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When I woke up again, I found myself lying in the room Shen Junyi had prepared for me. The familiar furniture inside hadn't changed at all.

"You're awake?"

Although it was a rebuke, Shen Junyi's tone sounded like he was sighing. My heart couldn't help but heat up, and a feeling of being wronged gushed into my heart. For the first time, I actually had the impulse to cry loudly in front of Shen Junyi.

Finally, Shen Junyi's tone of reminiscence made me blurt out once again, "Are you really my father or not!"

Shen Junyi wasn't surprised, he just lowered his head silently and placed the bowl of porridge on the bedside, indicating me to drink the porridge first.

When these words came out, a wave of regret rose in my heart. If Shen Junyi were to deny the relationship between him and his mother again, I didn't know what kind of appearance I would use to face him in the future.

"No."

Hearing him deny it, I suddenly felt all my blood go cold, and I couldn't help but shiver. I didn't know if I was sad or relieved when I heard this answer, but I couldn't resist the bone-piercing coldness.

Just as I was about to pull away my quilt and run for the door, Shen Junyi reached out his hand and touched the top of my head. This kind of intimate action that carried the love of an elder, other than Red Aunt and Yu Xian, no one else had done this.

I sat there in a daze, not knowing how to react. My heart, however, had somehow calmed down. At that moment, all of my emotions had disappeared.

Seeing that I had become docile, Shen Junyi sighed, walked to the balcony and lit up a cigarette.

I rarely see Shen Junyi smoking in front of me when there are no outsiders present.'s back was facing me on the balcony as the sunlight shone in from outside, carving his figure into the rare warmth in my heart.

This person, who had been protecting me all this time, stood behind me in a silent and resolute manner.

After casually extinguishing my cigarette, Shen Junyi turned around and looked at me as he spoke in a low voice.

"In my opinion, your existence has always been a mistake."

I calmly raised my head to look at him. At this moment, I suddenly seemed to understand something, but I didn't quite understand it.

Shen Junyi took a deep breath, and looked into the distance. His eyes were deep and profound, as if he was reminiscing about something, but it was also as if he was making the next difficult decision that he had to make.

"You were a mistake." Shen Junyi said unquestionably: "It's just that the result of your mistake, was caused by me. I'm the true source of that mistake."

I sat there quietly, as if I hadn't heard anything. I had always known that I was a wrong and unnecessary existence, so Yu Xian had always liked to call me Gu Duo, because I was the unnecessary one. However, being said so straightforwardly like this again, my heart still didn't feel good.

Seeing my appearance, Shen Junyi sighed.

"In the past, your mother was a mistress of mine. Although she was a mistress, she was the woman I loved the most in my life. However, I was muddle-headed at that time and gave her away for benefits."

Hearing that, I couldn't help but sneer. "That means that the one you love the most is money."

Shen Junyi looked at me with a pale face. His lips seemed to want to say something, but in the end, it turned into a helpless sigh.

"Perhaps, you're right..."

Shen Junyi only left behind these words, then turned and left, as if he was fleeing in panic.

I lay on my back in bed, still steaming from the white porridge beside my bed.

My mother must have been as desperate as I was. She was at her lover's side the day before and after just one night, she had completely changed.

I sighed, not knowing whether to sigh at myself or at my mother, whom I had never met.

I fell asleep the next day.

After getting up, a middle-aged lady that I had never seen before walked in. She looked at me with a gentle smile and said, "My lady has woken up. Why don't you come down and have a bite to eat?"

Her eyes were very warm and very calm. Her appearance was ordinary, but somehow, it made people feel very safe.

Under such a gaze, I suddenly felt a little ashamed. I unnaturally nodded my head and replied to her words.

Just as I reached the door, she called out to me.

"Miss, don't think about the past anymore. Mister wants me to tell you that from now on, even if you are his daughter, he won't allow himself to regret it this time."

In a split-second, my eyes turned red, a feeling of being moved filled my heart, I suddenly felt that I was very guilty towards Shen Junyi, after all, I had said something so heartbreaking.

However, I didn't think that my words were wrong. Since I can still abandon him, it means that I don't love him the most.

Whether it's care, love, or guilt, from today onwards, if Shen Junyi can ensure my safety, then let him take care of everything that happened in the past.

However... Yue Guaner...

I ate my breakfast with a heavy heart. The middle-aged woman who just arrived had been silently sitting there on her own matter. She didn't make a sound, but no one would be able to sense her existence.

It was as if she should exist there herself.

My throat tightened and the food in front of me could no longer be swallowed.

Not long after I went upstairs, the middle-aged woman came back.

"Miss, you can just call me Wang Ma. You haven't eaten much today, so if you're hungry, you can call me anytime."

I silently looked at her, she was neither impatient nor impatient now looked at me, as if quietly waiting for my words.

"Don't call me Miss."

I don't know what to say, but I still said it in the end.

"Okay. Then, should I call you Huanhuan?"

Wang Ma looked at me hesitantly, as though I was in a difficult situation.

I suddenly felt a sense of relief and waved my hand. "It's good that you're calling me Duo Duo. It's a lot more than that."

I seemed to be venting something.

"Why are you …"

I looked at Wang Ma and couldn't understand why I wanted to find the answer from her.

"I've always been doing this. Ever since I was in school, I've been learning how to be a senior servant, so I don't need to feel inferior. Who can compare to whom?"