Chapter 150： look back

Looking at the credit card in front of her, Catherine Bell was filled with emotion.

When I was young, the boring family sewing skills, the inspirational design courses, and the fifteen years before and after occupied Catherine Bell's childhood. At one point, she developed a feeling of repulsion from sewing because she had to work with needlework at home while the other children were playing outside.

The young and frivolous love made her smell [freedom].

It was a handsome and exquisite man, of British, French, Swedish, and Italian mixed blood, with a tǐng figure, a handsome face, a sweet voice, a gentleman's demeanor, and an elegant aristocratic atmosphere, which made Catherine Bell fall deeply. He is an unruly man, with wild ideas and a way of life that does not follow the rules of the cards. It is a world that Catherine Bell has never experienced before.

Two people fell in love, like a fire like crazy, enough to burn everything.

For the sake of this ethereal freedom, she ran wildly with bare feet, the willow wind blowing towards her face, warm and soft, a life free from the shackles of the family, the breath of freedom is too beautiful, so beautiful that it makes her Get carried away: The happiness of love is too romantic, so romantic that she thinks this is the whole world.

Unfortunately, 〖freedom〗 is beautiful, but not everything: love is romantic, but not the whole world. The beauty of love is always too fragile in the face of reality, and the power of tea, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar, and tea makes the romance of the candle light and vivid eclipsed. Fairy tales are always just fairy tales. In fairy tales, the prince and princess live happily together. This is the end. In reality, this is just the beginning.

This period of love is still crazy, still like a flame, but this time, it is not the thorns on the road of love that burn, but the flames that set them on fire and destroy their lives. Sīben's marriage had not had time to enter the third year and had passed the burnout period and entered the confrontation period. At the end of the endless quarrel, he chose to leave. Originally thought it was just an ordinary cold war, but he never came back.

This parting is eighteen years without any news.

From a young girl in her prime to becoming a mother of two children, after a childhood occupied by family craftsmanship, she walked into a cage imprisoned by life pressure. I want to ask Catherine Bell has any regrets? It must have been regretted. "Knowing earlier" always gnawed at her youth in those days. But as long as she sees a pair of sons, Catherine Bell's heart always feels warm. It was the two sons who made her strong and made her stick to it step by step to this day.

Have these eighteen years been hard work? Hard! But worth it.

The unrestrained youth has settled in the years, and the childhood craftsmanship has begun to be nimble at the fingertips. Only then did Catherine Bell realize that the talent of tailoring has penetrated into her blood. When I was four years old, the throbbing when I saw the blueprint for the first time began to beat in my heart again. A dream is actually a very simple thing.

Over the years, Katherine Bell has used all her craftsmanship on her son, except for the dry cleaners. In addition, she occasionally picks up outside work, which is the last thought of returning to the unreachable dream in the midnight dream. thought.

I just didn't expect that on my 40th birthday, this dream was about to come true, in front of me, within reach.

Looking sideways at the younger son, he looked at the handsome face with a faint smile. Catherine Bell remembered when he was born.

Crazy love came into confrontation after being pregnant with a young son. The endless life dilemma has put both of them under tremendous pressure. Quarrel, or quarrel. At one point, he asked her to take away the second child, which was the start of a new war.

The long quarrel made her emotional bō greatly. She had been in danger of miscarriage twice before and after. The doctor repeatedly advised her to have a good miscarriage, otherwise the child would not be able to be saved. And the end of the quarrel was his departure. When he was eight months pregnant with his second child, and one month before his eldest son's second birthday, he disappeared forever.

In the winter of that year, Catherine Bell remembered it as November 8. The severe labor pains even made her unable to walk out of the room. She dialed the emergency number of the notch, and the ambulance came to the door and took her to the hospital. Teddy Bell, who had just passed her second birthday at the time, sat obediently outside the ambulance ward, silent, crying, and making trouble. The kind nurse took the little Teddy to the restaurant for dinner, and was on duty at night. room to sleep. Little Teddy seems to know that his mother is giving birth to a little brother, and it is very hard and very hard, so he is very good, and has always been good.

When Evan was born, it was a difficult labor. He entered the ward on the morning of the 9th, but never gave birth. By the morning of the 11th, the doctor was even ready to give up because the baby's heartbeat could no longer be detected. At that time, Catherine Bell held her last breath and begged the doctor, only to continue working hard for another half an hour.

The baby was finally born. Catherine Bell still remembers that her little face, which was so suffocated, couldn't hear her heartbeat, couldn't feel her breathing, and was cold and cold in her arms. That small, almost crushed body was the life she gave birth to in ten months of pregnancy.

