I Snow, am an abandoned child of the rare White Wolf Race who live in the North Continent.
Around the time I was 1 year old, I was left before the orphanage that Elle-sensei manages.
The name Snow was sewn into the clothes I was wearing. Probably the parents who threw me away sewed it.
And a child of the human race of the same age was thrown away too.
His name is Lute.
At First, in regards to Lute-kun, I didnt like him much.
Lute was a strange child, around the time we were 3 years old, while we played with the onee-sans in the childs room, he took Elle-senseis classes at his own convenience.
He sat in the back of the classroom and received the lessons more quietly than any of the other students.
Furthermore he had an interest in magic and also came to participate in the basic magic classes. However Lute-kun does not have talent as a magician.
Elle-sensei already told that to Lute-kun. At the time, he was supposed to have said I will look for a way other than magic, but he still took part in magic lessons.
According to Elle-sensei, there seems to be kids who still spend great effort even though they understand that they had no talent as magicians. Such obstinacy was especially common for boys. Among them there are kids that couldnt accept reality, got their hands on dangerous magic tools and lost their lives, said Elle-sensei.
I understand Lute-kuns feelings, but its dangerous to use magic as a human with a low amount of magic.
Magic power is the spirit thats left over after being used to maintain ones body and mind.
In the worst case scenario you would die if you use up more magic power than that surplus.
But the other party is still 3 years old. An age where he wont understand even when persuaded. Therefore Elle-sensei did not drive him out and consented to his participation in the class.
However a problem occurred immediately. Lute-kun learned how to use magic by watching the others do it and imitating them.
Lute-kun who had no talent in magic immediately ran out of magic and fainted. Elle-sensei, whose face changed to panic, rushed over. Once Lute-kun, who was put to sleep in the childs room, woke up, I told him the situation and to be careful.
That is a no-no! Lute-kun is making trouble for Sensei! Sorry, sorry. Ill be careful next time.
Lute-kun was not sorry at all and took part in the lesson again.
And at the next lesson.
Lute-kun faints again after using magic. This time he was bleeding from the head, choked on vomit and fainted. He would have died if sensei didnt notice and ran over.
The gentle Elle-sensei flew into a rage because of this accident. She forbade Lute-kun from participating in basic magic classes.
After forbidding participation in the lessons, Elle-sensei came with hanging rabbit ears to me and asked how Lute-kuns doing.
Did Lute-kun do anything strange because he was forbidden from taking part in classes? She asked.
It seems that every once in a while there are kids that, when pressed down by their elders, become gloomy, lose their ambition, and became apathetic.
Sensei is worried that he would become like that because of this incident.
When I answered hes not different from usual, she breathed a sigh of relief.
At this time, even as a child I immediately understood that Elle-sensei was troubled because of Lute-kun. It looks like until now Sensei had been looking after many troublesome children.
Every once in a while, there would be some kids that dont have any common sense, but Lute-kun stood out even among them. At that time, Sensei grumbled to me, If I were to speak badly of him Id call him abnormal', she said as if letting the words slip from her mouth.
So at that time I disliked Lute-kun.
Lute-kun who troubled Elle-sensei, who gathered and raised us without asking anything in return, like a mother. Lute-kun who caused trouble for everyone, but pushes forward like a child.
The baby that was left behind on the same day as himand just because of that became the one in charge of looking after Lute-kun, the one at Lute-kuns side, was me.
Although I go and complain occasionally. But I thought this everyday life would continue forever.
Lute-kun and I, age 4.
In the orphanage, once you turn 4 your job is look after the 2-3 year olds in the childrens room.
And yet Lute-kun did nothing at all, and only slept in a corner of the room.
I was incited to pay attention to Lute-kun by the two 4-year olds who were looking after the kids with me. I had to pay attention because I was the closest childhood friend to Lute-kun, they said.
I resented that, even though I was still the one in charge of looking after Lute-kun.
On top of that, I unconsciously wished that something bad would happen to Lute-kun, who was always causing trouble for Elle-sensei and everyone at the orphanage.
Lute-kun, youll get scolded if you dont properly take care of the little kids with us! I want to help you all very much but the way you did it is so good that I didnt get a turn. Thats why I was sitting in a corner so that I wont get in the way. If thats the case, then you can help playing house. We have roles enough for the four of us. Playing house? If Lute-kun does not play, I will tell sensei that you skipped work. I didnt really mean to skip work but. all right! Lets play together.
He obediently did as ordered once I said senseis name. I softly murmured, so youll listen if I mention Elle-sensei, hmph.
