CH 12

Su Wei'an and Gu Yunzheng brought back two important news from their speeches at this international conference.

Professor Wen Yuliang's large-scale clinical drug trial at Zhanghe Hospital reported adverse reactions to the ethics committee, and the committee is stepping up discussions on the next step; another piece of news has nothing to do with academics, it is pure gossip: an assistant in neurosurgery Researcher Su Wei'an carries the Huntington disease-causing gene.

This incident was reported to Huaren Hospital two days after Su Wei'an came back. Su Wei'an knew that Wen Ran was the source of the information. This gossip spread to Huaren Hospital through the mouths of his classmates, like A piece of dry grassland encountered a little spark, and soon started a prairie fire. Everyone heard that the teacher and classmate in the neurosurgery department who reported her, and now the girl who came back to work inherited the Huntington disease-causing gene from her father.

The people in the hospital naturally understood what Huntington was inherited from the paternal line. Anyone who knew a little bit about her current situation sighed: "No wonder she wants to do Huntington's project, she wants to survive!"

After this, there will probably be a question: "Does Gu Yunzheng know about this?"

A quick-talking person answered: "You probably don't know? If you know, who will still date? But now Gu Yunzheng is afraid that it will be difficult to get away. Abandoning someone when he knows he is sick is morally unjustifiable. I have to say Well, that Su Wei'an's move is quite clever, let's trick people first!"

When Gu Yunzheng's operation was over, he felt that the atmosphere in the locker room was a bit strange. He vaguely heard someone mentioning his and Su Weian's names repeatedly, but when he passed by, everyone fell silent in unison. The atmosphere in the room became more and more depressing, and even small talk could not be heard.

At this moment, the door of the locker room was pushed open, and Liang Zhenyou, who had just finished the operation with his teacher, happily gossiped with his colleagues: "I heard that Su Wei'an also detected the Huntington gene, wow, this Su Wei'an, She lied well enough before, she lied to a job and a boyfriend!"

After sighing repeatedly, Liang Zhenyou suddenly sensed that something was wrong with the surrounding atmosphere. He took a closer look and saw that the man watching him not far away was Su Wei'an's boyfriend, his superior, Gu Yunzheng.

In the past three years in the department, Liang Zhenyou has seen Gu Yunzheng angry, but he has never seen Gu Yunzheng's anger like this. Against the light, his usually expressionless face looks even more cloudy at this time, but those eyes are also It was so sharp, but at a distance of three meters, it seemed like a sharp blade fixed him in place, unable to move.

Facing Gu Yunzheng like this, Liang Zhenyou desperately wanted to explain something, but he opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything. He has a strong feeling that Gu Yunzheng is trying his best to restrain himself. If this is not the dressing room of the operating room, if he is not his superior, if there are not so many people around, Gu Yunzheng will definitely knock him to the ground at this time .

Liang Zhenyou's feeling was right.

Not only him, but others also noticed that Du Yuncheng was afraid that Gu Yunzheng would really do something impulsively, so he stepped forward to stop Gu Yunzheng in two steps, and at the same time signaled Liang Zhenyou to apologize quickly with his eyes.

Liang Zhenyou spoke quickly, his voice trembling because of fear: "Yes... I'm sorry."

Gu Yunzheng still didn't speak.

This furious silence sent chills down the backs of everyone present, fearing that Gu Yunzheng would do something in a fit of anger that would make today's end difficult, but at the same time, everyone was grateful that the person who stabbed the hornet's nest was not himself.

Seeing that Gu Yunzheng did not calm down, Du Yuncheng grabbed his arm first, and reminded him in a low voice: "Wei An is alone now."

Now that the news has spread, it may have already spread to Su Weian's surroundings, and she is alone at this moment, facing these rumors alone.

Even if he beat Liang Zhenyou to vent his anger at this moment, so what? Not only can't stop everyone talking, but it will cause more slander for himself and Su Weian. It's better to rush back to Su Weian's side to accompany her. Gu Yunzheng has always been calm and wise, even if he cares about it, he will be chaotic. Time to lose your mind.

Gu Yunzheng's clenched hands finally loosened a little at this moment.

He shook off Du Yuncheng's hand, took off the disposable hat and the mask hanging around his neck, and was about to throw it into the trash can, when he suddenly remembered the day he and Su Wei'an first met. Su Wei'an was once so angry that he did the same thing. At this moment, he was obviously extremely angry, but it seemed that someone had touched the softest part of his heart, and he felt a bit of warmth from the bottom of his heart. Actions.

