of the inpatient department, Lin Jie, who had been tortured by chemotherapy and became emaciated, was lying on the bed, flipping through Lin Zheng's photo album with difficulty. He was not good at taking pictures, but he still liked to take pictures of Lin Zheng. He took tens of thousands of photos since he was a child. After careful selection, there are only a hundred of them worthy of showing off.

"This is your girl? It's so pretty." The old man in the next bed looked at Lin Jie with reading glasses, "When was this photo taken? The little girl is so angry because of the weight of the trophy."

Lin Jie's smile was pale but warm, "This is the first time our little Zhenger took part in a calligraphy competition and won first place."

"Yo, that's amazing."

"Yes, my little Zheng'er has always been excellent."

"Why haven't I seen her come to see you?" the old man asked suspiciously.

Lin Jie lowered his head, looked greedily at Xiao Linzheng in the photo who was frowning because the trophy was too heavy, "She..."

"Father." The voice that had not been heard for a long time but was still too familiar to recognize suddenly appeared, and Lin Jie looked at the door of the ward in disbelief.

Lin Zheng stood outside the door, her small body wrapped in fear.

Lin Jie thought that he would never see Lin Zheng again until he died, so that she would hate him for a while, but would not be sad for him forever, but why was she still found out? Her little Zheng'er's life has just begun, and her heart is filled with a lifetime of sadness, how can she live a good life in the future?

Hey, Lin Jie sighed silently, he put down the photo album and waved to Lin Zheng, and said to her in the most gentle voice, "Come here, let Dad give you a hug."