This almost made her lose hope of continuing to give birth. If the little Teddy who was waiting at the door of the operating room was not scared to cry, the voice pulled her back from the gate of hell, maybe she really left at that moment.

At this moment, the baby who was announced by the doctor to give up actually started to cry again, and the silent heartbeat came back little by little. Catherine-Bell, who was in ecstasy, did not hold on for too long, and then fell into a deep sleep.

Maybe it was because she was very sad and happy when she was pregnant, and then experienced dystocia, so Evan has always been taciturn when he was a child. At that moment, Catherine Bell really understood the meaning of motherhood. For the sake of the child, she will argue with others: for the sake of the child, she is willing to exchange her physical strength for living expenses: for the child, she is willing to give everything she has.

tears? What was that, Catherine Bell had long forgotten. Her tears will not be shed for life, because there is no such time; nor will they be shed for children, because she firmly believes that her children will grow up healthy, even if God did not take him away!

Looking at the dignified six-foot man in front of him, not only is he handsome and handsome, but his body has also recovered, and he will even run around in the United States, which makes Catherine Bell feel that everything is worth it. It is said that without a mother, there is no child: but Catherine Bell knew that without two children, there would be no her, and maybe she left this world in that winter eighteen years ago, during that difficult childbirth.

"Luobei" Catherine Bell rarely calls her son's Chinese name, because it reminds her of her mother of Chinese nationality, a face she has not seen in 20 years. "Opening a design studio, It is indeed my dream. But have you ever thought about it? Our life can't be more stable now, the business of the dry cleaner is also very good, you and Zexiong are about to graduate, and their careers are on track. Why should we change this? What about everything?" Gu Luobei and Teddy Bell didn't plan what their mother said, because they knew that, after all, the mother was still worried about herself and didn't want to be a burden to her son.

"It is difficult for design studios to make money, not only in the early stage, but also never earning money. There are too many talented people in this society, not everyone can make a **** and earn it through their own craftsmanship. Money." How could Catherine Bell not understand this truth after all these years of life?

Gu Luobei had already anticipated what Katherine Bell said. He held his mother's right hand and gently stroked the calluses on it, as well as the tiny scars on his fingers. These scars could no longer be healed. It was too early. It left an indelible mark on it.

Every time Gu Luobei's hand touched a wound, his heart trembled slightly. Maybe he has never experienced maternal love in his last life, but in this life, he can't understand it any more. The woman in front of him who gave everything for him is his mother. He is also willing to give everything for her, even if he gives up everything now.

Maybe, Gu Luobei has lived a very unrestrained life in this life: maybe, Gu Luobei has lived his life as he wants yù: Maybe, Gu Luobei has lived "like a summer" in this life, but he has always been very clear that there is no such thing as Katherine Bell, without Teddy Bell, I am nothing.

"Mom, why do you have to worry about this? You can make gods when you don't have money. Even if I squander all the money I earn now, as long as we live happily and happily, I think everything is worth it. Is that right, Teddy?" Gu Luobei's tone was very gentle, but with unquestionable affirmation! He hopes that he can create gods to do what he wants to do in his life He hopes that Catherine Bell and Teddy Bell can also create gods.

Teddy Bell held Catherine Bell's left hand, and warmed his mother's hand little by little with the temperature of his palm. "Yes. Beibu has always said that he hopes to live as he wants. It's only a hundred years, if you have to shoulder so many rules every day, it's too hard... Teddy Bell's eyes are also a little red, thinking of what happened at Louis Vuitton today, even if Gu Luobei has vented his anger for his mother But he still felt bad for his mother, who was enduring for her son. "Mom, don't worry so much, everything belongs to our two brothers. You just have to have fun doing what you love and that's enough. "

"Even if the money is squandered, the two of us will continue to earn more." Gu Luobei chuckled and said in a relaxed tone, trying to activate a slightly heavy atmosphere "Catherine, don't you want to be in Louis Opposite Vuitton, open a bigger store, and then make all the customers who come to your door feel at home, and make the clothes you designed by yourself become the smile of countless customers? Then squeeze the Louis Vuitton Fifth Avenue store. Go down, haha."

Hearing Gu Luobei's nonsense, Catherine Bell couldn't help but burst out laughing, and tears fell from her eyes, "Okay, I will accept this birthday gift! I will manage this gift well. , let Louis Vuitton regret the wrong move made today!" @.