Originally, he rushed to the laboratory with worries, but when Gu Yunzheng arrived, he saw Su Wei'an playing with the mice in the cage, and seemed to be in a good mood.

He walked to her side, pulled Su Wei'an who was squatting beside the cage, and asked softly, "Is today's experiment going well?"

Su Wei'an nodded, and asked him with a smile, "Is today's operation going well?"

He responded, "Yeah." After a pause, he added, "You don't have to force yourself to laugh for me like this."

Su Wei'an put back his exaggerated smile, rubbed his face, and said, "I'm afraid you're worried."

Gu Yunzheng looked at her carefully, and asked seriously: "Should I be worried?"

Su Wei'an replied without the slightest hesitation: "No, I'm fine. I was tricked by Wen Ran into getting sick when I was in the United States. When she found out, I guessed that it would soon become like this. Actually, it's nothing. .”

She has a big heart!

Gu Yunzheng glanced at her and said, "Now the hospital is spreading rumors that you lied..."

It’s impossible to say that you don’t care at all, Su Wei’an used to have a swollen face to pretend to be fat, and at this moment he finally couldn’t help interrupting him: “Okay, okay, I know, it’s already annoying for them to say that, You even ran over to repeat it to me!"

Gu Yunzheng didn't stop because of this, and said, "They said you cheated on a boyfriend."

Su Wei'an stared at him: "You still talk!"

"Let's get married."

He said this suddenly, but he had considered it for a long time without any hesitation.

Gu Yunzheng looked at her.

His eyes reflected her appearance, at this moment, she was his whole world.

Let's get married, he wants to take this person in front of him as his own, protect her from being hurt again, he wants to make those noises disappear, and he wants to tell everyone that this is the person he chose to be with him for the rest of his life.

Su Weian froze in place, and what responded to Gu Yunzheng was her blank look.

She was a little flustered, and said, "Gu Yunzheng, you don't have to impulsively say you want to get married just because of other people's opinions..."

"You should know that the word impulsive doesn't apply to me. I just said something that I had already considered."

Su Wei'an avoided his gaze and said, "I...I'm not ready yet..."

How could Gu Yunzheng fail to see that this was an excuse she used to prevaricate: "Is it because you are not ready or you don't want to prepare at all?"

Su Wei'an was silent for a long time before whispering, "I... don't want to get married."

I don't want to put myself as a responsibility on another person.

She didn't say the latter sentence, because she knew that Gu Yunzheng would definitely say that he was not afraid, but she still didn't want to, whether he was afraid or not, she didn't want to be like this.

Dead silence.

Gu Yunzheng looked at her, but didn't respond for a long time, only those eyes were full of disappointment.

He said in a deep voice, "Do you want to get married now or never?"

Su Weian pursed his lips and said, "We are like this now...isn't it good?"

He answered firmly: "Not good enough."

Su Weian lowered his head, held his lips pretending to be relaxed, and said, "There is nothing perfect in this world."

Gu Yunzheng didn't speak.

The atmosphere is not right, and this is the biggest disagreement the two of them have faced since they got together. Su Weian has no experience in dealing with such matters, but he just thinks that they probably need to calm down, so he made an excuse and said: "Today...today I Mom said to cook my favorite dish to celebrate the success of the conference speech, and I will go back to my mom tonight."

"I'll go back with you."

Hearing Gu Yunzheng's words, Su Wei'an was taken aback, and asked, "What?"

"According to the time, it's time for uncle to return to the clinic. I'll go see my patient."

When Gu Yunzheng spoke, his face was expressionless, as if he really just wanted to go to the follow-up clinic, as if he couldn't hear something and went back home was just an excuse made by Su Wei'an.

Su Weian dodged a little, and hurriedly said, "No...no need..."

Gu Yunzheng suddenly understood something, and asked, "Have you not told your family about our dating?"

Su Weian's heart tightened, it's over! Sure enough, he saw it!

She tried to explain: "It's not deliberately concealed, it's just that I didn't mention it on purpose."

Gu Yunzheng looked at her expressionlessly, and said, "Do they not know where you live now?"

"Hmm...they probably thought I lived with a former female classmate."

silence.

After a while, Su Wei'an heard Gu Yunzheng's voice muffled: "Is it because Uncle and Auntie don't like me?"

Su Wei'an quickly shook his head and said, "They like you very much, and thank you for saving my father."

But she didn't say it, even she herself couldn't explain why, at first it was because her father was ill, and she thought the timing was not good, but she never mentioned it to her parents after several chances, or maybe she was subconsciously afraid, afraid Once I told my parents they had to face a lot of questions about the future, and she had no answers.

