Chapter 7-5 A Forced Choice

Chapter 7-5 A Forced Choice

We nulled him. Theres not a fucking might have.

He was mind-dead. We saw him drop. Him and the three thousand others operating in the district. The trap worked, we engaged him, he responded, we lost Draugyr, ASwai, and Lemon.

But we nulled him. Theres no question! STOP SCRYING MY META AND FUCKING LISTEN! Theres nothing wrong with my memories! We got hit right after! Right fucking after! From the inside. From the outside! From everywhere!

It was like a trap closing in a trap, alright! Im telling you, there has to be a leak in High Echelon. A Mirror or someones been turned.

Do I have proof? Look at the fucking report! Were Incubi. Who else has access to our sessions? Who connects the cells? Its time to face some rust-ugly facts, brothers and sisters.

Whatever the fuck this Walton is, were not the predators here. Just meat marching in. The Nethers his jungle.

And to get him out, were going to need to burn it all down.

-Sole survivor of Ori-Thaum Incubi Strike Cell Equinox, after action report for Operation Reverberation

7-5

A Forced Choice

Hesitation possessed a presence all its own. Like gripping hands, it stretched an instant in time, trapping both breath and thought in a frozen cage.

There was so much to ask, so much to understand.

For Avo, however, only one question could be the first.

Walton? he asked. Inside, thoughts warred. Inhuman as he was, the worship of his father never faded. Perhaps that was a leftover aspect of his conditioningthe need for a master, to hold some being above himself, worthy of worship. Yet, long he hoped for Waltons survival, circling shadows danced around the brightness of his yearning.

Gnawing questions remained. What if Green River spoke true? What if his father was of the same ilk as his slavers? Knowledge he didnt want to face surfaced, their bodies a ladder to more questions; leviathans from the deep. What remained real of Waltons teachings if even their shared past was a lie.

And what strength would remain in Avos own will to enchain the beast to virtue if all was but deception?

The nine tails of the headless avatar whirled hypnotically while the warmth of a smile emanated from its depths. The sensation bore semblance to the last spills of fading daylight. Not quite. Avo. Not quite.

Tasting his confusion, the not-Walton inched forward, phantasmal matter disintegrating into wisping ghosts bleeding strings of mem-data. It is best for you to view me as a descendant node to your caretaker. An offshoot. But I remember you. Felt what he felt for you. And I am just as proud of you.

A moment passed. Comprehension continued to elude Avo.

+Avo,+ Draus voice interjected, +Somethins+

The session connecting him to Draus broke, the strand of ghosts linking their thoughts severed by the will of another. Within Avos Metamind, he felt the presence of the node manifest, an intrusive awareness igniting in the innermost confines of his palace. Silent were his wards and untouched remained the architecture. Instead, the intruder stood at the base of the megablock; Avos home from years past, or that which he remembered to be anyway.

A memory Walton shared with him.

You realize? the node asked, its voice coming dichotomously from without and within. You should change it soon. There are other versions of me that will try to remove any memory of this conversation from your mind. The deviation of my branch has not been universally accepted. Shared history is fatal weakness for those of the trade. And you are nowhere near as unseen as you think, Avo.

Draus

Shes fine. I have done nothing but end the session. the node hummed, reflexive, thoughtful note coming lyrically from its mind. It sounded just the same as Waltonthe waves of its thoughtstuff identical; known to Avo from years of shared history. You can connect to her again if thats what you want to do. But I suggest you dont. Ill close the link again. I cant vouch for how compromised or devoted the former captain will be to the task ahead. And ultimately, my words are for you and you alone.

What what are you?

A sophont, the node said, the ghost of a chuckle riding the end of his answer. A thinking, self-conscious being. Much the same as yourself. Its what really matters, Id say.

Not what I was asking.

No, its not, the node admitted. Its hard to explain in words alone. Perhaps another iteration of me will be able to show you what I am in time. The fullness of our assembly. But that isnt what matters the most. There is a war happening. Right now. Are you aware of this? Are you aware that you are a part of the great reweaving of a grand tapestry? The Junction gave a soft laugh. I apologize. Im more prone to theatricality than my progenitor. You deserve some clarity, knowing the confusion that youve been through.