So which role should I take? The father, or maybe the husband? Lute-kun will be the pet pink slime! Is that really necessary?
With a surprised face Lute-kun asked back. I insisted that a pet was necessary and that day I had him play the role as pet until we were finished playing house.
If with this he would reflect a little and start looking after the younger ones.
If any of you manage to defeat me in a game, I will keep the role of pet.
Once again, Lute-kun behaves as if he doesnt intend to help, he pressed his demand to play a self-made game he called reversi.
I thought he had been sneakily doing something these few days, to turn out to be making a game. But the rules of this toy, the so called reversi, were very simple and it seemed very interesting. Therefore we got on board with Lute-kuns proposal.
Even if the toy was his own making, there were 3 of us. I simply expected that at least one of us can win.
I was the first to challenge him.
In the opening Lute-kuns black piece were changed to white in a good mood successfully. He deliberately put his black pieces so I can easily turn them all over.
I didnt notice that this was a trap, I felt overjoyed and joked around.
Lute-kun is we~ak! Even though its a game you made yourself. Hahaha. Snow, make it funnier if you are going to tell a joke. Snow still cant do addition and subtraction, how can I lose in this game of intellect?
Looking down on me with sarcastic remarks.
But the surface of the board is almost white and there is no more than a few black pieces left. I judged that he was a sore loser.
Muuu I have a feeling Im being made fun of Fine! If Lute-kun loses, he has to listen to another order besides being a golden marumaru! As you wish But if I win, Ill touch your fluffy dog ears and tail to my hearts content! Its not dog ears! Its wolf ears! Because Snow is from White Wolf tribe! I know and dont forget the promise.
Lute-kun answers lightly while placing a black piece at the edge.
huh?
The white carpet was cut diagonally by toppling the pieces over and the black ones formed a line.
I looked for a way to deal with the rapidly changing situation, but there was no way to change the color of the edge pieces!
This was Lute-kuns aim from the start!
As I belatedly realized his aim, he put on a smile like a hunter whose prey was caught in a trap.
I hate him, I hate him, I hate him!
Mortified, I looked for a trick to reverse the situation, but he had gained control of the edges, I was at my wits end and lost.
Uuuu I lost Yeah, I won! Dont forget the promise, okay? I know Ill let you touch it when were about to sleep at night O-ok.
Lute-kuns triumphant face is suddenly turned red and he turned away.
But even though it was a dangerous crime to commit, I just had to ask Lute-kun. That was what I believed.
I looked for Lute-kun in the darkness of the boys room.
Luckily Im from the white wolf clan who could see well in the darkness. I found Lute-kun immediately.
Lute-kun, Lute-kun *yawn*
Because he didnt wake up even when I raised my voice, I slapped his cheeks and shook his shoulders strongly. After I called to him and shook him several times, Lute-kun finally opened his eyes.
ngaah!? Shhh!!! Dont be loud. Everyone will wake up.
In surprise I clasped his mouth in a hurry.
Lute-kun did not seem to get the situation at first and he was confused, after several seconds he made some decision and he furrowed his eyebrows. I approach him further and confirm that he completely regained consciousness.
Everybody will wake up, be quiet please? Okay? *nod nod*
As Lute-kun nods i slowly part my hands from his mouth.
Uhm, Snow, your feelings are Shhhh!!! Everybody will wake up if we talk here. Follow me.
I dragged Lute-kun out of his futon and took him out of the boys room.
Our destination is underneath the window in the dining hall.
Here shines starlight through the window and i can read detailed facial expressions.
Its warm here during the day but at night it feels a little chilly. We brought our shoulders together to get each other warm. There is also the advantage that he can easily hear even if I talk in a low voice .
Lute-kun asked in a slightly angry voice. His eyes are serious.
So, what is the reason why you broke the rule and brought me here? Un you see there is something that I really wanted to ask you.
Certainly its late at night and I forcibly woke him up and took him out but he doesnt need to have such an angry look
But even if Im afraid there is no other method. I explained the reason why I took him out.
Um did Lute-kun ever think of meeting with your mother or father? Eh!? Like I said, do you want to meet the mother and father who abandoned you?
He asked me back, looking dumbfounded.
Snow, why are you asking me this? Today, Lute-kun told sensei its not like I want to meet with them after all this time, right? Snow wants to meet mom and dad. When we meet, Snow will ask them why they abandoned Snow away. And Snow wants to live with mom and dad Is Snow weird for thinking like this?
Lute-kun listened to my story in silence. Then he changed his pose from hugging his knees to a cross-legged sitting position.
Snow, come over here. Why? Just do it already.