Again there was silence.

Su Wei'an knew that he did not do well in this matter, which made Gu Yunzheng feel very bad, so he said with a guilty conscience: "I will formally tell them today."

Gu Yunzheng said firmly: "I'll go with you."

Originally, he proposed to go home quietly in order to separate from him, but after a circle, the two of them went back to her home to meet their parents. Su Wei'an actually felt a little bit reluctant in her heart, but when she glanced at Gu Yunzheng, she felt guilty again. They all choked back.

On the way, I sent a message to my mother saying that I would go back to have dinner, but by accident, I still didn’t mention that my boyfriend would go back with her. It was already 5 o’clock in the afternoon. After receiving the message, my mother quickly replied: Do it yourself!

Fortunately, Gu Yunzheng never took her nonsense that her mother was going to celebrate for her seriously, so she was not surprised to see the empty dining table after following Su Weian to her house.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Su's mother guessed that Su Weian had come back, she walked out from the back room and said loudly: "Your slippers are at the bottom of the shoe cabinet, look for them yourself!"

But when he came out to look, he found that besides Su Weian, there was another person standing at the door.

a man.

A man they knew.

Su's father is the attending physician of the Neurosurgery Department of Huaren Hospital.

Mother Su stood there thinking for a while, and finally remembered the other person's surname, and asked, "Are you... Gu... Doctor Gu?"

Saying so, what was on his mind was what he was going to do. Doctors have been so dedicated to their duties these years, and they came to the house for follow-up visits?

Su Wei'an dug out his own slippers from under the shoe cabinet, gave Gu Yunzheng a new pair, and then introduced to the bewildered mother as naturally as possible: "Mom, this is my boyfriend."

Mother Su was taken aback.

Gu Yunzheng handed the gift in his hand to Mother Su, and introduced himself politely: "Hi Auntie, my name is Gu Yunzheng."

After more than ten seconds, Su's mother gradually regained her senses, looked at Su Weian, and then at Gu Yunzheng next to Su Weian, trying to understand what her daughter just said, Su's mother was shocked at first , but after being shocked for a while, she actually smiled.

A smile from the bottom of my heart.

She warmly greeted Gu Yunzheng: "Come here, come in quickly, I'm sorry, I didn't tell my aunt that you were coming, the house is a little messy."

Gu Yunzheng hurriedly said: "No, I was the one who was abrupt. Why An said that he wanted to come back to see your elders today, so I insisted on coming with him."

After a pause, Gu Yunzheng asked again: "Auntie, what's wrong with Uncle recently?"

"It's still the same chorea, it's the same, nothing else." Mother Su said, and then said to Su Wei'an: "By the way, Wei An, push your dad out."

Su Wei'an put down the bag and responded, "Okay."

Her father's condition worsened, and he had to sit in a wheelchair most of the time. When Su Wei'an walked into the house, Su's father looked at her with blank eyes for a moment. She approached, reached out and hugged her father, Greeted him with a smile, "Dad, I'm back."

Father Su came back to his senses, nodded happily, reached out and patted her head, and said, "It's good to be back, it's good to be back, tell me, where did you go to play again?"

Su Wei'an goes home every two weeks or so on weekdays, and sometimes she talks to her parents about work matters. During this time, she was busy preparing for the meeting to speak, so she hasn't come back for more than a month, but Why does the meaning of what my father said at this moment seem to go back to the time when she was traveling around the world before working?

She frowned and asked worriedly, "Dad, do you know what year this year is?"

Su's father looked at her with some surprise: "2018, this child, I don't know what year it will be."

Su Wei'an breathed a sigh of relief, fortunately, time orientation is still normal.

Perhaps it was because she had been in the room for a while, and Su's mother came over to have a look, and when she heard Su Weian's question, she quickly understood what Su Weian was thinking, and patted Su Weian's shoulder to signal her to get out of the way. She pushed Su's father's wheelchair out of the house while casually saying: "Your father's memory is not as good as before, and sometimes he is a little confused, it's not a big deal."

Cognitive impairment is also a major symptom of Huntington's chorea. Now my father has suffered from memory loss. If it continues like this, I'm afraid...

Su Wei'an said nervously, "Take Dad to see a doctor next week!"

Mother Su parked Father Su's wheelchair beside the sofa, waved her hand, and said, "I went to see it two months ago, I'm afraid you were distracted and didn't tell you."

Su Wei'an was still worried, and said, "Then let's take another look..."

