When she heard the bell in the temple calling monks to eat in the fast hall, she became a little uneasy. It was not that she couldn't insist, but that she thought of sleeping in the wing room.
"Master..." She cried bitterly with entreaties.
I saw ruoku stop chanting, slowly opened his eyes and looked at her, "you go..."
He knelt down and leaned on his door. "Master, it's not that I can't stand the pain, but it's noon now. I'm worried about my recovery No one has sent him fast food. He's still very weak. If he doesn't eat, I'm afraid he'll get sick later. "
If Ku's eyes flash with a strange look, his rosary beads are suddenly pinched by him, and his eyes are complex. It's just fleeting. Then he says to her, "you don't have to worry about him. His master passed away this morning, and someone will take care of him. It's you. I think you'd better not waste your time here. Go back, and don't embarrass yourself I'm embarrassed! "
When he said that Chueh Chi had someone to take care of her, the stone in her heart finally fell down. She didn't answer ruoku's words. Instead, she knelt down to face them with her own silence. They fell into a silent confrontation again.
When he came out full of happiness, he was also happy for her. When he thought that he would never be alone in the temple, his mood became relaxed and happy, but his injury was too heavy. When the tired pawnbroker hit him, he fell asleep in a trance. When he woke up again, he saw his younger martial brother Jue Ren serving him Here comes fast food.
"Younger martial brother, is master calling you here?" He was puzzled.
"Well, yes, elder martial brother, are you ok? You don't blame me for not coming here after you were disciplined yesterday?" Chueh Jen, who brought the meal, was about 20 years old. He was ashamed when he spoke to Chueh Chi.
"Needless to say, I understand. Please put down your fast meal. Thank you!" He reluctantly gave Chueh Jen a gift. For the rest, he didn't want to ask more or say more. When he saw Chueh Jen coming to deliver fast food to him, he felt a little relieved. This is the silent friendship between him and his master, which others can't know.
On the day of receiving the precepts, when he heard that no one was coming to help him, he was not disappointed at all. It was just a thorn in his heart that he didn't see the master. Although he didn't regret eating the ginger porridge, whenever he thought of the disappointed look on the face of the master, he felt ashamed. He felt that he had really let down the high hopes of the master. When he saw the master quietly bring it to him When he applied the plaster, his lost heart no longer felt cold. At this time, when he saw that Jue Ren had brought his fast meal, his deep love for the master and apprentice made him feel hot and almost red in his eyes.
But vaguely, he was also worried, because he didn't think he would be happy to put him aside. In any case, he would not give him fasting food at this time. Thinking of this, looking at Jue Ren who was going out, he asked, "do you know the benefactor?"
Jue Ren stopped stepping out, turned back and said to him, "I don't know about this, otherwise, I'll go to ask you later?"
He thought that he had threatened his elder martial brother. He looked at the thin chueren in front of him. In order not to bring him any trouble, he shook his head and said, "no, you can go and help yourself. You don't have to worry about me..."
"Oh..." Jue Ren just flickered in her eyes and went out of the room with her head slightly lowered.
Looking at Jue Ren's lost figure, he sighed silently in his heart and said quietly, "it's not that elder martial brother wants to alienate you, but that's the only way to protect you."
After eating reluctantly, Chueh Chi didn't want to sleep. He had been out for a long time, but he never came back. What he worried about most was that Chueh yuan, the elder master, would be embarrassed. Many bad ideas flashed in his mind. However, because of his injury, he couldn't go down to look for it, so he just lay on his back and was worried.
Gradually, it was getting dark. When the door opened again, he thought he had come back, but to his disappointment, he saw that it was still Jue Ren.
"Elder martial brother, I've brought you fasting food. Here are some medicines that my master asked me to bring to you for taking. You'd better take them first. Then you can recover quickly."
"Well, thank you..."
After taking the medicine sent by Jue Ren, he used the fast meal carelessly. He waited anxiously to come back. It was probably the effect of the medicine. He fell asleep vaguely. When he woke up, it was bright outside the window. Looking at the missing trace beside him, he was shocked. Countless bad ideas were hovering in his mind. He was afraid that Jue yuan would hurt him In that case, he can't forgive himself, because it's all because of him. He can't lie down any more, and he can't estimate the severe pain of the wound any more. He forced himself to get up and get out of bed. It's so easy for him to feel for the things in the room and walk to the door. As soon as he opened the door, he saw chueren outside.
"Why are you up, elder martial brother?"
