Chapter 458 I want to see him
Ari had said so many things to him that she so much regretted now, and she wished she could go back in time. She remembered the look on his face that day; she had hurt him; terribly.
Ari did not know how to feel; she could barely breathe as tears fell from her eyes; as she cried, she remembered the rumor she heard earlier that day. Had had already forgotten about her?
Ari felt a stinging pain in her heart at the thought that Xavier no longer loved her. She shook her head in denial, not wanting to believe any word of it. Even if it was true, she was going to tell him she loved him, too. There was no way he did not love her anymore. He couldn't have forgotten about her so easily?
She didn't even bother to park her car when she arrived at Xavier's place. Jumping out of the car, she raced to his front door.
Without a second thought, she banged on the door; after some seconds, she remembered to use the doorbell.
Ari tried to contain her tears, but they flowed freely, without restraint. The second the door opened; she cried;
''Xavier, I'm so sorry…'' Ari's words cut short when she saw the person who had opened the door;
A middle-aged man in his late forties, Ari was surprised, and she gulped;
''I'm sorry… Is Xavier home?'' she asked, surprised to see the strange man. This was the first time she was seeing another person open his door.
''Xavier? Is that the former owner of this house?'' the man asked, a little confused at the crying lady who just barged into his property.
Ari couldn't quite understand as she stared at the man in shock;
''Oh, I just moved into this house over the weekend. I didn't meet the former owner, but I guess he is the one you are looking for. I'm sorry, but he no longer lives here.''
It took Ari a few seconds to come to herself and she apologized to the man before walking back to her car quietly. When she got to her car, she bawled her eyes out. It seems he meant it when he said he would not chase her anymore.
Ari cried for God knows how long, before she summoned the strength to call Xavier. His phone rang a few times, but he did not pick up the call. Her head dropped on her steering wheel and she cried some more. She should have given him a chance when he asked for it.
She should have trusted him. She should have…
So many wishes, but Ari couldn't go back in time to amend her wrongs. After a while, she called Zac.
''Hey, Ari…''
''Zac… '' Zac was surprised when he heard her muffled cries; ''what's wrong?''
''Zac, Xavier is no longer here,'' she said amidst cries.
Zac did not understand what she meant, so he asked; ''Where? He's no longer where?''
''He doesn't live here anymore. Someone else has bought the house.''
''Oh… Sorry, I thought you knew. Yeah, he's moved back to his house. The movie finished shooting a while ago. I thought you knew. It's been over a week. ''
Ari cried when she heard him. Now that explained why she hadn't seen his car in the garage. And the new neighbors must have moved in when she was at work. That was why she did not see them move in.
''Do you know where he stays? Can you take me to his house? Please… I just need to talk to him, please…''
Zac was quiet for a second; ''Where are you at the moment?''
In about thirty minutes, Zac pulled up in front of Ari's house. Ari stepped out of her car when she saw him. She had wiped her face, but she knew it was still obvious she had cried a lot.
Thankfully, Zac did not comment on it. He just opened the passenger's seat for her.
''I'll have to take you because you cannot go into this estate without a pass or an invitation, and thankfully I have a pass. ''
Zac said as he drove to Xavier's house. Ari was quiet through the ride, as her mind wondered if Xavier would want to see her. What if he shut the door on her face?
What if he was with another woman?
Ari thought a thousand things, but she knew she needed to tell him how she felt. It would kill her more if she didn't tell him than any outcome meeting him would bring.
Her heart raced faster when she approached the gates of the estate. Ari could not believe Xavier left this mansion to come to live in that house across from hers. Not as though it was bad, but there was an enormous difference.
As Zac drove in, she realized they were truly worlds apart. Xavier was not someone she should even dare to be with, and at that moment she felt so low.
All the courage she had mustered to come there dissipated. He was so high up, somewhere she shouldn't even dare reach.
''We're here. '' Zac said as he stopped the car and turned to look at Ari, who had her head bowed.
''What's wrong? '' he asked when he saw she was not moving, just staring at her thighs.
''Ari…'' Zac called and Ari shook her head;
''I'm sorry, can you take me back?''
Zac frowned; ''why? You've come all the way.''
''I don't think he would want to see me. Xavier…'' she paused; ''we're so different, worlds apart, he's so high up, and I'm just a mere cashier. How can I even think of wanting him?''
She laughed at her miserable self. And Zac sighed;
''Who said he does not want to see you? He must have missed you as much as you do. You can never tell until you see him. You've come all the way. Do you just want to turn back? Besides, what harm will it do? What is the worst that can happen that is worse than the state you are in right now?''