Mother Su straightened the collar for Father Su, and said, "It's useless to go to see it all the time. Don't you know about this disease? There are only a few medicines in total, and they are not very useful."

Su Weian still wanted her father to see a doctor again, but her mother's words hit a pain point in her heart, and she couldn't say anything.

At this time, Gu Yunzheng helped Su Wei'an out of the siege and said: "Auntie, speaking of it, uncle's aneurysm also needs to be re-examined by CTA, to see if there are any that were missed last time or new ones recently, how about this, come when you have time soon When I come to the clinic, I will issue an application form for the examination to my uncle, and let's take a look at it together with the examination."

After Gu Yunzheng said this, Mother Su hesitated for a moment, then nodded and said, "That's fine."

Gu Yunzheng gave Su Wei'an a slight nod, and asked her to leave this matter to him, and Su Wei'an felt a little relieved.

Mother of Su turned her head and saw that Su Weian was still standing aside, she couldn't help but frowned, and said, "What are you still doing in a daze? Hurry up and cook!"

Seeing that her mother was about to say that she had no eyesight, Su Weian hurriedly turned around and went into the kitchen.

After not coming home for a long time, Su Wei'an looked at the scattered ingredients on the kitchen balcony and in the refrigerator, feeling dizzy for a while, not knowing where to start to prepare.

Gu Yunzheng came over to help at this time, seeing Su Weian's expression, he knew what she was thinking, so he didn't ask any more questions, picked out a few dishes and handed them to her, saying, "Wash the dishes."

He himself rolled up his sleeves, bent down and took some pork and chicken wings from the freezer.

Washing vegetables was much easier than handling the meat, she finished it quickly and freed up her hands to help Gu Yunzheng.

Although the two of them were a little unhappy because of the discussion of marriage before coming here, but following Su Wei'an to visit her parents formally is a step forward for Gu Yunzheng, and for Su Wei'an, bringing Gu Yunzheng Going home showed that she was serious about this relationship, and gave her time not to have to face the pressure of getting married now. The atmosphere between the two of them was much more relaxed than before.

Having been together for such a long time, the tacit understanding between the two naturally needless to say, as soon as Gu Yunzheng stopped, Su Wei'an knew whether he wanted her to add salt, cooking wine, or other seasonings.

When Gu Yunzheng didn't need help, Su Wei'an went to wash half a box of small tomatoes for mixing vegetables. After washing, he fed Gu Yunzheng one, with skillful and natural movements.

Although Su's mother was sitting in the living room watching TV with Su's father, she was always paying attention to the movement in the kitchen. She thought it was inevitable for two people to collide in the kitchen, but unexpectedly, after waiting for a long time, the two of them were It was extremely harmonious, and Su's mother vaguely felt that something was not right.

Just as she was thinking, Gu Yunzheng in the kitchen had already started to light a fire and cook vegetables. It was his first time to go to Su Wei'an's kitchen. Naturally, there were many things he couldn't find, but fortunately, Su Wei'an had already provided what he needed without waiting for him to open his mouth. A series of movements were natural and smooth. Later, when they were frying the cabbage, the two of them seemed to have a little dispute over the salt, but it ended with Su Wei'an's compromise in less than half a minute. Gu Yunzheng naturally followed her A kiss fell on the forehead, and the two felt like an old married couple. At this moment, Mother Su suddenly realized something in a flash.

She stood up and called her daughter in a deep voice: "Su Wei'an, come here."

From her mother's tone, Su Weian could hear that her mother was not in a very happy mood. She was a little surprised and didn't know what happened.

Gu Yunzheng mouthed to ask if she wanted to go with her, Su Weian shook his head, knowing that since his mother called her that, he must have something to talk to her alone.

She was right.

Her mother took her to the bedroom in the back room and asked her to close the door tightly. The first thing she said was: "When did you start dating?"

Su Wei'an hesitated for a moment, but still answered truthfully: "It started last year..."

"Last year?" Even though she had predicted something, Su's mother was still taken aback when she heard this answer, and said, "Su Wei'an, you can do it, you haven't mentioned a word to your family for such a long time!"

Su Wei'an's explanation was still a little pale: "It's not that I deliberately concealed it, but I didn't mention it on purpose..."

At the moment, Su's mother is not concerned about these things, and her question is getting sharper: "Are you living with him now?"

Su Weian was completely stunned, he didn't expect his mother to see through it at a glance!

If she doesn't deny it right away, she admits it. Mother Su knows her daughter well, so she naturally knows what Su Weian's expression means at this moment, and she just wants to raise her hand and beat her up.