"Well, I've been lying down for two days. I've been doing some exercises."
Chueh Jen helped him and said, "elder martial brother, you'd better lie down. The master ordered you to have a baby, or you'll have to leave the root of the disease in the future..."
Chueh Chi brushed his hand away and walked towards the door step by step with the pain of tearing. Chueh Jen saw that there was no one around him, ran up to him and said, "elder martial brother, are you going to find the benefactor?""Why, do you know where he is?" He asked Chueh Jen eagerly.
Chueh Jen looked around again and whispered in his ear: "elder martial brother, I asked you about it quietly yesterday. The benefactor didn't know what was wrong. He has been kneeling outside the Abbot's Buddhist temple since yesterday. It's been a day and a night..."
Hearing that he was not embarrassed by Jue yuan, he was relieved. Then he thought that he would kneel down at the Abbot's place for a night, and his heart that he had just let go began to hang again. He quickly covered up his confusion and said to Jue Ren, "it's very difficult for you to do this. This is what elder martial brother owes you. Put the fast meal here, go back, I know..."
"Don't say that, elder martial brother. The more you say that, the more ashamed Jue Ren will be. If you hadn't saved Jue Ren at the beginning, I would not have been able to deliver fast food to you now..."
"Needless to say, I understand. I don't blame you. Go and help you. I don't want to see you embarrassed."
Jue Ren's clear eyes flashed a happy look and nodded to him, "well, well, elder martial brother, you don't blame me. I'll go first, and you don't want to go to the benefactor. The abbot didn't embarrass him."
Chueh Chi smiles faintly at Chueh Jen, "well, I know. Go ahead..."
After Jue Ren left, he couldn't bear it any longer. He didn't pay attention to the pain in his neck. He bit his teeth and walked towards ruoku step by step.
The night in the mountains was cold, with thick fog and wet clothes. She had not eaten since she had some fast food in the morning.
As a child, although the master was strict with her, she never let her suffer from hunger and cold. When the oil lamp went out in ruoku's meditation room, there was only darkness in her eyes. Desolation, hunger and loneliness came to her from all directions, and her will became unbearable at this moment.
A sense of grievance spread all over her body and mind. She thought that just because she was a woman, she would not accept her as an apprentice if she suffered. Such a reason really made her confused and unwilling.
Keeping kneeling all the time made her ache, her legs almost lost her intuition, and she muttered. For a moment, in this silent and cold night, she really wanted to give up. She even thought that since she hated her daughter, she might as well give up now, pack up her things and go back to Yunshui villa to continue her day of cloud light and wind clear.
But when she thought of the oath she had made in front of her master when she left, and the agreement she had made with Yun Liqian, she quickly gave up that idea and kept telling herself, "come on, how can you easily give up? insist! insist! He must be moved
With this belief, she persisted, pinched her thighs when she was sleepy at night, breathed her hands when she was cold, and beat her hands when her legs were numb. In this case, she finally ushered in the dawn of the morning. Although the morning sun was so weak, for her whole body was wet with fog, it could make her feel warm and bright Ming always inspires people's heart more than darkness. Breathing the air with the taste of ancient cypress, the empty stomach feels like it's full, and the heavy eyelids are not so sleepy because of the stimulation of sunlight.
The door of the Buddhist temple opened, and ruoku came out of it. It seemed that he didn't see her. When he got out of the door, he went to the Zhaitang, but he knelt down and didn't speak, just like a stubborn stone carving.
When the wind blows in the mountain, the clothes soaked in fog and water make people feel even colder. She can't help shivering and holds her hands in front of her chest unconsciously.
Suddenly I felt a layer of warmth on my body, and the cold on my back was not so cold. When I looked down, I saw a monk's robe on my body, "this is..." She looked back and saw Chueh Chi frowning at her.
She gave him an ugly and pale smile, "ha ha, you can get out of bed..."
"You knelt here all night?"
When she saw Chueh Chi's concerned eyes, she felt an impulse to cry. She didn't want him to worry. She only kneaded her eyes and said, "it's OK. Go to the Zhaitang. I'll kneel here for a while..." "Why?" He asked her, no redundant words, tone is not to be refused to question.
Looking up at him, I thought of the reason why she didn't accept her as an apprentice. I thought of her grievance at night. I couldn't say that she was suffering in the face of him. The tears in her eyes could no longer be stored. They overflowed. The big tears slid down her goose's face, converged in her chin, dissolved into bigger tears, and fell on her wet clothes.
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