Chapter 192 - I didn't know about it

"Where is she? Where is Anna? I don't believe you. She won't resign like that. She promised she was going to be with me for a very long time. She said she won't leave me alone" The Changyu who just turned twenty years old on her delivery day cried her eyes out as she wheeled the wheelchair around with the little energy she had left. 

"Changyu. Come to your senses!" Her father yelled angrily at her.

"Why would she stay with you forever..why? I already told you. Someone new and better is coming tomorrow. You just have to recuperate for now. If need be, we'll send you abroad. We really want the best for you so you'll start your life afresh. It's what you deserve" 

"It's true Changyu. We really care about you and will do anything for you" Her mother stood in front of her to let her know how they truly felt about her. "You just have to move on now. You have a golden life ahead of you. We'll help you reach it. Trust your parents"

Changyu looked at the both of them with dark and angry eyes. She didn't have the energy to keep wheeling about. She was so weak and felt like she had no life in her. 

"Where is my baby? Wh..y? Why did you do that? I didn't even see him, I didn't hold him... How could you do this to me?" She broke down in tears again. She had to accept it even if she didn't want to. Her baby was gone. Gone forever! 

"Why did you do this to me? Please bring my baby back. I...I.will do any...thing you ask me to. I'll...I...will marry whoever y..ou want me to. Just... bring back my boy.... I beg... of you" She begged desperately. She begged with all her might but, they only handed her....her baby's ash.

"Changyu... Changyu?" She heard someone call her. She recognised the voice. She knew very well who the voice belonged to. It was Jianjun Wang. The one who caused her all these pain.

She wouldn't say he used her and dumped her because she was the one who threw herself freely at someone she had barely known for two months before she went to bed with him.

She had even purposely made him drunk because she knew he was never going to agree to that wish if he was sober. She thought if she got pregnant for him, her family would let them both be and agree for them to get married but who would have thought..... 

She still didn't want to blame him for anything. It had all been her fault from the very beginning.

'Why is he here? Why is he appearing in my dream all of a sudden?' She wondered.

For the past 26 years, she had shut him out of her memory. Shut him and his entire family out. But why was he here all of a sudden?

"Changyu...please...wake up" She heard his pleading voice and gradually opened her eyes. 

She tried to focus on the figure hovering above her on her queen-size bed. But she was still half-awake and half-asleep. She cried loudly at the loss of her baby and nanny. In her dream, Jianjun was hugging her as she cried. She was in his embrace and could smell him like he was right there with her.

"How did my life turn this way? What did I do to deserve this?" She said in a low voice and cried loudly, wrapping her hands around the man she hated so much. 

"It's fine. Wake up." She heard the deep voice say and felt his big hands tap her by the side soothingly. "Wake up Changyu.... Please" 

She suddenly shot-out of dream mode and was fully conscious now. She gasped for air while in someone's embrace.

It felt uncomfortable because she was lying down on the bed while the person was standing at the side of the bad and crouched to hug her.

Gently, the person pulled out of the hug and his face came into focus. 'It is him. It is really him....or....am I dreaming?' She wondered as her squinted eyes began to widen further.

"Bro...ther...jun?" She asked in a hoarse and unsure voice. 

"Are you okay? Do you still feel sick somewhere?" He asked in worry.

"Why are you here?" She tried to get up so he gently helped her up.

"You should be in the hospital." He said pointedly. 

"Why are you here?" She asked again.

"The doctor left a few minutes back. According to him, you'll be fine. You only need to rest for a while. Here..." He handed her a glass of water that he just poured. 

She looked at the tall man with black hair that was wearing a navy blue polo shirt and plain black trousers. To her, his looks didn't change much. 'But....did he grow taller or did I become shorter?' She wondered before gulping down the glass of water.

She remembered what happened. After collapsing and Hani came in, she had specifically reminded her with her last strength "No hospital"

She didn't want to go back there. She hated the hospital with passion. The past years, she had refused to visit the hospital no matter what happened. She had only visited the last time because she had collapsed in front of the Wangs and they had sent her there unknowingly. 

"Where is Hani?" Since he didn't want to tell her how he came in here, Hani was going to have the answer. She also had other jobs for Hani to take care of.

"She's out. She went to get some items the doctor recommended. She'll also bring you something to eat."

'It's the first long conversation we're having in years' Changyu thought.

She hoped she hadn't said anything about her baby while she was half conscious. 

He had told her he wasn't interested and she had sent him a letter that she was going to get rid of the baby. If he knew now that she kept the child then and he was probably alive, Jianjun might blow up especially now that he had a grown up daughter.

She was so excited at the thought of her son being alive. She was excited and anxious at the same time. But...what if he wasn't? 

She tried to take out the IV cannula from her hand but he stopped her.

"What do you think you are doing?" He asked harshly. 

"There is somewhere I need to go to. I'll be—"

She suddenly became conscious of her hands in his. She looked down at both their hands and unconsciously, tears began to form in her eyes. 

She raised her head to look at him and saw his other hand midair as if he was trying to place his hand of her head before she lifted her face. 

He sighed and withdrew his hand. "You should rest. You can do that later. But you should rest now" He said in a gentle tone. 

He was about pulling his hand away from hers but she held it firmly with both hands. 

"I... I had no idea my parents did all of that to your family" 

She felt tears slide down her face.

As much as she wanted to know about her child, she wanted to apologize more. "I am... so sorry Brother Jun... I... I really didn't know about it" 

She let go of his hands and used both hands to cover her face as she cried and apologized.