Mother Su said bitterly to her daughter, "Your father and I didn't ask much about you because you always knew what you were doing, but you are so talented that you dare to go out and live with someone else!"

Seeing his mother getting angry more and more, Su Wei'an bit the bullet and tried to explain: "We didn't live together because of what we wanted, but because Yun Zheng lived near the hospital..."

She explained why it was better not to explain, Su's mother became more and more angry, and asked: "It's closer to the hospital? Why are you so lazy? Are you rushing to live in other people's houses just to save a few steps?"

Facing his mother's questioning, Su Weian was speechless, so he had to lower his head and let his mother scold him.

No matter how much Su's mother thinks that Gu Yunzheng is very good on weekdays, in fact, their understanding of Gu Yunzheng is only limited to the most superficial ones. Now that they have reached the point of living together, they have crossed the line too much!

The mother's words continued: "How well do you know this person? Where is his family? What do his parents do? How is the relationship between his parents? How is his personality? Will you be bullied if you go to his house?" Iron can't be made into steel, "There are so many young people who live together in the news that they use knives to kill people when they quarrel. What if he is a psychopath? Have you ever thought about it?"

The sound insulation effect of the old house was not good, and Su's mother was a little agitated, so her voice was a little louder. Gu Yunzheng, who came over to rescue Su Wei'an, heard the words from outside the door.

He knocked on the door lightly a few times and said, "Auntie, why not, the meal is ready, let's eat."

After a moment of silence, Gu Yunzheng heard Su Weian's voice: "Okay!"

Su Wei'an looked at his mother and said softly: "Mom, this matter is my fault from the beginning to the end. It's because I acted carelessly that I didn't mention to you and my father that I had a boyfriend. It was because I was lazy that I moved to Yunzheng's residence, and it had nothing to do with Yunzheng. From taking care of my dad's illness, to helping me go back to the hospital and the laboratory to continue doing what I wanted to do, to everyday life In work and life, Yunzheng has done a lot for me and sacrificed a lot, so Mom, no matter how angry you are, just scold me and don't blame him."

Mother Su stared at her daughter without saying a word.

Su Wei'an acquiesced in being a mother, and then turned around and opened the door. When he saw Gu Yunzheng standing at the door, he was about to smile and say "Thank you" to him, but Gu Yunzheng held his hand first.

He took her to his side, and facing Su's mother in the house, he said seriously: "Auntie, my family is local, my mother is a diplomat, and she is not in the country all the year round, and my father is also a doctor. I just got divorced, my mother is more gentle with others, my father is strict, but I don’t deal with him very much, I promise you won’t be bullied when you’re with me.”

He seriously answered Su's mother's long list of questions just now. This was his expression of his attitude to Su's mother, and he was serious about Su Wei'an.

He continued: "There is also the last question for auntie. I really shouldn't be a psychopath, but if you are worried, I can do a psychological evaluation."

He even heard this sentence!

Su Wei'an hastened to explain that her mother was only worried about her so she hurriedly said that, she didn't really think that he was a psychopath, but before she could speak, she felt that Gu Yunzheng was holding his hand a little harder .

He knew what Su Wei'an was going to say.

He didn't care whether Su's mother was angry or not.

He stands here just to show Mother Su that he is honest and sincere about Su Weian. He understands all of Mother Su's worries, but he wants her to trust him and let her believe that these worries are all unnecessary.

He is not afraid of doubts, and he will do his best to respond to Su's mother's doubts.

His serious look made Su's mother at a loss for what to say. She did feel the sincerity that Gu Yunzheng wanted her to feel, but compared to what he said, what Su's mother saw more was that he was holding Su's hand. When Wei An moved his body forward a little, maybe he was afraid that she would scold Su Wei An again, so he protected Su Wei An behind him.

Su Wei'an was afraid that she would turn her anger on Gu Yunzheng, and Gu Yunzheng was afraid that she would scold Su Weian, Su's mother suddenly found that she wanted to be angry and didn't know who to have sex with.

She sighed heavily, waved her hands, frowned and said, "Let's go eat."

There are not many dishes, but there are meat and vegetables, soup and rice, and the dishes look very good, Su Wei'an gave Gu Yunzheng a look of approval.

He helped Su's mother to arrange Su's father at the dinner table, and handed them chopsticks, saying respectfully: "The preparation was a bit hasty, if there is something that doesn't suit your taste, please forgive me, uncle and aunt."

When he said this, Su's mother was a little embarrassed: "It's because we didn't treat you well when you first came here, and it's all because An didn't tell her in advance, and she didn't do well when she was asked to cook. , Next time I come to Auntie, I will treat you well!"