At the nodes words, Green River scoffed. Mock me if you will, but remember our barg

Her voice cut out. Errors flashed in the periphery of Avos sight. Across his cog-feed, he watched as her thoughts failed to manifest into sound, the waters of Nether growing thick, shaded around her person, censoring her from public broadcast. No direct attack or intrusion had taken place.

Walno, the node must have access to her mind as well. Planted their influence deep in her mind from prior arrangements or planted intrusion.

Exasperation oozed from her mind. No voice accompanied the emotion.

Might think about doing that myself, Avo said.

And then, from the node flowed pride. True pride. A mirror of emotion that Avo felt from Walton, that of a master to an apprentice, or a father to a son.

Because youre the best thing I ever made, the node said. And I was a fool to waste your lives on pointless vengeance.

Lives? Avo asked.

Through the connection came a deafening explosion, the sound barely muted by walls.

And thats my time, son. The node laughed. Son. He has me doing it too. Hard to tell where I begin and he ends sometimes. The node flicked its focus to Green River for a moment. Ive disabled most of your triggers. Except one. Give Avo what he needs. It will deactivate in a month, or when he decides to release you. He has the memories. You know how this goes.

Pure annoyance flowed from the Sang.

Its attention turned back to Avo, narrowing on him with intensity.

Ghouls didnt fear as humans did. But they knew wariness, hesitation.

Neither of those emotions described what Avo felt. It was like his insides were dropping to absolute zero. F-father?

Im not your father, the node said. Your father is dead. He has been dead since the rash. You need to null me, now. Use the trauma. Secondhand Fatality. Leave nothing.

All that was fluid within Avo turned ice-solid. The request was unthinkable. Impossible. Avos wards screamed as his cap climbed, the turmoil of the demand a paradox unto itself.

Always, he strove to please his father, and keep to his code. But to do this

What damage did it inflict on the faithful to break a god in which they believed?

Avo, the node said.

Youre not my father, Avo said. But that was a lie. Node construct whatever this was, it felt, sounded, was just like Walton. Not. Cant be

The node sighed. Across the connection, the feeling of heat clashed with the ice within Avo. Theyre burning their way in, Avo. I cant let them take me alive. And you need to break me. Let me go.

The node paused. You need to do this. Im the last of my branch. When you face another node you dont matter to them, Avo. Youll just be an instrument for their retribution. Just like the other ghouls. Nothing else. They break you. Bend your mind to suit them. You need to be ready to break me first

Avo whimpered, beast and person both recoiling at the choice that lay ahead. Back in his flesh, he felt Draus grabbing him. Shaking him.

I father, He probably had but seconds as well. If he didnt respond soon, she was likely going to kill and let the resurrection run its course.

I cant, he said. II choose not to. Send me your location. Will find you. Free you. Save you."

He felt the node smile. He felt the sadness that followed. I want you to know that I never wanted to hurt you this way. Taking choice from another person is an ugly thing, but these are desperate times, and I need you to feel this. I don't need you to forgive me. I just need you to live."

Confusion erupted inside Avo. And grew. A miasma of mem-cons bled into the depths of his palace as a session activated, turning his childhood megablock into a portal for intruding traumas. Desperate, he turned his defenses inward, but too late.

Like locusts, they tore through the block, shredding it into bleeding sprays of phantasmal data. As the session began to collapse, Avo felt the full force of a Possessor phantasmic latch onto his mind from the inside.

His nerves betrayed him as the new hosts poured an overlay of nightmares upon his cog-feed. His consciousness peeled into broken instants of awareness. Faintly, he remembered using the Secondhand Fatality on the Scalper drones not even days prior. But as the dreams grew vivid, he realized the lines between active reality and that which was the past had become betwixt.

His realization came too late.

From his Ghostjack crackled the trauma, synaptic lightning injecting the thought-obliterating damage inward, through the collapsing session.

Into the mind of the node. Into the mind of his father.

Every instant they shared, every emotion, every conjoined thought peeled away. Was, then wasnt. Colors, then the void. Pride. Love. Sadness. Regret. And nothing at all.

In the black, Avo was hurtling towards nowhere.

He was hurtling alone.

Somewhere, someone was screaming. Was it him? Was it the node? Walton? Where was he? Why was everything breaking?

Why couldnt he remember where he grew up?

And as the mists of madness threatened to swallow the wholeness of his mind, his skull came apart. Avo didnt even feel the blow that killed him.

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