He made me sit on his lap a little bit forcibly. Lute-kun embraces my head gently and holds my ears against his chest.
Can you hear the sound of my heart? Yes, I can hear. It goes dokun, dokun, dokun. People get relieved hearing the sound of heartbeats. This is because, as babies, we are raised hearing our mothers heartbeats.
Oddly I curled up my body in a fetal position.. I closed my eyes and leaned my body against Lute-kun.
Wanting to meet your parents is not weird. So, theres no reason to feel worried. Really? Uh-huh, its true. The reason why I never thought of meeting my parents is because I have no way of looking for them.
Lute-kun starts talking in a tone like telling someone younger than him.
Just one clue: I have a star-shaped birthmark on the back of my right shoulder; I cant just show this to everyone I meet and ask them. Besides, I have no talent as a magician; its hard to think that the parents who casted me out would come back and pick me up. So, its clear that I will never meet with my parents again for as long as I live.
I gasp on Lute-kuns words.
But Snow is different. Unlike me, Snow has talent as a magician. Besides, the White Wolf race is a minority that lives in the snowy mountains of the North Continent. If you go north you might find some clues there. Even so, forgive me for saying after all this time I never thought of meeting my parents so insensitively, kay?
He apologizes from the bottom of his heart. But I understood. The one who had to apologize was me.
Im an abandoned child from a minor clan, the so called White Wolf Clan from the North Continent. If I go to a town of the white wolf clan or head to a village, my parents may be there. There ought to be important clues, even if only a little.
Furthermore I have talent as a magician.
If I become a magician beyond B- I will not be troubled about employment and have no troubles with money. On the contrary Lute-kun has insufficient clues and no talent as a magician. If you become 10 years old you graduate from the orphanage and leave to work. Only staying alive is hard.
It does not mean Lute-kun doesnt want to meet his parents. He understands that it is all but impossible to meet his parents the way he is now and gave up.
And yet in my own selfish anxiety, I dug up the emotional scar that he had come to terms with.
My chest feels like it had been hit because of my own foolishness.
Snow is also sorry. Snow asked such an insensitive question without thinking of Lute-kuns feelings. Theres no reason for you to apologize. I was the one in the wrong, you see.
I was the one whos wrong, but he still smiled and forgave me for my sake.
If thats the case, then Snow and Lute-kun are both in the wrong. So its a tie. Thats right. Its a tie. As an apology, Snow will tell Snows dream only to Lute-kun.
My dream, the one I secretly held and had not told anyone, not even Elle-sensei.
You see, when Snow is bigger, Snow will become a magician. Then, Snow will go to the north continent to look for father and mother. Once Snow finds those two, Snow will ask why they abandoned Snow away. If we could make peace, then the three of us will live together in the same house This is Snows dream. Its a good dream. If its you, then it will absolutely come true.
Lute-kun took a breath,
But if you couldnt find them or you couldnt make peace with them, Snow still has me, Elle-sensei and the kids at the orphanage. Dont forget that okay? Un, thanks Lute-kun.
Until the end, I became tearful for him, who was worried for me.
I felt the feeling of his and my heartbeats overlap, as if becoming one, and my chest became warm inside.
Is it okay to hear the sound of Lute-kuns chest a little bit more? Uh-huh, you can listen all you like.
I strengthened my arms and pressed my ear to his chest.
Lute-kun smiled wryly, and gently stroked my head, like a father or an older brother.
I loosened all the muscles in my arms and legs and let him spoil me with all my heart.
At that time I noticed a small light spark inside my chest.
When I get bigger Ill become a splendid magician, and take Lute-kun on a journey to see his mom and dad. Then once I found my mom and dad, Ill start an orphanage like Elle-sensei. Then we all can live together, me doing the management like Elle-sensei, and Lute-kun teaching the kids reading, writing, and arithmetics If everyone can get along and stay together, that would be so wonderful.
In Lute-kuns warm arms, I drew up a new dream.
I undeservedly thought to take care of this childhood friend, whom the adults and other children would not be able to understand.
Releasing my ear from his chest, we each went back to our rooms.
When we parted ways, Lute-kun asked me.
Should we sleep together tonight, after all? Lute-kun is ecchi~~.
Boys sure say ecchi things right away!
We finally had a good mood going, tooI thought as I angrily returned to the girls room.
but that was a bit of a shame, wasnt it?
My face flares up hot and not aware of it, my tail shakes.
I slip into my futon In a hurry so that Im not noticed by everyone.
The next day, I found out that Lute-kun had sold the rights to reversi and other toys to a merchant and earned a huge amount of money.