Seeing that Su Wei'an was glared at by Su's mother again, Gu Yunzheng hurriedly said: "No, it's not because of An's failure to do a good job, it's because I want to show myself and steal her job."

When Gu Yunzheng said that, Su's mother was too embarrassed to criticize her daughter again, but just gave her another look.

Have a meal.

The taste of Gu Yunzheng's food is based on Su Weian's habits, and Su Weian's habits are derived from the food habits at home, so it suits Su's father and Su's mother's taste very well. With delicious food, plus Su's father had difficulty eating by himself, and Su's mother needed to help him all the time, so she didn't have extra energy to argue with Su Wei'an, and the atmosphere at the dinner table finally eased up a bit.

Su Wei'an just breathed a sigh of relief. Although her mother was finally willing to let her go for the time being, she might not be able to stay at home tonight. She knew that with her mother's style, as long as Gu Yunzheng left, her mother would definitely have a "good" relationship with her. chat.

But she still underestimated her mother.

After eating most of the meal, my mother pretended to be casual and asked Gu Yunzheng while picking up the vegetables: "What plans do you have for the future? When do you plan to get married?"

Su Weian didn't swallow the food in his mouth, and coughed several times because of choking.

Gu Yunzheng handed her the water and patted her on the back. Seeing that Su Wei'an slowly recovered, Gu Yunzheng turned back and said to Su's mother across the dining table, "I have many plans, but it mainly depends on Wei'an's thoughts."

Mother Su looked at her daughter and asked, "What do you think?"

Su Wei'an avoided his mother's gaze, lowered his head and took another bite of rice, and said, "I don't have any ideas..."

There are many things that cannot be said to my mother. Even if her mother gets angry, even if she is wronged, it is better than letting her parents be sad with her. The news that she carries the disease-causing gene spreads all over the hospital. She is not afraid, as long as her parents don't know, as long as they don't You'll feel sad and blame yourself for it, and that's okay.

Hearing Su Weian's words, Su's mother's surprise and anger were obvious. She looked at Su Weian and didn't even want to say anything. She touched Su's father with her elbow and said, "Old Su, Tell me about your daughter!"

In fact, it was a very slight movement, but Su's father suddenly lost control of his hand, and suddenly dropped the spoon in his hand to the ground.

Su Wei'an and his mother stood up at the same time and wanted to pick up the spoon. Because Su's mother was closer, she picked up the spoon and threw it on the dining table, and took a paper towel to wipe off the rice grains that fell on the ground.

From his father's expression, Su Wei'an could see his embarrassment and self-blame at the moment. When his mother brought him a new spoon and sat back, Su's father smiled at her, but the smile was very shallow. , He said: "Let them decide their children's affairs. Marriage is not necessarily good. Look at you, marry me. You didn't enjoy the blessings when you were young. You still have to pick up for me when you should retire and enjoy the blessings." spoon."

Father Su's words were said with a smile, but after saying this, no one could laugh anymore.

Su Weian can understand her father's mood at this moment, probably only she can truly understand his father's mood, such self-blame, such guilt, such pain and sadness, living in this world like a waste every day, only It will drag others down, and I don't know what the meaning of my existence is.

Su Wei'an was suddenly very grateful for his decision. If you don't get married, stay together if you love each other, separate if you don't love, give up on yourself when you get sick, live a more unrestrained life, and don't become a burden to others.

But at this moment, she heard her mother say: "I help you pick up the spoon because I am willing, and I am willing because you are kind to me. If you don't pick up the spoon, you will not necessarily enjoy happiness, and if you pick up the spoon, you will not necessarily suffer. What is life? , more blessings and less life, it is good to have someone to talk, laugh and make noise with."

Su's mother can naturally hear the self-blame in Su's father's words, but getting sick is neither something he did wrong nor something he can change. What's the point?

But even if her mother was right, Su Weian watched her keep wiping the rice grains off her father's body, and heard her say "it's good", she was still so sad that she wanted to cry.

After dinner, Su Weian finished washing the dishes, and Gu Yunzheng took her away.

Su's mother originally wanted to ask her daughter about her marriage plan, but seeing that Su Wei'an and her mother were about to quarrel again, Gu Yunzheng put Su Wei'an behind her, and comforted Su's mother: "Auntie, who is married?" I will discuss it with Wei An, you leave it to me, don't be angry."

Looking at Gu Yunzheng with a sincere tone in front of her, and then at her disappointing daughter behind Gu Yunzheng, Su's mother couldn't help but hate and said: "I don't care about her affairs, let her die alone!"

The angry words my mother said in a fit of anger didn't care about the seriousness, but the words "lonely and old" really didn't mean much to Su Wei'an, because she was not lonely now, nor would she be old in the future.

Su Wei'an didn't speak.

On the way home, Gu Yunzheng didn't ask any more questions about marriage. He has already said what he can and should say. He understands the reason why she doesn't want to get married. He understands the weight of this reason even more. Stubborn and angry, bored, but he is willing to wait for her.

If he doesn't mention it, Su Wei'an will naturally not mention it either. After all, she is the one who is more afraid of touching the matter of marriage.

After returning home, Su Weian avoided Gu Yunzheng intentionally or unintentionally because he was afraid of talking about the previous topic again, and kept staring at the computer, pretending that he was busy.

The two of them in the small house were eerily quiet, until when they were about to go to sleep, Gu Yunzheng suddenly called her: "It's safe."

She responded, but was inexplicably nervous, because she was afraid that he would ask about the marriage again, so she replied, "Huh?"

Gu Yunzheng leaned over, kissed her lightly on the forehead, and said, "Good night."

The news that Su Wei'an was carrying the Huntington disease-causing gene quickly reached the ears of chief director Wang Huanzhong. When he heard the news, Wang Huanzhong was a little surprised, but felt that it was reasonable.

When Gu Yunzheng proposed to change the direction of the subject, the reason he gave was due to his interest. He quickly saw that it was just Gu Yunzheng's prevarication, and pointed it out: "You are not a person motivated by this kind of interest."

Gu Yunzheng then said: "Because the father of the person I like has Huntington, I want to study this disease for him."

Wang Huanzhong frowned: "Just because your girlfriend's father has an incurable disease, you have to give up your research direction for more than ten years. Is it worth it?"

Wang Huanzhong knew how much Gu Yunzheng had paid to reach today's height, and the next step is professors and experts. Gu Yunzheng has always been rational and restrained, how could he make such an impulsive decision?

Gu Yunzheng said seriously: "I have not been a doctor for as long as you, and my experience and experience are naturally not as deep as yours, but I feel that I can not only do research with the mood of solving puzzles, but also urgently I really want to do something to relieve the pain of the people I care about and all the patients who have the same disease as him, this is in line with the heart of a doctor, and I am very happy that I will have such a change.”

At that time, Gu Yunzheng's words were reasonable. Although he felt that the sudden decision was a pity, but since Gu Yunzheng had made up his mind, he could only respect Gu Yunzheng's own choice, so he agreed, but he also felt that based on his understanding of Gu Yunzheng, the matter Probably more than that.

He felt right.

It is not only Su Wei'an's father who wins Huntington, but also Su Wei'an, and all this makes sense.

The person Gu Yunzheng desperately wanted to help was Su Weian. It was Su Weian who made him feel the pain and helplessness of being a family member of a patient. It was Su Weian who gave him faith and let him enter a new field. Give hope to all patients who have Huntington like her.

This is Gu Yunzheng's decision, and other people have no right to interfere. Frankly speaking, Wang Huanzhong is a little proud of his students. Not everyone can have such courage and responsibility, and more importantly, Gu Yunzheng still has the ability.

As the director of the department, Wang Huanzhong doesn't think it will have much impact if an assistant researcher in the department carries the Huntington's disease-causing gene. Wanted cure.

After the news spread, the hearts of the people in the department were fluctuating and talking about him. He saw and heard it. He didn't say a word, but he was not without attitude.

At the general practice meeting on Tuesday, he directly pointed out Su Weian in front of everyone: "As you have heard, the health status of one of our colleagues has recently caused a lot of discussion and concern, which has affected It's the normal order of our department, since that's the case, let's ask her to talk about it herself, come on, Xiao Su."

The meeting room suddenly fell silent. What the director said at this moment did not reveal his attitude towards this matter, but everyone knew that the director would never be ungrateful. Since he mentioned it at this moment, there must be his intentions.

The director did not talk to Su Wei'an about this matter. Su Wei'an was not prepared for this before, but as the person involved, she did have some ideas. Since the director gave the opportunity, it's good to talk about it.

While everyone was watching, she stood up from the back seat.

Gu Yunzheng thought of her panic and annoyed expression when he accidentally got her genetic test report in Central Africa last time, and couldn't help feeling a little worried. Although she had previously said lightly that she was mentally prepared for the news of her illness to spread, he didn't. To make sure that was her words to comfort him, he wondered if she was really ready to face all this in public.

Because of the difference in identities, their seats were separated by several rows. Gu Yunzheng had no way to ask her, but the anxiety in his heart was very strong. He stood up and tried to interrupt all this: "I don't think this kind of privacy should be discussed in public. question……"

But as soon as he finished his words, Su Wei'an had already calmly admitted to everyone: "As you have heard, my genetic test revealed that I carry the gene that causes Huntington's chorea, and this disease may occur in the 40s. Onset at about 35 years old, maybe 35, so yes, I'm a terminally ill patient."

When everyone heard her say this, most of them breathed a sigh of relief. Since the rumor is true, it is not their rumor and slander. After thinking about it carefully, they couldn't help being speechless. After all, it was Huntington's chorea. This young Su Weian It’s a bit of a pity, but it’s a pity that there are so many patients coming and going in this hospital, a child who was found to have glioma not long after birth, and a child who was suddenly paralyzed in bed due to an unknown reason. Middle-aged people, or elderly people who have abnormal mental behavior after dementia and went out to steal things and were caught, which one does not make people feel emotional? Those of them who are doctors can only sigh twice, so what else?

But Su Wei'an's words are not over: "I used to travel around the world for two years, trying to find the meaning of life, but in the end what I found was my own fear. I was depressed because of this and wanted to escape, but when I looked at When my father and his fellow patients participated in drug trials with unknown risks without hesitation, just for that little hope, I suddenly understood that maybe the meaning of life is to try my best to live well. I want to live, I want to be for myself, To find a chance to survive for my father and all the Huntington patients, so today, I stand here as a medical researcher."

Having said that, her tone became more resolute: "From an objective point of view, I got the position of assistant researcher through a formal assessment. After joining the job, I have completed a cell test, an animal test, and a meeting. Speaking, I think I am qualified for the position; subjectively speaking, there is probably no one in this room, or even the entire circle, who has a stronger desire to work out something, if not cure Huntington , even if it relieves some symptoms, it would be nice, so I think I'm the right person for this job."

She paused for a while, looked around, and in those eyes full of inquiry, she continued: "I appreciate everyone's concern for me, but I don't need sympathy, and I don't want to be criticized for my work for no reason." Doubt. I look forward to discussing professional knowledge with you, and I am also eager to hear your suggestions on our research content, but I don’t want personal matters such as whether I am sick or not to spread like gossip. At least respect, thank you everyone."

After Su Wei'an finished speaking, he bowed, and then sat down calmly facing the silence in the room.

Su Wei'an's long words are hard, soft, soft, and rigid, but after listening to them, everyone can feel that Su Wei'an values ​​this work and is firm in his heart.

She turned out to be such a person!

This is the first time they have examined Su Weian so seriously.

Although Su Wei'an had been in the department during her postgraduate studies, but the time was not long, and she was a small student. Everyone didn't know her well. Later, she dropped out and He Xiaoguang's thesis was published. Most of them learned from He Xiaoguang. From the description of Su Weian and Wen Ran, and later when Su Weian came to this department, most of them regarded Su Weian as Gu Yunzheng's subordinate, and never thought about what Su Weian could do and what he could do. Until today, they had an intuitive understanding of Su Weian for the first time, and they seemed to suddenly understand why Gu Yunzheng chose Su Weian.

Since entering the department for so long, she has never been able to really integrate into this department. She does not cater to and should not be compatible, not because of arrogance, but because of her firm heart. What she wants to accomplish in the rest of her life, her thoughts and her beliefs may not be felt by those of them who are struggling with life for a long time.

If the probability of suffering from Huntington's chorea is the same as being struck by lightning, then the probability of developing a cure for Huntington's disease is probably lower than being struck by lightning. Sometimes, it is also worthy of being respected.

Gu Yunzheng breathed a sigh of relief.

Seeing that she was really not affected by other people's comments and speculations, Gu Yunzheng was finally relieved, and what made him even more happy was that he saw her perseverance in scientific research and life, even though she knew that there was little hope. , but when there is still a chance, I will do my best.

At this moment, he was extremely proud.

In the silence, Wang Huanzhong, the director of the department, said: "During the interview for Xiaosu, I felt her special enthusiasm for the research of Huntington's chorea, but I didn't know the story until today. I also look forward to what genetics will affect her ability to work, and she can finally turn this story into a legend!"

At this point, Wang Huanzhong glanced at the people present, and there was a brief pause. Then he closed the notebook in front of him, stood up, and said, "This is the end of today's meeting. The meeting is adjourned."